Zhang Yixing Lu Han blossomed

I returned to my room with the file bag, threw myself on the bed, looked at the photo of me and Yixing on the bedside table, and suddenly became very confused.I don't know what my choice is, should I go to Yixing, I want to ask Yixing why he didn't contact me during this period, why he avoided me, is it true that he insisted on not Go down and want to separate.But I was also afraid, afraid that it would really be the result of separation. I was afraid that he fell in love with someone else in the United States. I was afraid that there was a better person by his side, so I didn't even have the courage to fight for it.

Yes, I admit, I wanted to go to him a long time ago, but there was a three-year agreement there.There is also my trust in Zhang Yixing, but now.The three-year agreement no longer exists, so, is the trust still there?Why did Zhang Yixing do this, why did he beat me to break the trust between us.

Three years ago, I agreed to this agreement at the beginning because I believed that Zhang Yixing and I could make it through, and I swore to agree, hoping that after three years, we could be truly and simply together with Yixing.But what about the result.What kind of result is this.What Zhang Yixing did broke my thinking.I can't even believe it anymore.Is there a future between us?

Pick up a photo.Looking at Zhang Yixing, "Zhang Yixing, should I go to you."

Picking up the phone, I wanted to get through again and again, but it was the same as before.No one answered until it was shown that the other party was turned off.Zhang Yixing.You are pushing me.

In the end, I got up to pack my luggage and went to find Zhang Yixing.No matter what the result is, sooner or later, I have to face it. Long-term pain is worse than short-term pain. If I knew it earlier, I would be relieved sooner, right?Just Zhang Yixing.If, if there is really no future between the two of us, I will hate you.Hate you till death.I love you so much.I will hate you so much.

I haven't gone out since I got back to the room, and I've been lying on the bed in a daze since I packed my luggage.No one came up to call me.It was getting dark, and the room was very dark, but I didn't turn on the light.This feeling of loneliness.It seemed to fill my brain more intensely than ever.Leave no gaps.The name Zhang Yixing seems to have run through my whole world.I want to go to him.Give yourself an explanation.I don't want to wait like this aimlessly.

If I get along with me in the past, I will get through the rest of the year.But now, I can't wait, I can't stand it.No news from him, no voice from him.It was too much of an ordeal for me not to even see his vivid impact.Which ticket has become extremely tempting.

I'm going to find him, no matter what the outcome is, I'm going to find him.Big deal, big deal.I don't want anything.I don't know what will happen if I really lose Zhang Yixing.Won't it crash?Or... Thinking about it like this, I don't even know when I fell asleep.

From waking up, to tidying myself up to heading out with my luggage.All the way to the airport.Then get on the plane.I seem to be all blank.I'm even a little confused as to what I'm doing.

Even a piece of confusion in the brain.I have never thought about what the result will be when I leave this time.I dare not think about it.The worst thing I can do is to break up with Yixing and come back alone.Then I didn't think about it again, I couldn't figure it out.Never thought about it either.

When the plane took off, I suddenly found that I had a little bit of regret.I'm afraid, if it is really the result of separation, what should I do.Could it be that if I hadn't gone to the United States and gone to him, I would have separated from him later.Could it be that if I hadn't gone to America, I could still pretend to be with Yixing without knowing anything.Even without contact.Even if he doesn't look for me, at least the two of us are still in the name of being together.What if you don’t even have this, what if you really lose Zhang Yixing.The crazy thought even made me want to go home for a second.

However, the decision must be made.How can I change it.That's the only way, that's the only way.I can't do anything.These hours on the plane seem to be the most difficult period of my life.Hope, fear, loss.Tangled.confused.Fantasy, the whole brain is a mess.I don't even know what I'm trying to write myself.

Holding Zhang Yixing's photos and looking at them one by one, I felt that if I didn't take a look, I would almost forget what he looked like.Is it too long?Time can change so much.Can it change my relationship with Zhang Yixing? Is this suffering a test?

When the plane landed, I didn't even dare to go down. I really hated being so cowardly, but there was no way to change this kind of thinking.I want to hide.I asked myself if I should buy a return ticket to go back.Then I celebrated the New Year with my parents and Yixing's parents, and then pretended not to know anything and waited for Zhang Yixing, just kept waiting.

Get out of the airport.Looking at strange streets, strange crowds, listening to strange languages, an unprecedented sense of loneliness oppresses the nerves.I know that I came to find Yixing, but now, I don't know what I should do.Breathing the air of the same country as Zhang Yixing, I seem to have felt his breath.Wanting to get close, but daring to refuse, is inexplicably afraid.

I closed my eyes and had a final thought struggle, should I go to Yixing, or should I really escape like I thought and go back to China directly.Pretending to know nothing and waiting for the result.I know it's cowardly, but it's also the best way to stall for time without the worst in mind.

"Lu Han." Zhang Yixing's voice called me.I smiled.It should be an illusion.How could he be here.

"Luhan." Zhang Yixing's voice was still smiling.I open my eyes.I froze for a moment.

"Luhan, I miss you, you are finally here." Zhang Yixing's voice was getting closer.

"Lu Han, I finally saw you. I miss you so much, I'm going crazy." Zhang Yixing's excited voice was right behind me.Following the sound, a pair of hands hugged me from behind.It's Zhang Yixing's breath.I will never admit my mistake.It's Zhang Yixing.

I didn't look back, I couldn't even control myself and started shaking.Not excited, not happy, but angry.

Zhang Yixing is fine, Zhang Yixing said he misses me, Zhang Yixing is right behind me, Zhang Yixing knows that I will come to the United States to look for him today, Zhang Yixing even knows what time my plane leaves.If I still don't understand what's going on, I'm really an idiot.

I suddenly had a feeling of relief to the point of collapse.Everything is arranged, I have been thinking wildly by myself all the time, Zhang Yixing is fine, he did not contact me on purpose, it made me confused, entangled, painful, sad, and It's about to break down, and it's all on purpose.It's all what they want.As for myself, I have been suffering alone to bear the idea that Zhang Yixing might leave me, and I have been alone to bear the entanglement and sadness of not being able to contact Zhang Yixing, not being able to feel Zhang Yixing's existence, I have always thought about it, I am afraid The peace of mind that cannot be found in groping.I have always been played around like a fool, and I was self-righteous and didn't want them to worry.

In an instant, the feeling of being deceived, the grievance, the sadness, and the powerlessness all came back together and melted into his mind.Let me collapse, the collapse wants to explode.How could Zhang Yixing treat me like this! ! !

I didn't look back, didn't speak, I just broke free from Zhang Yixing's embrace.The only thought in my mind is, I want to go back to my country, I want to go.

Zhang Yixing is right behind me now, he is fine, he said he missed me, he did not give up, knowing this, I have achieved the purpose of my coming, I can go back, I can go back like an idiot.

From the moment Zhang Yixing appeared, from the moment I found out that I had been cheated, I didn't want to see him at all.Not at all.He can actually play me like this, doesn't he really know how much torture it is to me?Doesn't he know that I will collapse?I am human too, and I have a heart, not a toy.Not even a toy.

"Luhan, Luhan, what's wrong with you, where are you going?" Zhang Yixing hurried over and grabbed me.

It has been almost two years, and I really saw Zhang Yixing appearing in front of me.I didn't come in vain.This is enough.I didn't say anything and continued to break free from Zhang Yixing.

"Luhan, Luhan, what's wrong with you, Luhan. Don't go, listen to me, Luhan. What's wrong with you, talk." Zhang Yixing grabbed me and asked anxiously, when I didn't speak and broke free Then he hugged me tightly in his arms.The voice was anxious, "Lu Han, don't be like this, what's wrong with you, don't keep talking, what's wrong with you."

The feeling of being more and more wronged made me feel a little bit unstoppable and wanted to cry.On the streets of this foreign country, being hugged by Zhang Yixing like this, I actually feel so unreal.The anxiety of losing it makes me feel like I'm falling apart, only to find out it's all just a hoax.In this case, facing Zhang Yixing.What more can I say.

I gradually calmed myself down and looked into Zhang Yixing's eyes, "Zhang Yixing, you're such an asshole!!! Do you know how uncomfortable I was when you disappeared suddenly? Do you know that you only contacted Your parents, but if you don’t contact me, how worried I am, how painful, how scared!!! Zhang Yixing, do you know how important you are to me, do you know how afraid I am that you will never find me again Yes. You avoid me, don’t look for me, don’t answer my calls, don’t reply to my text messages. Zhang Yixing, what else do you want? Is it interesting to play me like this? Are you happy!!!” Finally shouted out uncontrollably .Disappointed tears also flowed down.

"Lulu, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, baby, I'm sorry, I just. I just miss you, I just want you to find me. Really, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry." Zhang Yixing said apologetically, holding his arms tightly. I circle in my arms.The voice also seemed to tremble a little.

"In addition to saying sorry, what else can you say. Zhang Yixing!! Zhang Yixing!!!!" I pushed Zhang Yixing away and shouted, I don't know what I should say anymore.

The quarrel between the two of us has attracted many people to watch.But this moment doesn't matter at all.Strange country, strange city, strange people.Nobody knows me.What are you afraid of.

"Lulu, I'm sorry, baby, I'm sorry. Don't be like this. Come home with me. Let me tell you, okay." Zhang Yixing came over and held my hand fiercely, even with pleading in his eyes.

I close my eyes.Tears trickled down the corners of his eyes.He threw Zhang Yixing away fiercely, and then punched Zhang Yixing in the face, "Zhang Yixing. It's been two years, and I never thought that it would be like this when I saw you. Why did you do this? Why did you In this way. Why!"