In the name of love

Son... In short, many people came, and he asked his brother to help you arrange here. "

Ricky wiped away his tears and said, "Brother Ji Lan has been with you all this time, and was just called out by a phone call."

That's great, so the whole Ji family knows about it.Lawyer Yu was approached by his bedmate's admirer and told him that he was a mess and was sent to the hospital... Yulu stared at the ceiling in despair, he couldn't imagine the image of him in Ji Lan's mind now To what extent has it been damaged.

And it was after he tried to force a kiss... Yu Xiaolu, I told you that people who have too many delusions will be punished by God, and now they really have tasted their retribution, right?

Ricky was still tugging at his wrist, eyes swollen like peaches.Yulu struggled with the pain on his face blankly for a while before speaking hoarsely.

"...you and that person, did you have sex?"

Yulu didn't want to ask at first, but for some reason, he still asked.

Ricky shook his head with red eyes, "It used to be, but not now. He wants to be with me, but I don't."

"Why not? He is more handsome and younger than me. Being with him should be much more enjoyable than staying at my house."

Ricky's eyes widened, as if surprised by Yulu's words, he lowered his head for a while and didn't speak.Yulu saw that his eyes were wet, and his lips trembled.

Oh, why bother.Already at this age, Yuli is surprised that he still has those boring self-esteem.

He paused for a moment and asked the last question he wanted to ask.

"...Is the result of the test actually positive?"

As soon as the words came out of his mouth, Ricky whimpered again, more violently than before.

"I'm sorry, Xiaoli, I'm sorry..." He cried until his chest trembled.

"...You know that the test result is positive, but you still continue to sleep with me?"

Yulu said in a tone almost sighing.This time Ricky didn't apologize anymore, but just buried his face in Yulu's chest, grasping Yulu's sick gown with both hands, Yulu felt that the hem of the sick gown was soon wet.

"Why did you do such a thing...?" Yulu felt a little dazed, just like when he heard Sam's wedding date and the bride was his mother.

"Do you hate me? Ricky...?"

"No! That's not the case..."

Ricky retorted almost immediately, his little face flushed with urgency, "I'm not...how could I hate Xiaoli, I just...sorry..."

Ricky started crying again halfway through, and the rest of the words were smeared in tears.Yulu couldn't help but sighed again.

"What's that like?" He tried his best to soften his voice and sound less aggressive. "At that time, you would suddenly leave me and go for a screening. There must be a reason, right? You have been with me all these years , you never do that kind of inspection, only me will do it."

Ricky still didn't answer, he buried his head in Yuli's chest for a long time, so long that Yuli had the illusion that Ricky had melted into his body.

But the illusion is just an illusion after all, he and Ricky are two different individuals after all, as long as they are individuals, they will be separated one day.

"Before I was with you, I dated another man who worked as a bodyguard in a bar."

Yulu waited patiently until Ricky raised his head voluntarily and looked directly at him with tear-filled eyes.

"Ben knew him too, Ben was the one who beat you. I heard from Ben a few months ago that he was gone with that disease that everyone knows."

Ricky took two deep breaths, as if trying to calm himself down.

"I was very scared when I found out, and I didn't dare to face the reality. I knew that Xiaoli would go for a check-up every six months, but I didn't have the courage of you. Even if I heard the news, I would still bury my head in the sand like an ostrich Li, pretending not to know about it, has been pampering himself..."

Ricky's chest throbbed again.

"Because I'm very scared. What if it's true... What if there is something wrong with the test? Xiaoli has been with me for so long, what if I have hurt you...? I'm terribly scared, deeply afraid Everything is too late, it has been delayed for nearly a year..."

"Later, I finally made up my mind. I wanted to leave you for an examination. Regardless of whether the results were good or bad, I would never come back to you..."

Yulu watched Ricky clutching his five fingers tightly.Thinking back to that question a few months ago when Ricky stepped out of his door.

'You don't care if I say I'm leaving here for a while? '

'What if I never come back? '

How did I answer Ricky back then...?Yulu couldn't remember, and didn't dare to recall.

He is a person who always seems to be hurt by others inadvertently, but he always hurts others inadvertently.

"Later, the first screening result was a false positive. They said they would do another detailed screening. But I knew in my heart that I probably won the lottery. At first I was hysterical and felt that the whole world had collapsed. I ran Go to a friend's house or store, and do some ridiculous things every day to numb myself."

"But I can't help thinking of you, Lil. You never came to see me once. I deliberately left a lot of things at home, thinking that you would at least ask my friends and where I went. I was They are all delusional. But delusions are delusions after all, how could you be interested in a dirty and disgusting boy like me..."

Ricky gritted his teeth and said, Yulu opened his mouth to say something, but was stopped by Ricky shaking his head.

"The more I think about it, the more I don't want to be reconciled. I know that it's all my own fault, and that I'm to blame for everything, but at that time I just wanted to find someone to accompany me, and I was even angry that you didn't accompany me. "

"So I came back to your house. I just wanted to have a look, even if it was just to take a look at you from a distance. But I couldn't leave after I came back. I used the key you gave me to enter the house, and I saw that you still kept it. Looking at my things, I felt soft-hearted at first, and wanted to just leave quietly like this, just die alone in some place you will never find..."

Ricky's lips trembled again, as if remembering the scene at that time.

"But you came back at this time, and you are not alone, and you brought your favorite person with you."

"I've been broken since then, Xiaoli, I just felt angry at that time, why Xiaoli can be with the person he likes, but I want to die silently by myself. I'm not reconciled, no matter what Willing, I want Xiaoli to like me, I want to die in front of Xiaoli one day, Xiaoli will cry for me..."

"Ricky..."

Yulu couldn't help reaching out to touch the boy's wet cheek.He suddenly thought of many things, including the date invitation, the kiss that made him feel dazed under the heavy rain, and Ricky crying alone on the balcony after many nights with him.

Yulu never asked him why he was crying. If he had asked, Ricky would have told him everything.

"I wanted to end everything before, but Ben came back to me just now. He was very kind to me and comforted me very gently. I couldn't help but tell him many things, including my illness, but I didn't think of him. It will be misunderstood like this."

Ricky covered his cheeks with his hands and pressed his face against the bed, sobbing.

"I like Lil, I really like Lil, but I chose to hurt you in the worst possible way. I'm sorry, Lil... I'm really sorry... I'm sorry... I'm sorry..."

Yulu lay on the head of the bed, looking at Ricky's head which could no longer be lifted.He never thought that the first time in his life that he would be confessed by a beautiful boy, it would be in this situation.

I don't know why, although there are still too many things he should worry about now, but Yulu finds himself a little bit happy.As expected, he has no complaints from the bottom of his heart.

"What on earth did you tell him to make him misunderstand like this..." Yulu let Ricky cry for a while, and stretched out his hand to caress his swollen cheeks. In his impression, he hadn't been beaten so much since elementary school. So miserable.

"I just told him that I was sick, and then you would probably break up with me, and I said I was very sad..."

Ricky was talking incoherently.Yulu sighed, speaking of it, this is also the cause he planted, if he hadn't let Ricky accumulate so much resentment by eating from the bowl and looking at the plate, this kind of thing would never have happened.

"I'll leave as soon as Xiaoli gets better."

Ricky sobbed again, then lifted his head and wiped his face.

"The doctor just now said that he would help you to do a screening test for Xiao Lu. He said that the results will come out soon. When Xiao Lu recovers from his injuries, I will leave immediately, and I will never appear in front of Xiao Lu again."

Ricky stood up and turned away from the chair.Looking at his back, Yulu felt an urge to just hold him back and tell him to stay.

But he is actually very clear that he is not qualified to say that.Even if Ricky did stay, he couldn't promise him anything.

"The initial screening result of the test paper was negative, what a pity."

However, before Ricky had time to get out of the ward, a person walked in quickly outside the single ward.

Both Yulu and Ricky looked up.Walking into the ward was a young man Yu Lv had never seen before. Wearing a white doctor's robe, he was slightly younger than Ji Lan, only in his early thirties. Lan is more delicate and feminine.

The young man puts one hand in his pocket, he is tall