Miss Jiguo

Men are emotionally turbulent when expressing resentment, but weak and flat when it comes to love.

The same is true for the boy named Ji Guoyansheng.

The way he loves his sister is extremely simple, with sweet pastries, beautiful clothes, and interesting toys.He brought these for his sister after homework, gave them to her, and muttered "Women just like these...".

When the two of them were together, most of the time was his boasting alone, and he unreservedly told the girl all about the day he experienced.The younger sister sitting next to him was a good listener. She nibbled on the snack in her hand, tilted her head slightly, stared at him with smiling eyes, and sighed once or twice from time to time.

In this way, the two spent afternoon after afternoon.

And then?

He looked at his sister's smile, and with his tightly pressed mouth, apart from the etiquette and samurai creed he was taught, he couldn't say a word of love clumsily.

It is the romance of a samurai to slay the enemy with sweat.

The tenderness and love between ordinary people.

What is it?

Young children can only get a glimpse of the answer to love and family from the way their parents get along.

A man maintains his iron blood and toughness, keeps his home safe in this chaotic war world, and does not show a trace of fatigue and fragility when he returns home, and then the woman who guards his family for him should be gentle and considerate, give birth to heirs, and educate their children.

This kind of relationship has become the criterion for getting along with men and women in the world that he believes.

He worked hard to fulfill his obligations and responsibilities as the next Patriarch.

His younger sister is a weak and pitiful dodder flower, so he must go through a lot of tempering and polishing to become a big tree in the sky.

When he reported his progress earnestly, he made promises silently, and kept watch silently.

But it is, as it should be.

So when he saw Yuan Yi from a distance, who always made useless handicrafts for his sister, listened to her gossiping aimlessly, and would hold her hand and take her for a walk to exercise, he would feel a burst of incomprehension in his heart.

My younger brother, that taciturn and even dull boy, was doing things that were completely incompatible with the status of a samurai man.

Why can I get my sister's smile in the same way?

The atmosphere between them as if they would not be disturbed by others made him feel indescribably dazed and frightened of being left behind.

The younger brother who didn't know the rules of the world even naively asked his younger sister——

"What is your wish, what do you want to do?"

This question is so innocent, yet so cruel.

After all, as children of the Wu family, their fate was predetermined by their parents from the moment they were born. He is the head of the family who must be strict with himself. The younger brother is a monk who is not expected, while the beautiful younger sister enjoys a luxurious life. A "canary" sent to marry.

He thought in his heart at the time, I should stop my brother, stop him from conveying unrealistic ideas to his sister, but after seeing the expression on the girl's face, he froze in place.

It was obviously a naive idea of ​​Tian Fangye, but it made my younger sister find it very interesting.The girl who was always used to listening quietly showed a thoughtful expression for the first time, and immediately laughed.

That wasn't the peaceful and docile smile of the past, that kind of lively expression that Yansheng had never seen before, and that kind of vivid expression, compared with it, made the original sweet smile pale.

This made him feel puzzled for a while, he was not Yuanyi, and he didn't even realize the effect of these conversations... But after that, he also started to learn, avoid chattering alone, and began to take the initiative to talk to his sister about her Topics you might like.

What would she like?

What would she want?

What else can I do?

He asked awkwardly, he listened carefully, and he promised carefully.

Compared to just listening quietly, his sister's somewhat capricious demands made him feel more fulfilled.

Although sometimes I seem to be acting like a baby to her, but I am also needed...

Because I was looking forward to seeing her smile when she received the gift, it seemed that even the dull and dull years became warmer.

But the promise is too full. In the case of insufficient ability, the hope that should not be sprouted will only make people feel painful, and the reality will make people fall hard.

……

My younger sister is a girl who is more gentle and considerate than anyone else.

Even when it was time to be married to an elderly daimyo, she still had a submissive and sweet smile on her face in order not to make those around her feel heartbroken by the tragedy.

However, after the night when her mother died, the smile was suddenly wiped from her face.In order to appease the sad sister, his father finally allowed him to visit.

The younger sister who failed to get out of the grief of losing her mother hugged her knees and shrunk herself into a small ball. In that gorgeous room full of precious things, the shrunken younger sister looked so small, so pale, like It is a drop of tears in the colorful world.

She put her pretty face on her knees, lowered her eyes listlessly, and complained to her brother in a low voice.

"I'm so tired, Iwakatsu."

She is always gentle, always considerate, and even in order to fulfill his wish, she can do things that he can't do...

Now it showed this fragile posture.

He should have hugged her, he should have...

Unspoken words are stuck in the throat.

At that time, how did he restrain himself and helplessly repeat the family's rules as a comfort?

Born in such a family, you and I have to fulfill our due responsibilities, pay for the life we ​​enjoy, and be devoured by the family in mediocrity.

All he can do is to take up the burden of the head of the family and at the same time try his best to shield his sister from the wind and rain and relieve her pain...

This is a matter of course, even for parents.

It can only be so...

He, who is in shackles and doesn't know it, can't give the answer his sister wants.

"Is that so..."

She seems to have accepted such a helpless ending, and since then she has become silent, and no longer tells anyone about her exhaustion.

"Although I can't help it... But I still hope that you can realize your wish."

Acting like a baby, she asked him to comb her beautiful long hair instead of her mother, and after feeling sleepy, she said goodbye to him with a smile——

"Goodbye, Iwakatsu."

"I want to sleep for a while."

……

After that, the news came that Yuanyi took his sister and left the mansion overnight.

He who was left behind gradually pieced together the reason for his sister's departure from his mother's diary.

Support and Watch.

This is the tenderness he failed to achieve.

It was his younger brother Yuanyi who realized that his mother was seriously ill, he was the one who accompanied his mother through the final journey, and he was the one who rescued his sister from the burden of the family...

The beloved younger brother has done so many things with ease, so many things that he, as a mortal, doesn't even realize.

He kept saying "I want to be her reliance", but he was unaware of his sister's usual silence, unaware of her wish, unaware of her disappointment...

It seemed that after his sister left, he suddenly understood the meaning behind the phrase "goodbye"——

That's goodbye useless brother.

Goodbye, useless Iwakatsu.

It became a wound in his heart that was difficult to heal.

……

Ji's gentle mother, since his younger sister left, the whole Ji country seems to be more than half empty.

So he tossed and turned in the lonely and dark night, letting self-blame, unwillingness, and jealousy gradually eat away at his heart.

You clearly said that you would always be with me...

Look at me again!

Just look at me...

In his remorse, he imagined those "ifs" that never happened in the past——

It would be great if I were Yuanyi.

If I can perceive your desire, if I can give you the love you want, if I have the power to take you away...

Are you going to leave me alone?

……

How I want to be your support.

Men are full of emotions when expressing resentment and resentment, but they are powerless and mediocre when facing love.

What exactly is love?

How in the world can love?

What exactly can make you feel happy?

I am so attached to you, how can I make you also depend on me?

Before they knew what love was, they had no choice but to know what it was like to hate.