〖Bottle Evil〗Silence and noise

"Xiaoxie, you come into the study, I have something to tell you." Father rarely has such an imposing manner, let alone mother standing by the side and didn't stop her. I know it's probably because of my brother, so hurry up With a cry, I followed my father step by step, and looked back at my little brother, who gave me a reassuring look.

Mom took a look at me, invited my younger brother to sit down, and went into the kitchen by herself.

The study room is also the same, my father is not a person who likes to read books, my mother often said that he specially built such a room for books, just to make his face swollen, and finally, as expected, the books in this house, my mother and I See more than him.

"Xiao Xie." Dad sat behind the desk, facing me.

This scene made me a little dazed, as if I went back to many years ago, when I was still in school, every time I made a mistake, my father would let me into the study, scold me bloody, and then my mother did it well Eat something, persuade him again, and the matter will pass.

"Your mother called me just now and said that you are back. I thought a lot on the way home. I thought it was over when it was over. I thought you would never come back in this life, as long as you came back." , I don’t care about other things, but..." I was a little surprised that his tone was so gentle that he had never been before.

After a while, I finally came to my senses. I am no longer the person I was when I was a child, and my parents are indeed old. My father will not yell at me like I did when I made a mistake when I was a child. These words Here, there is more helplessness and anticipation.

My nose is a little sore, "I know."

"What do you know?" Dad held onto the table and stood up, his expression agitated, "You don't know anything!" His voice was lowered a little, maybe because he was afraid that the outside would hear it, maybe because he was afraid that I would lose face and didn't want others People knew that I had a conflict with him as soon as I got home.

I stood still and looked down at my toes without saying a word.

"Although I haven't participated in your third uncle's activities, don't think that I don't know anything. I know who Zhang Qiling is. Your mother will understand what you mean by bringing him back now. I just want you to explain to me yourself, what is going on?" He finished speaking in one breath, and sat down on the stool below.

I sighed softly, took a deep breath, closed my eyes, and thought about the words in my heart before opening my mouth slowly, trying to make myself appear respectful and sincere. Over the years, I have faced many things. I have seen a lot of tense scenes, but I have never been so at a loss like this. I obviously came here after thinking about it. It is clear that most of the weight lost after failure in the past was my own and other people's lives. This time, at this moment, is particularly obvious. tough.

"I don't want to mention what the third uncle did when he pulled me into the game, and I guess you don't want to hear it, or, I guess you and my mother have heard a lot, it's over, it's over, I'm here now The most important thing." I opened my eyes and looked at him, hiding all my uncertainties and showing my completely firm side, "As for my little brother, I don't know what my mother told you, I... "I wanted to look away, but I told myself not to look away, and I must look into my father's eyes to express my determination, "...I like him, the kind of like in love."

I saw my father clenched his fists tightly against the table after hearing my last words, "You...what did you say?!"

I frowned, and repeated it in a calm tone, "I like my little brother, the kind of liking in love is not limited to brotherhood."

"Do you really know his identity? You dare to say such a thing!" Dad's mood is obviously on the verge of going berserk. He has always had a bad temper, but every time he comes and goes quickly, I will be scolded at most In the last two sentences, it will be fine after an hour or two. I have never been beaten, but at this moment, I suddenly feel that I may be beaten by him today. It seems that he has never been really angry before. It turns out that Dad is still a temper Good kind of people.

"I know." Dad is already a little hysterical, I have to make myself look calm no matter what, I have come to admit it to him, and I can't be stiff, even though I said that if they disagree, they will talk to Xiao If my brother elopes, but since I’m back home, I still hope to get the approval of my parents. If I speak well, there will be results. Even if I get beaten later, I can’t escape.

"I should know his identity better than you."

Dad's frown deepened, but his fists loosened a little. I guess he thought of the suffering I have suffered for so many years and was shaken.

"He and I are almost the same, both victims, but dad..." I tried to keep my tone extremely gentle, "I finally came back, don't you and mom only care about 'Do I want to be with a man forever? Together or the man's identity' kind of thing?"

I walked to him and saw that the hair on his head had turned white. When I saw him last time, he looked very young. It turned out that I had really been away from home for a long time.

Dad's eyes changed, as if he was thinking about what I said, his fists were completely loosened, and his hands were on the table.

"You just said... that you want to be with him forever?" After an unknown period of time, Dad's voice came back, and it seemed a little abrupt in the quiet study room.

"Yes!" I cheered up again, "After all, you are my father, you know me well, I won't say things that I'm not sure about, and..." I walked over and put my hand on his On the shoulders, the shoulders of the former stalwart are now a little old and weak, and I feel sad, "...Actually, I can come to see you today by myself. Even if I hide this from you, you probably won't know about it." , But, I still want to bring someone here for you to see, to see what the person who is about to spend the rest of my life with me looks like, to let you know that I am doing well now, don’t worry, and I just want to get yours Understanding and support, because in the whole world, I want your understanding and support most.”

"Dad..." I squatted in front of him and looked up at him, "...can you understand?"

After saying this, Dad’s eye circles turned red immediately, and my nose started to feel sore again, but since it’s not good for two old men to hide in the study and cry together, I stood up and pretended I didn’t see what Dad said just now. Looking at it, he rubbed his eyes by the way, swallowing back the tears.

Dad sighed heavily behind him, and I calmed down, which means he let go and was persuaded by me, and sure enough...

"Who are you with, a man or a woman? In fact, both your mother and I can see it openly. We don't have any opinions, but..." He paused, "...Do you know that Zhang Qiling is very important to the Zhang family? One person, and the members of the Zhang family are said to be different from ordinary people, do you know that?"

I know what he is referring to, I have already thought about this, "Of course I know, this is what I want to tell you, but I don't know how to say it..." I deliberately slowed down my speech to adjust my emotions "What you heard, it should be that people in the Zhang family live a long life. I know what you are worried about, but, dad..." I looked up at him with sincere eyes, "Brother, before this, for me, give up In order to live a long life, he is now just like an ordinary person, and like me, he will experience life, old age, sickness and death, and we will all grow old slowly."

"Ah?" Dad was obviously frightened, "Are you sure?"

"I'm sure." I nodded firmly to him, and seized the time to fan the flames, "Look, he is willing to give up the longevity that ordinary people dream of for me, so how can he treat me badly? I have no reason to lie to you, He is really a very good person, he treats me very well, and he is worthy of me giving him the rest of my life and spending the rest of my life with him."

The coldness in Dad's eyes finally dissipated, "I know you won't lie to me, your mother and I are just worried about you, after all you have suffered so much..."

"I didn't suffer." I interrupted him and rushed to hug him. I don't remember how old I was when I hugged him like this last time, five years old?Still eight years old?Now, I'm even older than he was when he watched me be born, but I hugged him, "...Don't worry, I didn't suffer, and I won't suffer in the future."

I couldn't see Dad's appearance, but I guess he didn't succeed in swallowing back his tears this time, but he was very careful and didn't want to make a sound.

Our family is not the kind of family that talks about love all the time, and I am not the person who can say the word "love" whenever I feel like it. When I was young, my father was busy with work, and my mother usually took me. But most of the time I need to be self-reliant, go to school, go home, two o’clock and one line, and I don’t even have any friends. I like to nest with my grandpa every day and listen to those adventure stories told by him. I often fantasize about becoming one of those stories, but slowly Growing up slowly, I began to doubt the authenticity of those stories. Because of the relationship with the antique shop and the relationship with the third uncle who was on the road, I found out that those stories were true. Be part of those stories.

I am obsessed with the pursuit of true dreams and cannot extricate myself. Sometimes I feel lost in myself, but I don’t want to go home. I feel that my parents are ordinary and not cool at all. I am living a cool life, and they don’t understand.

Then, I gained a lot, lost a lot, and finally, went home.

I love them very much. This is the most profound truth that I have figured out by myself in the past few years. Today, when I saw the way my parents greeted my little brother for dinner, the days of the past ten years flashed before my eyes. Turn over.

I suddenly remembered this again, and I love them so much, so much.

The author has something to say: So, after coming out of the closet, what should I do next?

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