In the name of love

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"Sorry." Ji Lan's tone was full of apology, "I always only pay attention to my own affairs... I only care about acting like a baby to senior, but I never take into account senior's mood."

forty in the name of love

"Sorry." Ji Lan's tone was full of apology, "I always only pay attention to my own affairs... I only care about acting like a baby to senior, but I never take into account senior's mood."

Yulu shrugged, "It's nothing, it should be said, it's nothing now."

In fact, he later reflected on himself, if today Sam suddenly stood in front of him and said to him: "I don't love your mother anymore, let's get married! Lil." How would he react.

Will he be ecstatic?Will you drop your pants right away and pounce on that coveted ass?Can he settle down and live a lifetime with the man he has been unrequitedly in love with for 20 years?

The answer is obvious, but he dare not admit it.

He never dared to love.And this problem is not different because the object changes.

Ji Lan's hand was still around the back of his neck, Yulu saw him hesitantly pursed his lips, as if he was making a big decision, and then slowly opened his mouth after a while:

"I... and Jize are not what you think, senior."

He said that Yulu looked at him unexpectedly.Ji Lan closed her eyes.

"I don't know what the seniors heard or saw before... But what I said to the seniors now, I have never told anyone in my life, and I will never say it a second time."

Ji Lan cleared her throat, "I am indeed very close to Ji Ze, among all the brothers. He is my most important elder brother, my most cherished friend, and I think that from now until the end of my life, no one will be closer to him than that man." It's more important to me."

Yulu opened her mouth to say something, but Ji Lan shook her head.

"But I don't want to be with Jize...at least not the type that senior Yu imagined. The person Jize cherishes is his sister-in-law, his wife Xintao, and I agree with this."

Ji Lan lowered her head.

"I don't want him to choose me. If he chooses me and abandons the happiness he deserves, I will scold him severely. I just want to simply be by his side. Although he looks big, but In fact, his heart is gentle and fragile, and he needs someone to help him. As long as the situation permits, I am willing to be that person."

Ji Lan said softly, "I hope he will be happy all his life. This is all my wish."

"how about you?"

Yulu couldn't help but speak, and found his voice hoarse, "He's been happy all his life, what about you?"

Ji Lan didn't answer, just smiled lightly.He had never seen such a smile on this young man's face, it was so beautiful that it made his heart ache.

He couldn't understand that, for Yuli, love and sex have always been closely linked.After the confession is successful, the next step is to carry the stick to the battle. This is a due process of course. If two people don't do that kind of thing together, why bother dating?

Yulu can't believe that there is that kind of love in this world, that kind of love that only has the harmony of the soul, the dedication without regrets, and the pure and clean love in the flesh.He tried it once, when he was young, and it turned out to be a vain that exists only in philosophy textbooks.Man is after all a sensory and physical animal, and has been since he ate the forbidden fruit in the Garden of Eden.

But he and Ji Lan are really two extremes in the final analysis.One has sex but no love, and the other has love, but is destined to be asexual all his life. Yulu can't tell which is more "abnormal".

"It seems that Senior and I... are really similar."

As if understanding Yulu's thoughts, Ji Lan picked up the wine glass and took a sip, and finally laughed leisurely.

Yulu looked at Ji Lan's side cheeks, and both of them confessed the most private part of their hearts.This was the first time that Yulu no longer felt that Ji Lan was surrounded by clouds and mists, and the gods descended from the clouds to the mortal world and stood by his side.

Yulu stretched out his hand and found that he could finally touch this young man.

He pursed his lips, and simply stretched out his two hands, hugging Ji Lan, who had been leaning against the sofa, into his arms, together with the confused child more than ten years ago.

"...just once."

Yulu buried her face in the side of Ji Lan's neck, her voice was muffled.

"I'm not trying to force you. Although I have no integrity, at least I know not to sprinkle salt on other people's wounds. I just... want to try, Ji Lan, you have thought like that before, haven't you? You want me to kiss you You, that night, felt that I could undo the demonic barriers on your body."

He leaned close to Ji Lan's lips and kissed him.The kiss was so light, like the one he had pressed on another man's lips that day in the lab.

"Treat it as a dream, whether it's normal or abnormal, just treat it as two abnormal people healing each other, try it once? Stay with me, just this once, if you still can't accept me , I will never pester you again, it is good for you to wish to be friends, I will give up from now on, as long as it is one time."

He lowered his head, not daring to look at the embarrassment on the young man's face.

"Just once, give yourself to me. Okay, Ji Lan?"

Ji Lan didn't say a word, Yulu still hugged him and reached out to unbutton Ji Lan's chest.Ji Lan's breathing was extremely tight, and when the first button was unbuttoned, both sides could hear the sound of breathing suppressed in each other's chests.

'His heart is the softest in our Ji family, and he doesn't know how to reject people. The words of Ji Hua the snake lingered in Yu Lv's mind, and he knew he was taking advantage of this.

Despicable, he knew it.But that was all he had left.

As expected, the young man in front of him didn't resist, so Yulu turned over and pressed Ji Lan under him again. When he reached out to untie his trousers, Ji Lan suddenly made a weak sound.

"Ricky..."

Yulu was taken aback for a moment, he didn't expect to hear this name in this population at this moment.To the current him, this name was like a piece of soldering iron, which caused Yulu to stop breathing in an instant.

"Senior likes that boy... right?" Ji Lan lay on her back under him, looking straight at him.

Yulu's throat twitched uncontrollably, and he looked away.

"The person I like is you."

He leaned down and sealed the young man with a kiss. Ji Lan struggled a little, but he couldn't resist Yulv's skill, so he was pressed down by Yulv and kissed him for a while, all the way down to his chest.Every cell in Ji Lan's body seemed to be trembling slightly, but it wasn't because of his kiss.

"No...it's not like that."

Ji Lan shook her head, stretched out her hand and gently pushed Yulu's depressed chest away, "I knew from the first time I went to Senior's house and saw Ricky, that Senior likes that person and loves him more than anyone else. It's just that senior feels guilty towards that boy, so he always dare not admit it directly."

He suddenly laughed, "Speaking of which, when I went to senior's house that time, the reason why I was so indifferent to senior may really be a little... tasteful, right? Because I have never seen senior look at another person with that kind of look. .”

Yulu's limbs were stiff, but he still refused to admit defeat.His fingertips slid down Ji Lan's waist, rubbing against Ji Lan's trousers, and there was silence under the underwear.Yulu pressed his body against Ji Lan's body, which was already hot as fire, and rubbed it flatteringly. Ji Lan's breathing was a little short, but he shook his head, and this time he used both hands to push Yulu away. Back to the original position.

"Senior will regret it." Ji Lan said, leaning on the sofa with both hands, sat up and looked directly at him.

Yulu's heart beat as fast as a drum, but there was a place in his heart that was icy cold. He vaguely knew what the person in front of him was saying, and vaguely knew that what he said was right.But like the villagers on the BBS, he chose to cover his ears and refused to absorb any information that contradicted his cognition.

"I... I don't like Ricky, at least not that much." Yulu still stiffened his neck.

"Senior means that even if Mr. Ricky dies somewhere, a place that senior can't find and is afraid to find, can senior still be with another person with peace of mind and live his life without regrets?"

Ji Lan's tone was full of sadness, like a sharp thumbtack, the nail was shallow but hit the heart.

"No, of course not, but..."

Yulu looked a little flustered, he shook his head, "But that's different from that. It's true that I care about Ricky, and it's true that I like you..."

"Senior is lying."

Ji Lan quickly cut him off.Yulu looked at the young man with clear eyes, just like defeating a witness in court.

"I've been watching from the side... so I understand. Seniors think I'm cold. One reason is that seniors are afraid. Seniors say they like me, but they are always afraid of really liking me. So seniors have been making excuses. I found an excuse not to go any further with me."

"I do not……"

Yulu blurted out, but Ji Lan's eyes were sharp. He took the glasses that Yulu took off from the table and put them on the bridge of his nose again.

"But seniors are not like this to Mr. Ricky...at least the seniors I saw, in front of Ricky, always want to show their best side, but at the same time they have no confidence in themselves, thinking that Ricky will abandon you because of age, although Ricky and I said he never cared about it. This is the first time I have seen a senior who is so concerned about gains and losses."

Ji Lan didn't wait for Yulu to refute, and said softly.

"In court, senior stood up for Ricky, senior probably didn't know it! The look on senior's face at that time was even worse than that at the book club, as if the whole person was on fire ...It's not just light. Seniors like that are so dazzling that it makes people jealous."

Ji Lan