[Three Kingdoms] I am the queen of the Great Wei Dynasty

Xun Yu liked reading since he was a child.

You are a wealthy family, and your family is already rich, so naturally you don't have to worry about not having a library full of books.At night, it was his own holy place, with a dimly lit candle in his hand, the boy's world was so pure and grand.

He often reads the Analects of Confucius and the Spring and Autumn Annals to find out the way to govern the country. He also loves to read the Book of Songs, indulging in the magnificent and beautiful scenery.

One day, he saw a poem.

"The abundance of the son, wait for me in the alley, and regret not sending it away.

The prosperity of the son, as long as I am in the hall, I regret that I will not come. "

He didn't understand what the author meant, but he felt that sadness and regret lingered in his teeth when he read it, which seemed to be a very sad poem.

Not long after, he proposed to the elders in his family that he would travel alone in a horse-drawn carriage. He wanted to see what the world looked like, and how majestic and beautiful the country and society he had hoped for would be.

However, the reality let him down.

He only saw hundreds of miles of crops without a blade of grass, the people crying and parting from their children in the barren rice fields, and countless families squatting under the ruined walls without food for an unknown number of days.

It turned out that this world is not only not as good as he imagined, but also a desperate and suffocating nightmare.

That day, he planned to rush to Chang'an, which was farther away, but on the way, he met a group of slaves, kneeling in the dust and mud, many of whom were even younger than him.

He stopped involuntarily.

At this time, he saw a little girl in ragged clothes, her face was full of dirt, and she was crying and pulling the middle-aged man who wanted to sell her.

Seeing that the middle-aged man's slap was about to fall on her small face, he quickly reached out and grabbed the trafficker's arm.

"She has followed me ever since."

The strange thing is that when she saw her for the first time, she didn't have the fear of seeing a stranger, but opened those crystal eyes and stared at herself in a daze.

Then she even grinned.

Only then did he realize how bright her eyes were, like the only star in the darkest night.

"What's your name?"

"My name is Bian Sheng, Bian's surname is Bian, and Sheng's is Sheng."

"Good name."

He taught her to read, teach her to play the piano, taught her to write her name stroke by stroke, and even taught her how to ride a horse. brilliant clouds.

Later, she grew up day by day, and gradually became a big girl of Jiji, and she became more and more beautiful. Putting on a scarlet skirt, she looked like a beauty in a painting.

If they hadn't gone to Luoyang that year, he almost thought she would just be by his side for the rest of his life.

Until his uncle told him that his future wife could only be the girl surnamed Tang, who would be married with his fingertips, and his parents' words must not be disobeyed.

He is the future Patriarch of the Xun family, he should respect his faith and righteousness, and he must not do anything against the eyes of the world, including breaking the marriage contract for her.

But he also understands that she will be farther and farther away from him from now on, this barrier will be a thousand mountains that block everything, even if it is close in front of him, it will never be the same as before.

On the day he got married, he clearly noticed that her hand that put on the wedding dress for him was trembling all the time, and he was about to grab her slender wrist, but his reason restrained his impulse, and his palms were clenched into fists in the wide sleeves.

So he watched her walk to the young man who was always dressed in red, and ran towards the latter without hesitation. Before leaving, he solemnly bid farewell to him, saying how much she was grateful to him, and would do everything in her power to repay.

Later, Xun Yu followed the young man named Cao Mengde for the ideal in his heart. The two hit it off and embarked on the same road.

Overcoming thorns and thorns all the way, they stumbled across countless rough and seemingly hopeless cliffs, and were almost exhausted by the tortuous reality.

During the most difficult time, they supported each other and confidante each other. The future they jointly described was like the peaceful and prosperous world they expected.

But Xun Yu finally found out that he was wrong.

The world that Cao Mengde wants is controlled by himself.

The more violent he became, the more he was used to plotting, his ambition to whip Yu Nei was like a flame that grew wantonly, and he wanted to burn the crumbling Handi Dragon Seat into ashes in an instant.

Xun Yu realized that he had become his hindrance.

At this time, she was already the prime minister's wife, commanding that the Xiapei be luxurious and majestic, and she was no longer the girl shivering in the dirt back then.

But she seemed to have lost her smile. When she occasionally saw her from a distance, her face was cold, the light in her eyes extinguished into cold ice and snow, and she could faintly feel the sadness buried deep in her heart.

In the few years when she first married Cao Mengde, he used some methods to put Luyi, an orphan who was accidentally rescued, into her side, and asked Luyi to help her loyally, if she encountered any danger or If it's a grievance, come to inform yourself.

That time in Luocheng, she fell into Liu Bei's hands, and it was the people he sent to rescue her, using mist to trap Liu Bei and his subordinates, so she was able to return to Cao Mengde's side safely.

Later, she lost her blood-related child. The two sons fought for power, and Cao Mengde was as indifferent to her as a stranger.

He thought, she must be very sad, how sad she should be.

But he can't do anything.

She could only write a thick and full memorial as she wished, so as to save her son's life.

Finally, he received a food box from Cao Mengde, and when he opened it, it was empty.

Why didn't he understand the intention of the lord who had followed him for half his life, he wanted his own life.

Taking advantage of the moonlight, he told the young servant: "Keep the gate and don't let anyone in."

He didn't want her to see his last appearance, he was afraid to see her cry, and also afraid that she would not come to see him for the last time.

The moment she broke through the door regardless of the obstruction, he couldn't help smiling—she still came.

Slowly, slowly, he allowed his consciousness to be overwhelmed by the night.When he fell at the last moment to the bottom of the lake where the moonlight was sleeping, the crabapple was in bloom, and he heard himself saying in his heart:

"Sheng'er, thank you."

Thank you for teaching me what love is.

Thank you for telling me that I used to be your belief too.

Thank you for letting me know that I have always loved you when I was going to the end of my life.

awake, drowsy.Along with it comes pain.

But this pain may not be willing.

It's a pity that for my belief, I can only apologize to you first.

will you forgive me

And I actually fell in love with you a long time ago.