Zhang Yixing Lu Han blossomed

This summer, the sun is plentiful, but I can't find any warmth. Lu Han is gone, how many days has it been?I don't remember, I was in a daze, as if something was missing in my life, why he left so hurriedly and didn't give me a chance, why when I wanted to face everything, it was too late.

It's all because of Yin Xiaohan.I know, but so what.When my mother told me that Yin Xiaohan was back, I was a little shocked. After all, I... have feelings for Yin Xiaohan.

Boys always have an attachment to their first love, and Yin Xiaohan is also a very special existence to me.Regarding her return, I'm not sure how I feel, I'm looking forward to it, but I'm also a little scared.So I was very confused, and even a little timid when facing Luhan. Yin Xiaohan's return was a great temptation for me, because I missed the care Yin Xiaohan gave me when I was in junior high school. , caring, and that feeling of being valued.Yin Xiaohan stayed with me for a long time and taught me a lot.I don't need to worry about many things to help me deal with them. I am also used to listening to her opinions and words, as if there is magic.And her gentleness is very nostalgic.

But I already have Luhan now, I know I like Luhan very much, but I don’t know how to face Yin Xiaohan, when she left, she said she would come back to find me, but now that she’s back, I’m with Luhan Alright, that's my slip of the tongue.What should I do if she comes back.I thought she was gone, I thought she wouldn't come back, so I let go of myself and fell in love with Luhan, and I liked it with all my heart.Changing myself to take care of him is because I really really like him.

I like Luhan, I cannot deny this, this is a fact, I am willing to change myself for Luhan.Do anything I thought I couldn't do, Yin Xiaohan and Luhan are two different feelings for me, I don't know who I am obsessed with right now.

When Yin Xiaohan came to see me, I was really surprised. She is more beautiful than before, she is still so gentle, and I still have the same feeling.She said she wanted to get back together, she said, she was gone for so long, and she still misses me every day, so she came back, she came back to find me.

For me, Yin Xiaohan has always been a knot, a knot that has not been untied. When she left, it actually had a great impact on me. Now that she is back, I suddenly miss the kindness he gave me even more. I feel, that attachment is coming out.

What I didn't expect was that Yin Xiaohan knew about Luhan and I.I thought of it, Nianxi should have told her.The day Xiaohan came to see me, she told me a lot. She said that she always missed me, and that I always had a very important place in her heart. Before she left, she said that she would come back to find me. She didn’t mind if I didn’t wait for her. , she said she knew about Luhan and I, she said she didn't believe that I really fell in love with a man.She said that I was just curious about Luhan in my adolescence, not a real relationship. She said that this kind of thing is very normal among high school students of my age, but it is unlikely to last for a long time. I What I have to do is to be with girls, so that I can give an explanation to the family and the public.

But what does those things have to do with me? I only like Luhan.But it seems that it is the kind of habit that I have developed from the past, always caring and listening to her ideas, so I am a little confused.Want to resist, but there is a sense of powerless oppression.

Yin Xiaohan said, if I really choose to continue being with Luhan, she will not allow it, she says I am degenerate, that is not the way I should go, she said, if, Luhan and I want to continue being together, Then, she will go to Lu Han's house and tell his family everything about us.

I don't know why, but I suddenly started to have inexplicable resistance to such Yin Xiaohan.Time can change a lot, I can fall in love with Lu Han, then she may become someone I don't know.

I know I like Luhan, but I don't know how I feel about Yin Xiaohan now, I still like her, after all, she was my first love, someone who was very important to me.But now, she denies my feelings for Lu Han so much, I really feel disgusted.Even though I didn't wait for her to come back as promised, the feeling of being denied my sincere feelings really made me uncomfortable.

Yin Xiaohan's words made me very tangled and confused.Confused about my feelings for Yin Xiaohan, and also confused about the result between me and Lu Han.If Yin Xiaohan really went to tell Lu Han’s family about our relationship, what would happen to us? I thought about being together forever, but I didn’t think about having a showdown with my family right now.

Luhan said that he has already become an unfilial son for me. If Yin Xiaohan goes like this, he will just irritate his parents again. Then what will we do in the future? There will be no chance at all.

I want to find Luhan, I want to talk to Luhan, I want to explain to Luhan.But Yin Xiaohan didn't allow it.She asked me to cut off contact with Lu Han.Ask me not to tell Luhan anything.Otherwise, both my parents and Luhan's parents will know about this matter. If my Luhan's parents know, the chances of the two of us being together are very slim, and, for Luhan, there must be Stress, Lu Han's character, if he is determined, he will not change it, and he will definitely make trouble at home.And if my parents knew, the impact on Lu Han would probably be even greater. My mother is the director of the Education Bureau. Changing the fate of a student is simply too simple for her. Lu Han has the same personality as that child.He certainly can't bear it.

So, I can only choose to compromise.

I kept avoiding Luhan until the day he told me to break up. Seeing him, my heart was so painful that it almost broke. That is my Luhan, the Luhan I care about the most.He told me to break up, he was very sad, he was very sad, he was completely hurt, he said he was going to leave me, but I couldn't do anything but say sorry to him, I couldn't be with him , can only choose to let go.But, for now, I really only have this way to make him better. I know, this is cruel to him, but I really don't want her to be forced by my parents so that she can't go to school.Even if he doesn't care, there's no way I don't care.He is such an innocent child, he needs to be taken care of and protected by others, not...

I'm sorry for Luhan, I remember what Luhan said to me when he was with me.When Lu Han said to me, please go, I really wanted to hug him, but even so, what else could I do.At the beginning, we agreed to bear everything together, but Luhan, my Luhan, I love you, there are certain things that I don’t want you to bear.

I took half a month off.I avoid Luhan, I'm afraid I can't help but look for him.I'm afraid I can't help but hurt him.That's Luhan who I've always felt sorry for.Yin Xiaohan has been with me as before.Still give me that kind of tenderness, that kind of care, that kind of stability.But I always feel like something is missing.

For Yin Xiaohan's birthday, she asked me to call my friends in the dormitory, and Luhan, I don't know what she wants to do.But her tone made me undeniable, she was threatening me, but didn't she realize that, the more threatening she was, the deeper my feelings for Lu Han would be reflected.

I opened Luhan's gift, and I didn't give it to Yin Xiaohan. It was the key to our two homes. I kept this. I never recognized Yin Xiaohan as the owner of this home. Apart from me, there is only Luhan.

Yin Xiaohan's actions made me feel uncomfortable.Even if I was used to picking up vegetables before, but in front of Lu Han, I really resisted this feeling.And I always unconsciously want to give Luhan... taking care of Luhan, it has become my habit.

Luhan’s cousin is here, Luhan asked for leave and went home, I miss him very much, I really miss him, because I haven’t seen him for a long time, and finally saw him, but he went home, and he never came back again I went back to the dormitory, but lived with my cousin.

Seeing Lu Han's cousin taking care of him, I felt a strange anger.That feeling made me feel uncomfortable all over.Luhan is mine, and it can only be mine.It seems like I'm used to Wu Yifan taking care of Lu Han, but suddenly such an outstanding person appears next to Lu Han, that kind of strong feeling.It makes me both envious and powerless.My identity can no longer stand beside Luhan.

Actually, during the days when I was separated from Luhan, I thought a lot, but I didn't know what to do, I didn't want to go on like this, Luhan was in my heart, not Yin Xiaohan.The feeling Yin Xiaohan gave me has long since changed, and what I feel for him may not be affection at all.But treat her like a sister.

I talked to Yin Xiaohan, but she completely refuted it. I hate this feeling of being suppressed.It leaves me so powerless that I can't do anything.I don't even know how to fight for it. .

At the end of the final exam, I saw Lu Han packing his luggage, I knew he was on the run, now he was hiding from me, I wanted to catch him.But what qualifications do I have.

I drank a lot that day and thought a lot, so I was not reconciled.If there is no Luhan, what do I want after all, Yin Xiaohan is not what I want.The only one I want, the one who wants to be together forever, is Luhan. Even if Yin Xiaohan was close to me at the beginning, it was only in the past. He can't give me the feeling of Luhan.I'm used to taking care of him.I'm used to being told by him, I'm used to his petty temper, I'm used to his petty temper, little tsundere, that's my Luhan, not this woman who always thinks about looking at me and controlling me .He is not Luhan, she is not what I want.

I don't see Luhan every day, every expression of his is in my mind, and I can't shake it off.After thinking for a long time, I finally decided, I have to go to Yin Xiaohan and make it clear, I don’t need her to treat me like this, she is not what I want, even if she will tell Lu Han’s family, I don’t care, I’ve already made up my mind , go directly to Lu Han’s house, instead of letting her talk, it’s better for me to talk about it myself.This feeling of not being able to be with Luhan almost drives me crazy.

Yin Xiaohan and I made an appointment at our middle school to eat fried rice together for the last time.

I told Yin Xiaohan, I like Luhan, it is impossible to change things.Even if the family finds out, it will be a matter of time, if she wants to say it, then she can say it, if I have been so cowardly, I will not be able to protect Luhan for the rest of my life.Instead of this, it is better to fight for it.I can't think of a better way, I can only do this, I want to find Lu Han, I want to be with Lu Han.Even if it is not accepted or allowed, what I like is Luhan, it has nothing to do with other people.

When I stood at the door of Lu Han's house, the original nervousness disappeared.

When I went in calmly and wanted to explain clearly to Luhan first, I found that Luhan was gone, really gone...

After finally calming down, I told Luhan's parents about the matter between me and Luhan.I said it from the beginning to the end, I dare not look at their expressions, I just said firmly, I like Luhan, I love Luhan, I want to be with Luhan for the rest of my life, even if he is gone, I will wait for him to come back, I will Work hard, let you accept me, I will take good care of Luhan, I will do my best to protect Luhan...

I don't know how I left Lu Han's house, but what is certain is that Lu Han is gone, really gone, he said, if he is really hurt, let me leave his world, why , he left, obviously I was wrong.I am not good, I am not capable, I am sorry for Luhan.

If this is my punishment, then I accept it, Luhan, I will wait for your return.I will let my parents and your parents agree that the two of us will be together. During the time you are gone, give these to me, and then when you come back, we will be together for a lifetime, okay?Luhan, my Luhan.

Yin Xiaohan is gone, I don’t know where she is, she didn’t tell me, and I don’t need to look for her, I can’t give her happiness, I can’t give her what she wants, everything I have promised to Luhan, in fact In the end, I did not wait for Yin Xiaohan, but emotional matters cannot be forced after all.I don't blame him for forcing me and Lu Han like this, maybe, if it wasn't for her, I wouldn't be able to face up to everything I need to face.Even though Yin Xiaohan is doing it for her own sake, I know he is doing it for my own good.It's just that such a method makes me unable to understand and accept it.

In the dim afternoon, the sun was weak, and the light scattered on the face.That gentle touch is like Luhan.The sunshine of my life.Luhan.Do you know that I miss you very much, do you know that I love you, I can't find you, so I wait for you.I'll wait for you to come back, okay?Always, always, always, waiting for you to come back, okay?No one else, no hindrances, no bad things happen, just me and you, just me and you, always together.

Luhan, I love you.Luhan, I'll wait for you.