Mo Dongyang

The severe winter is gradually approaching. After mid-November, except for some evergreen pines and cypresses, they still maintain this dull dark green color. The flowers and plants in the palace garden have long since withered, and the withered yellow leaves in the garden of the Imperial Garden are like rain. Usually with the more and more fierce north wind falling from the sky, it forcibly covered the gray-blue avenue, and the dead branches and leaves on the ground did not settle down because they found a habitat. The loose and dry branches and leaves It was blown to the sky by the strong wind blowing to the south, and it swirled round and round in the wind. The rustling sound in the wind accompanied the gloomy sky, which was very desolate, just like a dying old man lying on the sickbed. The old broken voice of struggling and screaming.

Although it is not snowing now, it seems that this year's winter is colder than previous years. All the palaces in the palace have already made preparations to keep out the cold. Except for necessary visits, greetings, and gatherings, the concubines try their best to keep their doors closed every day. Going out, guarding the warm palace surrounded by charcoal fire, safely through this severe winter.And even if the palace attendants go out, they will put on heavy palace clothes, shrink their hands into their fat sleeves, and walk away in the biting cold wind.However, the Zhilan Palace, which has always been sparsely populated, is full of guests in such a rare cold winter.

Not to mention that Li Shu had already jumped up from Yan Guiren and was canonized as Concubine Yan, the fact that she regained her favor after so many years is already a great miracle in the palace, because everyone knows that the current emperor always likes the new and dislikes the old, Chao Qin Mu Chu, but in the past half month, the number of times Li Shu was summoned by the Holy Spirit to attend the bedchamber was quite considerable.Most of the palace people in the palace are good at judging the situation and adapting to the situation. Even if there are people who are dissatisfied, they have to obey the usual rules of survival in the palace and visit them reluctantly. There are many people who talk coldly.Because Li Shu was unwilling to change his residence, the old eunuch Zhang Wenying could only assign more eunuchs and maids to Zhilan Hall according to the order of the Holy Majesty to make up for the long-term manpower shortage of Zhilan Hall, and sent many skilled craftsmen to repair the dilapidated Zhilan Hall. Certain decoration and repairs were carried out, and most of the daily utensils that had been used in the palace for many years were removed and replaced with more luxurious royal items.The former Zhilan Palace seems to be completely changed in this winter, and it no longer exists.

Li Shu has gradually become very busy since she was blessed by the Holy Majesty, whether it is the reception of visiting concubines, the return of gifts from various palaces, the visits of various palaces to connect with each other, or the preparations for the next favor, Li Shu They are all very handy, which is completely different from the Lishu I know, because the previous Lishu never bothered to communicate like this.

Li Shu told me that once the original status quo is changed, it will be difficult to recover. Once a person has a higher destination, even though he is extremely reluctant, he has to do something against his wish.

After listening to it, I was very depressed, because I suddenly realized that the distant future is not the same.Originally, I thought that even if Li Shu and I couldn't leave the palace, we could spend our lives together in this huge palace city, but in less than half a month, everything in Zhilan Palace has changed, I don't know. Knowing whether the relationship between me and Lishu will also change, hesitation and fear continue to erode my heart, what will happen to me and Lishu in the future, I have no way of knowing.

I don't know if the relationship between me and Lishu has become estranged these days, but I can still feel the slight changes in Lishu to me these days, because even though I am Lishu's nominal personal maid , but I am not justifiable, because Li Shu never took me with me whether it was a visit, a party with other concubines, or a night watch in the emperor's palace at night, and these were originally for personal maids. However, Li Shu entrusted it to Bi Ling, a court lady who had just taken office, in my job. I was only responsible for bringing some return gifts that Li Shu had specially ordered to the concubines in various palaces in my spare time, to show the sincerity of Zhilan Palace, of course. In the process of this daily repetition, I can still hear a lot of cynicism and sarcasm directed at the Zhilan Palace. I don’t want to see that there are many concubines in the Zhilan Palace. The young concubines don’t even look at the Zhilan Palace. Shu's momentary favor is just a flash in the pan, how much a scene can an outdated concubine hold up, but these young and vigorous harem beauties have seen unprecedented expectations from Li Shu, only looking forward to the Holy Majesty The novelty that was born out of nothing can get bored as soon as possible, so that they can sit and watch the jokes in Zhilan Temple, and they can also gain some possible hope, looking forward to having a spring night with the emperor in the near future.

Sometimes, I would go back and forth between Zhilan Hall and the House of Internal Affairs at a fixed time to receive my salary and some rewards.But apart from these jobs, I have almost nothing to do.The cleaning, tidying, and meals in the palace have been taken over by newcomers. A Xing and I are only in charge of supervising and doing nothing all day long.Sometimes for a few days, I don't see Li Shu at all, because the emperor never leaves the Zhilan Hall, and Li Shu often stays in the emperor's bedroom for two or three days before returning.And since the number of servants in Zhilan Palace has increased, I can no longer do whatever I want like before, and I can only secretly take the books in Lishu's bedroom to read in the small room that belongs to me and A Xing , I can no longer play with Li Shu without any scruples, and life seems to have returned to the blank time when I first arrived at Zhilan Temple.

Only in the short time after Li Shu went to bed and returned to the palace for a few days, can I find the hidden sense of familiarity and intimacy in Li Shu who has let go of all defenses.The first thing Li Shu did after returning to the palace was to take a bath and change clothes, which had become an unwritten habit.Li Shu always likes to embrace me from behind when taking a bath, then leans on my shoulder and closes her eyes in silence. Sometimes the foggy room is so quiet that only the deep or shallow breathing of the two can be heard.I know how tired Lishu is, and I also know that no matter how hard and tiring his thoughts are, Lishu won't confide in me.Li Shu is such a person, she only wants to bear everything alone, and will only bury everything in her heart. I don't know what Li Shu is thinking, I don't know what she is planning, I don't care about these, I just want to share something for Chenosu, if my shoulders can relieve some pressure for Chenosu, I am willing to let Chenosu depend on me for the rest of my life.

Even only in the short time in Lishu's arms can I find the most authentic Lishu.

But it seems that we are all wrong, we think that everything we do is for the other party, but we never think about ourselves; we think that as long as the other party can be good, we are willing to do anything, but we never think about the other party's feelings , and never considered whether the other party would be able to accept everything he did.For the person we love and care about, is everything we do right?

We have all neglected a very important issue, that is communication between each other.

At the end of November, Li Shu was staying in the Zhaoyang Hall as usual, and I had nothing to do to go to the Internal Servant Bureau to get back the more than one month's salary from the Zhilan Hall.The Internal Service Bureau is at the east end of the palace, some distance away from the Zhilan Hall. Although the cold wind is blowing, but because I have plenty of time, I lowered my head and walked unhurriedly towards the destination, just to relax.

Liang Sheng, the deputy head of the Internal Service Bureau, asked me to sign the account book, and respectfully gave me a small box. After I took it, I wanted to say thank you and plan to go home, but who knew that before the words were finished, the other party Pulling me into the dark, it seemed that there was something else to say, but I swallowed back the words I just wanted to say.

"Aunt Qi, everyone knows that Concubine Yan Gui is showing her sharpness now, but the most popular person in front of the Holy Majesty, one sentence from Concubine Yan Gui is worth ten words from Manager Zhang, so..."

The deputy head of the Internal Service Bureau in front of me smiled flatteringly. Under the cover of a thick official uniform, he stuffed a bag of brocade bags into my hand, and then said, "So please Aunt Qi. A few kind words in front of you, so that Concubine Yan can promote me more at the other end of Zhaoyang Hall."

The brocade bag in his hand was much heavier than the small box before, but it was a hot potato, whether he took it or not.Looking at the greedy face in front of me, I had to reluctantly agree.

"Eunuch Liang is worrying. When Concubine Yan returns to the palace, I will definitely say good things for him. Please rest assured."

Eunuch Liang was satisfied and sent me to the gate of the Internal Service Bureau, and told me respectfully that after the matter was completed, there would be a big thank you.

When I got out of the gate, I breathed a sigh of relief, thinking about how to tell Li Shu about today's matter, but I couldn't help rolling my eyes in my heart. I had never seen him so enthusiastic before when Zhilan Hall was deserted, but now But it's another face, I have to admire him for his speed of changing the rudder faster than June Tian, ​​probably because the Zhaoyang Palace has been occupied by the old eunuch Zhang Wenying, so he can't get close to Li Shu, let alone build a relationship, so he had no choice but to find me next to Li Shu as a personal maid to get a chance of promotion.

"Qi Xin!"

I wanted to go back home, but I was stopped by someone just as I turned around.

I turned my head when I heard the sound, only to realize that it was two generals, one of whom I recognized because we had met a few days ago.Today is the third time we met, because I finally remembered the embarrassing situation when we first met, although I tried hard to forget what happened on the night of October 29th.

Now that the two met, I was very embarrassed, but I couldn't ignore it, so I reluctantly went forward to say hello.

"Qi Xin greets the general."

I bowed my head cautiously and saluted the two generals.

"Why, do you remember who I am?"

He couldn't help laughing out loud and asked me.

"Brother Zhang, this is the girl you mentioned, she is quite beautiful."

Another general beside him spoke, and after speaking, he stretched out his hand and tried to lift my jaw, trying to see my appearance clearly.

"Go, go, it's none of your business. Take the money and go back and share with the brothers. I'll go back later."

He knocked off the hand that was reaching out to me and said urgently.

"You really value sex over friends, okay, go back and don't disturb you!"

The other general, half joking, reluctantly left, leaving him and me alone.

"Get up, don't kneel down, it's inconvenient to talk, follow me somewhere else."

He lifted me up with one hand and turned around and strode forward.

I didn't know what he was going to do, but his tone didn't sound like a request but an order, so I subconsciously followed behind him, thinking about walking and stopping to control my pace, keeping a distance.

And his pace was so fast and vigorous that I could hardly keep up.