why don't you laugh

Xiao Zhi's hands were tightly clenched.For a boy of this age, the bones have already developed to a hard level, and when touched by the fingertips, the edges and corners are a bit painful.

Chen Bing lowered his eyes, covered the back of his hand and squeezed his five fingers in, only then did he feel his muscles change from tense to loose.

It can soften the hardness in the boy's heart, as if he is the only one left.

Chen Bing said, "Let's go."

Xiao Zhi was still staring at the direction in which the vehicle was going away, he didn't know what he was looking at, he felt as if he was in a daze.

Chen Bing took him by the hand and took a taxi, feeling that he followed her.

stop-and-go.

stop and go.

The shadow has been falling a few steps behind him.

Going to the pharmacy to buy medicine, after entering the door, Xiao Zhi sat back on the sofa, spread his legs, rested his neck on the sofa, and sat with his head half up, like an old man.His arms were hanging down, bloodstained, and his long legs were wildly separated, as if he was tired and closed off.

Chen Bing approached with iodophor, sat down, and called him, "Xiao Zhi?"

No answer.

As if asleep.

Chen Bing: "Xiao Zhi?"

With mixed breathing, he responded heavily.

"I'll look at the wound."

Chen Bing unscrewed the bottle cap, squatted down with his knees against the sofa, and looked at his face.It seems that the beating was quite reckless, there was a bruise on the forehead, a tear was torn under the lip, and there was a red and swollen scattered area behind the ear.The man just now was walking with a limp and clutching his abdomen, it seemed that he was not much better than Xiao Zhi.

Chen Bing couldn't hold back, and frowned: "How did you make it like this?"

Xiao Zhi didn't answer, only took a slight breath.

Chen Bing touched his wound with a cotton swab, as if he sensed his approach, Xiao Zhi closed his eyes and raised his hand to pick it up casually, then hugged Chen Bing into his arms.

He leaned his head on Chen Bing's body, and Chen Bing was in a hurry, pressing his forehead and pushing it out: "I touched the wound."

"..."

Xiao Zhi closed his eyes, as if he couldn't feel the pain.

Chen Bing sighed: "Be more honest."

But Xiao Zhi didn't listen at all, still hugged him, but turned his face sideways.

After hugging him like this for a while, Chen Bing brushed his hair with his fingers and said, "Are you an idiot?"

"..."

"How many are you on the opposite side? The adult on the other side, her bodyguard, how about you?"

"..."

The only response was a light breath.

Chen Bing held his face, traced it with his fingertips, and his thoughts wandered aimlessly.I always feel that according to Xiao Zhi's wild method, it is very likely that one day nothing will happen to him, but he will be a step ahead.

Letting him hug him for several minutes, Chen Bing's back felt a little sore, and he called him again: "Xiao Zhi."

"En." The other party's voice finally gained strength.

"Let go of me first, it's very heavy." Chen Bing said.

"..."

Xiao Zhi let go of his hand, and fell back on the sofa, covering his forehead with his fingers to block the glare of the light.

Then there was no movement, and Chen Bing tidied up his wounds.

After packing up, he got up and went back to the room.

Chen Bing stood in the living room and looked around. The house was exactly the same as before, but it always felt a bit cold and empty.Probably because Xiao Ruo was not at home.However, Xiao Zhi didn't seem to have a particularly hysterical reaction.

Chen Bing packed up his things and followed him back to the room.

One night, I felt that Xiao Zhi didn't sleep well, and his breathing was heavy, but he didn't turn over, just put his hands on his eyes.In this kind of worry, Chen Bing even forgot when he fell asleep, and was woken up by the sound of the bathroom flushing in the morning.

He opened his eyes, Xiao Zhi had already come out, the zipper of the school uniform was pulled up to the collarbone, the cuffs were folded on the forearm, and he picked up the pens and stationery from the desk.

He saw Chen Bing and said, "Get up."

Very strange.

Other than the wounds on his face and hands, he looked fine.

Chen Bing responded and stood up: "I'll clean up."

"What do you want to eat later?"

"...whatever," Chen Bing thought for a few seconds, "that salted bean curd shop around the corner?"

"It will be all right."

He obviously felt something, but since he chose to hide it, Chen Bing didn't want to ask more.

The exam is at [-]:[-], and I usually go to self-study in the morning.When I first entered the classroom, the whole class was excitedly reciting ancient poems on their feet, but when they saw Xiao Zhi, their voices suddenly became quiet.

To be honest, I haven't seen Xiao Zhi fight for a while, and he suddenly recovered his scarred appearance, which was a bit surprising.Wen Wei stood up directly from the chair, turned the book and called him: "Brother Xiao?"

Xiao Zhi pursed his lips and glanced at him: "Huh?"

"What happened to your injury?" Wen Wei described, licking his lips, "Did you steal crystals by yourself last night?"

"..."

Xiao Zhi raised his hand and pressed his head hard: "Stupid."

"Wrong, wrong, just kidding," Wen Wei looked at him, "Even if a person steals the crystal, you beat them."

Xiao Zhi pulled out the chair and sat down, didn't speak any more, and flipped through the Chinese documents with lowered eyes.

Wen Wei peeked at Chen Bing and said with his eyes: What's going on?

It was a long story, and at the same time, Chen Bing thought that he should not be called by himself, and signaled to the textbook: "Prepare for the exam first."

"...Hey," Wen Wei hesitated, "Okay, the exam."

The atmosphere after the exam was not easy at all.Lu Weimin had already sent a message in the group saying that now the third year of high school is making up classes during the summer vacation. After the final exam, he will only be released for seven days, and he will return to school to continue classes after the end.

Although I felt very unlucky, I still went back to the dormitory after the exam to pack my clothes and other things.

Wen Wei took the socks and stuffed them into the box: "Only seven days? Just kidding?"

"Be patient, the make-up class is easier than usual. You don't have to go to morning self-study, and there are only two evening self-study sessions." Zhou Fang said resignation.

"Give you some sweetness and you will help the teacher talk?" Wen Wei spitting to the side, "Cough, tui! Fucking bad luck."

"..."

Chen Bing put away his things, Xiao Zhi stood by the desk, and took out his homework one by one.

Chen Bing's phone rang.He took a look at Xu Rong's phone call.

"The driver and I are almost here. Your things are packed? Do you want mom to come to the dormitory?"

Chen Bing scanned around and said, "No need to come, put it away immediately."

"Okay, then mom is waiting for you at the school gate, don't worry, look for everything one by one, be careful, don't miss anything."

"Ah."

Chen Bing didn't speak for a while, and carried the suitcase to the school gate with Xiao Zhi.Xu Rong got out of the car and wore a plain white cheongsam. When meeting Xiao Zhi, her eyes moved slightly, she approached and said, "What's the matter with the injury on your face?"

"Aunt Xu." After Xiao Zhi finished speaking, remembering that Chen Bing said that she already knew about their relationship some time ago, she shook her head again, "It's okay."

"...Really?" Xu Rong didn't quite believe it.

Chen Bing approached and pulled her wrist, and changed the topic: "Mom, let's go."

"Oh oh oh." Xu Rong just walked back, turned her head to look at Xiao Zhi for a while, "Are the dim sum delicious a few days ago?"

"good to eat."

"Okay, I'll ask Chen Bing to bring it to you another day."

As she spoke, she was dragged into the car by Chen Bing.She was amused at her son's anxiety for a while, "What's the matter? I haven't said a few words to him yet."

In her opinion, Chen Bing was embarrassed.

Chen Bing wasn't embarrassed, but he didn't want to ask too many questions. Xiao Zhi had been in a bad mood for the past few days, so he might rub salt on his wounds.

After getting in the car, Xu Rong said, "You only have seven days off? That's fine. I'll go to the beach with my mother for a few days to relax."

Chen Bing looked out the window, didn't pay much attention to Xu Rong's words, just saw Xiao Zhi standing at the school gate and talking to Guan Kun for a while, then he didn't intend to look in his side.

"Don't you want to go?" Xu Rong asked.

Chen Bing withdrew his gaze and shook his head: "Go."

"That's right, studying is so hard, so I went to play with my mother for a few days to relax during the holiday. Mom has already booked the plane ticket, so it won't affect my return to class." Xu Rong's face was radiant and her voice was full of joy because of Chen Bing's finally vacation.

Chen Bing grabbed her hand: "Yes."

When he got home, Chen Bing remembered about Xiao Zhi and took out his mobile phone to send a message.

Chen Bing: [Go home? ]

Xiao Zhi: [Go back. ]

Knowing that Xiao Zhi was always thinking about Xiao Ruo, Chen Bing clicked on the screen and typed a line: "Seven days off, when do you plan to find Xiao Ruo?"

However, unexpected.

Xiao Zhi replied after a while: "Look."

see?

ambiguous words.To find or not to find?Chen Bing directly sent a video call to Xiao Zhi.However, he seemed to be in Aunt Wang's shop and vaguely heard someone chatting.

"The box of wine has to be moved inside, darling, I don't want you to do it."

"Actually, I said this because I was afraid you would hate me, but Auntie thinks it's actually a good thing to let my sister go back."

"..."

Xiao Zhi stood by the counter, looked down at other places, and heard Aunt Wang's words without any emotion on his face, and didn't make any answer.

"I'm done working, thank you for your hard work, do you want to stay for dinner tonight?"

Xiao Zhi: "I'll go back and eat."

"Don't! I'll go shopping right away, and eat together after cooking. You are at home alone, anyway..." Aunt Wang smiled sadly.

Xiao Zhi didn't say a word, turned around and left the shop: "I'm leaving."

Chen Bing just hung up the video with him, chatting with each other.It’s not easy to go on vacation, and I feel that the atmosphere on the surrounding roads is quite agitated. From time to time, there are students returning home with bags on their backs.

Xiao Zhi went to the supermarket: "I'll buy something to eat."

"What's for dinner? Tonight."

The three major questions in life are what to eat in the morning, what to eat at noon, and what to eat at night.

Chen Bing grabbed the phone and lay back on the soft bed, staring straight at the screen, Xiao Zhi's collarbone and jaw.

"How many dishes do you recommend?" Xiao Zhi had no idea.

"I'm too lazy to cook at night, eat less, and have something good for lunch tomorrow."

"Then I'll just order a bowl of noodles."

Xiao Zhi went to the vegetable area on the other side, Chen Bing heard him talk about cooking noodles, without thinking about it, he complained casually: "Your bottom is not delicious, every time it tastes hard, it seems that the heat is not enough, it is not cooked."

finished.Chen Bing didn't realize what was wrong.

Xiao Zhi smiled shortly: "Really?"

"Well, it's not delicious."

"Why do I feel that you haven't eaten?" Xiao Zhi thought for a while, "According to my impression, I have eaten yours."

Chen Bing sneered, and glanced at the phone: "I ate half of it once and almost threw up—"

Only then did Chen Bing realize that Xiao Zhi's words were wrong.

He was stunned for a moment, but before he could fully react, he heard Xiao Zhi's voice approaching the earphone, very low, mixed with a little vague magnetic sound: "Okay, I will let you eat when it is not so hard next time."

Chen Bing: "Fuck?"

Xiao Zhi smiled briefly.

"Fuck?!" Chen Bing was upset, "Are you sick?"

Xiao Zhiruo took a box of small green vegetables casually, and looked down at him: "Don't get excited."

"..." Chen Bing was overwhelmed with excitement, "I'm telling you something serious, but you talk dirty with me. Are you disgusting, bah!"

"Who are you yelling at?" Xiao Zhi's voice was still near the headset.

"Bah, you're so annoying."

Next to Xiao Zhi was an aunt who was shopping for vegetables, walking back and forth, his voice was very low: "Isn't it so strange as you described first?"

"That's a normal description. It's obvious that you have mental problems." Chen Bing glanced at the phone, "If you keep talking like this, my phone will run out of gas."

"Okay, let's talk normally."

Xiao Zhi put a tomato in a bag, intentionally or unintentionally said: "But the taste under you is really good."

Chen Bing: "..."

Endless, it is.

Chen Bing wanted to chat with him to pass the time for a second, but now he just wants to hang up the phone and let him be lonely.

However, it was just a brief conversation about this topic, but Chen Bing somehow remembered the time he was referring to.Anyway, he insisted on doing this at the time. At the desk, Chen Bing's fingers ran through his hair, and as he continued to grasp it, he almost pulled out a lock of his hair.

That feeling is really strange.Chen Bing originally wanted to criticize Xiao Zhi for a few words, but somehow he couldn't swear, and quickly put that memory behind him, and then continued to communicate with him in anger.

Xiao Zhi asked: "Should I cook noodles with tomatoes or green vegetables?"

Chen Bing said coldly: "Add shit."

"..."

There was a short silence, Xiao Zhi was looking for something to do, and said idlely: "Look at you, how bad your temper is now."

"You're not angry?"

"Okay, I'm angry." Xiao Zhi looked at the vegetables on the shelf, then turned his head to pick out a bag of noodles from the other side, "I really envy you, people are used to losing their temper."

"..."

Chen Bing didn't bother to quarrel with him anymore, he was tired of arguing.

He was autistic and didn't speak for a while, Xiao Zhi noticed him, and went to the counter to put something to pay: "Why didn't you speak?"

Chen Bing: "I don't want to talk."

"what happened?"

Chen Bing: "Just piss me off."

Hearing this, Xiao Zhi admitted his mistake in a second: "Then I was wrong, and I shouldn't be mad at you. My wife is mad at me, what should I do?"

"..." Chen Bing was angry at first, but felt funny for no reason, "Get out, you can't get me."

The two of them were busy chatting, and during the meal, Chen Bing hung up the phone and sent messages instead, exchanging emojis with Xiao Zhi.

Xiao Zhi: [wife sauce ヾ(≧≦*)ゝ]

Chen Bing: [Indifference=_=]

Xiao Zhi: [Is my wife eating? ]

Chen Bing: [Yes. ]

Xiao Zhi: [Let me see what kind of food my wife eats, and whether she can grow taller and become more beautiful! ]

Chen Bing: [picture.jpg]

Xiao Zhi: [There are fish, pigs, cows, and eggplants...]

"..."

Chen Bing grabbed the chopsticks and almost spit out the soup in his mouth on the spot. He raised his hand to cover the corner of his lower lip, and couldn't hold back the corner of his lip from curling up, just in time to meet Xu Rong's worried eyes.

"what happened?"

"..." Chen Bing pointed at the phone and licked his lower lip, "I'm chatting with Xiao Zhi."

"Chatting?" Xu Rong smiled, "What's so funny?"

Chen Bing: "That..."

Thinking that now that his mother knew about his relationship with Xiao Zhi, Chen Bing tried to describe: "That's right, he sent me messages and kept sending repeated words, for example, rice is called rice, and soup is called soup. I think it's very funny." .”

Xu Rong seemed to be trying to understand, but looked at him for a while rather puzzled.

... should not be explained.

Boring jokes.

Chen Bing was about to say "it's nothing" to calm down, but Xu Rong smiled suddenly: "Then he is very cute chatting with you, isn't it?"

……cute.

Chen Bing thought about it for a while, and felt that this description is not wrong...but mentally retarded is obviously more in line with the meaning of the question.

Chen Bing lowered his head, picked up the chopsticks, and said casually, "Maybe."

After eating, Chen Bing went back to the room, closed the door, and opened the window.He kicked off his shoes and went back to lie on the bed, unplugging the video.

Xiao Zhi had already settled down after eating, and sat at the desk with his head buried in reading and doing his homework.

Chen Bing thought about taking a plane to the beach tomorrow, and didn't want to move, so he lay on the bed and talked to Xiao Zhi without saying a word.

"Is everything packed?" Chen Bing asked.

"Packed up."

"Ask Aunt Xu to bring more sunscreen, so as not to turn you into black ice."

"..." Chen Bing was tired of talking to him, "I can't get a tan."

While reading in English, Xiao Zhi chatted: "Let me think about it, will you wear a pair of swimming trunks and go directly into the sea?"

Chen Bing held the pillow as a cushion, and chose a comfortable position: "Otherwise."

"That's not good?" Xiao Zhi turned his pen and frowned, "Isn't it too indiscreet?"

"..."

Chen Bing just listened to his nonsense, didn't speak, felt a little sleepy after eating and drinking, and put a pillow on it.

"Why don't you?" Xiao Zhi searched the shopping website on his mobile phone for a while, and sent him a photo, "I don't have any objections to you wearing this style for swimming."

Chen Bing almost laughed angrily when he saw that picture, it fits in a sports T-shirt, and he is wearing a swimsuit, only Xiao Zhi, who is so discolored, can think of it.

Chen Bing: "I refuse."

"That can't be helped." Xiao Zhi looked at the test paper and laughed softly, "I can only be a magnanimous man."

Chen Bing was very sleepy lying down, his voice dropped as he talked, his hair was rubbed into the pillow, and Xiao Zhi's voice was heard after a while.

"Wife."

Chen Bing didn't think much, and hummed lightly.

After opening his eyes, Xiao Zhi burst into laughter from the other end of the speaker, and Xiao Zhi said, "Admitted?"

"..."

Only then did Chen Bing realize that he had inadvertently made a move. He originally wanted to refute a few words, but felt that this kind of talk was meaningless.He can yell if he likes, his mouth grows on his body, and he can't sew it up with a needle.

Xiao Zhi held the chair with his slender fingers and dragged it away, packed up his homework and put it beside the table: "Is my wife sleepy?"

Chen Bing: "Your wife is indeed sleepy."

"Sleep when you're sleepy, lie down on the bed?"

Chen Bing pulled the quilt covering his whole body, and said, "It's lying down."

After finishing his homework, Xiao Zhi walked towards the living room, his eyes seemed to be looking for something, after a while, his gaze fell back to the phone screen, and he said, "Good night, wife."

Chen Bing said "um", before he could hang up, he heard "mua!" from the other side of the speaker and kissed firmly.

The kiss was very affectionate.

"..."

Chen Bing was inexplicably funny. After hanging up the phone, he still stared at the screen for a while before turning off the screen to grab the quilt and close his eyes.

Really, it's stupid.

Also strangely sweet.

The summer night outside the window is silent.

In the same night, Xiao Zhi, who had just put down his phone, turned his head and looked around the room.The door of Xiao Ruo's room was open, and according to her usual habits, Xiao Ruo might come out in a nightgown soon.

There seemed to be nothing missing in the house, and something seemed to be missing, and it became very calm.

Xiao Zhi went to the balcony, picked up the rat food and threw it into the hamster cage, and casually sat on the chair next to it.The night wind was very cold, and there were tall and low buildings in the distance, and the vision could not see very far. The opposite was the balcony of the next floor.

At first, he didn't feel like chatting with Chen Bing just now, but when he hung up now, he suddenly felt that the surrounding environment was too quiet, so quiet that it made his back feel cold.

When the loneliness of being abandoned was overwhelming, Xiao Zhi originally wanted to raise his spirits and tell himself not to think too much, but he felt exhausted and powerless all over his body, nailing all his thoughts and senses.

very tired……

so tired.

Whether it's forcing a smile on your face, or encouraging yourself to cheer up.

It just makes him feel tired.

The wind blew the door of Xiao Ruo's room open and closed, Xiao Zhi got up and looked inside while holding the doorknob.

There are watercolor pens, rubber bands, paper boxes containing odds and ends, and an ugly piggy bank on the table. There are slippers on the ground.

In the past, Xiao Zhi always felt that she was too busy to find a cardboard box to put things in.Scraps of paper, movie theater ticket stubs, cleaned candy wrappers, and even a bookmark, I don’t know what to keep.

Xiao Zhi turned it out and took a look.

The photo with my brother, the flower on the birthday gift box my brother gave me, and the colored sticks that were burnt when I ate cake and lit candles were all in it.

Maybe this is the little girl's mind.

Xiao Zhi put the things back where they were, closed the door, went to the sofa and sat down on his knees.

It's so quiet at home, I'm alone.

Xiao Ruo had already fallen asleep at this time before, but he didn't feel that the house was so quiet and unobtrusive as it is now, with a strong sense of presence.

Xiao Zhi felt a little uncomfortable, got up and went downstairs for a walk, and when he came back to his senses, he was already standing outside the store with a pack of cigarettes and a few cans of beer.

He sat by the bed in the room, drank with a cigarette for a while, shook the beer can, thought of Chen Bing, and felt that he had failed his expectations of himself.

But the more I think about it, the more I hate myself.

Xiao Zhi supported his wrist, drank, and fell asleep at some point.

When he woke up, he felt an astringent taste in his mouth, and his brain seemed to have been hit by a fist. When he got up, his legs dangled, his eyes were lowered, and he couldn't tell the difference between east, west, and north.

"Fuck." Xiao Zhi cursed, looked at his phone, there were more than a dozen missed calls, and more than 20 messages from Chen Bing.

The time now is almost three o'clock in the afternoon.

Xiao Zhigang went to the bathroom to clean up, when he heard the knock on the door, he turned the doorknob.

Wen Wei, Guan Kun and Fu Hang stood outside.

They waited for a long time and did not reply to the message. They only found out about Xiao Ruo's departure after asking Chen Bing, so they made an appointment to come over to see how Xiao Zhi was doing.

Wen Wei looked at him cautiously, and fished out the basketball from behind: "Brother Xiao, go out to play?"

Xiao Zhi lowered his eyelids, his eyes were dyed black, and his eyes were three white. Because of the upside-down routine, he looked quite world-weary and irritable. He looked at Wen Wei: "Don't fight."

"...Okay, okay, don't hit." Wen Wei pushed Guan Kun's arm.Guan Kun raised his hand and patted him on the shoulder: "Let's go, find a place, have a barbecue at night, and kill time?"

Xiao Zhi shook his head, raised his hand to close the door: "Get out."

"Wait, wait! Brother Xiao..." Wen Wei squeezed sideways into the door, lest he really shut himself out, and hugged his shoulder.

Wen Wei's purpose was to make him happy, and he said helplessly, "Brother Xiao, don't do this, come out to play, it's boring to be bored at home."

Xiao Zhi closed his eyes and said wearily: "I'm not in the mood right now."

"It's really not." Wen Wei leaned closer and grinned at him, "Brother Xiao, there's really nothing you can't do, just smile a bit. Like me, smile with confidence and strength."

"..."

Xiao Zhi pushed him: "Go away, don't bother me."

"Then you can't go, don't refuse us, we came here specially to accompany you."

Wen Wei squeezed inside, hugging him, including Fu Hang, all of them squeezed up, pushing and shoving into the living room.

Entering, there are empty beer bottles, black soot, and changed T-shirts scattered on the coffee table, in a mess.

Wen Wei was stunned for a moment: "Brother Xiao, the Ice God is not here for you to make such a fuss? Is a man without a wife so arrogant?"

"..."

Xiao Zhi habitually lit a cigarette and held it between his fingers.

He leaned back on the sofa, gently scratched through the hair with his fingers, stared aimlessly at the whole living room with his eyelids down, and let out a heavy breath.

Wen Wei was still talking: "Brother Xiao, didn't the Ice God not let you smoke?"

Yes.

Xiao Zhi half-closed his eyes, without any strength, he responded.

"Brother Xiao?" Wen Wei continued to chatter in his ear.

The voice was far and near, and Xiao Zhi couldn't hear it.

He was just sleepy and wanted to sleep.

Want to get away from it all.