Stand by me

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"No one can predict when Ryosuke will wake up and when he will fall asleep again. The doctor can only prescribe some stimulant drugs and sleeping pills to him, on the one hand to prevent him from falling asleep without warning, and on the other hand to improve his sleep. quality. Even though he had to take more than 50 pills a day, Ryosuke accepted the fact that he was a patient and needed to take medicine for life.” Dad said sadly, “With great perseverance, he completed his studies while cooperating with the treatment. Become After becoming a social person, he also did well. When he was sober, he had reliable friends, trustworthy colleagues, and little girls who supported him and paid attention to everything about him. The changing work content brought him Freshness, he is always very energetic, but both he and I understand that this is just delaying the time to die. In the dead of night, he often cries secretly by himself, I dare not disturb him, crying out of his heart It will feel better. This operation is not Ryosuke's anger, but an opportunity, do you understand Yuxiang? I dare say that timing is fate. No matter how much pain the operation has to endure, Ryosuke wants to do it. Even this time If there is no success, there will be new opportunities in the future, and he will still choose this way. If you are not successful, you will be benevolent, because you can only create when you are alive, and you will have hope. Yu Xiang, let us not be short-sighted, take a long-term view, and support him well.”

Yuxiang Nakajima collapsed on his bed and buried his head in the pillow.Dad looked at him for a long time, as if waiting.

"Yuxiang, there is one more thing I want to talk to you about." Dad said, bowing his head and picking up the wet glass with his hand, "Ryosuke told me he likes you, the kind of love you know. You know his Do you mind?"

Yuto Nakajima opened his eyes wide, even though he was still crying, and turned his head on the pillow.He wanted to nod and shake his head, didn't Yamada Ryosuke confess everything to his father because of Yuoka, but for himself?

"And you, do you like men too? You like him, don't you?"

"Maybe I'm in the same mood, Dad... I like him very much, very, very much." Nakajima Yuxiang said in a muffled voice, hoping that his father would scold him and beat him up, so that things would become better Get better, get easier.

But Dad didn't do that, he just showed such an expression, and after a few minutes, he asked, "Since when did it start?"

"The second semester of high school." Nakajima Yuxiang added, "We have always respected each other and have not done anything other than friends."

Dad's black eyes were deep and bottomless, making it impossible to see his true mood, "Well, the matter between me and Yaji must have brought a lot of pressure to you."

Nakajima Yuxiang didn't want to make him sad, but after thinking about it, he nodded honestly.

"I'm sorry," Dad said.Nakajima Yuxiang saw his painful expression. At this time, Yuxiang realized how deep the pain he caused and how much grief he brought to his family.

"Don't apologize, Dad." Yuxiang Nakajima burst into tears, "Are you angry with me? Because I can't do what you want."

"It's a little bit at first, but just like I want Liangjie to be healthy, I also want you to be happy. Although I don't understand your world, why should I understand it? You don't have to rely on a sober heart to climb over the wall. Family members just need to hold hands Just go forward. I am your father, and home will always be your home."

For the first time, Yuxiang Nakajima cried loudly in his father's arms like a child.Hate is sometimes the misuse of the power of love.Dad loves him deeply, he didn't realize it before, and he won't miss it again in the future.All his life, he was "Papa's son."

"Sorry, I always wanted to grow up quickly, thinking that age is a sign of growth, but I was wrong. I matured too late and hurt a lot of people." Yuxiang Nakajima sobbed, "Dad, I want to go home , I want to stay by Ryosuke's side, but I don't know if he will accept me again..."

"Do you remember what your mother said? If there is anything you want to do, you must do it now." Dad patted his head, "Don't cry anymore, you are taller than me now, and you have a puppy Watch from the side."

"What are you looking at, it's all asleep." Yuxiang Nakajima retorted, his nose bubbling as soon as he spoke.

He laughed with Dad.

Nakajima Yuxiang handed over the rest of his affairs in Paris to Okamoto Kei, and asked him to take care of the dachshund first.Although Keito was surprised, he accepted it without asking anything. Yuxiang was very grateful to him.Two days later, Yuxiang Nakajima boarded a flight to Tokyo. The sky is thousands of miles and the deep ocean is vast. He has to fly tens of thousands of miles, flying through countless canyons and flowing rivers, but none of these can stop one from going home heart of.He is often said to have a childlike innocence, because all he meets are good people, and every face he sees is full of smiling faces, so he is not out of tune with this world. Maybe this is the fate that his father said.Now as long as they need him, he is also willing to be their courage.