Daily feeding of mermaids

Gu Fengting was silent, lowered his eyes, and fell into thinking. He never thought that he might fall in love with a man. This kind of self-awareness of sexuality is almost as firm as his self-gender.

Although he said to Lu Jinche that he was straight on the surface, no one knew better than himself what the actual situation was.

For a long time, in daily life, Gu Fengting has a hazy sense of confusion about his actual sexual orientation. He doesn't know whether he is gay, heterosexual, or bisexual, and he doesn't know how to tell the difference. He just likes it. Whoever is with whom is fine.

It's a pity that in his 25 years of life so far, he hasn't met anyone who is worthy of his heart and liking. As time goes by, his heart that started to restless in adolescence, as he gets older and experiences more and more, and Slowly it fell silent.

As for the person who can stay with him for the rest of his life, to be honest, Gu Fengting never thought about who it would be, and it can even be said that he is ready to die alone.

Sometimes, a person who has been single for a long time will get used to living alone and spend time alone.

Until that day, when Chu Yue ran into his car unexpectedly, he didn't have the slightest precaution in his heart. The little boy appeared in his life like this, and even occupied him continuously for a long time in the future. eyes and brain.

Perhaps Chu Yue dared to single-handedly run into a Rolls-Royce worth over [-] million yuan, which left a deep impression on him. He would start to observe him unconsciously, care about him, and then approach him.

Besides, some people are born to be pleasing, and Chu Yue is.

At first, Gu Fengting felt unnatural about this uncontrollable emotion, but after getting along with Chu Yue for a long time, he had a deeper understanding of the little boy, and the relationship between the two became more and more serious as time went by. With familiarity, those subtle feelings that had been desperately suppressed began to grow and spread crazily.

He loves Chu Yue, cares about Chu Yue, and cherishes Chu Yue. The more he understands, the more he can't extricate himself.

Gu Fengting vaguely began to notice the difference in himself. It seemed that he cared about the little boys beyond the boundaries of ordinary friends, and he went all the way in an unstoppable direction, but he was not sure all the time, what kind of emotion.

Gu Fengting's heart is very honest, he really wants to treat the little boy well, and he doesn't want to see him being wronged, he has never liked anyone before, so he doesn't know if this is considered liking.

For a period of time recently, Gu Fengting has been in this kind of confusion and obstacles to his own emotions. He created an unbreakable cage for himself, and locked layers of shackles on the outside.

I always thought it was because of my strong desire to protect, I thought it was because I wanted to protect Chu Yue.

However, Lu Jinche's words today suddenly broke his usual peaceful life and fixed ideas, and also broke the illusion that he and Chu Yue had always lived peacefully as "friends", as if a door had opened in his heart that had never been seen before. opened the door.

To him, Chu Yue was not a friend, nor a younger brother, nor a family member, but a special love that could not be easily expressed.

Realizing this, Gu Fengting seemed to feel relieved, and the layers of shackles wrapped around the cage were unsealed, and he suddenly relaxed a lot.

A warm light seeped in through the gap, and the seeds buried deep in my heart began to grow towards the sun.

Gu Fengting asked himself, did he really treat Chu Yue as a friend or younger brother?He quickly gave an answer in his heart, and the answer was no.

Maybe it was because Gu Fengting had been thinking about himself for too long, Lu Jinche couldn't help but asked a little worriedly: "A Ting, are you... all right?"

He was really worried that Gu Fengting might not be able to accept the fact that he was gay, after all, his friend had always firmly believed that he was straighter than a steel pipe and harder than steel.

Facts have proved that no matter how hard the "steel pipe" is, there will be a day when it will be bent. In fact, it is just a white plastic water pipe, so it is easy to bend it.

Sexual orientation is not a trivial matter, whether you like a man or a woman is enough to affect or even change Gu Fengting's future life path.

Because, after all, the straight and bright road is still the mainstream of today's society. If you go all the way forward, there will be fewer small stones blocking the way on the road of life. But, in other words, whether you go left or right, it is It means that we have to overcome obstacles and break through an extremely difficult road.

In terms of selfishness, he hopes that Gu Fengting will still be the straight Gu Fengting, but his friend has been bent so obviously that he is bent like a mosquito coil. Shoulder to shoulder, ignorant and resolutely embarked on a socialist brotherhood, which mistakenly developed into a heaven-shattering brotherhood.

As a good brother Lu Jinche, seeing this situation, he couldn't bear it.

Gu Fengting was a fan of the authorities, and Lu Jinche stared anxiously at the side. He felt that as a bystander and friend, he had the obligation to explain to Gu Fengting at the right time, to see the blue sky through the clouds and mists, so as to see clearly the true feelings in his heart , Let him really understand his own mind, and don't do anything that makes him regret it.

After a while, he heard Gu Fengting's voice slowly say: "I'm fine." But the voice was a little low and hoarse.

Lu Jinche breathed a sigh of relief, but it turned out that he was only half relieved, and just when he was stuck, he heard Gu Fengting suddenly ask, "If, I really am, will you be disgusted? "

I don't know if it's Lu Jinche's own delusion, he feels that the voice of his friend Gu Fengting seems to be a little different from the past, and it is rare to bring hesitation and hesitation that he didn't have in the usual.

In front of his friends, Gu Fengting usually has a serious and indifferent image of an elite who speaks decisively without saying a word, just like a humanoid refrigerator that can walk.

This time, Gu Fengting showed the opposite side, but Lu Jinche had no intention of laughing at him at all.

Now that Gu Fengting has asked this question, could it be that this time, he really got the hang of it?The ten-thousand-year iceberg will also be melted by the warm sun one day, Lu Jinche couldn't help raising his eyebrows because he was bored.

"Of course not." Lu Jinche looked at Gu Fengting and said without thinking, "This is your personal choice, and I respect it 100%. Whether you are gay or not, you, Gu Fengting, are my good friend and good friend of Lu Jinche's." Brother, the friendship between the two of us will last forever, and this will not change because of your sexuality."

The corners of Gu Fengting's lips curled up slightly, and he smiled. Although Lu Jinche is usually a little annoying, but at such a critical time in his life, he is really lucky to have a good friend behind him silently supporting him .

The smile on Mr. Gu's face lasted for less than three seconds. The man took away the teacup on the coffee table with unsightly hands, glanced at the clock hanging on the wall, and showed no mercy. Underground eviction order: "It's six o'clock, you should go back to the hospital to be on duty, get out."

Lu Jinche: "..."

Is it considered that he was killed by the grindstone, and the board was pulled across the bridge?Gu Fengting, doesn't your conscience feel pain?

He was wrong just now, today's Gu Fengting is still yesterday's Gu Fengting, the same doggy and unfeeling, still with that inhuman and indifferent appearance, compared with the usual appearance, there is no difference at all .

Sometimes Lu Jinche really felt that this man Gu Fengting was really ruthless, maybe he had stored up the "emotions" of the previous 25 years just to give them all to Chu Yue one day.

Just thinking about it, Lu Jinche suddenly felt that Gu Fengting had an extra label of "emphasizing sex over friends". The boat of friendship was about to capsize, and the hull was torn apart.

I hope that Chu Yue can cure Gu Fengting, a doggy man, to death in the future.

Although he silently prayed in his heart that his friend would join the "Strictly Controlled Wife" in the future, at the time of parting, as a friend, Lu Jinche stood outside the door of Gu's villa and said one more thing: "A Ting, no matter what decision you make, I I will support you, but don’t forget that good boys are also very sought-after, so be quick! Don’t let other passers-by snatch such a cute little boy away.”

Gu Fengting glanced at Lu Jinche twice, with a trace of disdain and speechlessness in his eyes, after a long while, he calmly said: "Understood, get out of here."

"Hey! Gu Fengting! Let me tell you that you are really... incomprehensible! I don't know that you have to wait until the year of the monkey to catch Chu Yue..."

Before he could finish speaking, Gu Fengting said "goodbye" in a flat tone, and then closed the door, slapping Lu Jinche's last words outside the door.

As soon as Lu Jinche left, the Gu family's villa, which seemed noisy just now, became quiet.

A quiet environment makes it easier for people to think for themselves. Gu Fengting sat on the sofa, perhaps having solved a major matter in his heart, and his previously tense brows have loosened a lot.

Every time he saw Chu Yue with his own eyes in the past, he always had various strange emotions in his heart, but he had never been able to control it. In addition, Lu Jinche's words today were simply enlightening to him. The empowerment was normal, and it woke him up.

Combining all the above factors, he can now be sure that every time his heart beat in the past was because of Chu Yue, of course, including from now on, it seems that he really likes little boys.

Gu Fengting doesn't have any experience in love, and is as pure as a blank sheet of paper in terms of emotion, completely ignorant.

There is a saying that is good, when you encounter a problem, you can find it by Baidu, and you can solve it.

Gu Fengting took out his mobile phone, clicked on Baidu, and quickly entered a few words in the input box - how to pursue the person he likes?

After typing this sentence completely, the dark blue "Baidu click" button was at hand, but Gu Fengting did not press it for a long time, with a trace of daze and confusion on his face.

After a while, he suddenly thought of something, directly deleted that line, and then changed it to - how can you tell if you like someone?

Gu Fengting has never liked anyone, even though he knew that he liked Chu Yue, he didn't know why he liked Chu Yue.

He never thought that such an annoying problem of urban emotion would happen to him one day.

The world is so wonderful. Tomorrow and the accident do not know who will come first.

At this moment, Gu Fengting really felt that he was stumped.