In the name of love

ky said blankly.

Over the past two years, Ricky has learned a lot under the influence of Yulu. Sometimes Yulu will practice in the bedroom when he is in court, and Ricky will watch and criticize from the side. It is probably some comments on posture or momentum.When the criticism was too harsh and Yu Lv couldn't bear it, he often gave a summary sentence on the bed on the spot.

……Really bad.Yulu found that even though it was just two years, he and this young man whose name he didn't even know had something like a memory.

Yulu drove the car into City Y, and what Ji Lan said to him a few days ago sounded in his mind: "I promised Ming Nai that I will take her to the lakeside park in City Y this Sunday. 'Although the lakeside park is hundreds of hectares in size, even if you go there, you may not encounter it.And if he ran into Ricky, he might throw a tantrum, but Yuli just couldn't control himself.

He felt that he was really hopeless.Always like this, let yourself catch a phantom far away in the sky, knowing that it is impossible to touch that phantom in your life, but you are satisfied with the days of filling the emotional emptiness with fantasy and delusion.

Maybe I really have an M physique, Yulu thought.

"It's surprising." Ricky said suddenly and leisurely.

Yulu glanced at him, and the two sat down in a small shop near the park. Yulu thoughtfully bought two cans of hot coffee, one for himself, and one cup was stuffed into Ricky's hand, "What's the accident?" He asked Ask Ricky.

"You would choose such a quiet place, I thought you would find a custom shop or something." Ricky raised his lips.

"Don't underestimate me, I was also a literary youth. When I was young, people in the circle called me Xiao Hu Shi. Henry David Thoreau is the writer I admire the most." Yulu said boldly.

There were people coming and going on the sidewalk in the lakeside park, and Yulu subconsciously looked for a thin figure wearing gold-rimmed glasses, but of course there was none.

With hot coffee in both hands, Ricky sat on the chair and giggled.Yulu was uncomfortable with his smile, grabbed the coffee and turned to the other side of the bench, but Ricky took the initiative to lean over, leaning against him with his soft body.

Yulu felt a heavy shoulder, Ricky put his head on his shoulder and didn't move for a long time.

Yulu also feels a little bit, today's Ricky is different from the usual boy at home who let him poke round and flatten.This is the first time he has communicated with Ricky outside of the bed or bedroom, and it is inevitable that he will feel different!

"It means... what happened to your words that day?"

Realizing that he should say something, Yuli coughed at Ricky.

"Those words? What words?" Ricky asked.

"That's... what you told Ji Lan, that you used to be a prostitute... or something."

Yulu also realized which pot he was not opening and which pot he was lifting, and Ricky's originally peaceful face suddenly turned slightly pale.Yulu hurriedly added.

"Uh... I have no other meaning, just chatting casually. You don't have to say what you don't want to say."

Ricky still didn't move away from Yulu's shoulder, he looked at the lake, and spoke for a while without answering the question.

"That person has liked a certain person for a long time." He said.

"Huh?" Yulu was stunned for a moment, not understanding what Ricky meant.

Ricky glanced at Yulu, "Your dream girl, that lawyer who looks like a TV commercial model."

He said that it was only when Yulu realized that he was referring to Ji Lan, "He likes someone and has been secretly in love with him for a long time, but that person always doesn't know his mind, and he also feels that he can't express his mind, so he chooses those feelings. Buried deep in my heart."

Yulu was startled, and subconsciously pointed to himself, Ricky said angrily: "Of course that person is not you, I am not surprised that you will break up in love, that person obviously didn't take you seriously that night, and his eyes looked at you. You, your mind is elsewhere. You are like a telephone pole in the eyes of your dream lover."

Although he knew this cruel reality to some extent, but from someone else's mouth, that other person was still his bed partner for many years, Yulu still felt a little bit pained, and hurriedly trembled twice.

"How do you know?" Yulu couldn't help asking, "Ji Lan told you?"

Ricky glanced back at Yulu, staying on his rarely neat and clean face.

"No reason, I just know," he said.

Yulu watched him shrug his shoulders, turn his head back, and only after a while did he speak leisurely again.

"What I told your dream lover is the truth. I used to be very popular in the East District, and my uncle with me is now going abroad to do business because I earned a sports car. If it wasn't for being caught by the police Catch it, send it to some strange school, I don’t know if I have a sports car now.”

Seeing Ricky's faint, nonchalant smile, Yulu couldn't help but speak again.

"Where's your parents...? I mean, where's your family?"

Ricky lifted his head from Yulu's shoulder, "You really want to know, Lil?" with a half-smile on his face.

Yulu touched his nose, and he also understood what Ricky meant.If you want that simple bed partner relationship to continue, both parties need to know as little as possible about each other.

After all, human feelings are based on understanding each other.The more you know, the deeper the bond.

When it's over, it hurts even more.

"I don't really think so." Yulu had no choice but to say.

Ricky glanced at him, smiled, and bent down with his hands clasped.

"I'm a child born in a good family, what a surprise?" Ricky said, "My impression is that our family is quite rich, and we live in a big one-story house with a courtyard in front of it. a dog, and those ugly dwarf clay dolls you see in American gardens."

"You mean garden gnomes. My mother likes them too. I had a lot of them at home when I was young." Yulu interjected, saw Ricky glance at him, and hurriedly added, "I grew up in the United States when I was a child, and my mother remarried later. After that, I went back to China to live for a while, and then I went back to the United States to study, which was a bit of a twist.”

"Growing up in the United States..." Ricky sighed for some reason, and then said: "Well, but then, I left, when I was about seven or eight years old, and I never went back after that."

"Why?" Yuri asked.

Ricky kicked his legs, looking like he didn't care. "I don't remember much. It seems that because my family violated me, I was taken away by a group of people who called themselves a child welfare center."

Yulu was taken aback, "Violating you? Is it your father?" He glanced at Ricky's delicate face.

Ricky shook his head, his tone rare and quiet.

"No, it's my mother," he said.

Yulu blinked, as if she still couldn't digest Ricky's words. Ricky said leisurely:

"They say my mother did more to me than a mother should do to a son, but all I remember is that my mother used to kiss and hug me, and she showered with me, and sometimes when the weather was nice, we would undress together Sleep. Sometimes my mom wants me to put my head on her boobs and pretend to suck her breasts, and sometimes she asks me to touch her bottom."

Yulu listened quietly, and Ricky continued to tell his story, "I don't remember most of the things. But the woman in my impression often hugged me and said that she likes me, likes me the most, and the whole world only likes me one person."

Ricky took a shallow breath.

"I don't know, maybe she really did something wrong, at least she is the only person who said that to me in memory."

Yulu didn't speak, just stretched out one hand, grabbed Ricky's head from the other side, pressed him towards her, and rumpled his forehead hair.

The two had lunch at a hot dog shop in the park and walked along the lakeside trail for a while.Ricky has no intention of complaining about such a sunny date schedule, and Yulu thinks he's even a little excited.

It was probably a holiday, and the grass on both sides of the lake was full of tourists with their families. Dad took his son in open pants and his crying daughter to fly a kite on the grass, and his mother was wearing a sun hat. Wait in the shade.Sometimes when the father turns around and looks at his mother, the father raises his hand and waves vigorously with his son, and the mother smiles back.

I don't know how long it has been since Yulu had contact with a so-called normal "family" like this. His mother gave birth to him when she was 16 years old, and Yulu's residence card has always been that the father is unknown.

And when the 28-year-old mother fell in love with Sam, who was 22 years old at the time, and decided to start a family together, Yulu was completely unable to integrate into this brand-new family due to personal factors.

My mother gave birth to his younger brother at the age of 30, named Oscar, and many of the postcards sent from New York state are family photos of their family of three.

Sam in it is always standing in the upper left corner, with one arm around his mother who is always charming in his memory, smiling shyly and happily.

Yulu threw all those photos into the back of the drawer, just like how he dealt with this memory.

Maybe God is destined not to let him have a family, Yulu thought.That's why he will be a hopeless beautiful boy in this life.

He looked at the family portrait on the grass, and before he knew it, his father's face was replaced by Ji Lan, and his mother's was naturally replaced by Ming Nai's ladylike and considerate face.And the son became a boy who looked exactly like Ji Lan, and the daughter became a boy who looked like Ming Ming.