Are you with Dazai today?

"Come."

Shiinagawa patted the ground next to him to signal Dazai Osamu to sit down, Dazai Osamu was as stable as an old dog on the surface, but he was also as stable as an old dog in his heart.

Feel guilty or something, it doesn't exist at all.

Just so confident!

"Tell me, how long have you been playing?"

Shiinagawa's tone was calm, but there was a sense of frankness and leniency in his meaning.

And Osamu Dazai told lies with his eyes open, and he didn't bring a draft when he lied.

"For half an hour, I woke up at night and couldn't sleep, so I played for a while."

Shiinagawa stared at Dazai Osamu, and Dazai Osamu looked at him frankly.

"Bullshit."

Osamu Dazai is not like a foolish fish who takes the bait as soon as he catches it. The last thing he can do at this time is to have a guilty conscience and even pour out all the things he has done, maybe he is cheating him.

Shiinagawa tapped the corner of Dazai Osamu's eyes lightly with his fingers.

"You don't look like you're only playing for half an hour."

Seeing the faint bloodshot eyes of Osamu Dazai, Shiinagawa knew that the kid might not have been playing games since the lights were turned off. He sighed and thought it would be like this, it was rare to come out to play once.

"It's not an example."

Before Osamu Dazai had time to say "Yes!" Shiinagawa continued.

"It's a big deal that the time to play every day will be reduced by half an hour next week."

After Shiinagawa saw Osamu Dazai's reaction, the corners of his mouth curved slightly.

"I'll lie to you, I won't do that."

"Shiina, you have changed, you were not like this before."

Osamu Dazai sat next to Shiinagawa muttering, thinking of the honest person Shiinagawa used to be, completely unaware that most of the other party's change into what he is now is due to his own credit.

"before……"

Shiinagawa froze for a moment.

"I should have been much colder before than now, right?"

Shiinagawa himself has no way to evaluate his own changes well, so he can only turn to his cohabitant for help.

"Ah——indeed, the former Shiina was really quite rigid."

Osamu Dazai's words brought back some memories by Shiinagawa's words. The former Shiinagawa was really a dead-headed person who didn't know how to adapt at all. When he looked scary, he knew that he was a stupid fool when he came into contact with it.

Although now he is still an unconscious fool.

He said that he didn't know how to be flexible because Shiinagawa at that time was really the kind of person who could take shortcuts but had to take detours. He was so rigid. Dazai Osamu had never seen such a tough person.

However, Shiinagawa has the strength to support Hu Lai's qualifications even though he has a head iron.

At that time, Shiinagawa was not like now and then occasionally making a small joke. To be honest, when Shiinagawa tried to joke with Osamu Dazai for the first time, he almost failed to manage his facial expressions because he was too blunt.

Osamu Dazai thinks about the changes in Shiinagawa one by one, smiles more, cooks more and more delicious, and develops more and more parents. , the incidence rate is also less.

Osamu Dazai stared at Shiinagawa's head, thinking nonsense all day long without knowing what was there.

But Osamu Dazai himself didn't realize that he was not qualified to evaluate Shiinagawa in this way at all, because his own character was more troublesome than Shiinagawa's who occasionally fell ill.

If Shiinagawa is a patient with mild anxiety, then Osamu Dazai is a patient with severe anxiety. A small action can make him suspicious. The human tracking of monitors and bugs is presented in different ways. Those who don’t know think they are acting. Spy movie.

If it weren't for Shiinagawa's strong heart and overly natural personality, he wouldn't be able to bear such a cohabitant.

"Hmm...that's it, but Dazai has changed a lot, he didn't listen to me at all when he used to speak."

Shiinagawa counted down the things Osamu Dazai had done one by one.

"Let me dove, I didn't come back to eat even though I had finished cooking, and I deliberately broke my favorite vase."

"Eh... eh..."

Osamu Dazai's eyes wandered obviously because of a guilty conscience.

"wrong."

"You know I did it on purpose?!"

In Shiinagawa's eyes, Osamu Dazai's appearance at this time highly overlaps with Ango Sakaguchi's a few hours ago.

"of course."

Shiinagawa gave the same answer and was puzzled.

"I can still see that."

Why do you both express surprise that I can see this?

Dazai covered his face.

"Wait... wait, Shiina, don't talk to me now."

Here it is again, sure enough Dazai and Ango-san's reactions are very similar, Shiinagawa thinks this way, it is because they have similarities that they are attracted to each other and can understand each other a little bit, right?

However, Ango Sakaguchi is Ango Sakaguchi, Osamu Dazai is Osamu Dazai, they are two completely different individuals, so Shiinagawa will not treat these two people with the same attitude.

"Why don't you let me talk to you?"

Shiinagawa put on an innocent look, it's over, sure enough, he will have some bullying thoughts after being with Dazai for too long.

Or maybe there were some bad factors in him from the very beginning.

"Uh...uh...I mean you already know that you still...you still!"

"Ah, about that."

Shiinagawa calmly narrated the facts.

"Although I like it, it's just like it. If you lose it, you will lose it. It doesn't have to be that one."

Osamu Dazai buried his face in his arms and didn't want to look at Shiinagawa.

"You stared at me for so long, I really thought you were going to hit me."

"Speak up."

Osamu Dazai casually asked the question as if he suddenly remembered it.

"Did Shiina ever think about killing me when I first came here? For example, I would think that this kid is so troublesome, so I might just kill it."

Osamu Dazai lifted his head from the crook of his arms, his eyes curled up but not smiling.

"At that time, I was looking forward to it. I was looking forward to when Shiina could bear it to the end. I heard that Shiina is best at that kind of painless death, in an instant."

Osamu Dazai gestured at the neck.

"It will be gone in just a moment. I was thinking that what this person said might really set me free."

"I really thought about it."

After getting an affirmative answer, Osamu Dazai was dissatisfied, and he yelled loudly.

"Then didn't I miss the opportunity?! Come on, tell me when Shiina wants to kill me?"

It's really affirmative, but it's even more impossible to deny it. What is Dazai Osamu going to do?

"When you broke my favorite vase."

"Uh... Didn't you say that doesn't matter?"

"Yes, I said it doesn't matter."

The sea breeze blew over, blowing up Shiinagawa's long white hair that was wet by sea water but had recovered from drying after sitting by the beach for a long time.

"But I was still a little angry. At that time, I really wanted to teach this guy a lesson."

"But you didn't do that?"

"But I didn't do that."

"why?"

Osamu Dazai picked up a strand of Shiinagawa's hair casually, played with it and began to braid it.

"Because I saw Dazai take a step back before the bottle fell to the ground, so I thought it's better to forget it, so be it."

"Hmm? Is there such a thing?"

Osamu Dazai, as the person involved, has no impression of his actions at all.

Has he ever done that? !

"Yes, maybe Dazai you didn't realize it yourself, but I did see it."

Shiinagawa watched helplessly as Osamu Dazai kept talking and moving his hands, and the small lock of hair was gradually braided into a tiny braid.

"Then I feel that you are like the kind of contradictory person who knows that you will be punished, but still does it on purpose, and is afraid when you really face the result, just..."

Shiinagawa tried hard to express his thoughts.

"That's when I began to think that you might be a good boy."

"what?"

Osamu Dazai, who clearly said this without stopping his hands, stopped at this moment, and the braid that was about to be completed scattered, and returned to its owner under the guidance of gravity.

"Because you know that doing this is bad and will make me angry, so I don't think you are as heartless as you appear on the surface. If you are really that way, you won't care about these things."

Osamu Dazai stared at Shiinagawa's head in a daze for a long time.

"...I've always thought Shiina that your brain circuit is too strange."

"Of course, that's not the whole reason. If it wasn't for you, I would still beat you up."

Osamu Dazai can almost figure it out, he is not arrogant enough to make others 'love at first sight'.

"Because Shiina fell in love with me at first sight? Are you kidding me, is it because of my ability?"

"Yes."

Shiinagawa admitted this without any hesitation.

"I feel comfortable with Dazai around."

Osamu Dazai pretended to shake off his goosebumps.

"You sound too weird."

Shiinagawa just smiled and nodded his head.

"Because there is something wrong with me here, let me use an analogy, Dazai, can you stand in the sea? Just let the sea water reach your ankles."

He thought the picture book he was carrying would come in handy at last.

"It is possible...but why stand in the sea?"

"Because it looks so good."

Shiinagawa gave a very casual but reasonable answer at first glance.

Osamu Dazai: ...

OK... OK.

Osamu Dazai followed Shiinagawa's words and stood just below his ankles in the sea.He is now wearing the loose mouse-gray gown on the upper body and a pair of tight-fitting black trousers on the lower body.

Shiinagawa looked at Dazai Osamu, and quickly sketched the outline on the drawing paper.

Looking at Shiinagawa like this, Osamu Dazai only thought of Ango Sakaguchi whose head was covered with bugs, Sakunosuke Oda with twisted black holes all over his body, and those strange things that made people feel horrified at first glance. paintings.

At least Osamu Dazai had already made plans to praise Shiinagawa no matter how shocking the scene he saw.

"Look."

Shiinagawa showed the sketched pictures to Osamu Dazai, which surprised Osamu Dazai a little, well, not that surprised, probably because he had vaguely felt something from Shiinagawa's paintings before.

Because it was too real, too real to be something imagined, as if he had really witnessed it with those eyes.

What is the world like in Shiinagawa's eyes?

Osamu Dazai didn't know, and it was impossible for him to know.

What was displayed in front of Osamu Dazai was an ordinary painting, and it cannot be said to be ordinary. Even if Osamu Dazai is an amateur in this field, he can see that Shiinagawa's paintings are very good, so good that he can make a living from it.

I say it is ordinary because this painting is so normal, there are no strange creatures, no uncomfortable distortions, even the background...

No, the background is weird, there is something like a skeleton entrenched behind Dazai Osamu, and he didn't notice it because he focused his attention on the character at the time.

How could this be, it was so ridiculous, so ridiculous that Osamu Dazai wanted to laugh out loud until tears flowed, until even his stomach started to hurt, until his mind became weird.

Everything other than Osamu Dazai is abnormal in this painting.

"If this is a joke, then it must be one of the top three jokes in the world."

Osamu Dazai originally wanted to laugh, but he just couldn't laugh at this moment. How could such absurd things happen?

Osamu Dazai stretched out his hand to Shiinagawa, and Shiinagawa shook the extended hand back.

"Such a Shiina can only become a different kind of person everywhere, right? How did you endure it? What kind of hopelessly bad situation is the world in your eyes?"

"I know I'm not what you see, and I know what 'normal' really is."

Shiinagawa narrowed the distance with Osamu Dazai so that they could feel each other's warm breath.

"So... don't you praise me? I have been working hard to endure."

Dazai Osamu grabbed Shiinagawa's collar and Shiinagawa lowered his head along with this force, he imitated the way Shiinagawa praised him before, and gently patted the other person's head.

The quality of Shiinagawa's hair is different from that of Osamu Dazai's fluffy touch. His hair is so smooth that Osamu Dazai thinks of running water, and it can slip out of his hands if he is not careful.

"It's amazing, it's amazing, you've been patient all this time, you've done a good job."

The roles of Shiinagawa and Osamu Dazai are rarely reversed. Looking at Osamu Dazai like this and the smile on his mouth, Shiinagawa once again confirmed the idea that Osamu Dazai and Ango Sakaguchi have many similarities.

As for the idea that neither of the people mentioned would admit it is another one.

"So... am I special to Shiina, right? If it wasn't me who met Shiina at the time, then it wouldn't be the result now. Am I understanding this correctly?"

Can he understand it this way?

It is undeniable that the result of this aspect, Shiinagawa's feelings are indeed composed of many factors.

"If you want to ask that, I can only say yes, yes, you are special, my miracle, my incredible, it's all about you."

"Those are you."

But we can only say that all these factors, all coincidences, and all the inconceivable, constitute this unrepeatable miracle.

The author has something to say: Osamu Dazai: No, why did you change from Sakaguchi to Ango?

Shiinagawa: ...?

Ango Sakaguchi: Ah!

The following are the author's ramblings, which can be skipped:

In a sense, it is indeed 'love at first sight', that's right, because some readers commented that Shiinagawa was treated that way only because of the "family" that Mori Ogai casually said. In fact, what Mori Ogai said did have a certain effect.

But the most important point is that Osamu Dazai is "special" in Shiinagawa, and here is somewhat inspired by "The Song of Saya" (actually I haven't played it, but the plot in it was very famous at that time, so I have heard of it more or less ).

Then there are many other factors. The "special" in the eyes is the beginning of being attracted. For example, the state of Zai is easy to worry, and after getting familiar with it, it becomes a big cat (in my opinion), and then the more you raise it, the more it becomes. With feelings, I have a sense of accomplishment (?) in raising children. In addition, Osamu Dazai is younger than Shiinagawa, so it is easy for Shiinagawa to feel like "taking care of children".

So it is really the feelings caused by the superposition of various external factors.

Next, there are two major events that will come to an end without accident, and then there will be Shiina's reminiscence chapter, and after that there will be Butei chapter, and we will see you again during the winter vacation.

Off-topic: The speed of life and death, finally finished before six o'clock, almost missed.