King's Landing GL

Chapter 52 Pour my sincerity

Life in the barracks was neither good nor bad.Although food and clothing are not as good as those in the palace, they are quite comfortable. Apart from being unaccustomed when I first came, now that I am used to staying in the military camp, I have gradually made three or five friends.And Li Yi, as a major general, Li Yi ran to my tent all day long without anything to do. After a long time... the rumors spread, and my comrades in a team even joked about me, saying that I Eighty percent of the major generals with thin skin and tender flesh have taken a fancy to me...

But I took a closer look at myself in the mirror at night, and it seems like March and May have passed since I came to the barracks, right?Thin skin and tender meat? ——My skin is now tanned to a wheat-yellow color, and it’s almost as if I’m covered in rough flesh.Rough meat is rough meat, at least after exercising in the military camp, my health has improved a lot, plus taking the medicine prescribed by Pisen, my complexion is much better after all.In this regard, Li Yi also said that he would invite me to drink, but I thought about it and refused. The military regulations are strict, and I don't want to be punished.

If it is said that this military camp is good, except for Jing Chong, Li Wu, and Li Yi who know my identity, others will regard me as an ordinary person. I am just Gu Congnan, but the only thing I still don't understand is why Murong Bai I haven't issued the edict that I have reconciled with her.

But I don't want to ask.

Time seems to pass by, autumn is over, winter is over, spring is over, and summer is coming soon.The weather is getting hotter day by day, and the barracks is getting busier and busier.Calculating the time, it has been more than a year to recuperate, and I am afraid that there will be another war in the near future.

On the third day of the seventh lunar month, the camp, which has always been dull and iron-blooded and strict, made an exception for the holiday.I got up early that day, changed my clothes and ran to the martial arts field. I turned around and didn’t see the usual practice team. I asked the guard sergeant strangely, but he said that today is a holiday for a day off. .I'm wondering, it's not the first and fifteenth day of the lunar new year, why is it a holiday again?

But the holiday is still very good, I just wash the quilt and clothes in the camp.

By the time I washed everything that needed to be washed in the tent and dried it again, it was already noon.After lunch, he took a nap, but this time he fell asleep until the hour of You, he was dizzy from sleep, and had a dream.

It should be counted as a dream.

I dreamed of Murong Bai. I dreamed that 23-year-old Murong Bai met me for the first time at the foot of Guigu Mountain. She smiled very beautifully, walked towards me with bright eyes, and said to me:

"I finally waited for you."

She took me back to Qin Palace, and in front of the people of Qin and all civil and military officials, she said that she would be a couple with me forever.On the day of the wedding, she hugged me, her heart was beating like a drum, and she asked me if I ever liked it?

——I like it, how could I not like it.

Hearing this, she raised her eyebrows and smiled, like a spring breeze blowing across the frozen land, a hundred flowers bloom overnight:

——As long as you like it.

In summer, she built a summer palace for me. I said she was extravagant, but she said calmly, "Why can't I be extravagant to you?" I laughed at her for fear of learning from King Zhou You, and I became a troublesome girl .She asked me if I would like to be her concubine?

——Yes, of course I am willing.I just don't know if you want this trouble?

——The bright media is marrying, don't be afraid that you will be punished by heaven.

At night, I waited for her in the Hall of Eternal Life, and after a long time, I fell asleep on the desk with my head tilted. When she came back, she saw my sleepy appearance, frowning and threatening me:

——Didn’t I tell you to go to bed earlier?What are you waiting for me to do?

In the dream, I should have been happy, but for some reason, I shed tears and said with a smile on my face:

——I'm afraid that if I don't wait for you, you will never come back.

She raised her hand to wipe away my tears, with a gentle smile:

——How could I not come back, I will be where you are.

I took her hand, kissed her palm, and murmured:

——Then are you willing to come to my long street and be my family?

——If you will, I have always been willing.

I laughed through my tears, and she said:

——It’s late at night, go to sleep.

I nodded and fell asleep hugging her.It was supposed to be a good dream, but I had a nightmare.After waking up, I told her, I said I dreamed that you took the harem, and she asked how many people did you take?I said seven people, she laughed at me.I continued, I also dreamed that you were married to Chen Guo, that man named Xie Changjun wanted to marry you, and you agreed.You still call him "Awen", you must like him... because I heard your love story with him when you were married, you said he came, and you are no longer alone.Later...later...you also killed the uncle, why did you attack the uncle?Do you know that without Su Yu, there would be no me.You moved Su Yu...we will never go back.

When I said this, I was stunned for a moment, a little familiar, and after a while, I suddenly started to tremble, trembling all over.I said in a hoarse voice: You still said you wouldn't fall in love with me...you don't love me, you lied to me.What you love is Murong Wen, I'm just a shadow...You guys, you have a child...

I was dazzled, I kept repeating: you have a child... a child...

The panic in my heart continued to magnify, she came forward and kissed me for a long time, and I gradually calmed down.She hugged me and patted my back, her voice glowing softly:

"I don't marry anyone else, no matter what the reason is. Think about it, listen to me. Although I haven't said I love you, our hearts are the same, the same. Except you... I do not want anything."

I tightened my palms and asked her:

"Don't you want the throne?"

She chuckled softly, but said seriously:

"If you don't like me being king, I will issue an edict to abdicate and travel the mountains and rivers with you."

I said nothing, she continued:

"You just had a dream. When you wake up, I'm still here. I haven't left you."

By the way, it was just a dream.

I didn't ask her to issue an abdication edict. She said that she would give up the throne and only want me. I am very happy.I have not lost to anyone, nor to her throne, and she loves me in her heart - then I am worth it.

I have been married to her for sixty years, and we are in harmony with each other.Even though we don't have kids, we're doing pretty well, better than anyone else understands.

On the summer solstice when she was 83 years old, she smiled and closed her eyes in my arms, and was buried in the tomb I built for her.It was I who carried her into the underground royal tomb, changed her into the wedding robe we wore on our wedding day, and slept next to her, holding her hand tightly, and she was beside me.I laugh:

"Let's get entangled in the next life."

—— "Okay, let's pester again."

While my consciousness was floating, I saw my past life, and the most impressive thing was the tenth day of April in the seventh year of Qin Wangbai, when I married her.

She and I climbed up the steps holding hands, walked through the 99 steps in front of the Hall of Supreme Harmony, and said politely:

"Pray to heaven and earth,

Second worship to the high hall,

Husband and wife say goodbye! "

That is the best memory in my life and the beginning of all my happiness.I have been in love with her for 60 years, we have gone through ups and downs together.

Before going, I said:

"Murong Bai, fortunately, I have you in my life."

I opened my eyes again, and the goal was the top of the tent. I blinked blankly, sat up on the bed, and thought for a long time before I remembered the dream I had.

What a perfect dream.

I got out of bed with a smile, made myself a cup of tea, and looked at the time only to realize that it was already the hour of You, and it was really like a dream.When I was about to go out to collect the quilt and clothes, Li Yi broke in. I was shocked and asked him:

"Why are you running in such a hurry?"

Li Yi took a few breaths and looked at me with some hesitation.

Seeing that he hadn't spoken for a long time, I lost my patience and was about to bypass him and go out, but he spoke:

"gentlemen!"

I turned around:

"Ok?"

"Sir... did you hear anything?"

I don't understand:

"what?"

Li Yi turned to look at me, and after a while, said softly:

"Today at three o'clock... Qin has a queen..."

I was taken aback for a moment, then smiled and said:

"What's your name?"

"It's a princess...named 'No'."

"Murong Wu?" I read the name and laughed, "It's a good name."

"gentlemen......"

"I still have to collect my clothes, so I won't receive you for now." I smiled and turned around to go out. When I collected my clothes and came back, Li Yi was no longer in the tent.

Fold clothes and sheets and put them away.I sat at the table, took off the Zhanlu sword, and wiped it carefully. The sword was cold and sharp, imprinted on my smiling face, and carefully recalled the long dream I had at noon.

God really treats me well, I still remember every word she said to me in the dream, she said: "You just had a dream, woke up from the dream, I am still here, I have not left you."

And now I wake up, and she's gone.

I sat for a long time, wiping my sword.I think my life is probably a strange fate, people close to me are gone, I was abandoned by my parents when I was born, and then the one I love should not marry someone else, and the only Su Yu who loved me was also killed by me .

I don't know if the phrase "Fortune comes when misfortunes depend on it, and misfortune comes when blessings depend on it" is right or wrong, but I know that it is I who caused things to develop to this point.I don't hate Murong Bai, and I don't hate her for abandoning me.Hate nothing and resent nothing.

I went out of the camp with the sword in my hand, and I saw those who were still in the camp toasting, rejoicing in the joy of their king.I stood there thinking for a while, I wanted to try to imagine how beautiful Murong Bai's peerless face was with a maternal smile, but I gave up after a while—her beauty no longer belonged to me. me.

I found a secluded place, danced the sword alone, and danced all night.The moon that night was big and round, shining on the whole Qin country, and I was alone under the moon.On such a day of national celebration, I really shouldn't be expressionless.I should have laughed, I really laughed when I thought about it.

I am happy for her, happy for her.She finally had a child of her own, and that child was named Murong Wu.I think she will be as beautiful and proud as her mother when she grows up.

I said:

Murong Bai, you want to be happy.

——I finally admit defeat, completely lost.I no longer have illusions about her, I gave up the ideal of being in pairs with her, and guarded my dream of being with her forever.From now on, I love her, it is only my business.

The next morning, when I went back to the tent, everyone who saw me on the road looked at me in shock. I smiled and said nothing, and happened to meet Li Yi. He looked at me, and his expression suddenly changed:

"Sir...you...your hair..."

I laugh:

"It's nothing, I accidentally got mad when I was practicing."

He opened his mouth, wanting to say something, but sighed.

I lowered my head and looked at my white hair, which had already gone for nothing, and thought to myself that this is also considered as a bald head with her.

Li Yi was silent for a long time, then suddenly said:

"Sir... are you going...to find the king?"

"No, she is probably very busy, so I won't make trouble." I said to Li Yi, "By the way, I have observed the army carefully in the past few months, and there are some things that need to be improved. I wrote a booklet and took it out in a while." for you."

"Sir, you want to travel far?"

I wondered:

"What journey?"

"No... nothing."

Palace of Longevity, Qin Palace

At three quarters of the hour, a cry of a baby resounded throughout the palace, and the bell rang three times. The civil and military officials knelt in front of the palace and said loudly:

"Congratulations, Your Majesty! Congratulations, Your Majesty!"

Murong Bai was lying on the bed with a pale complexion, his eyes were a little lost, Xiao Taozi came to Murong Bai's bed with the newborn baby in his arms, and said:

"Your Majesty, she is a little princess."

"Princess..." Murong Bai repeated in a hoarse voice, suddenly remembered something:

——"I really want to have a child with you, but I know it's impossible."

--"Is it......"

——"If you want to have a daughter, she can follow your temperament. If that's the case, I will teach her well."

——"How to teach?"

——“Teach her to enjoy life and be content with her.”

——"Aren't you going to teach her how to read and write?"

——"Do not teach."

She lowered her eyes and said lightly:

"Let's name it 'None'."

"No." Xiao Taozi responded.

Murong Wu, a woman without talent is virtue.This counts, and it should be your wish.It's just that she doesn't know whether she can live in this world safely because she is illiterate and not outstanding.

I Chang'an.

"Does His Majesty want to hug His Royal Highness the Little Princess?"

She closed her eyes lightly, a little weakly:

"Go back."

"......promise."

Just as Xiao Taozi left, the closed door was pushed open again. Jian An walked into the inner room alone, looked at the woman lying on the bed, paused, and said:

"Prince."

Murong Bai's eyelashes trembled slightly, but he didn't open his eyes, he just said lightly:

"The son and minister are exhausted, and the queen mother understands."

Jian An's smile was a little stiff, and after a while, she spoke again:

"My lord... you've worked hard."

"Hard work?" Murong Bai sneered, opened his eyes and turned to look sideways at the woman in front of the bed who was very similar to her, and said mockingly, "Qin has a queen, how can I work so hard?"

Jian An was silent for a while, and said:

"The queen mother knows that you like her..."

"Since you know—" Murong Bai gritted his teeth and said, "Since you know, why are you threatening me with her!"

"Prince!" Jian An scolded, "Do you want to bury the painstaking efforts of your father and king in your hands? For a woman! You have forgotten who you are!"

Hearing this, Murong Bai actually laughed, she said:

"This is the last time I call you Empress Dowager, Murong Wu, you can teach as you like, but I just want to tell the Empress Dowager: Without that child, you are still the king of Daqin! Gu Ai Guigu is still king of the world! "

"You..." Jian An took two steps back angrily, threw off his sleeves and said angrily, "I can't control you what you want to do, but you have to make Murong Wu the successor of Daqin immediately!"

"Heh..." Murong Bai sneered, with disdain on his brows, "Murong Wu was born out of filial piety and the duty of being a king. As for who is Gu's heir, it is up to Gu to say Calculate."

Jian An trembled angrily, she never thought that her daughter would be so stubborn, and just about to say something, she heard Murong Bai say flatly:

"Gu hates other people's threats the most. If Gu can make Murong die, he can naturally let her die!"

"You..." Jian An was so angry that she couldn't speak. Although this daughter was not as close to her as a Siyin, she still knew her more or less.She originally thought that she and Zongheng were just partnering with each other, or just playing on the occasion, but she didn't expect that now she would turn against her because of Zongheng!

"I'm lonely, please step back, Empress Dowager." Murong Bai closed his eyes and said expressionlessly.

Jian An flicked his sleeves, turned and left with a livid face.

After Jian An left, Murong Bai lay on the bed for a while and then got up, changed her clothes, she sat quietly at the table, and when it was almost dawn, she moved her body and raised her hand to make a pot of tea for herself.In this moment of national celebration, she couldn't squeeze out a smile, even though everyone's smile was because of her.

She held the cup of tea, and changed it after it was cold, and changed it after it was cold.It was already dawn, and when I looked up, the hall where she was the only one seemed so empty.She squeezed the teacup and exhaled foul air. At this moment, only she knew how much she missed that person.

Thinking, thinking.

She frowned and said the name silently in her heart, and smiled wryly: I'm afraid it's just like you and me, just as helpless.What's wrong with me is that I always wanted to be happy with you, willing to be happy for you, but in the end I deserved my own name—wasting all my efforts.What's wrong with you is that you have been unrestrained, but you have been worrying about me all your life.

Who owes whom, who owes whom?

At the same time, another place in the capital is another situation:

"Birth?" The man smiled after reading the letter from the flying pigeon in the palace, and said to the man wearing the silver mask standing aside, "She gave birth to a daughter."

The masked man shook his folding fan and said casually:

"Then Qin has a queen."

The man blew a fire note and burned the letter. After hearing what the masked man said, he smiled disdainfully:

"So what? The throne will be mine after all."

The masked man looked mockingly, but said lightly:

"so?"

The man laughed twice, his eyes flashed, and the ambition he had hidden for more than 30 years was finally revealed:

"That's why I will push my niece to the throne! When the time comes..."

The masked man put away his folding fan and laughed:

"I'd like to persuade the prince, your sister is much smarter than you."

"you......"

"How about this..." the masked man stepped forward and said in a low voice.

"..."

"Sir is knowledgeable, it's really a good plan." The man said happily.

The masked man didn't think so, he curled his lips into a half-smile, there was a man in his memory who taught him how to treat prey when he was a child, death is not the goal, making it painful is the best thing, life is better than death.He waved his fan and looked like a handsome young man, but in his body, the desire for blood had already awakened.He has waited too long and prepared for a long time.He had never lost to him in his life, but he was completely defeated in front of him.He has given him pain, injury, and suffering, and now he wants to pay him back with his own hands.

It would be better if the father's debts are repaid by the son.

He was once in love with siblings, but now he is the one to start and end the joke.Xu Guo wanted to live and die together, how could he let Xiang Yan lie alone in the cold tomb, how lonely it would be.He was taught by him alone, so naturally he was thinking of him wholeheartedly.Since Xiang Yan was alone, he would find all his juniors, sons, daughters, and daughter-in-laws to accompany him to his burial, so that the teaching Xiang Yan painstakingly taught him would not be in vain.

Such a perfect plan, the only regret is that Xiang Yan can no longer see how beautiful it is to see the flowers of hatred blooming in the dust and blooming in the blood of his relatives—just like when he stabbed his sword at him As always, so red, so beautiful.

Murong Bai didn't hear that person's name until the third day after the child's birth. At that time, she was leaning against the window, imitating that person's habit and looking up at the sky. The sky is blue and blue, with distinct colors Even the distance of tens of thousands of miles is still so touching.After watching for a long time, she gradually fell in love with it.

Of course, she didn't think she was imitating that person's habits, and even if she was, she wouldn't admit it.

Duplicity is her best pronoun.

And when Mo Shan told her about that person's recent situation, for the first time, she faced her heart so directly, directly.

"One night...grey hair?" She murmured, "You said, she had gray hair overnight..."

Mo Shan didn't speak.

Murong Bai's figure stood more and more straight, his tall and slender body exuded an air of arrogance and menace, but afterwards he was as quiet as death.Mo Shan backed away quietly, but Murong Bai still maintained his original posture, looking up at the sky. ——Her back is still as calm and clear as it was seven years ago.She remained motionless, as if time had stopped at this moment, and she was dressed in a black robe with a beautiful halo on her body, so beautiful that she was beyond words.

It was so quiet, but I heard the sound of water drops falling on the ground, making traces.

She was weeping silently.

Then the wind picked up.

With few words, even crying is the most silent way for her.Tears were still flashing in his eyes, but his face was two lines wet.

She was clasping the edge of the window, her knuckles turned white, so hard, as if she wanted to grab something, but in the end she didn't catch anything.

She probably shouldn't be regarded as a qualified woman, because what she gave was not what her sweetheart wanted.What she wanted to give, but couldn't.She wanted to keep her, but she was always forcing her away...

In the end, what caused the two who once embraced each other so tightly to be considered strangers now.

One difference and two widths, everyone is happy. ——She still remembers these eight characters, the eight characters engraved in her mind.She has never left pens and inks from her sweetheart, nor did she expect to receive such pens and inks.When a folk husband travels far, the wife will keep the letters left by her husband and keep them close to her.Now, she has gone away, but what is left to her is a letter of reconciliation and separation.

She is proud, so after receiving the letter, she endured it silently alone, without issuing an imperial edict, and unwilling to make peace.

She is pathetic, so she can only hold the He Li book that she wrote to her in her personal collection, as a token of lovesickness.

She has read that letter many times, word by word, and she can imagine how much she hurts and hates when she looks at the letter she wrote.

She also hated, hated her own powerlessness.

Gray hair overnight... It's because of the pain and hatred that it causes gray hair.Her tall and straight body finally couldn't stop trembling, tears fell drop by drop on the ground, large water stains were still printed on the wooden board, but she fell into the darkness and couldn't struggle no matter what.

After knowing that the man made her hair gray all night, she finally cried out, crying out heartily.She endured it for too long, knowing that some things and some people can be met but not sought after; she has sought too far, and knows what the consequences of doing so should be.She thought she was ready to face everything, and told herself thousands of times: If she was unhappy by her side, she was willing to let her go.But when she really heard about her recent situation, she still couldn't bear it when she heard that her hair was white all night and her blue hair was gone.

She couldn't bear the hatred she gave, it was too heavy and painful, she was just a woman, she couldn't bear the despair and hatred of her sweetheart.From the beginning to the end, she was enjoying the love she gave her, and she only wanted her love.

She didn't understand why they were so in love but separated alive.Love is deep and love is shallow, and the origin and the end of the relationship.In the end who is being blamed, who is thinking about whom.If pride will eventually take away the person she loves the most, then she will give up everything and treat her with no self-respect for the rest of her life... Will she not hate her?

Pour my sincerity and wait for your return.

But you, would you like to come back?

(End of this chapter)