My destined love

Because of me, we haven’t returned to our hometown to pay New Year’s greetings on the seventh day of the new year. Some relatives call to ask about the situation. My mother always excuses me by saying that I have a cold. , I reluctantly cheered up and told them not to worry, but God knows how bad my mental state is now.

I am waiting for an opportunity and want to make a final effort for my relationship. I know that Liu Yuechen has the same thoughts as me. He has long revealed that he wants to talk to my parents, but I can't rely on him for everything. , I have to rely on myself to fight for my own affairs.

Early this morning, my mother went out to buy vegetables, and my father was watching TV in the living room. I hesitated and finally stepped out of the room and sat next to him.

"Are you up?" he asked casually.

"Yeah." I scratched my nails nervously.

"There is still porridge in the rice cooker." They should have eaten it, and the porridge was specially warmed for me.

"Okay." I definitely didn't come out to drink porridge.

The morning news was broadcast on TV, and the world situation was still in turmoil. The camera was full of gunpowder smoke, people were running around, and helpless children were crying loudly. The scene was extremely miserable.

"How long have you been together?" Dad's unexpected question startled me.

"Not long after the first year of freshman year..." I seem to be a little bit wrong.

"More than a year." He continued to watch TV, and calmly picked up the remote control to change the channel.

"It's only after being separated in the middle that we can get back together." I don't know why I added this sentence.

"Because of a quarrel?"

"No, we're fine..."

"The two are not firm enough?"

"He's afraid of the current situation, so he thinks it's better to separate earlier." I breathed in, "That's why we..."

"he is very smart."

Well, I know, compared to Liu Yuechen, I'm just a fool without a brain, foolishly falling into his trap, foolishly falling in love with him, foolishly separating and reconciling, completely without my own plans and opinions.

"I'm not against you, but I won't support you either." Dad made his attitude clear, "You young people's feelings are uncontrollable, I know that."

I didn't answer because I thought he was right.

"But whether you are a man or a woman, you should have a sense of responsibility, not just for fun." He turned down the volume of the TV a little, "After all, what happened to you before, can you be sure whether he is sincere or not? "

"Sincerely." I looked down at the floor, no matter how stupid I was, I could tell.

"You are not young now, and I should tell you something." He raised his hand to turn off the TV, and said seriously, "When you were in the third grade of junior high school, we received a call saying that you were resuscitating in the operating room. Just passed out."

I bit my lip, my heart hurt.

"That time you broke your head was worse than before. When we rushed to the hospital, we had no idea why this happened. I heard from the boy's father that it was an accident while playing games, but when the inspection report came out , we were really shocked.

"You have large and small wounds and scars all over your body. As your parents, we didn't know it at all. It was only after we questioned you that we realized that you had been bullied at school for a long time."

It's not my parents' dereliction of duty. I deliberately concealed everything. I lied to them that they hit their head while playing ball, cut their hands in physical education class, took a shower and changed their clothes in secret. I never dared to tell the truth.

"The boy's family paid the medical bills readily, and kept emphasizing his privacy. Later, he said even more harshly that he could handle it even if he reported the case. Our family was not rich at the time, and we knew we couldn't play with them, and you had already been rescued. , so in the end I had no choice but to let it go.

"But after taking you home, your mother and I gradually found that you were very emotional, less and less talkative, and often squatted in a corner doing the same thing, such as spending an afternoon drawing the same words in a notebook. symbols, or keep humming the same tune, and after asking people, I think you may have autistic tendencies.”

I also know part of what my father said. I remember that the operation was so painful that I didn't dare to meet strangers. I locked myself in the room for fear of seeing Liu Yuechen's face again.

"We suspended you from school, and went to counseling rooms, large and small, but you were very resistant to meeting strangers, so the results were not good. Later, you even showed self-abuse behavior. All sharp things in the house had to be locked away. Even if it’s a thumbtack. Your mother is paranoid that the person who needs to tie the bell to untie the bell must let the boy apologize in person to cure your heart disease. She didn’t listen to my advice and found the boy’s house, but he still didn’t show his face .”

He spoke very slowly, and I felt that the balance in my heart was gradually tipping to one side, but when I thought of what Liu Yuechen had done for me, I forced myself to turn the balance back.

"And then, your mother knelt in front of their house..." Dad's words hit me physically and mentally. I knew my mother's character, but I didn't expect her to do this for me.Tears welled up in my eyes in an instant, and I suppressed my voice, my body trembling uncontrollably.

"In the end, they didn't wait to apologize, but their family called the police, saying that we were making trouble unreasonably. I picked her up from the police station, but she kept crying on the way, and she waited at the door for a long time before entering the house." Dad smiled bitterly For a moment, "She is afraid of frightening you, so she dare not cry in front of you."

I buried my face in the palm of my hand and let the tears rage, feeling deeply remorseful. Before that, I thought her attitude towards Liu Yuechen was too aggressive, but now I know that she has done so much for me. I am really, really sorry Sensible, even felt unworthy to be her son.

Dad patted me on the back and continued: "Later, she quit her job and stayed at home with you wholeheartedly. Your recovery is the greatest comfort to us. Parents have expectations for you, but life is still your own. You should think about it carefully." Think about what to do."

I sat on the sofa blankly, playing what my dad said just now in a loop in my head, feeling like a knife was twisting my heart.My mother took a look at me when she came back from buying vegetables, went to the kitchen and put the porridge in front of me, said "Hurry up" bluntly, and didn't forget to help bring the vegetables.

I stupidly stuffed the porridge into my mouth, wanting to apologize to her but felt that I didn't even have the qualifications to apologize.My mother was very beautiful when she was young, and she had a strong personality, but she not only made her hair gray and wrinkled because of me, she also gave up her self-esteem and only asked for an apology, but what am I doing?Falling in love with someone who shouldn't be loved, and then hurt everyone who treats me well, including myself.

After drinking a bowl of porridge mixed with tears, I retched a bit, but didn't spit it out.This bowl of porridge is really too bitter, so bitter that I never want to drink it again in my life.

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