Zhang Yixing Lu Han blossomed

Originally, I planned to go to Zhang Yixing's house early, but after thinking about it, I decided to take a good rest.Always feel.Now thinking seems to have really regressed.

Back at home, fell on the bed.It's really bad to feel empty around you.It will be a long time before Zhang Yixing comes back.After much deliberation.I didn't even think about why Zhang Yixing and I developed into this inexplicably.Thinking, if the relationship between the two of us hadn't gone this way, what would have happened.

These three years, whether it is a test or a punishment for the two of us.Why people are different.Why is the emotional bearing different? Chanyeol and Baek Hyun can be blessed by the family, and Fanfan and Tao Tao can also be understood by the family. Why did Zhang Yixing and I have to walk so many roads and encounter so many ups and downs.Fate is not fair, and it makes people unable to fight.

When I was with a few of them, I calmed my mind and didn't think about Zhang Yixing. Even if I mentioned it, I still acted indifferently. In fact, how much I miss him, who knows.Did I grow up, or did I grow too much.

I would think that Zhang Yixing and I have known each other for almost five years now.Isn't it enough to go back and forth like this?When Zhang Yixing comes back, whether his parents will be able to truly accept the two of us, and whether the two of us will be able to live smoothly in the future is all unknown, I don't know anything.

This kind of unknown, unknown fear, and Zhang Yixing's loneliness and emptiness when he is no longer around, make the air pressure lower and lower.When I'm alone, I can't even bear it.Try hard to pretend to be happy, try hard to get back that heartless and heartless character.However, when a person will be beaten back to the original shape.

I can't help myself not to think about it.There is no way not to think about Zhang Yixing, no way not to face the future.Regarding the matter of going to Zhang Yixing's house, it's not so much that I don't know what to do when I go.Rather, I'm terrified of what I'm going to face.Zhang Yixing is not here, I am cowardly.I was afraid that Zhang Yixing's parents would not accept me.I am afraid that they will boycott me, I am afraid that if I do something wrong, they will make Zhang Yixing stay in the United States forever and never come back.

It's as if I want to work hard, but I want to struggle but I have no direction.Knowing that the exit of the maze may be ahead, but afraid that he will fall into another abyss.

People are often so insignificant, I am like this, and Zhang Yixing is like this, so the two of us can only be separated for three years without any resistance.I said that I want to go to the United States to find him, but can I really go if I want to?Although I didn't say before that I couldn't go to the US to find him, and I didn't say that Zhang Yixing couldn't come back from the US.But if I do go, that, okay?There are too many uncertainties in the future.Make me useless.Waiting aimlessly, torturing myself.

time.Wonderful and scary.Looking at Zhang Yixing's smiling face on the bedside table.Poke it down with your hand, it is the cold touch of the frame.That's not Zhang Yixing.Not even his shadow.Close your eyes and think back.But found out.It seems that I can't remember anything.When did Zhang Yixing and I meet, when were we together, and when were we separated.When will we meet again, and when will we reconcile as before.When did we fall in love until we were separated.It's frightening that the mind seems blank.

Powerless, still powerless.What should I do, Zhang Yixing, can you tell me.I miss you so much.Zhang Yixing.what to do.what to do.what to do….

After making up my mind, I still decided to go to Zhang Yixing's house. What should be done is always to be done.What should be faced is always to be faced.

When I packed up my things and went to Zhang Yixing's house, to be honest, I was still a little nervous. Although I had been here more than once before, this time I always felt different.after all.Now Zhang Yixing is no longer by my side, the purpose and significance of my coming here.It seems that I don't know it myself.

Knock knock.Zhang Yixing's mother who opened the door was taken aback when she saw it.

I smiled "Hi Auntie"

"Okay~ come in." Zhang's mother froze for a moment and said with a smile.

I nodded and entered the house.In fact, Zhang's mother's attitude was beyond my expectation.Although it would definitely not be a cold stare, but I never thought that it would be a smile to let me in.

When I entered the house, Dad Zhang was there, and I greeted him.Give the things in your hand to mother Zhang.I just found.It turned out that besides Zhang's father and Zhang's mother, there was another person, and I didn't expect it at all.

"Luhan? You're here." Fang Xingjin greeted me with a smile.

I nodded, "Well. Yes." In this situation, what should I say? ? ? ?

"Then Uncle, Aunt, Lu Han is here, I will leave first, and I will come to see you some other day." Fang Xingjin said.

"Okay, come and play if you have nothing to do. Yixing is not here, and we haven't seen you for a long time. Remember to take care of your parents." Father Zhang got up and patted Fang Xingjin on the shoulder.

"Well, I will. Then I'll go first~ Lu Han, I'll go, call another day." After finishing speaking, he went out.

"Lu Han, why do you think you came today." Father Zhang said while sitting on the sofa, without expression or tone.Suddenly I was a little at a loss as to what to do.

"Actually, I wanted to come here a long time ago. But I never knew how to define myself. Or maybe I couldn't find a suitable position." I said seriously.

"Then have you thought about your definition and the position you think is suitable this time?" Dad Zhang said after taking a sip of tea.There is still no tone.

"I didn't think about it, maybe I found out after I came here. I thought about it for a long time. Yixing is not here. In fact, I should have come to take care of you. But I didn't come. It's already my fault. Although you don't need it, I do. It is necessary. Or yes. You should come, because you are Yixing’s parents. Just like my parents.” After a pause, feeling their eyes on me, I continued, “Actually, I heard Yin Xiaohan say, Yixing hasn’t called home since he left for America.”

I noticed that after I said this sentence, the eyes of the two old people obviously changed.His complexion is also very bad.

I went on to say, "Actually, for Yixing, parents are always parents. They are always very important. If it weren't for this, he would not have agreed to go to the United States for three years. We were separated for two years. These three years, for the two of us No one knows better than the two of us. The reason why we agreed is because you set this condition. Because you are parents. I don’t know if you accept us sincerely after three years. But at least the two of us have worked hard and proved it. I believe you will understand." After I finished speaking, I looked at the two old people opposite.His complexion is still not very good.Probably because of Yixing.

"Lu Han. Actually, it's not that we two old ones want to embarrass you. You know the actual situation of our family. With this status, how could it be possible for Yixing to be gay. Do you understand?" Mama Zhang sighed In a calm tone, he continued, "You are a good boy, and you are also a smart boy. We know what it means for Yixing not to call us. It's not just awkward. It's also resentment. Since Yixing was young, the two of us My work has been very busy. I have very little time to take care of Yixing. We know that we are sorry for Yixing, but work is work, and there is no way. When he grows up, we want to make up for it, but we don’t know. Where should I start. Yixing has grown up and has his own ideas. Do what he wants to do. As long as it is not out of line, both of us will support it. But this matter is unusual. Apart from our family factors, other people What do you think of Yixing? How will he be viewed by others in the future. Yixing is our son. We can't let him go."

I nodded, "I understand that. My own son, everyone will feel sorry for him, and he will think about him. But uncles and aunts. You love Yixing. I am the same. The same sentence. My love for Yixing, Absolutely no less than you. I understand your thoughts. But these are just your own thoughts. Although I may feel that I am disrespectful to you when I say this. But the fact is that what Yixing wants is to be with me, just That's all. And I am the same. If you love, you are in love. There is no right or wrong. How can you care about what other people think."

"If you say that, how can you say that this is not your own idea. As parents, what we do is for the benefit of our own children. Let Yixing go to the United States for three years. It is just delaying time, just trying to get you and Yixing is leaving. Do you understand?" Putting down the teacup, Zhang's father said seriously.

I lowered my head, thought about it, and spoke really straightforwardly. I raised my head and looked at them with a smile and said, "Before Yixing left, the two of us knew that if Yixing and I dared to agree, it was considered a bet. The bet is the future. I believe you will agree. I think, Yixing should have called home. You hope that Yixing will live well, the same way. Yixing also hopes that you will live well. This is a kind of feeling. It cannot be destroyed. Family affection is like this. Love is the foundation of family affection. It is only deep but not superficial."

"Hahaha, what a Luhan." Dad Zhang said with a sudden smile.

I also laughed, "It's only been a year now. I miss Zhang Yixing very much, and I believe you all miss Yixing very much. While I am waiting, why not you are waiting. Yixing is not here, let me take care of you. No matter what Whether you refuse or agree. The right to execute is in my hands."

"If after you have done everything you can, your aunt and I still disagree with you being with Yixing. What will you do?" Dad Zhang suddenly asked seriously.

"Agreement or not is your business. The right to execute is in the hands of me and Yixing. We will take good care of you. Again, the right of execution is in the hands of me and Yixing, regardless of whether you agree or not. Parents will always be with you. Parents." I replied.

Father Zhang nodded, thought for a while and said, "Let's have dinner here. Let auntie cook some good dishes, can I have a drink?"

I nodded, "If you don't drink, you're not a man."

"Then stay and have a few drinks with uncle." Father Zhang said with a smile.

I nodded, "Okay. Or I can play chess with you again."

"Okay, Lu Han, you play chess with your uncle, and I'll go prepare dinner." Mama Zhang got up.

"I'm sorry, Auntie."