suppress his susceptibility period

The plan remains the same, the study tasks of medical students are much busier than Jiang Wang imagined, and when he gets busy, other things will be forgotten, and the matter of raising pets is temporarily put on hold.

As for when to think of it and put it into practice, it all depends on God's will.

In his third year of junior high school, Jiang Wang made an exception and got an opportunity to go to the school's affiliated hospital for an internship in advance because of his excellent professional performance.

It’s an internship, but it’s actually just helping out with things and running errands. After all, I’m only a third-year undergraduate student. No matter how good my grades are, I still have a lot to learn, and I have almost no clinical experience. It’s impossible to let him do it. Surgical knife.

But even so, Jiang Wang was still very happy. After so long talking on paper, he was finally able to see the real kung fu in the end.

After actually entering the hospital and seeing his future working environment most intuitively, Jiang Huang felt that everything in reality was very different from sitting in a classroom and only learning knowledge from paper.

He cherished this opportunity, and led his seniors to complete every task assigned by his seniors diligently, no matter how big or small, and earnestly studied all the half-knowledgeable things written in the books.

In his opinion, the most rewarding part of this internship was a little girl he met by chance in Ward 503.

The little girl's name is Sweet.

According to her own statement, she has been in the hospital for a long time, and many brothers and sisters who work in the inpatient department also know her and often buy her food.

Now there is one more Jiang Wang.

Tiantian lives up to his name. He looks sweet and has a sweet mouth. He will call Jiang Zhuangjiang brother crisply. Every time we meet, the first sentence is always to praise him for how handsome he is today. He will be even more handsome tomorrow. There is a basket of obedient words, and every time I hear it, the flowers are in full bloom.

Before seeing Tiantian, Jiang Wang couldn't believe that there is such an obedient child in this world who is not annoying or crying.

His internship place is not in the inpatient department, but he promised Tiantian that he would visit her often, so he would always go to the inpatient department when he was not busy, and occasionally bring some delicious food to Tiantian.

Tiantian will also give him small gifts, sometimes candies from other brothers and sisters, and sometimes little stars or paper cranes made by herself.

As more and more piled up, Jiang Juan specially bought a transparent glass storage bottle to hold these gadgets, fearing that it would not be able to hold them in a long time, so he deliberately chose a slightly larger size.

"How is it, looks good?"

Jiang Ju wandered into the kitchen, shaking the bottle to show off to Shen Xiuran.

Shen Xiuran was chopping vegetables, so he took a look at it in his busy schedule: "Well, it looks good, and it was given by that little fan girl of Dr. Jiang?"

Although it was just a joke, the call of Dr. Jiang still made Jiang Wang feel comfortable, and he grinned happily: "Yes, envy or not?"

Shen Xiuran asked back: "If you are envious, you will give it to me?"

"What are you thinking? Of course I won't give it away. Tiantian gave it to me by name. Even if you are my boyfriend, you can't forward it."

After Jiang Wangyi finished speaking, he thought for a while and added: "No, if you really want it, I can give you a discount, so that I have a little fan girl, and you also have a little fan boy."

"Is that you, little fan?" Shen Xiuran asked.

"what."

Shen Xiuran raised his eyebrows and remained silent.

"What's the matter with your expression, disgust?" Jiang Juan hummed and bumped his forehead on his shoulder: "With such an excellent little fan like me, you can secretly have fun, and you still hate it!"

"I don't hate it."

Shen Xiuran was helpless: "It's just that I don't lack fanboys, and I don't need little Xingxing, just just be my boyfriend."

"I haven't seen anyone push my fanboy out, Brother Ku, you are really unique."

Jiang Wang muttered and complained, and when he was done, he held the glass bottle and continued to appreciate it happily. While watching, he told Shen Xiuran about some trivial things he encountered in the hospital today.

He's used to sharing with him what happened in the time he didn't spend with Shen Xiuran.

After talking about the interesting stories in the classroom and the interesting patients I met, the topic inevitably fell on Tian Tian.

"Oh, and Tiantian told me today that she will be scheduled for her first surgery this Friday."

"Let me tell you, if I hadn't seen it with my own eyes, I wouldn't have believed that a child under the age of ten could be so sensible. When he told me about the operation, he was still smiling, as if he wasn't afraid at all."

Jiang Wang believed that if it were him, he would definitely not be able to be so calm, so he admired Tiantian even more: "She is so independent at a young age, no wonder her parents are so reassuring and always let her live in the hospital alone."

"Is it a heart transplant?" Shen Xiuran asked.

Hearing Jiang Wang's talk too many times, he naturally also learned about some things related to Tiantian, including the fact that Tiantian was hospitalized because of a congenital heart disease.

"Probably not." Jiang Huang said: "It seems to be just a transitional operation, and the heart replacement operation is still to come. After all, the troubles and risks are great, so you have to prepare well."

"It's a pity that I have to stay in school for a few days to work on my thesis. I can only wait for Tiantian to finish her surgery before I have time to see her."

He felt sorry, and a little bit sorry, thought about it, and pushed Shen Xiuran: "Brother, you can make two more small cakes tonight, and I will take them to Tiantian when I go to the hospital tomorrow."

Jiang Wang likes to eat sweets, especially small desserts such as cakes and biscuits. Shen Xiuran specially learned this for a while, and many types have been able to make them well. In Jiang Wang's words, the taste is even better than that in the dessert shop outside.

Shen Xiuran naturally agreed: "What flavor do you want?"

"Strawberry." Jiang Lu did not hesitate: "Tiantian told me that she loves strawberries the most."

"it is good."

The next day, Jiang Wang was afraid that he would not have time to go there because he was too busy during the day, so he arrived at the hospital ten minutes earlier, and went directly to the inpatient department with the cake.

"Wow! It's strawberry cake! Thank you Brother Jiang Jiang!"

The little girl in the hospital gown sat on the hospital bed and couldn't wait to taste it. She shook her head with joy and her eyes sparkled: "Oh! It's delicious!"

"Of course." Jiang Jue said inexplicably, "Brother Jiang Jiang's boyfriend made it, of course it's delicious."

Tian Tian showed a curious expression: "Brother Jiang Jiang has a great boyfriend, so is he as good-looking as Brother Jiang Jiang?"

"He's pretty, he's prettier than me, he's also better than me, he's the best person in the world!" Jiang Huang boasted that his boyfriend is not soft-spoken at all: "And he also knows Tiantian, I'll bring him here next time , you can see it."

"Yeah! Tiantian also wants to see brother Jiang Jiang's boyfriend!"

Jiang Wang said: "He will make more flavors, what flavor do you want for Tiantian? Next time I will bring you some."

“I still want to eat strawberry flavor~”

"OK, no problem!"

Jiang Lu agreed without hesitation, and when the sun came in, he realized that Tiantian's face was a little pale: "Is Tiantian not feeling well?"

"No, Tiantian is not uncomfortable."

The little girl was so full of cakes that she ate until the corners of her mouth were bruised.

Jiang Huang put it down, made fun of her for being a cat, and took out the paper towels from the cabinet to help her clean.

After staying until almost eight o'clock, Jiang Huang was about to leave.

Tiantian tilted her head and stared at him as she walked to the door, and suddenly called him: "Brother Jiangjiang, can you give me a hug before leaving?"

"Why is Tiantian so clingy today?" Jiang Juan squinted and laughed at her, then turned back to the bed and bent over to hug her.

"Because the weather is good today." Tiantian smiled brightly: "Brother Jiangjiang remember to bring me a strawberry-flavored cake next time."

"Don't worry, remember."

Jiang Wang only worked half a day that day and was summoned back to school by his instructor.

The review of the final exam and the delivery of the first draft of the thesis collided with each other. Jiang Huang could only selectively postpone the review and finish the first draft of the thesis before talking about other things.

The topic he chose was determined by his teacher. The research point is really a bit tricky, and it is almost impossible to check the information.

In the past, Shen Xiuran could help him during the college entrance examination, but now Shen Xiuran couldn't help him even if he was separated by a major.

The information books were piled high on the table, and the professional vocabulary was dazzled. After nearly a week of dizziness, the manuscript was finally delivered smoothly.

The day before he was going to devote himself to reviewing, Jiang Wang kept his word and strolled to the hospital with a box of strawberry cake specially made by Shen Xiuran.

There was no one in the ward, the curtains were drawn wide, and the sunlight illuminated the entire room, creating a warm atmosphere.

In the past, Tiantian would occasionally be pushed downstairs by the idle nurses to bask in the sun and take a walk. Jiang thought it would be the same this time. She was alone in the ward for a while, but before she came back, Tiantian met a familiar woman doctor.

"Xiao Jiang, why are you here?" The doctor was a little surprised.

Jiang Huang said, "I'm here to find Tiantian."

"Looking for Tiantian?" The doctor repeated, with a slightly wrong expression.

Jiang Lu nodded: "Yes." He smiled and shook the bag in his pocket: "I promised Tiantian for the first time, that I will treat her to a cake after she finishes her operation."

The doctor looked at the bag in his bag, and then at Jiang Lu who was smiling brightly, with a flash of unbearable in his eyes.

"Forget it, Xiaojiang." He was silent for a while, and then whispered: "Cake, you take it home and eat it yourself, Tiantian won't be able to eat it anymore."

Jiang Huan said: "Why, has Tiantian been transferred?"

"It's not a transfer." The doctor closed his eyes and said, "Xiaojiang, Tiantian is gone."

Jiang Ruo was stunned.

His mind was blank, and a smile slowly froze on his face.

"It's gone...does that mean it's gone?"

The doctor nodded and said yes: "I left the night before the operation. I had a sudden heart attack, and my condition suddenly deteriorated. I couldn't save him."

"How could it be so sudden?"

Jiang Lu was so dazed that he felt uneasy all of a sudden, and the words that came out of his throat were a little erratic: "Isn't Tiantian's condition always good?"

"It's Tiantian who has a good attitude. In fact, her physical condition has always been quite poor, but she didn't show it in front of us."

"She often suffers from pain in the middle of the night and can't sleep. She keeps her eyes open until dawn. During the day, she will happily tell us what fun dreams she had last night."

"Originally, the transition surgery shouldn't be so urgent, but Tiantian's situation does not allow any further delay. I thought that after the operation, her pain would be relieved. I didn't expect that before the operation began, Tiantian..."

Jiang Wang unconsciously tightened his grip on the bag, and his fingertips dug into his palm, but he didn't feel any pain.

"Oh." He tried to organize his words: "Then her parents came to see her for the last time?"

"Mom and dad? Where did Mom and Dad come from?"

The other party was a little surprised: "Xiao Jiang, don't you know? Tiantian has always been an orphan..."

The sun is slowly rising, and the temperature is gradually climbing.

Jiang Lu was listening to the doctor's words in a daze, only feeling that the air around him was bitingly cold.

After the doctor left, he sat alone in the corridor at the door of the ward for a long time.When I left, I realized that it was raining, so I bought an umbrella at the nearby supermarket.

It was not easy to take a taxi on rainy days, so he walked slowly home with an umbrella, and heard a weak cry when passing the green belt.

When I approached and looked through the bushes, it was a little puppy whose fur had just grown.

It was packed in a tattered cardboard box, its body was wet by the rain, and its soft breast hair stuck to its body, making it shiver from the cold.

……

Shen Xiuran made adjustments to the final draft of the thesis at home.

Hearing the doorbell ringing, he didn't think about Jiang Wang who was going out with the key, only thought that Jiang Wang's courier had arrived, got up and opened the door, and wrinkled when he saw Jiang Wang standing at the door half wet with an umbrella brow.

"How did it get wet like this?"

He stretched out his hand to hold him, but he heard the sound of a baby whimper coming from his words. He looked down and saw a little puppy poking half of its head out of his coat with its black eyes open.

"The rain was too heavy. I ran back, but the umbrella couldn't cover me, so I got wet."

Jiang Jue carefully took the puppy out of his arms and handed it to Shen Xiuran: "I even picked it up. It's raining so hard and everyone is rushing home, so we can't leave it alone outside."

Shen Xiuran remembered what he said earlier that he wanted to raise a small animal, carefully looked at this puppy that was not outstanding in appearance, and asked uncertainly: "Do you want to raise it?"

Jiang Yao nodded.

Shen Xiuran said: "No accident, it shouldn't be able to grow into the beautiful appearance you like, so it doesn't matter?"

"It doesn't matter, it doesn't matter whether it is beautiful or not. I think I have a relationship with it, as if I was on that road specially."

Jiang Lu lightly touched the puppy's head, then looked at Shen Xiuran: "Brother, I want to give it a home, okay?"

When Jiang Lu went to take a bath, Shen Xiuran found an empty storage box, put a small blanket on it to make a temporary nest for the puppy, and after finishing it, brought clean water and ham sausage to it.

The puppy had been hungry for too long and devoured it hungrily. Shen Xiuran watched it for a while, then turned his gaze to the closed bathroom door.

Jiang Lu's mood was a bit wrong, and Shen Xiuran noticed it from the first sentence he said, but he didn't ask.

He will always tell him what he wants to say, and if he doesn't want to say it, he won't force him.

He respects all his choices.

In the evening, Jiang Jue circled around the puppy all the time. When the puppy fell asleep, he squatted beside him and stared in a daze. He didn't talk much all night.

The rain never stopped.

While sleeping, the wind with water vapor blew in from the window. Shen Xiuran was afraid that Jiang Lu would catch a cold at night, so he got up and closed the window. When he came back and just lay down, the person who thought he was already asleep turned over and slipped into his arms familiarly. inside.

"Brother, the sweetness is gone." Jiang Lu's voice was very soft, just enough to reach Shen Xiuran's ears.

Shen Xiuran was stunned for a moment.

Then he tightened his arms and hugged Jiang Wang even tighter.

"I just found out today that Tiantian has no home." Jiang Huang said, "Because of a congenital heart disease, she was abandoned from birth, and grew up in the hospital with everyone's support, and the room will always be only that ward."

"No wonder she always told me that she wanted to go out and have fun, and wanted to see what it looked like outside. I thought it was because she was sick and hospitalized for too long to think so, but it was not the case. She wanted to go out because she was a child. Most of them haven't left the hospital."

"She's really good. But she's still so thin and small even in her teens. She must have been even smaller when she was born, so her parents wouldn't want her, right?"

"Brother, do you think that if they can see Tiantian grow into such a cute look, will they still not want him?"

Jiang Lu's voice became lower and lower, and became hoarse, until he had a distinct nasal sound and suppressed crying: "We agreed, I will take you to see her after the operation, and bring her strawberry cake, But now it's gone, she can't see you, and she can't eat strawberry cake."

"I specially prepared a large glass bottle for the little star she gave me. I thought she would give me a lot, but now I haven't even arrived."

"Her name is Tiantian. I thought this name was very suitable for her. She is a very sweet little girl. Now I think this name is not good. Her life is over quickly, but her life is not sweet at all."

"You said... such an obedient child, why did he come to this world and leave in a hurry before he had a good look at it?"

He couldn't restrain his emotions, and his whole body was trembling slightly.

Shen Xiuran held him tightly in his arms, and kissed away the tears on his face painfully: "Yao Yao, don't be sad, maybe this is also a relief for her, she no longer has to suffer from illness."

Jiang Juan's emotions that he had endured all day broke out at this moment.

He cried silently, only occasionally a sob leaked from the corner of his mouth, and tears poured out without money, wetting Shen Xiuran's chest.

Later, afraid that he would accidentally bite his lips, Shen Xiuran lowered his head and kissed him tenderly, sharing all the sadness and sadness of this moment with him.

After a long time, the rain decreased.

Jiang Lu cried all the tears he should have given to Tiantian in his life, and his emotions finally stabilized slowly.

He quietly listened to the beating sound next to his ears, and after a long silence, he murmured: "Brother, it turns out that studying medicine is different from what I thought."

"I just thought that I could save people, but I completely forgot to face death. Tiantian is the first one, but she won't be the last. There will be many patients like Tiantian in the future, because of our helplessness. , leaving with regrets that can no longer be made up."

"I'm too idealistic. I always look forward to how proud and proud I will be to snatch the patient from the serious illness in the future, but when I can't snatch the patient, how powerless should I be?"

"Think about it carefully, maybe the person who is still talking and laughing with me today will never see me again tomorrow. Every doctor will experience this terrible feeling repeatedly, right?"

The longing for a sweet dream was suddenly broken by reality, Shen Xiuran knew it was cruel, so he nodded: "Yes."

Life and death is something that everyone has to go through, even more so for doctors.

He asked him in a low voice: "Yao Yao, do you regret it?"

He thought that after this time, Jiang Wang would always think about it, but the result was beyond his expectation, Jiang Wang didn't hesitate for a second: "I don't regret it."

"Brother, I don't regret it at all."

"Reality is not a fairy tale book, and I am not a child. I can accept these, but it takes some time to take it slowly."

"An old professor in our professional class said that maybe a person's strength is very meager, but even a faint light can illuminate a small piece of land. Maybe I am not the best, but there is a doctor like me in the world, life and death are different things There will always be less."

"This is my original intention of choosing a medical major. I really hate studying. I can repeat another year to enter this major. What's more, these difficulties that have not yet come?"

He looked up at Shen Xiuran: "It's just brother, I suddenly feel that this industry is much bigger than I imagined, I am so ordinary, do you think I will become a good doctor?"

In the room, only the wall lamp by the window was shining with a warm yellow halo.

Jiang Lu was hidden in the shadow of Shen Xiuran, his extremely beautiful eyes pretended to be disturbed, but they were amazingly bright.

Shen Xiuran felt his affection, and inexplicably felt that her tip was also getting hot.

He couldn't help lowering his head, and kissed Jiang Lu's eyes with incomparable piety: "Yes."

"Really? Didn't you coax me?"

"Really." Shen Xiuran affirmed word by word in a deep voice: "Yao Yao, you will definitely be the best doctor in the future."

for sure.

……

The end of the term for medical students is really a Shura field.

It is normal to memorize until midnight, rest for a few hours, and get up early the next day to continue memorizing. Sometimes Jiang Lu is so sleepy that he will just set the alarm clock and squat for ten minutes, wake up and continue memorizing.

Shen Xiuran looked at the pain, but he didn't stop or force him to rest, but just silently accompanied him and guarded him.

Yao Yao couldn't do without people, he didn't want him to be tired from reading, and there was no one to talk to when he turned around.

Fortunately, no matter how tough the final days are, there are times when we can get through it.

On the day of the end of the final exam, Jiang Huang walked out of the exam room and immediately sent Shen Xiuran a sentence "I am liberated", with so many exclamation points that he could refresh the screen.

Shen Xiuran bent his lips silently, imitating Jiang Wang's usual appearance and sent him a big red flower emoticon pack shaking his head, Jiang Wang stared at the machine with silly joy for a long time.

Everyone in the class was as excited as Jiang Huang, discussing going to ktv to indulge in the evening, yelling at him all night, howling out all the suffering he has suffered during this time.

As a treasure, Jiang Huangli, of course, must be among the invited ranks.

Before going to ktv, Jiang Huan went to the hospital first.

It was still the sunny ward, and an aunt was cleaning it. There should be new patients coming in.

Jiang Wang stood at the door and didn't leave. The aunt noticed and asked him if there was anything wrong. Just when the drawer was opened, Jiang Wang saw a small paper crane made of candy paper inside.

He said: "Auntie, my sister lived in this ward before, and she left something behind. Let me pick it up, can I?"

Auntie has a good temper: "It's ok, what's left?"

Jiang Wan pointed to the paper crane lying quietly in the drawer: "It."

The noise in the ktv is comparable to the Syrian battlefield.

It can be seen that this group of medical students is really serious about releasing the pressure, and the two microphones can actually make this movement.

Jiang Jue sat in the corner near the door, and carefully looked at the little paper crane lying on his palm by the gaudy lights in the private room.

The candy wrapper was still stained with the scent of candy, and the sweetness penetrated into the nostrils. Jiang Wang easily identified it as the smell of strawberries.

It is the favorite flavor of the little girl who is as sweet as candy.

Time passed unhurriedly, procrastinatingly late into the night.

The private room gradually became quiet, and many people fell asleep leaning on the sofa with their heads tilted.

When Shen Xiuran arrived, Jiang Zhu was sleeping in a daze with a pillow in his arms, he was woken up softly, opened his eyes in a daze and called brother.

"Well, it's me." Shen Xiuran took the pillow out of his arms and put it aside, and squatted down in front of him, so as not to disturb him, lowered his voice very low: "Why are you so sleepy and don't know how to make a phone call?"

"Forget it when you fall asleep."

He yawned, and habitually opened his arms to him with tears in the corners of his eyes.

Shen Xiuran stretched out to catch him firmly, turned his arms into his arms, and his eyes were full of tender indulgence.

"Let's go, Doctor Jiang."

"Come to take you home."