My destined love

I lost contact with the outside world.

I didn't have a mobile phone or a computer, and I was ordered not to step out of the door half a step, "If you go out, this is the door, and you will never come back in your life!" These are the exact words of my mother.

The sun outside the window was just right, and there were children playing downstairs, and their laughter was ear-piercing. I sat in the shadow of the corner of the room with my knees hugged. For three days, except for eating, going to the toilet, and sleeping, I kept this position without moving.

A melody repeatedly appeared in my brain, long, soft, and sad, as if I had heard it a long time ago, and it seemed to be my own hallucination.I was completely immersed in this melody, even though there was no music in my ears, I was sure I could "hear" it.Its appearance reassured me a lot. I gradually followed the beat and drew triangles with my fingers on the ground. As the rhythm of the melody strengthened, my finger strokes became faster and faster, and I didn't even notice that my nails were broken.

"Come out to eat!" There was a voice far away, I ignored it and continued to enjoy the music in my heart. "What are you doing?!" Someone grabbed my hand that was waving on the floor, I raised my head, and my mother's face was reflected in my pupils. "What are you doing? Why are your fingers bleeding?"

After she reminded me, I realized that blood was oozing from the broken nail, but I didn't feel any pain.I withdrew my hand, not letting her bandage me, stood up silently and walked along the wall to the door.This route is the only way for me to get out of the house in three days, because I feel at ease only when I walk close to the wall.

Lunch is my favorite dish. Stir-fried lotus root slices are bright in color, and braised crucian carp looks very tempting, but now I can't whet my appetite at all.Same as the previous two days, the whole family ate their own food and did not talk to each other. I completely seemed to complete the task, and the dishes were rarely moved, as long as the rice was finished, it was over.

"Eat vegetables!" My mother put a large piece of fish into my bowl, as if ordering me.

I didn't respond or refuse. I mechanically stuffed the fish into my mouth, but accidentally got stuck by the fishbone.I coughed a few times to spit out the thorn, and because of too much force, tears also flowed down accidentally, I raised my hand to wipe away the tears, and continued to eat the rice in the bowl with my head down.

"Who are you showing this dead look?!" I don't know if the action of wiping my eyes offended my mother, she suddenly yelled at me.

"..." I was silent, I didn't want to say anything.

My mother couldn't bear it anymore and threw the chopsticks on the table, a little hysterical: "He almost killed you, don't you know?! Rao Che, you really grew up and your wings became stiff, and you actually carried me and your dad and that A kind of person - fall in love?!"

I almost buried my face in the bowl, tears flowed down my nose and into my mouth, and my whole body trembled from forbearance.

"I don't care if you like men or women, but you just want to like that scum!" The more she spoke, the more angry she became, her voice slowly became choked up, "Are you only happy if you want to piss me off?!"

"Okay, okay, young people are ignorant, just scold and scold, don't be too angry." Dad took her hand to comfort her.

"I still remember clearly what happened back then. How did his family treat us?! He almost killed someone, and he didn't even apologize. He just opened his mouth and kept silent to pay you. What did I do when my son was autistic and went to see a psychiatrist? You also know that the boy never showed his face from the beginning to the end, heh, now he is fine, and suddenly he changed from a murderer to my son's boyfriend! It's really exciting!"

He apologized... I moved my lips but couldn't make a sound, tears burst down like a bank, I really wanted to say that he was sorry and he was very good to me, but in this atmosphere, I couldn't open my mouth at all, I can only hold it in my heart and endure the suffering.

"You try to contact him again! Your dad and I will pretend that you died a few years ago!" Mom said the last harsh words and went to the bathroom. Before turning around, the tears on her face were obvious.

Dad sighed and followed, leaving me alone with a table full of dishes.Before dating Liu Yuechen, I never thought about how to choose when love and family are in a dilemma. If someone asked me this question at that time, I would definitely choose to give up love and maintain family relationship. After all, my parents have done too much for me. Now, I can't let go of either party, and I even feel that I would rather give up myself than choose one of them.

I spent the whole afternoon in a daze again, and the music was still in my mind, over and over again, until I went to bed and the song was still looping.I lay on the bed and tightened the quilt, wrapping myself tightly into a cocoon, blocking out the sound and air outside.

"Squeak..." The movement by the window woke me up. These days, my nerves have become very sensitive. Even the slightest sound will startle me. Sometimes I can't sleep all night because there is a The cat meowed all night.The noise outside the quilt continued, as if someone had entered my room. I lay still and didn't care what happened. If it was a thief, let him steal it.

The bed beside me sank, and a hand suddenly reached into my quilt, covering my mouth accurately to keep me from making a sound before I yelled.The quilt was pulled back, and through the weak light outside the window, I saw the face of Liu Yuechen who I missed so much.Everything happened so suddenly that I suspected that I was dreaming, but his clean eyes shone brightly in a faint halo, which was much more real than a dream.

"Shh." He made a silent gesture and took something out of his pocket.

I took it over and saw that it was a new mobile phone. I was dumbfounded to see him continue to take out the data cable and charger from the bag, and asked in a very low voice: "How did you get here?" But on the second floor.

"I stepped on the air conditioner on the first floor and turned it up. Fortunately, your windows are not locked." He leaned over and whispered in my ear, the warm breath made me feel very at ease.

I got up and hugged him, although I have a lot to say and ask, but there is nothing more real than a hug at this moment.I vented all the grievances and sadness these days, and he let me wet a large area of ​​his back.I greedily feel his breath and body temperature, always afraid that he will disappear in front of me in the next second. "Stay with me for a while, just for a while?" I kept repeating this sentence in a low voice, begging him and hypnotizing myself at the same time.

"Well, I'll accompany you, I won't go..." He answered me over and over without bothering him, his voice soft.

I don’t know how long I cried, and the sleepiness slowly hit me. I hugged him and lay down. I felt unprecedented tiredness and peace of mind in his arms. I held his hand tightly. I think I can finally have a good night’s sleep. up.