me and my gay husband

For so long, my contact with Shu Jie has changed from rare to frequent, and this inexplicable relationship inevitably made me have some reverie.Sometimes the excessive intimacy makes me feel like a couple, and sometimes the rare greetings seem to be limited to friends, Shu Jie, can I say my heart to you?

"Say it!" He was pushed hard against the wall again, and seeing Shu Jie's angry eyes couldn't help feeling a little heartbroken. 5 minutes ago, I quarreled with Shu Jie for the first time, the reason is that I don't want to be unclear like this, I want to make it clear, but I don't have the courage, so I can only escape!Facing his initiative from time to time, I kept resisting, but I was afraid that I couldn't help it, and finally broke out.

"I'm in a bad mood recently, I want to go home early." I tried my best not to look into his eyes, and spoke calmly.

"Not in a good mood? You can chat with the group of people in the classroom when you are in a bad mood, but you don't even want to see me when you look at me?"

I looked at him excitedly, Shu Jie, what do you mean by that?

In the recent period of time, he really ignored Shu Jie, and even naively went to contact with girls on purpose, wanting to see if he would care.Shu Jie, with your appearance, has my goal been achieved?

"Do you mind if I get in touch with those girls?" I looked at him, wanting to know the answer, but afraid that it wasn't the answer I wanted, I lowered my head: "That's right, they were all in contact with you before." , I am not qualified to talk to them." Saying this, maybe you won't think about it.

Shu Jie's eyes widened when he heard me say this, he seemed a little surprised, but also a little angry: "Are you an idiot?"

"Why?" How could Shu Jie say that to me?Doesn't he mind me getting in touch with girls who like him?

"Feng Jingzhe, listen carefully to me!" He lifted my chin with his fingers and let me look at him.

"You'd better have fewer friends!" His angry tone surprised me, but it didn't change my original intention, and I couldn't control it, so I pushed him away hard, I couldn't bear it anymore, I couldn't bear it anymore.

"Why? Why can you have a lot of friends, but I can't make friends? There are so many men and women in your friends, and I am one of them?" He shook his head and grabbed his hand. My hair and eyes are red, I don't know what happened to him.

My heart aches for Shu Jie's appearance, but I can't give in. It is precisely because I like you that I have to explain all this clearly. I like you but see you flirting with others. For me, What is not torture?

"You said it!" He pressed my shoulders, pushed me against the wall, and stared at me fiercely with his bloodshot eyes: "You said you wanted to make friends with me, how could you do that ? Where is your sincerity? Where is your sincerity?"

sincere?My true heart is hidden from you.Looking at his face, his eyes were itchy, I covered his face with my hands, it was so hot.

"Shu Jie." I lowered my voice, I will stop making trouble, please don't be angry, okay?

"Say it!" He widened his eyes: "Why the hell are you crying? I want you to explain clearly!"

"Because I like you, idiot!" I stroked his face, and blurted out the words that had been hidden in my heart for a long time. I couldn't care less, I just beg you not to be so sad.

His face froze, that's what I guessed for the scene.He took my hand from his face, turned his back on me, and didn't move.

I was so tired, I had no strength in my body, I slid along the wall and sat on the ground, the tears on my face became more and more violent, I couldn't control it at all, I buried my head in my knees, waiting for this bad ending.

I have guessed many kinds of words, maybe, he will tell me to get out, maybe he will turn a deaf ear, and then slowly alienate me, and maybe, he will beat me up, and then call me a pervert, these are all I thought of , I think I can accept it, but it seems that I can't accept it.Is it all my fault.

It's your sorrow to fall in love with someone who doesn't like you, it's your cowardice to fall in love with someone you like secretly, but when I fall in love with someone I've been secretly in love with for a long time, that's a rare love, what is it ?

Before I met you, I didn't know that there was such a second kind of emotion in this world besides men and women, but God just let me meet you. That glance made me fall in love like never before.Even if it's just a chance encounter, maybe it's not fate, then I want to fight for it and make you the best memory of my life.

But it didn't go well, and maybe I should have given up long ago.But your little response is the motivation for me to persist even more.Secret love is like a bottomless pit, the more you persist, the deeper you will fall.The deeper you fall, the clearer the answer you want. I would rather smash myself to pieces than torture myself unclearly, so I want to ask you, no matter how bad the result is, I can still remember that you once knew that I liked you .

However, if you appear in that bottomless hole, with you, all this will become meaningful.