July and a half

Then he got up in a hurry, took care of himself, and ran home with some money for the bus ticket.

Shilong's family is a bit special.There are only two people in his family, he and Shi Jian.

Shi Jian is a child of Uncle Shilong's family, ten years older than him.

Both of Shilong's parents died when he was young, and his uncle took him into his home and raised him as his own son.

Later, Shi Jian grew up and became an independent family. He asked Shi Long to be taken away, and everyone agreed, so Shi Long lived with Shi Jian ever since.

Although Shi Jian and Shi Long are very different in age, they have a very good relationship.

In other words, Shi Jian dotes on Shilong too much, he does not look like a fatherless person at all, on the contrary, he is a bit arrogant and indulgent.

Shi Jian has always called Shi Long Bao Bao, and Shi Long protested several times when he grew up, but Shi Jian refused to change after repeated admonitions, so Shi Long let him go.

Their original pure brotherhood was broken when Shilong was 14 years old.

At that time, Shi Jian had already taken Shi Long to live outside.

One night, Shi Long couldn't fall asleep because of tossing and turning. With his back to Shi Jian, he secretly touched his crotch with his hands.

In the darkness, a hand suddenly stretched out from behind Shi Long, and grabbed Shi Long's hand.

Shi Long was startled at first, but soon he moved his hand away, letting the assertive hand rub back and forth on his lower body.

When he finally let it out, he suddenly felt a little sick in his heart.

Perhaps it was because the most private place was touched by others, and he was a little inexplicably unhappy.

But that feeling was fleeting, and Shi Long would not ask for unhappiness, and simply put that short-lived emotion behind him.

He felt that a certain part of Shi Jian was also excited, and at this moment he poked straight on his buttocks.

In order to reciprocate courtesy, Shi Long turned around and grabbed Shi Jian.

He didn't have much patience, and his movements, which were relatively light at first, changed after a while, and he pulled Shi Jian out at a rough speed with his rough hands and feet.

Shi Jian's breathing was not very steady, and he sprayed tremblingly on Shi Long's neck. When Shi Long pulled him out, he couldn't help but put his lips on Shi Long's neck.

Shi Long pushed Shi Jian away in disgust, turned over and fell asleep with the quilt wrapped around him.

Shi Jian looked at the back of Shi Long's head with some disappointment, sighed silently, and closed his eyes wearily.

Because Shi Long's movements were not gentle at all, he had a dull pain somewhere, and he didn't know if he would feel uncomfortable when he peed next time.

He frowned, and fell asleep with an uncomfortable expression.

They started out so naturally that they didn't even explain to each other, they helped each other like eating a meal.

As a result, when Shi Jian turned on the light and opened his legs naked to Shi Long, Shi Long didn't hesitate much, and followed Shi Jian's guidance to enter his body.

They tacitly maintain this kind of unknown improper relationship. It seems that both of them are happy, and they do it very frequently.

It wasn't until Shilong University that he left home for the first time. This departure was like a trapped bird rushing to the sky, and there was a tendency of never returning.

Shi Jian's phone calls are very frequent, perhaps because of this, Shi Long never feels that he is far away from Shi Jian, but has a feeling that he can't get rid of Shi Jian.

He was feeling a little annoyed.

He thought to himself, this time he will go home after a few days, and he won't be troubled for a few days.

In this way, he arrived home in a hurry.

When he entered the house, Shi Jian was busy in the kitchen.

He cooked a lot of Shilong's favorite dishes, and bought a bunch of fruit snacks for Shilong to eat.

When Shi Jian was young, Shi Jian liked to coax Shi Long with delicious food.

But now that he has grown up, he doesn't care so much about his appetite. Seeing Shi Jian prepare so many things for himself, he doesn't feel anything special in his heart. , Have a good "eat" meal.

The two of them ate and drank enough, before Shi Jian went to clear the table, Shi Long jumped on him.

Pressing Shi Jian on the sofa, his clothes fell off in a mess.

The two had a hearty fight like a battle. Shi Jian was stabbed behind him for a long time, his body was exhausted, and he almost didn't want to move.

He pushed Shi Long to let him wash the dishes, but Shi Long only hummed, pretending to be dead on the sofa, with Shi Jian's waist sandwiched between his thighs, as if he would not let Shi Jian move.

They nestled on the sofa for most of the night. At midnight, Shi Long pestered Shi Jian to do it again in the bedroom, and then fell asleep contentedly.

The next day, when Shilong woke up, he felt something was wrong.

He was tied up with ropes from top to bottom, and the ankles and wrists were also tied with ropes, and the other end was tied to the edge of the bed.

He looked down at himself in confusion, then raised his neck and called Shi Jian.

Shi Jian ran in in response, stood by the bed and asked, "What's wrong with the baby? Are you hungry or do you want to go to the toilet?"

Shi Long glanced at the rope on his body in confusion, and asked Shi Jian, "Why are you tying me up?"

Shi Jian didn't answer, but still looked at Shi Long with that kind of gentle eyes.

Shi Long finally noticed the problem, he asked angrily, "Shi Jian, what do you want to do?"

Shi Jian stepped forward and sat on the edge of the bed.

He reached out and touched Shi Long's head, and said to Shi Long, "Baby, if I don't tie you up, you will leave immediately."

Shi Long laughed angrily, "What are you talking about? I still have to go to school, of course I have to leave. What do you want to do by tying me up like this? Can't you tie me up forever?"

Shi Jian tilted his head to look at Shi Long, and asked, "Is life bad?"

Shi Long was taken aback, he was frightened by Shi Jian's expression.

Shi Jian turned out to be serious.

Shi Long looked at Shi Jian in disbelief for a while, and suddenly began to yell, "Shi Jian, are you crazy? Is your head broken? How could you do this to me! Let me go, don't let me go again!" I make you look good!"

However, Shi Jian remained indifferent, watching Shi Long shout with a calm expression.

Shi Long became more and more angry, he cursed everything, as if Shi Jian was not the person who almost raised him, but his enemy.

Shi Jian always let him scold him.

In this way, one day, two days, five days.

Shi Jian asked for leave for Shilong, as if he was determined to tie Shilong to death by his side.

And Shi Long also calmed down from the initial anger.

He started to say nothing, went on a hunger strike, and refused to cooperate no matter what Shi Jian asked him to do.

It's a pity that no matter what he did, Shi Jian was unmoved and refused to let him go.

In the past few days, Shi Long has done the most embarrassing thing in his life.

He lay on the bed like a vegetative person, and Shi Jian served him when he ate, drank and lazed. Even when he was shitting, his important parts were all under Shi Jian's sight.

Even Shi Jian thought that if it went on for a long time, maybe Shi Long's spirit would collapse.

But he didn't regret it, he was determined to do it.

But one day, Shi Long suddenly took the initiative to talk to Shi Jian.

At that time Shi Jian was straddling Shi Long and was wiping him.

Shi Long suddenly said to Shi Jian, "I want to hug you."

Shi Jian looked at Shi Long in disbelief, Shi Long tilted his head and kissed Shi Jian's mouth.

Shi Jian blushed, he turned his head in embarrassment, but his movements were unambiguous, and he took the initiative to stick to Shi Long's body.

Shi Long has changed, he always stares straight at Shi Jian, wanting to touch Shi Jian all the time.

Of course Shi Jian is very happy, but he also feels melancholy occasionally.Because he always felt that Shi Long was not sincere, Shi Long was just pretending.

Sure enough, one day, Shi Long suggested that he had been lying down for too long, and it seemed that he was about to develop bed sores, and he wanted to get up and move around.

Shi Jian didn't want to agree, but seeing Shi Long's pleading expression, he couldn't bear it anymore.

He untied the ropes around Shi Long's wrists and ankles, allowing him to move around, but his hands were tied to his sides, so he couldn't run freely or touch anything.

Shi Long walked around the room obediently, he didn't do anything, just sat for a long time, and at night, he even lay down on the bed and waited for Shi Jian to tie himself up.

That night, Shi Jian fell asleep with Shi Long in his arms.Before going to sleep, Shi Long suddenly said, "I understand how you feel."

Shi Jian looked up at Shi Long.

Shi Long whispered "I'm sorry", and then kissed Shi Jian on the lips.

Shi Jian closed his eyes and held Shi Long tightly in his arms.

The next day, when Shilong woke up, he found that the ropes on his body were gone.

He looked at Shi Jian who was lying on the side in surprise, Shi Jian only looked at Shi Long tenderly, and said to him, "I won't tie you up anymore, you are still young, you should go to school..."

Shi Long seemed to be in disbelief, looking back and forth at his body.

Finally, he got up cautiously, turned around under the bed, but did not see Shi Jian stopping him.

He was finally completely relieved, he threw himself on the bed a little excitedly, kissed Shi Jian's face all over, and then asked cautiously, "You really want me to go to school?"

Shi Jian nodded.

Shi Long couldn't control his silly smile for a while, and finally he kissed Shi Jian resoundingly on the face, then turned around, "I'm leaving, you wait for me at home."

Shi Jian didn't stop him, he grabbed his thigh tightly with both hands, if it wasn't like this, he couldn't help but rush out and catch Shi Long back.

After there was no more movement outside, Shi Jian finally couldn't help crying.

Because he knew that Shi Long would never come back again.

The warmth these days is all pretended by Shi Long, no one knows Shi Long better than himself, including Shi Long himself.

He just didn't want to treat Shi Long like that anymore, because he was afraid, he was afraid that Shi Long would die.

But letting Shi Long go, he thought, maybe he will die.

Everything was as Shi Jian expected, Shi Long left Shi Jian in fear and joy, and he never went back to find Shi Jian.

In the blink of an eye, ten years have passed.

Over the past ten years, Shilong has grown up and matured.

He had been in love several times, but in the end they all ended without a problem.

He has encountered many setbacks, he has had many ideological troughs, and he has thought of Shi Jian countless times.

He found that there was no one in this world who was as wholehearted as Shi Jian, and no one would call him baby tenderly and give him all the good things.

Sometimes he even thought, if he went back now, would Shi Jian still be the same Shi Jian?Is it still Shi Jian who only cares about himself?

However, he just thought that he had been cowardly for ten years.

On this day, Shi Long was completely disheartened about his current job.

He resigned, took a small amount of luggage, and returned to the home he hadn't returned to in ten years.

It was already dark when he got home, and from a distance, he saw orange light shining in the window, the soft halo was like that soft-tempered person.

Shi Long's heart was slightly sour, he didn't know if the person in the room was Shi Jian or not.

Or, is there someone else besides Shi Jian.

He mustered up the courage to open the door, but when the door was opened, he felt that the room was very dark.

Shi Long looked at the only light, and only saw the flickering candlelight and the people in the black and white photos illuminated by the candlelight.

Shi Long walked over in a daze, and Shi Jian's young face was printed on the photo. Three incense sticks were burning in front of the photo, and the light smoke curled up, sinking into the darkness that the candle could not see through.

Shi Long suddenly felt a chill on his left cheek, as if a gust of wind was blowing from the left side.

But the doors and windows of this house are closed, how can there be wind?

Shi Long turned his head to look, at this moment, all the burning candles went out.

Shi Long's eyes went dark, and then a familiar voice sounded next to his ear, "Baby, you are finally back."

When the morning light of the next day permeated every household in Yuzhen, Zhang Qing was planning to go to the vegetable market to buy vegetables.

When he passed by a house that had been abandoned for many years, for some reason, he turned his head and took a look.

He was taken aback by this look, and he found that the door of the room that had been locked all year round was ajar.

He couldn't help looking forward curiously, and opened the door completely, and the image reflected inside almost scared him to scream.

I saw an adult man hanged upside down from the ceiling lamp. The house was originally deserted, and there was nothing in it except ash, but now there was an extra corpse. It seemed that the man came here to hang himself on purpose.

Zhang Qing immediately called the police without hesitation.

Later, the body was taken away. Because of the death, the neighbors talked a lot about it. Some people said that it looked quite similar to the former owner of the house, and they were probably relatives.

In the end, an insider said with certainty that it was the brother of the former owner. They used to live together, but for some reason, the younger brother left and never came back.

Since my younger brother left, my elder brother has been mentally disturbed, always talking about the baby coming back and buying delicious food.

As a result, one day, he was in a trance and had a car accident, and no one came to collect his room, so it remained empty.

Later, I heard that someone saw a light in that room at night. Everyone said that it was the light reflected by the window from other places. Only a few people didn’t believe it. They said that it was the ghost of the elder brother who had not left and was waiting for the younger brother to come back with the lamp on...

No, after someone was hanged in that house this time, no one saw the light in that house again...

【End】

☆, At that time, the love was not open

I have a good friend, his name is Li Yuyang.

In fact, it seems inaccurate to say that he is my good friend, but I have no other good friends. Li Yuyang occupies a lot of space in my childhood memory.

Thinking about it now, Li Yuyang's character is quite strange, he always stays silently, watching the things happening around him intently.

He talked very little, he was the kind of person who just kept silent for no reason.

Of course, he is not prone to depression, or introverted, he just doesn't say it.

Thinking of him now, his image is still very clear in my mind.

I can't remember how we formed a friendship, it seems very muddle-headed, we often mix together.

Sometimes, friendship is such a wonderful thing, we just get together for no reason, and we don't even realize that we are each other's best friends.At least for me at that time, I just played with him in a daze, and I listened to him whatever he said.

I was a bit introverted when I was a child, but it is still the same now, except that now I am clearly aware of this and subconsciously try to improve that situation.

But I was not conscious when I was a child. At that time, I lived in my own world and enjoyed myself.

I guess it is for this reason that I have no friends and always come and go alone.

Fortunately, there is another person who is as lonely as I am, and we get together occasionally, and his presence gives me great comfort, even if this little companion has a bad personality.

But what does it matter?My personality is not very good either.

When I was a child, I was boring. I grew up in a barren environment, and the people around me were so mediocre, crowded in this poor countryside, and tenaciously survived.

Li Yuyang's family's conditions are worse than mine. During the busy farming season, his parents are stuck in the fields all day, so he can't be idle at home. He has to do all the housework and cook for his parents.

Often, after school in the evening, I would go home with him.

When passing by his house, he would tilt his head and ask me, "Come to my house?"

I just said, "Okay."

Then I followed him into the yard of his house.

There is nothing interesting for me to go to his house, I can only stay bored and watch him hold firewood and light the fire to cook.

But at that time, I didn’t feel embarrassed to be left alone. Instead, I sat on the small bench in his yard and watched the chickens and ducks picking up the corn grains on the ground. eat.

We didn't even communicate much, he was doing his stuff and I was doing mine.

When it got dark, I would walk into his unlit house, grope to the lit kitchen in the dark, poke my head out at the door, and say to him, "I'm home."

He turned to look at me and nodded, then watched me leave.

His face was glowing yellow and orange from the fire, and he looked particularly warm.

Leaving his house, I wandered home into the half-dark twilight.

I know that these memories are actually very ordinary, but they exist in my mind, as if they have grown into a part of my body.They exist there naturally, seemingly insignificant, but they are closely connected with my body and mind.

Looking back on such times now, I feel safe, even nostalgic.I will extravagantly think that if I go back to the past now, even if I have nothing to do, passing by Li Yuyang's house at leisure is a very comfortable thing.

But the past is the past.

Now I have already left that desolate village, and live with my parents in the neighboring city, living a busy and mechanical life every day.

I'm in my late thirties, and my mom would occasionally urge me to find a girlfriend, saying that it's okay for me to be single all the time, and that men have to start a family.

My heart is a little at a loss.I don't want to have a family, I can't imagine living with another person, I just want to be by myself and it's fine.

A few days ago, maybe I was a little impetuous because of what my mother said, and a sentence got into my mind.

That saying says, "How can a man do without a woman?"

It's just a very common sentence, but in the dead of night, after I went to the toilet, suddenly a rush of desire surged up from the depths of my body.

I suppressed my inner disgust towards myself, stretched out my hand to comfort myself impatiently, and thought in a trance in my mind, maybe I really need a woman.

I want to hold her in my arms, I want to hold her tight, I want her to hold a part of me and let her get out of hand with me.

But these are all illusory, I have grown up so much, and I have never had a girlfriend who failed.

I don't want to admit that it's my personality flaw, but if it's not like this, why can't I meet a woman I like?

This night, I had a dream.This dream is not unreal, it is something that happened to me when I was a child.

I dreamed of Li Yuyang.

In the dream, I was also the same as I was when I was a child. I stood in the living room of his house, and he raised one leg and put it on the wooden table, sitting and pressing his leg.

Then I, who was standing by the side, suddenly had a brain twitch, and grabbed his lower body.

His legs were spread wide, and his lower body was exposed. Of course, he was wearing pants, so I caught him easily.

At that time, I really didn't have any special meaning. It was just that the TV series was broadcasting The Deer and Ding Ji at that time, and it seemed that there was a segment of a monkey stealing a peach.Then the male students in our class became wretched, often taking advantage of other boys not paying attention, shouting "Monkeys steal peaches!" and grabbed them.

Usually this kind of thing can't be caught, and everyone laughs and makes trouble.

But it happens to other guys all the time.

I don't have any deep friendship with other boys, let alone Li Yuyang, so this kind of game is blocked between us.

It may be that I subconsciously longed for the warm friendship of other boys, so that day at Li Yuyang's house, I saw him "showing his empty door", so I made a move.

However, Li Yuyang is not an ordinary boy after all, his temper is weirder than mine.

After I yelled "monkey stealing peaches", my intention was to scare him, but I didn't expect that he would not dodge at all, so I firmly caught him.

After I caught it, I was taken aback for a moment, a little at a loss.

I waited for him to resist, whether it was joking and pushing me away, or backing away with a blank face, in short, we had to break our posture.But he didn't, he just maintained that posture steadily, only glanced at my hand holding him, and continued to maintain his previous movements.

I was dazed for a while, and finally withdrew my hand in embarrassment, and anxiously pulled out a sentence that I didn't realize, "You, you don't itch?"

Li Yuyang's expression remained unchanged, he didn't look at me, and shook his head calmly.

Originally, I had lost the memory behind this long ago, and maybe even this memory was too embarrassing, so I remembered it so deeply.

But the dream this time helped me to continue the memory, but there was some tampering.

The reason why it is certain that it is tampering is because it is impossible for the following things to happen.

Li Yuyang in the dream shook his head after I asked him, "Aren't you itchy?", and then put his legs down.

He turned to face me, took a deep look at me, bent over suddenly, and took off his pants.

I looked at Li Yuyang's bird hanging between his legs in shock. He raised his eyes, looked at me, and said to me, "If you want to touch it, just touch it."

I woke up with a start.

After waking up, my heart was beating fast, I took a glass of water dry-mouthed, and poured it all in with my neck up.

After my breathing became less chaotic, I sat on the bed again, recalling that dream somewhat uncontrollably.

I found that I actually felt a little regretful.

Since it was a dream and not real, why didn't I actually touch it?

I know my thoughts like this are dirty and nasty, but I can't deny my heart.Of course I will not confess to anyone that I have fantasized about same-sex genitals, I just have such thoughts flashing in my mind, I think it stems from years of sexual repression, so any unreasonable fantasies are acceptable.After all, this fantasy only exists in my mind, and I will not open my mouth to tell anyone.

It was already one o'clock in the middle of the night, and I went back to bed, covered the quilt and lay down.

But I have no sleepiness.

I couldn't help thinking about the past, and I kept thinking about Li Yuyang over and over in my mind.

In fact, he disappeared from my life for a long time.Not because of any accident, but just a normal parting.

It's also my fault that I didn't understand when I was a child, and I didn't confirm the identity of our buddies, otherwise I wouldn't even have a reason to look for him now.

The dozen years we hadn't seen each other had been enough to create a huge gulf between us, making any deliberate meeting seem awkward.

But he really existed in my past, how can I never forget him.

I remember the village I left when I was in junior high school. After moving to the city, I naturally went to junior high school in the city.

Fortunately, Li Yuyang also came to my junior high school, and we are still in the same class.

When I was in junior high school, my parents had just settled down in the city, and they were so busy every day.They didn't care about me, so they let me live in the dormitory.

I didn't live in the school dormitory, but lived with Li Yuyang in a low building not far from the school.

The people living in that low building are old people. Where we are, the owner is an old lady. She lives there alone, and the vacated room is used for recruiting students.

Besides me and Li Yuyang, there was another room.There lived a third-year junior high student in that room, and we often couldn't see him. He always locked the door behind his back and stayed in his room.

Li Yuyang and I live in the living room, which has a huge double bed, which is more than enough for us two young men.

Although we were living together at the time, our relationship was actually not very good.

It's not bad, it's just a little rusty.

Come to think of it, it seems like it wasn't us who meant we would live together, but our parents.

The village I used to stay in was not big, and almost everyone in the village knew each other, not to mention the depth of their friendship, but they usually got along very well.Occasionally, we would greet each other, or a group of men would get together to play cards.

Li Yuyang's family is somewhat related to the owner's house we rented. My mother got connected with Li Yuyang's mother somehow, so she brought me to live there together.

Li Yuyang and I will go to school together, but we have lunch separately.

Since entering junior high school, Li Yuyang and I seem to have entered two worlds, and everyone he knows makes me a little awed.

I am cowardly by nature, and I have always avoided those children who can cause trouble, but occasionally I will secretly envy them in my heart.

But after all, it's only in my heart, but on the surface I want to maintain the dignity of my good student, and don't get together with those "bad kids".

After junior high school, my grades were not bad, and I became a leader among good students.

But Li Yuyang's grades were terrible, and he didn't seem to care much about it.

He met some people in the class who could play and make trouble. They would go to the snack shop together at noon to solve the problem. At night, he would stay at school and get together with those people and never come back.

I bought food by myself and took it back to my residence, and ate it lonely at the small table.Li Yuyang would not come back until late at night.

We still had nothing to say, I was busy doing my homework and reviewing my homework, Li Yuyang took out a novel I didn’t know where to get, and lay on the bed to read it.

When I finish my work and plan to go to bed, I turn to look at him. He is usually already asleep, with his face buried between the pages of the book.

I woke him up, reminded him to wash up and go to bed, and walked into the bathroom myself.

We squeezed in the narrow bathroom, he peed and I brushed my teeth, he brushed my teeth and I washed my face, he washed my face and I washed my feet.Until the water is cold and he leaves after washing his feet, I will lock the bathroom door, take off my pants and go to the bathroom.

Then we lay on the same bed together, each diving into our own dreams.

Later, Li Yuyang changed more and more.Perhaps the only constant in him is his reticence.

He started highlighting his hair and started putting on a cool smile.

He also fights in groups, I watched it secretly once, and I was so terrified that I almost couldn't help rushing up to help him fight those strangers together.

But I didn't after all, Li Yuyang and his partners can solve their difficulties, and then they leave the battlefield as victors.

When they turned the corner of the building, I didn't have time to avoid it, so I just leaned on the wall and looked at Li Yuyang stupidly.

But he didn't even look at me, and passed me by like he didn't know me.

At that time, I was a little sad. I felt that I was rejected by him. Maybe he thought I was not worthy of being his friend, so he didn't even want to say hello to me.

Li Yuyang and I were getting farther and farther away, and that period of time seemed to be fast-forwarded. Before I could clearly see the elapsed time, it was gone.

I can't think of anything clearer about Li Yuyang, except for our parting at the end.

I didn't know then that this was the difference between us.

Li Yuyang smiled very nicely that day, he seemed to be happy from the bottom of his heart.

It was rare for him to return to his residence early, and he sat on the bed with his legs crossed in a leisurely manner, with the novel that he had read countless times but hadn't finished reading spread out on his lap.

When I took out my book and sat at the table with my back to him, he suddenly called me.

I turned to look at him, and he smiled at me, then said, "Baozi, I'm leaving."

My surname is Bao, and I have a single name.

I still remember that Baozi was nicknamed by Li Yuyang when I was a child. It was very dark that day, and we walked together by the river together. He touched his stomach and told me that he was hungry.

My stomach growled too, I turned my head and smiled at him, saying let's go home and have dinner together.

He said yes, and when walking back with me, he said that he suddenly wanted to eat steamed stuffed buns.

He talked about Baozi all the way, and when we parted at the fork, he waved to me and said, "See you tomorrow! Baozi."

I was stunned for a moment, and when I saw him grinning and running away happily, I realized that he had been nicknamed.

After that he started calling me Baozi.

However, he hasn't called me that way for a long time since junior high school. I still remember the first time I heard him call me by my full name, I was still not used to it.

But this time when I heard him call me Baozi again, I felt uncomfortable again, maybe I was vaguely aware of that little melancholy.

But I still didn't give up and asked him, "Go? Where are you going?"

Li Yuyang threw the novel aside, sat cross-legged in front of me cleanly, and said to me, "Move to the school."

I asked him puzzled, "Why?"

Li Yuyang said vaguely, "Together with them."

them?who?Those "bad students"?

Li Yuyang stopped talking, he lowered his eyes and stared at the edge of the bed.

I don't talk, I don't move, I'm not in the mood to do anything.

We just sat there for a long time without saying a word, no one said a word, and no one was busy with their own affairs.

☆, At that time, the love was not open

Later, he really moved away.

There were quite a lot of people who came to help him move, both boys and girls, they crowded into this small room lively and took all of Li Yuyang's luggage away.

Li Yuyang was the last to leave. He stood at the door, picked up his shoes, and seemed to notice my existence only when he got up.

He waved at me, smiled, then turned around and closed the door to leave.

After he left, I was alone in front of the empty bed, and I felt that it was a bit too big.

Although we are still in the same class, we are like people from two worlds.

At that time, I didn't deliberately look for Li Yuyang's figure, so I really couldn't see his face.

Occasionally, during class, the teacher asked to answer questions, and when Li Yuyang was called to the back row, they would laugh for a while.They couldn't answer the questions, so they stood and flirted with the teacher. In the end, the teacher waved helplessly to signal the classmate to sit down, and they laughed even more happily.

I heard Li Yuyang's name mentioned from their fragmentary language, and at this moment I would think in a daze, oh, he is still in this class.

After junior high school ended, I went to a bigger place in high school.

And Li Yuyang is said to be staying in the high school in that city.

I thought it was impossible to hear from him again, but I received a text message from a stranger during the second year of high school.

The text message said he was Li Yuyang, and asked if I could send him the answer when I took the exam.

Although our school is also considered a very good school, the exams that time were not strict, and we even secretly took our mobile phones to send text messages to each other to cheat.

Of course, if it was now, no matter how strict the exam was, it would not be allowed to do that, but under the circumstances at that time, it was indeed allowed.

I agreed to him without any hesitation or doubt, and sent him all the answers in a text message during the exam, but he didn't hear from him.

Until the last subject was over, he sent me a thank you.

Looking at those two words at that time, doubts suddenly arose in my heart.

Is this person really Li Yuyang?Could it be Li Yuyang?

But I didn't go to verify it, so I just let the string of numbers lie in my address book.

After that, I completely cut off contact with Li Yuyang.

Thinking about it now, maybe there is really nothing between us, even ordinary friendship is barely enough.

But I really can't forget.

In such a late night, such a deserted and bleak night, I suddenly miss him very much.

I wonder how he is now, if he still doesn't like to talk like he did when he was a child.

I wondered if his appearance had changed, if it was still the same face I was familiar with.

I have a little feeling, I think, I seem to like Li Yuyang a little bit.Just a little.

But even this lightness made me toss and turn.

The more I think about Li Yuyang, the more crazy my thoughts become.In the end, I even wondered wildly, would Li Yuyang at that time also have a little bit of that faint meaning for me?Even if it's just a little bit.

But I tried hard to dig in my memory, but I couldn't convince myself no matter what.

Even though we were inseparable when we were young, Li Yuyang should not have any unusual affection for me.

Otherwise, how could I have no perception at all?

I am immersed in nostalgia for the past, and my guts only allow me to lust in my mind.The relationship between me and me is so blank, I don't have anyone to think about, only Li Yuyang, he has become a beautiful shadow in my memory, I have long ignored his gender.

I suffered like this for many days.

After many days, maybe I was dazzled by something, and I suddenly wanted to go and see Li Yuyang and see what he has become now.

There is no saying, think twice before acting, if there is something you still want to do after thinking twice, then let it go, so as not to get stuck in your heart and form a thorn.

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