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"Brother! I'll play with the computer again!" He yelled at me outside the door and ran away.

I sighed helplessly. I really don’t understand why my parents insisted on having an extra son. If it wasn’t for tormenting me, they would be their prophets. They knew that if they only had one son for me, their old Yue’s family would have to die.But whether Yue Yang has the same tendency as me, it's really hard to say now, sometimes he looks quite abnormal, no, it's like that or something.

On the 3rd, he was going to the orphanage with Ling Guo, and he didn't know if something would happen.But having said that, if something really happened between them, it wouldn't be necessary to wait until they went to the orphanage together, lived in a dormitory all day long, and it was just the two of them, no one could stop what happened.From Ling Guo's side, it seems to be nothing.Also, I should be the one who interested that kid, right?Alas... this is really annoying.If you say that I have been separated from him for 11 years, and I don’t know how many generation gaps there are, why did he just think about me?I hope I'm being self-indulgent, maybe, people just think I'm a weirdo!I hope so!

I took a shower while thinking wildly, and then went back to my room to sleep.When passing by the study room, I saw Yue Yang playing games on my computer, so I knocked on the door frame and said: "If you dare to play all night, let's see how I will deal with you tomorrow!"

"No, no, no! Just for a while!" He said without turning his head.

I didn't say anything and went back to my room to sleep.I don't know what time I fell asleep, but I woke up suffocated by peeing. I opened my eyes to see that it was still dark, and then I was going to go to the toilet and then come back to sleep again.But I never expected that as soon as I walked out of the bedroom door, I heard some noises from the study. It turned out that Yue Yang hadn't gone to bed yet!I was about to go up and tell him to go back to the room to sleep, but suddenly I got stuck, because I recognized that the sound was not from the game, but...it was...a pornographic film!It was two voices mixing together, and it was... two men's voices!

not good!Could it be that he dug out the movies I saved in the computer and watched them?It's unlikely, I hid it quite secretly, how could he find it?I tiptoed to the door of the study, put my ear on the door and listened carefully. After listening for about a minute, I was 1% sure that the movie he was watching now was definitely not the stock in my computer, but the movie I read from the Internet. download.

Yue Yang took the initiative to download calcium tablets to watch?No way?If this is the case, then he...he is absolutely gay!There is no need for further confirmation at all, right?

This is how to do?The two sons of the family are gay, the parents are going crazy!no!Yue Yang can't!He must be a normal person to carry on the family line of the Yue family!After I came out to my dad, he was my dad's only hope, the only one!If he also likes men, then Dad's career will definitely not be able to continue!He is also looking forward to Yueyang inheriting the family business after he gets married and has children!

However, what if Yue Yang is unwilling?Yes, what if he refuses to give in and bow his head to the family like me?With his little stubborn temper, he is really not allowed to fight to the death with my dad!And if this kind of thing can be obtained with difficulty, and if it can go against my own nature, why am I willing to make the relationship with my father so deadlocked?I haven't been home for several years, not because I don't want to be filial, but because I really can't face him.When he made me swear that poisonous oath, I could no longer look him in the eye.What he forced me to give up was not only my life's happiness, but also my life's dignity and freedom.This feeling of being trampled on by a close relative is an unforgettable pain, I don't want Yue Yang to bear this kind of pain.

So what to do?Dad's expectations, Yue Yang's life, both are very important, no matter which side I choose, the other side is the abyss of pain, and this is not something I can decide, it is their own business.It's just... If Yue Yang wins, maybe it's not him that Dad hates, but me, right?No matter which one of them compromised in the end, the one who was hated must be me.

If I hadn't embarked on this path, our Yue family might have been a big family full of laughter and children.

I stood in a daze outside the door while blaming myself, and couldn't help sighing.Then the sound in the study suddenly disappeared, and then there was the sound of Yue Yang's eager footsteps, before I had time to escape, the door was already opened, and Yue Yang's terrified face appeared in front of me.

"Brother... you... why are you standing at my door?"

I didn't expose him. In fact, what's the difference between exposing him and not exposing him?So I just said softly: "Go to bed early." Then I also forgot about going to the bathroom, and went back to my room.It's just that I can't sleep anymore, and my whole mind is in a mess.

For the next few days, I was out of shape.I don't want to ask Yue Yang, if he doesn't want to talk, it will make him uncomfortable if I ask.And he has final exams soon, and I can't distract him.

But after tossing and turning in a state of confusion for a few days, I finally couldn't stand the suffering, so I made a phone call, but I didn't dare to call Yue Yang, but Ling Guo.

"Isn't this Lawyer Yue? Why did you think of calling me?" Ling Guo's voice sounded a bit eccentric, but it also seemed very happy.

"I want to ask you something." I said solemnly.

"what's up?"

"Well... when do you start the exam?"

"Damn! You are so serious just to ask this?"

"No, you answer my question first."

"Tomorrow is the first day, three consecutive days of exams."

"Is Yue Yang studying hard in the dormitory these few days?"

"Ah... right? I haven't stayed in the dormitory much, but I guess he is quite honest. Your brother usually has a good attitude towards study."

"Apart from you, is there any other boy he has been in close contact with?"

"Why do you ask this?" He seemed to have heard something, and his tone was a little strange.

"Ling Guo, I won't go around in circles with you anymore. I found out that he watched GV, so I'm a little worried..."

"Don't worry! I absolutely have no idea about him!" He said in a tone of eagerness to clear things up.

"What about the others?"

"Others... don't really see how he is with others. He is very popular, and he gets along well with the boys in our class. Even the boys in the finance class in the dormitory next door are very close to him. By the way, your question I just remembered, that Wang Yan...you know, right? He always comes to look for Yue Yang, the two of them often go out together, and..."

"Is Wang Yan gay?" I interrupted him, of course I know Wang Yan, that tall, rich and handsome guy, gave me a very good impression.

"It looks a bit like it. It's been more than half a year. I haven't heard of any girl he is good with. With his family conditions and appearance, it is not an exaggeration to say that the girls in our school can be chosen by him, but he has never been alone with any girl. We've been together, he's been with men when he goes in and out."

"Did Yue Yang tell you anything?"

"You want to know?"

"Don't give a shit, just say it."

"He said he liked me, and that was the day we went to the orphanage together. So after I came back, I tried to avoid him as much as possible. Although I like men, I don't like children. You know, your brother is a little lacking. mind..."

"You are short-sighted!" Although it is true that Yue Yang is short-sighted, I still feel very uncomfortable when outsiders say it.

"You don't know if I'm short-sighted or not?" Ling Guo smiled and said: "Really, don't worry, I don't like Yue Yang, it's not the kind of dislike that I hate, it's the kind of dislike that doesn't have sex. I just slept on the same bed with him and didn't feel it..."

"You two slept in the same bed?" I suddenly became nervous.

"What's so strange about that? People in a dormitory sometimes just lie down together at night when they are having fun."

"Then... what about Yue Yang?"

"He's fine, he just likes to pinch me, and it hurts."

"Pinch you there?"

"Are you kidding? Just like your brother is so heartless, if you really pinch it, you can't do it?"

"Yueyang is not lacking in intelligence! He is pure!" I quibbled.

"Really? A simple little boy will watch GV? Don't treat him like a preschooler. He is already in his twenties. It's not uncommon for him to sleep with boys. Can you watch me and others?"

"Oh..." I sighed, feeling that there was nothing more to say. "That's it, when are you on vacation?"

"After the tenth."

"Understood." I hung up the phone and called him again after a while.

"What's the matter? I'm reviewing, so don't keep harassing me. Are you responsible for failing the exam?"

"Who harassed you? I have something to trouble you with. Do you have Wang Yan's mobile phone number? If you have one, please send it to me. If you don't, just ask and send it to me."

"What are you going to do? Make a date?"

"What kind of fight? Do you know the law and break the law? I just want to talk to him."

"That's fine, but don't tell him that I gave you the phone number."

"Row."

"Then... how do you thank me?"

"Thank you? It's just a little effort from you."

"I can also do nothing."

"You little brat still dare to threaten me?"

"Who asked you to ask me? Why don't you ask someone else?"

"Okay, how can you thank me?"

"What The Dunk."

"what?"

"Nike's WhatTheDunk limited edition sneaker."

"how much is it?"

"Ten thousand."

"Why do not you go to hell?"

"Who will get you Wang Yan's phone number if I die?"

"I won't go directly to school to find him?"

"Okay then, after I finish the exam, accompany me to watch "Avatar"."

"Okay, then I'll take you and Yue Yang to see it after the exam."

"No, just the two of us."

"What movie should I watch with you?"

"Then go directly to school to find Wang Yan. I will tell him not to go back to the dormitory before going to bed until he comes home from vacation. If someone wants to fight with him, there will be a bloody disaster..."

"Better than you little bastard!"

"Sue me, barrister!"

"Don't you just want to watch a movie with me alone?"

"agreed?"

"Agree, watch the gun version in the dormitory."

"Fuck off!"

"Give me Wang Yan's number first, and I'll consider whether I agree to go to the cinema."

"If you send it to you, I will send it to you. If you dare not go, I will sleep with Yue Yang."

"Overpass!"

"Okay, I'm busy, hang up."

After being hung up by this kid, I was so angry that I slammed my desk hard.In fact, it’s okay to watch a movie with him, I just don’t like being led by the nose by him, after all, I’m already at this age, I’ve come here in big winds and waves, and I’ve been in contact with all kinds of people, but I can’t do anything about him as a kid, What a frustration.

Ling Guo held his breath and didn't send me Wang Yan's cell phone number until the three-day test was over, probably because he was afraid that I would ask Wang Yan before the test to affect his test status.With such care for him, it is not difficult to see that he is not bad, but he really wants to beat him up when he is angry.

That night I called Wang Yan. He didn't expect that I would call him. After answering the phone, he heard that it was me. He ran out of the dormitory and found a place where no one was around before talking to me.

"Brother Yue, what do you want from me?" Wang Yan's voice sounded a little breathless, not knowing whether he was running or nervous.

"No big deal, just want to know what Yue Yang has been doing recently."

"What happened to Yue Yang? Isn't it good?"

"Do you often go to his dormitory?"

"Ah, yes, isn't this next to each other?"

"Then let me ask you, does Yue Yang have a girlfriend?"

"F...girlfriend?" He seemed surprised. "No... I heard."

"What does Xu Chunya have to do with him?"

"It doesn't matter, right? Xu Chunya likes Ling Guo, we all know that."

"Does Ling Guo also like Xu Chunya?"

"I'm not sure about this, but they have a very good relationship and often whisper together."

Whisper?Doesn't Ling Guo like men?How could she get so close to Xu Chunya even though she knew she liked him?Could it be that like Xu Shihao, he likes men but wants to marry women?Why are so many gays so shameless?If Ling Guo is also this kind of person, my previous good feelings for him will be completely wiped out.

"Brother Yue? Brother? Are you still listening?" Wang Yan called out several times before I realized that I was distracted.

"Oh, listen."

"Yue Yang is only a freshman, it's a bit early to make a girlfriend."

"It's a bit early to get a girlfriend in freshman year. How can you embarrass those boys who have girlfriends in high school, junior high school or even elementary school?"

"Brother, isn't that puppy love?"

"Did you never fall in love early?"

"No."

"So when do you plan to start dating?"

"Ah? Brother, why are you asking this? This is my private matter..."

"It's your private matter to talk to others. If you... If you talk to people in dormitory 186, it's definitely not a private matter."

"Ah?" Wang Yan exclaimed, and immediately called out: "Brother Yue, what are you talking about? Ling Guo and I are absolutely impossible! Even if Xu Chunya didn't chase him, I wouldn't chase him..."

"I didn't mention him!"

"Ah...then...you said...Yue Yang?"

I didn't make a sound, which means default.

"Brother... Yueyang and I... are just... best friends."

"Really? But I remember Yue Yang said that he wanted to be best friends with Ling Guo."

"What? How could he?"

"Why not?"

"Brother Yue, what do you mean?"

"What do you think I mean?"

"You want to bring Yue Yang and Ling Guo together?"

"Hey! You have such a rich imagination. Am I out of my mind? Matching two men?"

"Oh...then...I see."

"You just understand."

"Brother Yue, don't worry, I will try not to play with Yueyang in the future." Wang Yan's voice suddenly sounded a little lonely, which made me feel uncomfortable, but Yueyang is my younger brother, and my pity for others is cruel to him.

"Well, remember, I don't care about your private affairs, and I don't care about them, but Yue Yang is my younger brother, so I can't ignore his affairs."

"Got it, brother."

"Okay, let's not talk about it, I wish you a happy winter vacation."

"Thank you...thank you brother." I can hear his insincere words, but I can only do this, who let Yue Yang be my younger brother.