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Yuan Mu had a nightmare, dreaming that he was born as a deer.

The next day he told Qiu Yu on the way to school, Qiu Yu was puzzled, the deer is so cute, how could it become a nightmare.

Yuan Mu lowered his head and recalled slowly: "I always want to run in my dream, but I can't. Maybe because I'm not proficient in manipulating the four hooves, I always fall before taking a few steps until I wake up."

After he finished speaking, he even bent over and let his arms fall vertically to the ground, trying to regain the feeling of having four hooves in his dream.

Qiu Yu stayed with him on the side of the road, and watched him make an irrelevant comment: "You are cuter than a deer. Look at it now."

Yuan Mu turned his head to see him smiling, and wanted to straighten up and lift his foot to kick someone, but Qiu Yu had the foresight to back away when he was gaining momentum.Yuan Mu ignored it and walked straight forward.Qiu Yu, who was left behind, restrained her teasing expression, staring at Yuan Mu's back with gloomy eyebrows and eyes.

After a few seconds, Xiao ran caught up with him in two steps, jumped up in front of Yuan Mu and performed a dunk in the air, then twisted his upper body, his wrists collapsed, and his palms fell on the top of his hair, rubbing them indiscriminately.

"Ow."

He got an elbow when he landed and stood firm.

A group of boys went to the supermarket to buy drinks during the big break. When they returned to the classroom, they ran into Li Xuedao and said hello. Among them, Yuan Mu was picked up by him and brought to the office.

Li Xuedao found the teacher's chair at the next table for Yuan Mu, and asked him to sit. Seeing the surface of the bottle he was holding was dripping water, his teeth became sore, "Is it a young man who still picks from the freezer in winter?"

There was no paper in Yuan Mu's pocket, and it was not easy to put it on the table, so it got wet everywhere, so he wiped it dry on the school uniform, saying, "It's so refreshing from the cold."

Li Xuedao took the bottle from his hand and put it on the towel at the corner of the table: "Teacher Cai used it to dry his hands, he probably won't mind."

Yuan Mu smiled appropriately, sat down, and waited for Li Xuedao to speak.

Li Xuedao faced him face to face, looked at him for a while, and asked, "Student Yuan Mu, are you not very happy recently?"

Yuan Mu was taken aback, opened his eyes round, his Adam's apple rolled a little, and he laughed even bigger: "No, teacher."

"If you have any difficulties, you can tell me. The teacher will keep it secret for you and find a way to help you solve it. I will pay attention to the status of each of you. In my eyes, your emotional and mental health are far more important than grades. "Li Xuedao recalled that Yuan Mu's final grades had improved considerably, and guided him, "Is it because you have put too much pressure on yourself recently?"

Yuan Mu didn't dare to look Li Xuedao in the eyes again.There were water marks on his fingers, he stroked and shook his head.

"Okay. I noticed very early on that you are frequently distracted in my class. The reason why I came to you today is to give you time to adjust yourself. But the effect does not seem to be obvious. Why is this, have you found the reason?"

The water droplets collapsed and evaporated easily, and the wet touch on Yuan Mu's hands was gone.He nodded and said, "Teacher, I can solve it myself."

should.

"Well, the teacher also believes in you." Li Xuedao emphasized, "The purpose of today's conversation is not to accuse or alert, but to provide you with a way to solve the problem. The holiday is coming soon, and the college entrance examination is not far away. Looking forward to seeing you give it your all, but you also need to be mindful of self-regulation, okay?"

"I will, thank you teacher."

"Okay, let's go." Li Xuedao got up and said again, "Oh, the squad leader gave me the volunteer form in advance when I asked for leave the day after tomorrow. He said that you still have Yu Xiuxi to hand in, and you will let it go directly to the office." He pointed to a small stack of papers on his desk.

"But why haven't you handed it in for so long? Didn't you think about it? Don't you have a favorite school yet?"

Yuan Mu's sweat grew wildly from the pores of his body in an instant, and he felt that his heels were shaking, so he had to bend his legs and fall back to the chair.

He has to face Fang Qiong when he is at home, Qiu Yu when he is not at home, and himself when he is finally alone.Now in the office, he still has to face Li Xuedao.Blank papers were erected in all directions to force Yuan Mu to fill in the answers. The feeling of suffocation hit, and it was only a second, followed by strong dizziness and panting caused by mental weakness.

Li Xuedao saw something was wrong, and hurried to help him: "What's wrong?"

Yuan Mu clutched his chest: "No—no, a little... low blood sugar."

When leaving, Yuan Mu bowed deeply and long to Li Xuedao.When he asked "Are you unhappy recently", Yuan Mu really wanted to cry.

Yuan Mu thought that the scene in the office was not a breakdown, but at most an insignificant slip while wandering on the edge of a cliff.Slipped and fell, and stepped on some sand and stones, but there was no danger. He got up again and continued to wander, waiting for the day after tomorrow to see what judgment he would make on himself at the last moment.

But the final moment came sooner than he had imagined.

It was 11:30 when I went home at night, the living room was lit, and Fang Qiong sat on the sofa and did nothing, as if waiting for him.

"Have you handed in your volunteer form?" she asked.

The last time Fang Qiong talked to him was eleven nights ago. In front of Yuan Mu, she picked out the clothes he put in the laundry basket and threw them on the low stool, saying: Let’s separate them in the future.

"No."

"I won't sign it."

"I know."

"But I won't stop you wherever you want to go." Fang Qiong looked at him from a distance under the lamp, "It doesn't matter whether it's close or far away, as long as you like it, no matter how reluctant my mother is, I don't care."

She went into the bedroom, took the things and folded them back, and put a small square box in Yuan Mu's hand.

"I bought a watch for you some time ago. I gave you a mobile phone and found that you don't like to use it all the time. I thought it would be easier to tell the time on a watch than a mobile phone." Fang Qiong is shorter than Yuan Mu, and now she can't see her expression clearly with her head buried. I only heard a long and trembling inhalation, "I wanted to give it to you on the day of the final exam. But it doesn't matter, it's the same at any time. It's a good watch, and it can accompany you for a long time."

"mom......"

Fang Qiong raised her head and raised her hand to touch Yuan Mu's hair, but she couldn't reach it, so she pinched his shoulder instead, and smiled: "Growing up, it really took a while, I always thought I was still a little kid." After finishing speaking Patted him, "I won't force you, I won't force you." She shook her head bitterly.

"Get a good night's sleep tonight, and mom should too. If you want to go to Beijing, you have to work harder than before. Eat well, rest well, and ask mom for money if you need any materials."

Fang Qiong walked back to the room step by step, and slowly closed the door.During the period, he raised his arm and made a gesture of wiping tears.

Yuan Mu supported the porch cabinet, changed a shoe sheet, and hugged the watch box in his arms, completely stunned, standing motionless until his whole body became unconscious.

At a certain moment, being hit hard by some invisible object in the air, Yuan Mu trembled with pain and squatted down in pain.When I closed my eyes, the dream from last night surfaced.He was still a deer that couldn't run far, he was beaten and caught, and a voice laughed at him: Net this thing, you can't see it, you can't try it, it's close, you're in it, you Only then did I know it was powerful.

Fang Qiong won again, she had never lost.She also won in the dream, and it was the same in reality. He was tied up by her net again, unable to move.

Tears flowed from the eye sockets, elbows resting on knees, eyes covered with palms.The more it flows, the more it can't stop, the more it hurts, the more it looks like it's about to die.How can it hurt so much.Yuan Mu's throat broke, and he cried loudly.Thin, hoarse, and heartbreaking to hear.

Yuan Cha was woken up, opened the door to see the situation, ran over and knelt down and almost cried together.She was so frightened that she kept calling her brother by his name.This person seemed crazy, like a lost body, subconsciously thinking that he had to call his name to get him back.

Yuan Mu gradually stopped talking amidst Yuan Cha's gradually losing his composure, but he still couldn't control his sobs.

She opened her mouth but said calmly: "It's okay, leave me alone and go to sleep."

Yuan Cha really cried, holding back his tears, humming like a little pig: "Brother, what's the matter?"

He covered his face all the time, not looking at her, nor letting her look at himself: "It's okay."

Seeing the watch box dropped by his feet, Yuan Cha said angrily, "Is it true that mother has backed down? Isn't she? She clearly said she would agree, promised you to go to Beijing, but she backed down again, didn't she?"

She said to herself: "Brother, don't, don't be sad. If it doesn't work, I'll tell my mother that I'm going to Beijing too, and she will definitely agree with you. Don't cry about it."

He was silent for a while and asked, "Why?"

Yuan Cha was also dumbfounded, but she just felt that what she said would definitely make Fang Qiong agree: "I don't know. I'll try it, and you will believe it."

Yuan Mu lowered his arms, glanced at Yuan Cha, covered his stomach and bent his head, and smiled weakly: "Okay. You can go."

Yuan Cha also looked at Yuan Mu, seeing that his face was full of crystal clear water, but his eyes were shockingly red, as if he was bleeding blood rather than tears.

She turned her head and looked back, but her mother's door was silent.

The next day was cloudy.The cloudy days in winter are more majestic than those of the other three seasons. It is frighteningly cloudy, like the sky is dead, and it will swallow people up when pressed down.

Yuan Mu didn't go to school with Qiu Yu.He held his breath, fearing that he would disperse when he saw the popularity.

Yu Xiuxi was also very early as expected, Yuan Mu didn't greet him politely, and asked just as soon as he put away his schoolbag, "Have you filled out the volunteer form?"

"No." Yu Xiuxi was a little afraid to talk to him, but couldn't help talking to him. He always did this in recent days, "I—"

Yu Xiuxi also wanted to say that Yuan Mu, who has always been keen and sensitive, failed today: "Lend it to me, and return it to you after making a copy."

"Oh, good."

Later, Qiu Yu never saw Yuan Mu in the classroom again, and heard from Li Xuedao that he had asked for leave.

The fall semester ended in a hurry, and we couldn't sit together for the last meal at school.