Fate with you

Some feelings cannot be expected, and some feelings cannot be restrained.

Before Cui Yunji could react, the instinct of her body had abandoned her rationality and followed her heart.She hugged Wan Niang, and listening to her suppressed sobs, her heart ached uncontrollably.That slightly trembling shoulders, that soft sobbing cry, all turned into knives, cut through her heart defense, made her feel distressed, and made her unable to control herself.

She lowered her head and kissed the top of Wanniang's hair, the faint fragrance of hair lingered in her nose, the hair was soft, her lips touched it like a soft cloud, and the crying continued.Cui Yunji embraced Wanniang's shoulders, kissed her eyes, and sucked away her tears.

Wan Niang's body froze, and she opened her eyes in disbelief.

Cui Yunji raised her hand to cover her eyes, and kissed her lips.

She knew that Wanniang had a rough experience. After she was a prisoner, she was made a slave since she was a child, and was sold into a brothel because of her coquettish and peerless appearance. She was once a famous prostitute on the Qinhuai River. He bought it for 10 taels of silver, and later became Min Shijie's concubine for several years. No matter how nicely Min Shijie said it, it couldn't change him from getting her hands on her.Lin Tan, Min Shijie, two men, maybe there are more?

But what does that matter?As long as Wanniang is willing to accept her, these will not become their obstacles.She loves her involuntarily, loves how difficult her life is, and loves her for not even daring to cry.

She is willing to heal the scars left by the unfair treatment in her life with the tenderness of the rest of her life.

The lips under the lips are so soft and sweet, Cui Yunji can't help but suck.Wan Niang finally recovered from the huge shock, she pushed Cui Yunji away, her red eyes were filled with shame, anger, pain and shame.

Cui Yunji smiled wryly, she looked at Wan Niang, her voice was hoarse: "I'm sorry, I offended you. I didn't mean to, I couldn't help myself." No matter what, she offended her. This behavior is very shameful.Cui Yunji tried her best to keep her tone low and gentle, trying to comfort Wanniang: "Can you regard this as your home and me as a family member, no matter when, where and what happens, you can rely on me..."

She tried her best to speak euphemistically, but the meaning was very clear.

Wanniang's crystal-clear eyes were gradually stained with disbelief, and she said with difficulty: "My lord...I..." She was thinking about how to refuse so as not to make people lose face.

After a pause, Wan Niang lowered her eyes: "It's not that the adults are bad, it's that I don't deserve it, I wish it was..."

"I know," Cui Yunji interrupted her in a gentle tone, "I know all about your past. You were originally a prostitute, but you were later redeemed by Lin Tan and became his own. Later, when Min Shijie saw you by accident, you were shocked." For the sake of heaven and man, Lin Tan was cornered and sent you to him under the persecution of many parties..." She knew it clearly, after she brought Wan Niang home two years ago, she sent someone to investigate.

Hearing her narrate the unbearable past so naturally and gently, Wan Niang blushed, but she still corrected her: "You are wrong, Lin Tan never owned me. It was Lin Tan who shocked me. , She regards me as a heavenly person, cherishes and cherishes me, but she never asks for it, and Min Shijie is nothing more than desire and desire." Lin Tan has a bad temper and always quarrels with her and speaks harshly, but she really, never Moved her a finger.

Wan Niang's emotions calmed down with her words, she smiled, her smile was still gentle: "Mr. Meng loves you wrongly, and Wan Niang is very grateful, but she has already made an oath in her heart, wishing the lonely lamp to stay behind, and dare not look forward to the true love any longer. "

This was an expected answer, but when it really came, it was so unbearable, Cui Yunji frowned, and then slowly let go, she forced a smile, and didn't even dare to look at Wanniang again.Lowering his eyes, looking at the plain sofa, his heartache was mild at first, and then faded away like water waves, until every corner, the dense pain seemed to be awakened, and suddenly became intense.

Cui Yunji clenched her hands tightly under her sleeves. She still tried her best to maintain her demeanor, and still treated her beloved woman tenderly, but rejected her woman: "Why don't you think about it again? The years to come are still long, and the lonely lamp and the shadow It’s too much self-sufficiency, Wan Niang, it may be presumptuous to say this, but please believe that I am not the best, I am still a woman, but I can guarantee that I will keep you safe, and I will treat you as always. Unswervingly determined and single-minded. Do you think about it again?"

Wan Niang shook her head without any hesitation, the corners of Cui Yunji's eyes drooped, her lips were pursed tightly, revealing a kind of injury and fragility.

Wan Niang lowered her head, unable to bear to look any further.

After a long while, Cui Yunji raised her head, her clear eyes looked at her calmly, pretending to be light and said: "That's it," she comforted her, "This kind of thing can't be forced, you don't want to be burdened. It's just that you are still young , I died early, how will I spend the next few decades? I am not good enough, there will always be good people, and I will meet them."

After she finished speaking, she quickly stood up without waiting for Wanniang's reply, and said, "It's getting late, you should settle down quickly, and I'll take my leave too." As soon as she finished speaking, she turned and left.

She walked fast, as if she was avoiding something, as if she was covering up something.

Wan Niang clearly saw that after Master Cui turned around, her shoulders were trembling.

She must be, crying.

Wan Niang was very sad. After she refused to hurt this gentle woman, she still took care of her mood and still didn't blame or complain.

Time to leave.Wan Niang thought silently, it doesn't matter where she goes, that is, don't live here anymore.

After hurting her, how could she stay here as if nothing had happened.Besides, only after she left, Master Cui could let her go and forget her.

Just, where should she go?Should I return to Lin'an, or stay in the capital?Or go somewhere else?

Life is like duckweed, in this life, it is all drifting away.Wan Niang sat in a daze, feeling very reluctant.

After a while, she got up and went back to the inner room, took off her outer shirt, put on her pajamas, and lay down on the couch, but couldn't fall asleep for a long time.

The next morning, Wan Niang got up, she thought about it all night, and finally decided to go back to Lin'an.

She didn't have many things, but within half an hour, they were all sorted out. Her things were put in the bag, and the original things in the room were put in their original places.

Next, it was time to hire a carriage going south.

Just as I was about to invite the housekeeper to ask him where I could find a reliable driver, I saw Cui Yunji coming this way.

She was wearing a pear-blossom white skirt, her hair was pulled up in a low bun, and she walked here calmly.Seeing Wanniang, she smiled, everything was as usual, as if last night was just a dream that belonged to Wanniang alone.

Wan Niang was in a trance for a moment.

Cui Yunji quickly walked up to her, looked at Wanniang, and said nonchalantly, "Where are you going?"

"I..." Wan Niang hesitated for a moment, but when she thought that she would have to bid farewell to Master Cui before she left, she said calmly, "I am going to ask the housekeeper for advice, where can I hire a carriage, and I am going back to Jiangnan. Years, my lord is in trouble."

Cui Yunji snorted, without changing her face, she looked behind Wanniang, there was no difference from usual, but it made people feel empty suddenly.Cui Yunji was disappointed, she looked away, looked at Wanniang and said, "This is not urgent, just let me go in and sit down."

Wan Niang stepped aside and said please.

There is an atmosphere called alienation that pushes their distance far away.

The room has been tidied up, and Wanniang didn't take away any of the things that were already in the room, including the jade bracelet.

Cui Yunji glanced around the room, she turned her head, and said slowly: "Where are you going?"

"Lin'an."

"You have no relatives or friends there, how are you going to live?"

"Rent a small courtyard, do some embroidery, and you can spend the day." Wanniang replied.

Cui Yunji shook her head: "I'm not talking about that. I don't worry about you showing up in the market, let alone living alone, it's too dangerous."

Wan Niang bit her lip and said in a low voice, "I will be more careful."

Cui Yunji sighed: "Some disasters, how could you avoid them just because you were careful?" She said seriously, "Don't leave, and stay here at ease as before. What happened last night, just pretend it never happened. I don't care about anything." I’ll talk about it again, but try not to come here to keep you clean.”

She said so, and she really thought so.Wanting to watch Wanniang leave helplessly, she would rather not say or look, and let Wanniang live safely under her wings.

Wan Niang was silent, she looked down at the ground and said nothing for a long time, just when Cui Yunji thought she was going to acquiesce, Wan Niang whispered: "But you will be sad. Besides, this is your home, why should I let you not?" Come here? Master Cui, Wanniang is deeply impressed by your kindness, and it's only because Wanniang didn't know what's good and what's wrong, that she failed your kindness."

She rejected her again.

Cui Yunji closed her eyes, and she said: "Wan Niang, you are right, I will be sad. You are the person I like, you live in my house, this is a very happy thing, but you don't like me, I can't come to disturb you, I can only stand far away, and ask the servants to know your situation every day, which will make me very sad."

She opened her eyes and looked straight at Wan Niang: "But if you leave like this, I will be more than sad. I will blame myself, because my recklessness caused the person I deeply like to go away, and she I am a weak woman with no power to restrain a chicken. If something unexpected happens to me after traveling thousands of miles, I will spend my whole life in regret and self-blame. I will still feel very painful, and I will never see the person I like again , this will definitely make me painful. I will be deeply concerned, sleepless nights, and will always think about how well you are living in a distant place. Although, you are not here, I will still miss you day after day, It will still be sad."

"Wanniang, if you decide to leave for the sake of me not being sad, then stay. If you stay, even though I am sad, I can feel a little bit of happiness."