Are you with Dazai today?

"Mr. Shiina, what is this?"

Ango Sakaguchi's pupils trembled, and he picked up the picture book with trembling hands. He was trying to ignore Osamu Dazai's unstoppable laughter in the background sound.

It has been three months since Shiinagawa got to know Ango Sakaguchi and Sakunosuke Oda, and Shiinagawa has more contact with these two because of Osamu Dazai, and occasionally invites them to his home.

Now it is another small gathering of the four of them, which is actually a cherry blossom viewing party held by the port mafia at their own expense for the employees, and Shiinagawa was dragged here by Osamu Dazai.

The four of them sit far away from the main force, because Shiinagawa doesn't like too noisy environments, and Ango Sakaguchi also prefers places with few people. Osamu Dazai and Sakunosuke Oda don't care, so they follow the temperament of the other two. up.

Shiinagawa took out a picture book from the package he brought, and painted with colored pencils. Ever since seeing that 'Takeshi Yamamoto', Shiinagawa was very keen on painting as if he had opened the door to a new world.

Now it has become a hobby second only to cooking.

And Oda Sakunosuke, under the guidance of Dazai Osamu, made a request to Shiinagawa to take a look at the painting without noticing it.

The eyes of Ango Sakaguchi watching from the side twitched, completely unable to understand Osamu Dazai's childish behavior. If you want to see it, you can say it yourself, and you have to induce an honest person to say it for you. What is the purpose of going around such a big circle?

"It's Mr. Sakaguchi."

The answer Shiinagawa gave was expected, but it was also the answer that Ango Sakaguchi didn't want to hear. In the background sound, Osamu Dazai laughed louder and couldn't stop at all.

If it weren't for the fact that Shiinagawa was still by his side, Ango Sakaguchi might have used physical coercive means to shut up Osamu Dazai.

What Ango Sakaguchi picked up was a work drawn by Shiinagawa. To be honest, the painting is very good. It is not a beginner at first glance. Judging from the characteristics of the characters in the painting, it is easy to judge who Shiinagawa painted.

only……

Ango Sakaguchi hesitated to speak.

On the screen, his lower body is still normal up to the chin, but with the mouth as the dividing line, the painting style above the lips suddenly becomes strange.

His head was wrapped by an insect-like thing, which didn't look like a fantasy, and what was even more strange was that this part was the most delicate part of the whole painting.

The painting of that thing is lifelike, even the scale-like things on the wings are depicted very finely.

It's one thing to be refined or not, the main thing is that this thing looks really scary, the kind that both adults and children may have nightmares at night after watching it.

"Mr. Shiina, what did I do wrong?"

Ango Sakaguchi tried his best to suppress the tremor in his voice.

"How come, I still like Mr. Sakaguchi very much."

Shiinagawa looked puzzled, as if he didn't understand why Ango Sakaguchi asked such a question.

"Then this is me."

Oda Sakunosuke went to Ango Sakaguchi and turned a page. In the second picture, there was a person with red hair and blue eyes with some stubble. There were no strange creatures in the picture depicting him, just some One thing is interesting.

I don’t know what kind of technique Shiinagawa used. There are several obvious distortions in the painting depicting Oda Sakunosuke, like black holes swallowing different parts of Oda Sakunosuke’s body.

The painting is very good, but it looks inexplicably scary, which may make ordinary people feel physically uncomfortable.

"The painting is very good."

Oda Sakunosuke gave this painting a very straightforward evaluation. The painting is indeed very good, but this style is not acceptable to everyone.

Dazai Osamu also came over and took away the picture book in Sakaguchi Ango's hand. He flipped through the pages one by one, his expression getting more and more subtle.

In the end, he came to a portrait that could not see any characters at all. It was a black chaotic mass, and there were many other things of different shapes around it.

To be honest, is this painting really a portrait and not some kid's doodle?

"what is this?"

"Ok?"

Shiinagawa carefully looked at the painting that Osamu Dazai picked out

"I don't know, I just drew it when I thought about it, don't you think it's cute? I think this is the best one I drew."

"Um???"

Dazai Osamu was dumbfounded, he looked at the painting in his hand, then flipped through the drawing book and looked at the previous paintings, he blinked, no matter how he looked at it, the one just now seemed to be the most unintentional work up.

In the end, Osamu Dazai hesitated for a long time but didn't say anything offensive. It was really hard for him to say anything negative to Shiinagawa's expectant eyes.

"Indeed, I thought so too."

Dazai Shiinagawa chose to tell nonsense with his eyes open.

"Eh—what about this one?"

Osamu Dazai picked out another strange painting next to the one just now, and this one can be vaguely identified as a person.

It's just that this painting is full of all kinds of faces, and the emotions that appear the most seem to be anger and sadness, but the expression is very exaggerated, and the expression is too distorted, just like a puppet mask created by a puppeteer Creepy.

"It's Dr. Mori... no, it's not..."

Shiinagawa hesitated looking at the painting, and what he said was quickly rejected by himself.

"It's someone I saw through Dr. Sen. I should know him, but I don't have the impression of the past, but I think I should count as hating this person."

"No memory of the past?"

Ango Sakaguchi pushed his glasses, and according to his information, Shiinagawa’s entire life experience records can only be found a little bit before the Changan Island War, and there are basically no other records.

Since monitors were not popular at the time, and Shiinagawa didn’t have any family members, it was difficult to find information about him.

"Well, my memory of the past is always hazy."

Shiinagawa put his hand on the painting that looked the most perfunctory but was rated as the most beautiful by himself. He gently stroked the unique texture of the paper with his hand, and said softly

"However, I think this is good now, and I am happy enough now."

"so……"

Shiinagawa raised his head and looked at Osamu Dazai, he bent his eyes pointingly, and Osamu Dazai uncomfortably turned his eyes away from him.

"It doesn't matter if you can't remember."

"I always feel that Mr. Shiina is really too open-minded in some aspects."

Now that the parties have said so, Sakaguchi Ango couldn't say anything more. He took a sip of his wine and habitually performed the task of complaining.

"Is there? I'm often told that I'm a fool."

Shiinagawa didn't care about Dazai Osamu's averted gaze, he very naturally took the wine cup in Dazai Osamu's hand and exchanged it for a glass of juice, and was satisfied to see the accusation in his eyes when he turned his head suddenly.

Shiinagawa approached Dazai Osamu and took off a cherry blossom petal that fell on his head, and he gently tapped Dazai Osamu on the forehead

"But in this regard, I really think it doesn't matter if I can't remember it, it really doesn't matter."

Osamu Dazai didn't know what his expression was like now, I hope he didn't show any expression of gaffe, isn't this all exposed, Osamu Dazai thought to himself.

Why is a guy who is usually so dull and natural so sharp at this time, he doesn't notice what he wants the other party to notice, and he sees through his little thoughts that don't want to be discovered.

So it must have been back then, Osamu Dazai thought about the inappropriateness of his actions.

At that time, Shiinagawa saw a strange hallucination in the shrine in the small town of Ruri where he met Spideranta, but he tried his best to deny the existence of the hallucination. It may be that he spoke too quickly when he denied it at that time, so he was exposed.

So, why are you so sharp at this time!

After much deliberation, it was Shiinagawa's fault.

"Well, that's it... um, um! As expected of Shiina, she is quite open-minded."

Osamu Dazai could only repeat the words of Ango Sakaguchi in a hurry, but he didn't know what else to say.

What can he say, maybe he has to say bluntly, 'Yes, I don't want you to recover your memory. 'What words?

Do not make jokes!

Osamu Dazai is not good at overly straightforward kindness. This kind of thing is too hot for him, and it feels like it will burn if he touches it.

Because this kind of thing was too scary and too incomprehensible, he pretended not to notice it, so he ran away.

"Well, if Dazai thinks so, let's do it first."

The smile in Shiinagawa's eyes did not fade after hearing Dazai Osamu's words, he just returned the original wine cup to Dazai Osamu and took the juice into his hands.

Shiinagawa doesn’t drink often. He thinks it’s better than wine and fruit juice. Even if he drinks, he only drinks some fruity sparkling wine. This point of his has been complained several times by Nakahara, who occasionally drinks with him. .

"You can't drink too much, it's okay."

Shiinagawa would not stop Osamu Dazai from drinking, but he knew that Osamu Dazai didn't drink very well, so drinking at home would be fine, but getting drunk outside would lose prestige in front of his subordinates.

Shiinagawa thought of the scene where Osamu Dazai would just keep lying on him when he was drunk at home, like a big cat, which made him laugh out loud, and then he coughed lightly after realizing his gaffe Cover up the gaffe.

"Oh……"

Osamu Dazai responded in a low voice and then pretended to focus all his attention on the glass of wine.

The scene that caught Shiinagawa's eyes stunned him for a moment.

Dazai's ears are red.

……

After all the members of the port mafia left, Shiinagawa was still sitting under the cherry blossom tree. Unlike Osamu Dazai and the others, he was directly affiliated with the port mafia, so he didn't have to follow the mafia's rhythm in everything.

Because cherry blossoms are beautiful, I wanted to draw them.

It's so quiet, of course, because I'm the only one here.

Shiinagawa sat motionless under the cherry tree, as if time had frozen on him.

He looked at the fallen cherry blossom petals, and his eyes reflected a scene that only he could see.

It took him a long time to pick up the brush and draw the first stroke. After the first stroke, he completed the whole work without any hesitation.

On the drawing paper, a large area of ​​too dazzling red was used, and the original soft cherry blossom powder was replaced by a blood-like bright red. Next to each tree, there were one or two black unidentified bodies with only human-shaped outlines.

Even the sun was smeared in pitch black, and there was still something vaguely visible in it.

Shiinagawa put down the brush, he was very satisfied with the painting he drew.

Very good, the painting is very similar, he thought

"It's amazing, the painting is really good."

Shiinagawa turned her head slowly, and what she saw was the unlucky woman who had a strange bug in her head that she saw three months ago at night.

The other party was still wearing a nun's costume, which reminded Shiinagawa of the row of nun's costumes she saw in her closet before, which was very powerful in a sense.

"that……"

"Ah, sorry, sorry, I accidentally made a sound, did I bother you?"

The nun clasped her hands together to make an apology.

"It's okay, I don't mind."

To be honest, Shiinagawa felt a little guilty when he saw her, because he always felt that the other party was an innocent person involved by him.

"If you don't mind, can you let me have a look? This is the first time I've seen a painting with this feeling."

"of course can."

It's just drawing paper, and it's not a secret, but if it's this level, of course you can let the other party see it.

"Amazing……"

The other party flipped through the picture book page by page, the light in his eyes became brighter and brighter, and his cheeks were flushed with excitement.

"It's the first time I've seen something like this!"

Realizing her gaffe, she averted her eyes in embarrassment and returned Shiinagawa's drawing book. The paper on the drawing book stayed on the latest cherry blossom painting.

"It really looks like a painting."

She sighed like this.

"Well, I think so too."

Shiinagawa looked at his drawing paper and compared it with the real scene.

No matter how you look at it, it's exactly the same.

The author has something to say: Osamu Dazai: Playing dead.jpg

Shiinagawa: Is my child too cute?

Off topic:

Oda Sakunosuke: I feel a little weird...

Ango Sakaguchi: Shh!Mr. Odasaku, it is better not to speak at this time to reduce the sense of presence.

After all, Shiina's SAN is so...

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