Are you with Dazai today?

"Huh."

Shiinagawa sighed and leaned his weight on the back of the hospital bed.

How troublesome, he thought, completely ignoring the possibility that Mori Ogai might be deceiving him in this matter.

I finally heard the answer from someone else's mouth, but there was no emotion similar to sadness or fear in my heart, I just accepted the fact calmly.

Maybe it's because he had been vaguely aware of this a long time ago, that's right, since he had a fight with Miss Spider in that small town a few years ago, he has been doubting the reality of his existence sex.

How should I put it now, there is a feeling of 'ah, that's true'.

"Why did Shiina-kun ask me?"

"Because occasionally there will be fragments of the past flashing in my mind, what I am most concerned about is the picture of seeing Dr. Sen from an upward perspective. Dr. Sen is under fire, and I should be lying on the ground."

"Although it's just my intuition."

And the only person around him who might know about his past is Mori Ogai.

Alice, who had always been lively, stopped talking, and Mori Ogai randomly moved a chair and placed it next to Shiinagawa's bed. He sat on the chair and raised his right hand to his jaw to support his cheek.

Appeared, Dr. Mori's serious mode, Shiinagawa still remembers the last time he saw Dr. Mori like this was when he snapped up a limited edition skirt for Alice.

Obviously the boss of the port mafia.

"Yeah, there's no point in hiding Shiina-kun now, and besides, Shiina-kun has already found the answer himself, so asking me is just to confirm, right?"

"Yes, just as you think, Dr. Sen."

"Well... where should I start?"

Mori Ogai pretended to recall the past, but this state was mercilessly interrupted by Shiinagawa.

"Please tell me what happened when I died, and nothing else matters."

"Shiina-kun..."

"Ok?"

Mori Ogai looked disappointed, and could not rule out the possibility of being malicious, but unfortunately his only audience didn't buy it at all.

"Have you ever said that you, Shiina-kun, really don't understand style?"

"Yes, I am often told that by Dazai."

It's been said but it won't change, and I don't know how to change it.

"Well, that's coming to that day, and I remember it being as fine a cloudless day as today."

"No, I clearly remember that when I got up, the road was full of water, so it must have rained that day."

Mori Ogai, who was remembering, froze, and Alice beside him sneered mercilessly.

"Shiina-kun, don't interrupt the doctor here!"

Shiinagawa sat upright and adjusted his posture.

"Okay, Dr. Sen, go on."

Mori Ogai looked at the well-behaved and obedient Shiinagawa, and couldn't help feeling that the children who were living together had such a big difference in personality, but now is obviously not the time to think about these things.

"Well—how should I put it, Shiina-kun was hit by a shell in front of me that day, alas, because of the aftermath of the shell, I was also in great danger, Doctor."

The child lying in a pool of blood tried to reach out to him, saying 'I don't want to die' in a voice that was about to cry.

But at that time Mori Ogai left without any hesitation, because as a doctor, he knew very well that he would never survive that kind of injury, and he would die within a few minutes without waiting for rescue.

In that case, even reaching out to him is just a waste of time, which is obviously not in line with Mori Ogai's optimal solution.

But Shiinagawa came back intact, and greeted him as if nothing had happened. If Mori Ogai hadn’t seen Shiinagawa’s irreversible injury with his own eyes, he might have thought that Shiinagawa was really Miraculously survived.

But that is impossible. Even someone who knows nothing about medicine will make the same judgment as him. The amount of bleeding is too large, and half of his body was blown away by shells. How can such a person be possible? able to survive.

Although he was very surprised, Mori Ogai still responded to Shiinagawa with a calm and gentle voice.

It can't be Shiina-kun's incarnate ghost, right?He is an atheist.

After that, he gave Shiinagawa a full-body examination. His skin was soft, his body temperature was warm, and his heart rate was no different from that of ordinary people. No matter how he looked, he was very healthy.

This aroused Mori Ogai's interest, after he saw that Shiinagawa was no different from normal people, well, of course, he ignored the combat power.

From that day on, Mori Ogai discovered that although Shiinagawa became more reticent, he was more decisive than before, even when he was taking the lives of others, he did not hesitate at all.

He thinks that it may be an unknown supernatural power that supports Shiinagawa's life, and he deliberately narrowed the distance with Shiinagawa slightly.

After the Changan Island War ended, Shiinagawa was invited first because Shiinagawa was really good, obedient and strong, and secondly because he was very curious about how Shiinagawa survived.

Although Shiinagawa himself doesn't seem to remember this.

Originally Mori Ogai thought it was caused by some kind of supernatural power, but after meeting Osamu Dazai, this conjecture was overturned, because Shiinagawa was able to touch Ogai Dazai freely, and there was nothing abnormal after contact.

This was beyond the scope of Mori Ogai's cognition, and after he became more and more busy as the port mafia boss, he put it aside.

There are too many problems that need to be dealt with, so we can only put the problems on Shiinagawa aside, and Shiinagawa himself has been active all the time.

It was also on a whim, Mori Ogai did not discuss the issue of Shiinagawa with anyone, as if his intuition was reminding him not to knock on the closed door lightly.

This looks like magic, as if Shiinagawa really came alive because of the magic cast by someone unknown.

So, does the magic of this miracle have a time limit, will it be like Cinderella in the fairy tale, all magic will be invalid at the moment when the clock strikes twelve o'clock at night.

Now Mori Ogai thinks he may have found the answer.

After listening to Mori Ogai's words, Shiinagawa had only one thought.

"Doctor Sen is really wicked."

"Eh--"

Mori Ogai straightened his face immediately, and Alice smiled and echoed beside him.

"Yes, yes, Lin Taro is indeed quite wicked."

"Even little Alice is like this!"

Shiinagawa stretched her waist, moving her muscles that had become a little sluggish from lying on the bed all the time.

"I know the general situation. Thank you, Dr. Sen. If I knew about it, I would have asked earlier."

"Huh? Is that all? Shiina-kun wants to talk about that?"

"Aha."

Shiinagawa sighed and looked at Mori Ogai with a helpless expression.

"What does Dr. Sen want me to do? I cried a lot after hearing that I was dead, and I still couldn't accept it. Besides, I was already mentally prepared. Dr. Sen would not really want to see this The scene, right? Then Dr. Sen is really bad enough."

The strange thing is that after Shiinagawa heard the answer he had already thought of, the feeling that came to his heart immediately was upset. He is not in a good mood now, so what he said was also tingly.

"Shiina-kun, are you angry?"

"I'm not angry!"

But the next moment, Shiinagawa took a deep breath and denied his previous statement.

"Yes, I was angry, because I was very upset to think that I died because I didn't dodge the shell."

What was my previous self doing, couldn't even dodge shells? !

After hearing Shiinagawa's words, Mori Ogai was taken aback, and then he laughed out loud until his stomach ached. He wiped away the physical tears that flowed out due to the failure of emotional control, and faced the man who had no idea what he was laughing at. Shiinagawa said so.

"Sure enough, whether in the past or now, Shiina-kun's strangeness has not changed."

"Let me just take that as Dr. Sen's compliment on me."

Shiinagawa flipped over lightly, stood barefoot on the cold ground, and took out his shoes from under the bed.

"Where is Shiina-san going?"

"Needless to say, of course I'm going to see Dazai."

He unbuttoned the hospital gown one by one, and now he was only wearing a white T-shirt on his upper body. When he was about to take off the pants part of the hospital gown, Mori Ogai covered Alice's eyes and yelled at him.

"Wait, wait, Shiina-kun, what are you doing, little Alice is still watching!"

"It doesn't matter, that kind of thing."

Shiinagawa kept moving his hands, not wavered by Mori Ogai's words at all, he quickly changed his clothes.

"Anyway, no matter which one is Dr. Sen, now I don't want to play house with you, doctor."

It seems that the mood is really bad, Mori Ogai thinks so.

But, Shiina-kun, isn't it a basic virtue to see through without telling the truth? !

Shiinagawa still chose to turn over the window, but after jumping down, he suddenly thought of something, so he grabbed the edge of the window sill and returned to the ward.

He said goodbye to the dazed Mori Ogai.

"Then, Dr. Sen, goodbye."

After saying this, he turned out the window again, and that skillful technique seemed to be an old habitual offender.

In fact, Shiinagawa lied, and he didn't think it didn't matter, although Dazai could live well without him, and the lives of the people around him would not change much.

But he still felt a little regretful. Shiinagawa, who was fighting on the roof, looked at his twitching palms and sighed.

If he had known earlier, he shouldn't have promised to go to next year's summer festival with Dazai. He could feel that his physical condition was getting worse and worse. People who make promises but can't keep them are the worst people.

It would be fine if there was no agreement.

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