me and my gay husband

After the excitement, I always have to return to calm, and I didn't make trouble anymore, and finally sorted out my emotions.

"Shu Jie, I'm sorry..." I choked up my voice.

"It's okay baby!" He patted my back, and I felt my chest take a deep breath: "Go back and do something you don't regret."

He asked me to go back, he didn't want the conflict between me and my mother to escalate, but he didn't know that what I didn't regret was that I fled into his arms at this moment.

"Hmm." I responded softly.

I was thinking, Shu Jie has suddenly changed, his words and deeds seem to be thinking about the overall situation, he is no longer the solitary person he used to be, and he is no longer the most unpredictable appearance , I know, the man in front of me seems to have grown up?

And what right do I have to go my own way?It is my family and my mother who are in conflict with me, so why don't I restore my family relationship?Shu Jie thought so, and I gradually understood.

I slowly raised my head to look at him, his eyes were a little wet, but I didn't want to ask him.

"Shu Jie, can you kiss me?" Because I also felt that my eye sockets were already wet, and my heart was a little tired, and I wanted to seek relief.

Moist lips touched my forehead and then to my lips.

I smiled, contented.

"I'm leaving!" I stroked the corner of my mouth and walked straight out of the gate.

I vaguely heard Shu Jie urging something behind him, I could hear it clearly, but I didn't want to understand it.

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"Mom, I was wrong." The first sentence blurted out when knocking on the door.The light is on in the house, and my intuition tells me that there is someone in the house.

"Mom, I was wrong!" My knees bent down unconsciously, and when I knelt on the ground, I felt some pain, but there was no sound.

I lowered my head until the door creaked open before I raised my head, it was Dad.

I was pulled into the living room by my father and thrown on the sofa.I saw my mother lying on the sofa with a towel covering her forehead, as if she had a cold.

I thought Dad was going to beat me up, but no.Dad hasn't said a word since I entered the room.He walked straight into the study and gestured to me to come in.

"Dad!" In order not to make the atmosphere so awkward, I spoke first.

"Sit!" Dad pointed to the chair opposite him, with a very polite tone, as if he was entertaining guests.

"Are you dating that man named Ma Shujie?" Dad asked me with a smile.

"Yes, Dad!" I also smiled calmly, and then the whole room became silent, and no one spoke.

I was very calm, and the man opposite still kept smiling, showing no signs of happiness or anger.

I have thought about thousands of situations like this, but I just didn't expect this day to come so quickly.

"Do you love him?" Dad said.

"Of course, otherwise I wouldn't be with his father." I spread my hands, I don't know where the momentum came from, it made me feel like I was negotiating with my father, but I was not wrong.

"How would I know if you're not curious?" He lifted the frame of the mirror, the smile on his face still unchanged.

"If Dad wants to say it, you will naturally say it."

"Zhezhe, oh no, Feng Jingzhe, you have grown up." Dad smiled, the smile on his face seemed to be happy, but also seemed a little relieved.Anyway, that's an expression I've never seen before.

grown up?Yeah?I'm just calmer.

"Actually, I knew it when I went to Sanya last time." Dad shrugged: "That's right, Du Yuxing told me everything about you."

I looked at my father seriously, and I have never talked to him like this before. In the past, the only person I had the most contact with was my mother.

As I said that, I looked at the living room, and then at my father.

"Your mother doesn't know." He became serious, put his hands on the table and pressed his chin: "Leave him, okay?"

Hearing this, I was a little startled at first, and then slowly became natural.Yes, no matter how much you say before, isn’t that the same sentence in the end?

I don't want to talk, and I don't want to express anything.I just stared blankly at him, seeing myself in his pupils.

"Leave him? If you leave him, I'll keep this secret for you." A voice sounded like coaxing a child.

"Dad!" I hugged my waist and looked at him intently: "This is not a secret, and I don't want it to be a secret." I can say that, it seems that my beliefs have not been influenced by others, but I feel That's a very bad thing.

"You have to know that you don't have any financial strength and no reason to be with him." Dad is a man who has been in society for many years. No matter what he has experienced, he is calm and surprisingly calm.

"Father." I looked at him and wanted to refute, but I accidentally saw some mottled hair on his temples, which made me give up the idea of ​​going on.

"Your mother suffers from stomach cramps, and it's not like you don't know about it." Dad frowned: "Now it has deteriorated into stomach cancer. Do you really have the heart to give her such a big stimulus?"

My eyes widened, and I thought for a long time that my father was lying to lie to me...

"why?"

Why is it the intervention of illness again, and it is to make me accommodate you?My head started to hurt.I will never forget that year when I was a child, my brother who was three years older than me ran away from home because of rebellion, and was finally put in prison for making a mistake.And my mother, because she couldn't accept the facts, developed stomach cramps over time.Dad smiled wryly and told me that I must be good and obedient.Mothers love their children.Never go against your mother's wishes.At least, don't do that until you're 20.

"Do you remember brother?" Just as he was thinking about that bad memory, his father made a voice again at an inappropriate time: "Jing Zhe, father knows that you are a good obedient boy, and you have been obedient for so many years. , but now that your mother is like this, just treat it as..." Dad choked up, and I could clearly see the moisture in the corners of his eyes, "Just for me, can I wrong you again?" Rubbing my temples with my glasses, I suddenly felt like a heinous sinner, so abominable, so abominable that I ruined my family.

"Dad, it's not like I can't rebel." I also paused: "I'm not rebellious now, I just found someone I love, and it just so happens that he likes me too. I don't know if you can accept such feelings , but I hope that my closest relatives will not intervene, and don't let me choose between my closest and my favorite people." I stood up, and my father wanted to speak, but I continued, because I don't know if I still have the strength to refute what he said again.

"Dad, I am not a person without life. I believe that I should have the right to choose in my life. I love Shu Jie, and I love you too. Shu Jie doesn't mind your existence, and you shouldn't mind me being with him. .” After I finished speaking, I wanted to leave.It was too young and too impulsive.

"Feng Jingzhe!" The voice behind me made me freeze in place.

"Promise me, I will look for your so-called love after the age of 20! If he really loves you, I believe he doesn't mind." Dad's words are like a switch, turning on my tear ducts, and the tears flow quietly slips on the cheeks.

I felt a pair of hands on my shoulders: "Dad doesn't object to who you are with, just don't meet the right person at the wrong time, you are not the only one who suffers."

I didn't have any strength anymore, I turned around and hugged this man tightly, couldn't hold back anymore, and burst into tears.

"Jing Zhe." His arms wrapped around my waist, and I cried as I hugged his hands closer and closer.

"Jing Zhe!" Dad's tone seemed a little more serious, as if he wanted me to answer him.

I let go of my hand and stared at him blankly.

"Jing Zhe, promise Dad, okay? Just think it's for Dad? Huh?" His rough fingers brushed across my cheeks, wiping away the tears on my cheeks.

I still look at him.Maybe I already know the answer, but I don't intend to speak.

"Leave him, leave him, okay? Cherish this home again? How about Jing Zhe?" Dad's eyes were sincere and his tone was very gentle.

I closed my eyes tightly, and my mind was rapidly deleting those bad memories.

This man was the man I respected the most since I was a child. He was reticent, but his every sentence was the key point. He was humble, but he was the most respectable. My father stopped my love with love.

"Hmm!" I responded slowly.

The frown of the man in front of me finally relaxed, and a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, and he hugged me into his arms.

Dad, for you, can I do it?

Shu Jie, for me, are you willing?