Intertwined Destinies of Bonds

Chapter 36. Struggle

The sun finally withdrew its last smile and went to rest, and the moon quietly hung up in the sky, shedding peaceful light sand.Nangong Yu finished her dinner, picked up her teacup, went to the window, watched the soft moonlight, and sipped tea.

It would be a bad thing if life could continue to be peaceful like this, but God always seems to be unwilling to be lonely, and wants to make some waves from time to time.

He took two sips of tea, took out his cell phone from his pocket, looked at it, hesitated for a moment, then put it down again.

He has already called Jinshu today, or in other words, since he came to this beach, and since Jinshu "wrongly called" the phone that time, they have been talking every day (note that there is no "almost" here).

When Jin Shu was in front of Nangong Yu, he always looked cautious and reticent, but he was much more talkative on the phone. At first they were nothing more than discussing the rumors of Xiu Xin Yuan, and Jin Shu insisted that it was all People's speculations, but Nangongyu thinks that there must be something strange in it, and the two of them have found various evidences to prove their respective views, but until now, neither of them has convinced the other.

Later, the topics of the two were no longer limited to Xiuxinyuan and its rumors. They also talked about the most famous buildings in the world, the annual god sacrifice ceremony in Lingnan City, and the Holy Cross Hospital. The "perverted doctor" and priest, talked about how to raise a bunny, talked about their respective interests, talked about family, talked about ideals, talked about life...

Chatting and chatting, Nangong Yu sadly found that he seemed to like Jin Shu.

Just listening to him speak freely on the phone in his peculiar clumsy way, Nangong Yu seemed to see the world opened a door for him again, and there was everything he longed for...

The moonlight is so beautiful, the tea is so fragrant, but, in this lonely room where he is alone, he can't calm down to appreciate and taste. He likes to listen to him more and more, and he can't hear it for a day. Just restless, today, it seems to be getting worse.

He picked up the phone again, stared at the number on it for a long time, finally couldn't hold back, and called Jin Shu again.

He wanted to hear his voice, even if he only said a word.

The phone went through, Jin Shu was in class, Nangong Yu said sorry, and hung up quickly.

In less than 2 minutes, Jin Shu called him again and asked him what was wrong.

Nangong Yu didn't want to delay his class, but also wanted to talk to him, so she briefly talked about the trivial things that happened today, waiting for his opinion.

Jin Shu listened and teased him a few words, afraid of being called by the teacher, he hurried back to class again.

Listening to the beeping busy tone, Nangongyu refused to put down her phone for a long time.

He was sure that Jinshu liked him, otherwise he wouldn't call back in a very timely manner every time. You know, the phone bill is not a small expense for a student like him who relies on odd jobs to support his daily expenses, and he Not the kind of person who spends money lavishly.

If I could be with him, maybe...

Nangong Yu suddenly opened her eyes wide, turned around, and walked towards the sofa.

"What am I thinking!"

He sat down and took a sip of tea, hoping to expel this thought from his mind quickly.

What happened five years ago once again resurfaced. Her frightened distorted face, her unstoppable trembling hands and the bloody sharp knife she held tightly made the wound in his heart that could not heal begin to bleed again.

The person he once loved, the person who promised him his life, finally left because he couldn't bear the fact. If it was Jin Shu, would he be able to bear it?Is he a new hope from God, or another heavy blow?After all, liking a man is not normal at all, the world's strange eyes are already a lot of pressure, plus you have to face that kind of yourself, I'm afraid, the result will be the same as hers.

It would be fine if everything that happened to me was just a dream.

Nangongyu sighed, the beach outside was shining silvery white under the baptism of moonlight, as if it was the only pure land in this troubled world.The fragrance of jasmine curled up from the teacup, brushed his breath, and his heart became a little calmer.

He himself was also a little strange. When he was in Xiuxinyuan, he didn't have any special feelings for Jinshu. After we separated, he thought of him so much, and said so many things to him. It's not like his style. , No, this is not the result he "wants".

What is the result he "wants"?

He put down his teacup, took off his shirt, stood in front of the mirror, and looked at his back.

On his back, the brown marks are still so glaring. This is the "gift" given to him by a fire on a thunderstorm night after he was adopted by his uncle, and no matter what method he uses, he can't get rid of it.

This piece of skin is not as ferocious as burnt, but as smooth as the skin elsewhere. However, only Nangongyu knows when this seemingly harmless mark will turn into another face of his, ferocious, Scary, like a skeleton, and bleeding continuously...

He is so duplicity, looks like an angel, but is actually a devil.

He smiled wryly at his handsome face in the mirror, picked up the fruit knife on the table, endured the pain, and slashed his face.

Bright red blood gushed out slowly, gathered into blood beads on his face, and slowly slid down.However, in less than 1 minute, the wound began to heal, and after a while, it calmed down as before, and there was no scar left.

really!

God still hasn't taken back his "gift", he can't even kill himself.

Everything is just wishful thinking.

Miracles won't happen, and the brown marks won't disappear. That horrible face will follow me for the rest of my life. Once someone discovers it, they'll be treated as monsters, feared, isolated, and abandoned. Those around you will also suffer.

Jin Shu is a good boy, so he can't bring him such a horrible experience. Instead of harming others and himself in the end, it's better to kill this relationship from the beginning.

but,

I really don't want to live alone like a walking dead...

A child's cheerful laughter faintly came from outside the door, and it disappeared after a while.

Nangong Yu listened blankly, the happiness that is so easy for ordinary people is so far away for him.

He felt that his life was like a pool of stagnant water, unable to breed any hope, and would only push people into the endless abyss step by step.But even such stagnant water could not completely dry up as he wished.

In that drowning, if Yu Chigong hadn't rescued him, he wouldn't have died, at most he would have just soaked in the water for a while longer, and he has been living in such a pathetic way for a long time, without any redemption.Knowing that there is no hope ahead, he has to accept God's "favor" and live in pain.

Is there really no way?

He looked at the window blankly, knowing that he was just struggling in vain, but even if it was in vain in the end, he still had a sliver of hope.

No, since when did you start to have hope again?

Obviously, when he bought Xiuxinyuan, he planned to die there.

Nangong Yu thought for a long time, then suddenly smiled self-deprecatingly, he shouldn't have anything to do with that Yu Chigong in the first place, he was obviously so young and naive, but he easily threw down his life for a person who wanted to die.If he died at that time, maybe he would be very sad, right?He looked like the kind of little guy who would cry hell out of an alien.

However, it seems to be a good thing for someone to be willing to grieve for him. When his father passed away, many people must have shed tears for him, and his mother even left her young self to follow him.