Mo Dongyang

The author has something to say: it’s almost the end, this volume, Sunrise has been too busy recently, thank you all for accompanying me through this half of the story intermittently, the next volume is still being conceived, thank you for your support!

There is a vast fog around, I can't see the sky and the earth, the unevenness of the soles makes me feel that there should be a piece of gravel under my feet, what kind of place is this, why is it so quiet around, no human voices, no birds, beasts and insects, only stones under my feet The rustling and loose rolling sound.Walking around made me feel like a ghost wandering the city of white mist.It seems that I am the only one left in the chaotic world.

"Lishu, where are you?"

I couldn't help but panic and shouted while running.

We must find Lishu, if she can't see me, she will be anxious and angry like last time.

I don't know when the wind picked up, and the still white mist around me began to move. As the wind drifted to the west, I hurried towards the direction of the fog.Then, when the fog dissipated, I found myself on the top of a desolate rocky mountain, with dry weeds growing sparsely on the bare mountain top, weakly swaying in the wind, and surrounded by pale yellow and broken rock formations, naked and bare exposed to mountain winds.I stood on tiptoe and looked around. On the edge of the cliff not far ahead, a woman in white clothes stood in the floating clouds.

"Wait for me."

I immediately ran over there.

But when I got there, the woman was gone, and there was only floating mist around and the abyss beneath my feet.My heart suddenly panicked, and I stretched out my head to try to find something from the black cliff in front of me, but I found nothing except the white mist rising from the depths of the black hole.Suddenly, there was a slight movement behind me, and I wanted to turn around happily.But before I could turn around, I was suddenly pushed out by the person behind me.

The woman stood on the edge of the cliff expressionlessly, watching me fall to the bottom of the cliff at a speed like a stone.

Quinoa Shu? !

"what!"

I woke up with a sharp cry, but before I had time to look back at this terrible nightmare, the cold sweat on my forehead had already flowed down, the tearing pain in my back and the heartbreaking pain of broken bones made me groan, Moaning, the sucked cold air filled my stomach, and the cold air and the pain made my stomach convulse and tighten.

"Qi Xin is awake, go and tell Aunt Shen."

Grinning my teeth, I saw a girl running out of the house in a hurry, and suddenly realized that the room I was lying in was so strange, with low eaves, yellowed and peeling walls, dilapidated wooden windows, narrow and sealed space, and turbid air. Air.

This is not the house of Zhilan Hall!

"Where is this?"

I turned my head and looked at the maid beside me and asked in a weak voice.

"This is Xinzheku, you were sent here a few days ago, don't you remember?"

The maid's face was full of sympathy.

"some days ago?"

My head was a mess.

"Yes, you have been in a coma for four whole days. You don't know. When you came, you were covered in blood, as if you had just been fished out of a pile of dead people. Your clothes were full of sweat and blood. You can’t even cut your flesh. It’s so miserable and bloody. We have never had a palace man like you. When you were brought in, everyone in the courtyard was shocked. But in other words Come back, what is the relationship between you and Aunt Shen, she gave you the best treatment here, and even vacated this room for you to live alone, do you think there are people above you..."

The maid at the side chattered non-stop, thinking about what could come out of me.

But those words of hers were like buzzing mosquitoes and flies, making my head ache. The fragments of those fragments in Zhilan Temple four days ago broke into my mind piecemeal, the waving stick, the cold back , chaotic palace people, splattered blood, these scattered memories instantly filled my brain, I felt like my head was about to burst, the severe pain in my body and the chaos in my mind made me unable to stop Convulsions, foaming at the mouth.

After all, I didn't wait for the so-called Aunt Shen, and I passed out again.

In mid-August, 12, I have been in Xinzheku for more than half a month, and the wound on my back has basically healed, and I don't need to wrap it in thick gauze anymore.Gradually, I also got used to the life of Xinzheku. Every day I either stayed in the room in a daze, or waited for Aunt Shen to come to change my medicine.Aunt Shen is the head of Xinzheku. Although she is in her early forties, her hair has long since turned gray. Because she has to discipline hundreds of people in Xinzheku, big and small, as hard laborers, her face always has a deterrent seriousness and some mean elements. , frowning all day long, Xin Zheku's palace people were often insulted and punished by her.But Aunt Shen treats me differently. Except for coming to take care of my daily life on time every day, Aunt Shen hardly pays attention to me. Except for some necessary messages, she rarely speaks.I know she doesn't like me from the bottom of my heart, but Zhang Lei spent money and effort to make me the only privileged class in this hardworking hard worker.As a general, Zhang Lei couldn't get into the Xinzheku, which is full of female relatives, so he needed a way to get news about me, and Aunt Shen had easy and generous rewards for Zhang Lei's face, so she didn't have to. The reason is not to choose to be Zhang Lei's mouthpiece and my caretaker.

Now I can go out of Xinzheku to find Zhang Lei. No one dares to stop me, but I don't know why I just don't want to see him.Aunt Shen told me more than once that Zhang Lei wanted to see me, but every time I shied away with various reasons, and finally I told Aunt Shen that I would go out when my wound healed completely.

During this period, A Xing once visited me with a few packs of supplements and wound medicine. She told me that these were given by Lishu. The cutscene, at any rate, is not too unfeeling, I came here today to tell me that she and I can no longer be in the relationship of master and servant, and we will not go to Zhilan Temple to find her in the future.

"Since you left the Zhilan Palace, it has become deserted. The emperor suddenly stopped favoring Master Yan, and I don't know why."

A Xing sat by my bed and said.

"Will you come to see me again?"

I don't want to continue this topic.

"Yes, but no longer in the name of Master Yan." She replied.

"Oh." I was a little disappointed.

"Oh, by the way, I forgot to tell you. Fulu asked me to tell you that he said he was sorry for you." She said again.

"Why?" I asked.

"Do you still remember the morning after Master Yan came back from the north tour? Although Master Yan was closed to the public because of illness, she called Fulu to go early in the morning. In fact, Master Yan knew about your relationship with Zhang Lei early in the morning. , because Fu Lu told her everything that day."

A Xing told a secret that shocked me so much.

No wonder Lishu asked me that man's name that day, so she knew everything, but why didn't she explain it clearly to me, but deliberately teased me like I was a fool.

"Why didn't Fulu tell me at the time?" I couldn't digest such a fact.

"He was afraid of Master Yan, so he didn't dare to tell you. In the end, something happened to you, and he felt so guilty that he asked me to tell you the truth. He said he couldn't help it, and wanted to ask for your forgiveness." A Xing explained.

"Tell him that I don't blame him, and tell him not to blame himself anymore. In other words, everyone will choose Mingzhebao. Who hasn't suffered some hardships these days. Besides, it's not his fault that I am like this now." Sigh.

"Well, I'll tell him, it's getting late, I should go too." A Xing stood up and said goodbye to me.

"Sit down for a while?"

I couldn't bear A Xing to leave, so I reached out my hand to keep her.

"No, Zhilan Temple is no different than before. Without you, there are a lot more daily chores. Take care of yourself, and I will come to see you from time to time."

A Xing smiled wryly and shook my hand, then turned and left.

"Thank you." I was a little frustrated.

"Qi Xin, don't be downcast, and don't have to feel resentment towards Master Yan, have you ever thought about what happened this time, Master Yan didn't intentionally harm you, but was saving you instead, she even satisfied all your thoughts , you should be thankful that it is Xin Zheku who is lying down now, and not in the emperor's bedroom."

A Xing sighed deeply, and after she finished her last words, she left in a hurry without looking back.

For a long time after Ah Xing left, I didn't think about eating or drinking, and I seldom got out of bed. I sat on the kang all day long, in a trance, depressed, and my body was getting thinner and thinner day by day.Zhang Lei was already getting angry outside the hospital. He asked Aunt Shen to try her best to feed me, but I just didn't cooperate. Even if three or four people forced me to feed me, I would vomit the food afterwards due to nausea Two clean.In those days, there was no Zhang Lei in my mind at all, and it was full of Li Shu's cold and thin back.

It turns out that she knows everything, and she has arranged everything. Even though she resents me for betraying her, she still chooses to fulfill me in the end.But why do I have to passively accept Lishu’s prior arrangement every time, I can’t live according to my wish from the beginning to the end, I have tried hard, but in the end, I still become the shadow of Lishu, being Blessed under the wings of Quinoa.

Lishu, you have thought of everything for me, and I know this is the last time you help me, because I have no place in your heart, but how do you know what I think in my heart? I don't need you to help me with my meager strength, but you just turn around to satisfy my trivial thoughts. These are not what I want at all.

I can no longer tell who is helping whom.