My destined love

I hid my mobile phone under the mattress, and almost every few minutes, my hand would unconsciously touch that location, always giving the illusion that it was vibrating.In fact, I know that the mobile phone will not take the initiative to send messages at all. Liu Yuechen is a person who considers issues very comprehensively. He will not contact me rashly and cause me trouble and distress. Time to reply.But I didn't dare to look for him, the slightest movement at the door would make my whole body tense, for fear that my only way of contacting him would be taken away.

My parents are walking back and forth in the living room, and my mother will come in from time to time to inspect and see what I am doing when I shut myself in the room, so I dare not touch that mobile phone.The temperature around me last night seemed to have not dissipated, I hugged myself tightly and curled up in the corner of the bed, the melody in my head was gone, and it was replaced by Liu Yuechen's face.Serious, earnest, happy, sad, treacherous, and gentle expressions flashed through my mind one by one, and I cried and laughed foolishly. If someone pushed the door and came in and sat face to face with me at this time, it would definitely be You'd think I was insane.

"Someone is looking for you." My mother's voice made me look up towards the door, and Liu Sheng leaned in and greeted me ruffiantly.

"I heard you are in a bad mood?" He closed the door and walked over.

"Yeah." Do I look like I'm in a good mood?

He dragged a chair and sat next to me, without teasing in his tone: "You guys have come this far."

"Are you here to mock me on purpose?" My voice became very strange because I hadn't spoken for a long time.

"No." He replied, "I asked my brother to break up with you a long time ago. If you had been more thorough then, you wouldn't have become like this."

I cleared my throat and said, "Thank you so much."

"You're welcome, it should be." His skin was still thicker than the city wall.After a short break, he asked again, "So what are you going to do now?"

"I don't know." I really don't know anything.

"Ugh."

"Is he okay?" I asked.

"I didn't know," Liu Sheng rolled his eyes, "he shut himself in his room all day, and didn't let me into his room."

I regretted that I only vented my emotions last night and didn't ask him how he was doing. It seemed that I was the one who took care of him all the time, but I never asked him how he was feeling, and I didn't buy any gifts for him. Am I too Selfish?

"Let bygones bebygones." Liu Sheng patted me on the shoulder, "I'm going back to school soon, do you want to see me off?"

"Sorry," I smiled wryly, "I was grounded."

"What are you doing, this will cause you to relapse." He muttered.

"What do you mean?" I pursed my lips, faintly feeling that he meant something.

"No, no, I just want to say that if you don't go out to bask in the sun, you will lack calcium." He stood up, "I'll go back first, and come to play with you when I have time."

After Liu Sheng left, I continued to immerse myself in my own world in a daze. Maybe it was because I slept too well last night. I am very sober now, but this is not a good thing. The more sober I am, the easier it is to think about things. The dilemma between family and love The choice tormented me all the time, until I finally felt that I would have died a few years ago, and now this feeling that I would rather die is really driving me crazy.

I can't hurt my parents. A few years ago, our family's conditions were not as good as they are now, but I have never felt that my food and clothing expenses have been reduced.During those days when I was rescued in the hospital and when I saw a psychiatrist, my mother quit her job and stayed with me all the time. Without their quiet care, I couldn't imagine what I would be like now.

I don't even want to leave Liu Yuechen, although this person was once my nightmare, and I lived for more than 20 years, and I was influenced by him for nearly half of the time.After escaping from the god of death, my biggest wish is to live my life in peace until I die, but his appearance once again brought earth-shaking changes to my life.Before university, I always thought that no one in this world could be worse than Liu Yuechen, but now?I really can't find anyone better than him.

As night fell bit by bit, I wasted another day, listening attentively to the fact that there was no movement in the living room at this time, presumably my parents were already asleep, I tiptoed out my phone from under the mat, hid in the quilt The screen is turned to the darkest.

"Are you there?"

"Yeah." Sure enough, he stayed by the phone all the time.

"Are you ok?"

"Okay, I just miss you a little bit."

"Send a picture and let me see." I didn't believe he was fine.

He quickly posted a photo, not smiling, looking radiant. I took it for him a long time ago, but I forgot to let him pass it on to me.

"I want to shoot now." I just want to see his state today, I can draw his face with my eyes closed, who wants to see it?

"It's a bit ugly today..." He was obviously avoiding it.

"Don't give up." I insisted.

After waiting for a while, he sent a photo.Under the warm yellow light, his face was very gentle. My fingertips touched the screen and slid across his face, and my heart ached.

"Smooth the skin, so the ink stains!" I pulled the quilt to wipe the moisture from the corners of my eyes.

"The Internet is not good, Meitu software is slow to download, and it doesn't work." He does not deny that he has edited the photos.

"What else did you do besides add filters? Honestly!"

"Go to dark circles..." Well, sure enough...

"Last night was the best sleep I've had this year." I tightened the quilt, missing his warm arms.

"Me too."

"Who are you kidding, you didn't sleep at all."

"Um……"

"So did you rest today?"

"I slept for a while, but I always feel that my phone is ringing."

"Do you want to go to bed first?" I felt sorry for him.

Unexpectedly, he acted like a baby: "No, it took me a long time to wait for you to go online."

"Liu Sheng is here in the afternoon." I paused, then continued to type, "He said that if we had been more thorough and broke up earlier, it would have been much easier than the trouble we have had now."

The other party was silent for a long time, so long that I thought he had fallen asleep before replying: "For me, not being able to be with you is torture whether it is morning or evening, and it makes no difference."

I was stunned. In my impression, he seldom said such things. Neither of us are hypocritical people. We don’t talk about our feelings for each other all the time. Now it seems that he loves me more than I love him. .

We chatted a lot, but we had a tacit understanding of not talking, because even if we talked, it was useless. After all, life is not a novel. I couldn’t give up everything and elope with him like the protagonist of the novel. Taking one step at a time, I plan to wait for the matter to fade away after a while, and then have a good talk with my parents.

Until the sky turned pale, we finally couldn't hold on any longer. After saying good morning to each other, I hid my phone and soon fell asleep.