In the name of love

After cky lived together with him again, he lived in the world for two years, eleven months and ten days.

They spent two years, eleven months and three days together in this room. The difference of seven days was in the hospital. Ricky refused to be hospitalized after his illness, and died within a week of hospitalization.

Before his death, Ricky refused to accept any active treatment, even though Ji Lan used the name of corporate assistance to hire a first-class doctor to formulate a professional course of treatment.It is said that some patients have lived under such treatment for ten years, and the virus and complications have been effectively controlled. Ricky didn't appreciate it at all, and even quarreled with Yuli over it.

"I'm not sick." The boy said softly at that time, like a child who simply refuses to take medicine: "I'm not sick, so I don't need to go to the hospital."

And those two years and eleven months passed so peacefully and normally, Ricky ate and slept as usual, made noises around him, did housework for him, and occasionally got up to cook home-cooked stir-fries.Going to see a movie with him during the holidays, and sometimes going for a walk in a nearby park, is so common that it is a bit boring.

If there's any difference between them, it's that Ricky has always refused to sleep with him.Although Yulu thought that he had made complete preparations, checked the information, and repeatedly assured Ricky that there would be no problem.

But the teenager was very insistent on this at the time.During those three years, they lived like an old married couple who kept their etiquette. Except for the goodnight kisses they exchanged when they went home, there were also occasional intimate behaviors, and they almost never crossed the line.

He was also surprised by himself. If he told him three years ago that he, Yulu, could live this kind of Socratic life, that past Yulu would definitely scoff at him.What surprised him even more was that this way of interacting did not make him and Ricky strangers from now on. Compared with those previous physical memories, they may be a little more like lovers at this time.

There was indeed a "something" growing between him and Ricky, and in those short three years, it blossomed.

Ricky even once asked him to find someone else, and took the initiative to find him something that Yuli would like, and introduced them to each other in the bar, but when Yuli was teasing that person, he excused his stomach pain and left quietly.

At that time, Yulu remembered that he chased home, picked up Ricky, who was almost crying and wet the pillow, from the bed, kissed him and whispered all night, and the two never mentioned similar things since then.

Apart from this little regret, the two lived so peacefully.Yulu used to think that she was a born slut, and that she couldn't live without sex.But these two years and eleven months also gave him a new understanding of himself.

It turns out that he, Yulu, can also be loved.

It turned out that he, Yulu, also had such a heart that could pity and love others, and it turned out to be such a beautiful thing to experience this kind of mood, and he suddenly realized this.

During those two years and eleven months, Yuli also reconnected with Sam who was far away in New York State.In the past, only Sam sent him postcards unilaterally. When his stepfather received his first reply letter, he was so nervous that he called him across the ocean, asking if he was going to move or something. The reaction made Yulu smile.

"It's nothing, I just suddenly realized that I still seem to love you quite a bit."

It was rare for Yulu to say nasty words, and Sam seemed to be suffocated.Ever since he was kissed by him at the airport, Yuli felt that this law school professor with Puritan moral standards was really a little scared, and even used words with shyness.

"Next year's Thanksgiving, maybe I will visit you." Yulu promised him so at the time, looking at Ricky who was curled up and sleeping next to him like a baby.

"Look at Mom, look at your Oscars. And I have someone I want you to see."

Ricky lived so peacefully by his side, so peaceful that Yuli almost had the illusion that Ricky would just live by his side for the rest of his life.

In fact, when Yulu returned to Ricky's side as if pushed by Ji Lan at first, it would be a lie if Yulu said that he had no regrets at all.

He once thought that if Ricky can only live for five years, he will accompany him for five years, and if he can live for ten years, he will accompany him for ten years. In short, it will not be a lifetime.And once Ricky is gone, there will be no grievances between him and that young man. Leaving aside Ji Lan's obstacles, he can use his naturally invincible thick skin to pursue him again openly.

But during the period of cohabitation with Ricky, especially after one or two years passed in such a peaceful way, Yulu felt that it seemed good to continue like this.If the young man around him is destined to be with him for the rest of his life, if this is the fate that God gave him as a loose man in the first half of his life, then it seems good to accept it like this.

But Yulu never thought that death would come so quickly.

Before this, Yuli had never experienced death. Everyone related to him, including Sam, including his mother, and his friends, lived better and longer than him, even the maple leaves that Yuli once raised. Rats and dachshunds were either given away for moving, or they ran away by themselves.

He'd never witnessed anything like that, so he didn't know he was so unprepared.

In the beginning, Ricky just coughed suddenly in the middle of the night. When they first started living together again, Yuli was very nervous about Ricky's physical condition. Whenever Ricky sneezed, Yuli would ask him if he wanted to see a doctor.

But it is probably because the peaceful days have passed for a long time, and Yulu's sensitivity to this aspect has gradually been calmed down. Ricky passed out at home when Yulu appeared in court, and was sent to the hospital by the ambulance called urgently by Yulu.

And the night before, Ricky was still able to say good night to him with a smile, and the two agreed to go to the club to have a carnival together on the weekend night.

For the first time, Yulu deeply felt the true meaning of "acquired immunodeficiency syndrome". No one could believe that it was only a seemingly insignificant cold virus that took away the next 60 years of this young man.

The thing that seemed to be a cold quickly turned into a complication, and the complication soon infected more complications, like a Trojan horse in Ricky's body, slaughtering the entire unsuspecting city of Troy in an instant.

On the first day Ricky entered the hospital, he was still able to talk and laugh. When he woke up, he still blamed Yuli for making a fuss, saying that he had to pack up and go home quickly.When we parted in the morning, Ricky had to hear the news and Ben, who rushed back, helped him to walk downstairs in a sunny place, and the two of them took a photo at that time.

The next afternoon, when Yulu went to the hospital, he was put on an oxygen mask. On the third day, he was admitted to the intensive care unit. After the fourth day, Yulu never saw this lively boy get out of bed again.

Yulu remembers the early morning of the seventh day, the morning before the sun came out, he was guarding the bedside, Ben went downstairs to buy a pack of cigarettes, only he and his boy were in the ward.

Yulu suddenly had a premonition at that time, and he couldn't say what kind of premonition it was, but it was a premonition anyway. Ricky opened his eyes, smiled at him, and before he knew it, tears were streaming down his face.

"I'm sorry, Lil."

After Ricky just said this sentence, Yulu knew what it meant, and tried to hold back the tears from falling down his eyes.

"I'm so selfish, I'm really a selfish man, I like Xiaoli, I know it's better for Xiaoli not to be with me, I know it's better for Xiaoli to find someone else, but I just can't do it. As long as Xiao Lu looks at other men twice more, I'll be so jealous that I'm going crazy."

At that time Yulu was pinching his hand, his unusually cold little hand was tightly pinched.

"I want Xiaoli's eyes to only look at me, and I only want to be alone in my heart. Even if this kind of thinking has not changed until now, even if it has reached this point, it still cannot be changed..."

Yulu opened his mouth to say something, but Ricky shook his head.

"But no... Xiaoli, no... no, this can no longer be done like this."

The boy shook his head and kept shaking his head.

"Xiao Li, I have lived a happy life in the past three years, like a dream, I am really, really happy, so Xiao Li, you should be happy too, and you should enjoy the rest of your life. For Xiao Li, it should be It's not difficult, Xiaoli can do it as long as he works hard, Xiaoli will work hard, right?"

He asked Yulu, but Yulu couldn't answer at that time.He only remembered that Rikcy raised her cheeks at him like that year in Lakeside Park, "Hey, Lil, you can..."

The boy didn't finish the rest of the sentence, but Yulu understood what he meant.He leaned forward and kissed Ricky on the lips.The boy didn't open his eyes again.

The impact of Ricky's death on Yulu was greater than he could have imagined. In the month after Ricky died, Yuli was busy with his funeral. He remembered to inform the insurance company for him, and he remembered to inform Ricky's gangsters. They held a not-so-grand farewell ceremony for Ricky, and most of them were brothers he knew when he was prostitution. sisters.

The young man was also present at the farewell ceremony. He was dressed in a suit and looked out of place under such a cheap ceremony.

Yulu only remembered that he was holding an umbrella, and silently placed the flowers tied with yellow ribbons on the mourning hall belonging to the young man, clasped his hands together for a long time, and then left in the same silence.Yulu didn't meet his eyes from the beginning to the end.

All the relics of Ricky's life were distributed to friends, and there was not much left to him, probably only the pair of black lace briefs, which did not give him a good chance to see things and think about others.

From the beginning, Yulu's life was as usual, washing the sheets, cooking Jane's