Why do you think I don't love you anymore

Zhou Tingyun was preparing to do warm-up exercises in the dance studio, and finally wanted to see if Wen Qianhe had replied to WeChat, and a call came as soon as he turned on his phone.

He felt an indescribable joy and joy.

Wen Qianhe's gentle and gentle voice came over the phone, seeming a little more irritable than usual, with a feeling of impatientness.

"what is the problem?"

Wen Qianhe stood by the tree altar downstairs in the hospital, the hot wind and waves in summer were higher than the waves, and the scorching sun slipped in through the thin cracks in the branches and leaves.

"I have never dared to admit it, even hated and repelled it. How could I be a man, how could I like a man? I hate the past crossing the line, and I hate being irrational because of the momentary fantasy. I can't look straight at the past. Now I understand, Zhou Tingyun, we are actually the same kind of people."

Zhou Tingyun was stunned by his inexplicable words, and he didn't say anything for a long time.

Wen Qianhe continued: "The straight ones can't bend, and the curved ones can't escape."

"So you now find that you were not deceived by me before, but..."

Wen Qianhe grabbed the words, "I like it, and I like it so much that I can't help but reveal my true nature."

Zhou Tingyun held his mobile phone for more than a year. It was not easy to hear this sentence. He regretted not recording the passage just now. He could listen to it thousands of times.

What kind of person is Wen Qianhe, who usually blushes when she is teased a little bit, and refuses in every possible way if she doesn't want to.How could you be willing to say such words that directly hit the soul today.

Even though he was extremely happy, he still asked, "Qianhe, did something happen to you when you went home?"

"It used to be something, but now it's gone."

"Really not?"

"No."

"Okay, then repeat what you just said, I didn't hear it very clearly."

A rare cool breeze blew by, Wen Qianhe smiled silly and said, "Don't talk about it on the phone."

"Qianhe, I can't wait for a moment, I want to come to you." He waited too long for Wen Qianhe to let go, and after finally waiting for this day, he almost wanted to go straight to Wen Qianhe's hometown.

"Didn't I say that I would go to your place after I finished my postgraduate entrance examination?"

"Huh? Didn't you agree?"

"I still want to meet you before you become famous, otherwise it will be difficult in the future."

"Qianhe, what are you doing here? I've been looking for you for a long time." Zhang Fan had already taken off his white coat, and his heroic posture covered Wen Qianhe's shadow, blocking part of the sun for him.

"Who? Is there a man next to you?" Zhou Tingyun immediately became alert, and his tone changed ten degrees.

Wen Qianhe glanced at Zhang Fan and made a silent gesture.

"Friend, friend from my hometown, long time no see."

Zhou Tingyun took a deep breath, tried his best to control his emotions, and said in a low voice: "Well, don't hang up the phone, just tell him that."

"This..." Wen Qianhe refused in his heart.Why was it monitored in the first place?

"Qianhe, it's not that I don't trust you. I just want to hear your voice all the time. I miss you, Qianhe..." The tone was gentle and doting to the extreme.

Unable to resist, he disarmed and surrendered, "Yeah." He put the phone in his pocket.

He said to Zhang Fan: "Let's go upstairs and make it clear to Uncle Zhang that my mother is disturbed by this incident. She is too old to be scared. Please don't do such boring things in the future."

Zhang Fan shook his head, "If I hadn't taken care of your family these past few years, do you think you could study there with peace of mind?"

"What do you mean?"

"That's what you thought, Qianhe, I thought you would come back if you took good care of me, but you didn't come home for more than a year. I'm sorry, I couldn't wait any longer. That's why I made such a bad move. I scared you, sorry, It’s wrong to be a brother.”

"I don't quite understand what you mean."

"Qianhe, you are also a high-level intellectual, gays know it."

Wen Qianhe was stunned in place, silent.He reached into his pocket and cut off the phone call with Zhou Tingyun.

He had a premonition that what Zhang Fan said next would not be heard by Zhou Tingyun.

"I have liked you for a long time. It started in high school and I didn't realize it until college. Do you still remember the kiss five years ago in the summer vacation? It was because my mother knew about it. My mother didn't know about it. It was my cousin. It just so happened that she was a rotten girl, and she read too many TV dramas and novels, so she told her mom about it when she got home. My mom thought I was sick, and locked me up for several days, until I promised not to associate with you, and introduced it to my uncle obediently. Let me go to school only when the girl gets married."

"I don't hate them, I just hate myself, not very brave. I want to divorce her when you graduate from college."

Wen Qianhe scolded: "Enough! Zhang Fan, I have always respected you, you are excellent, and you are the first college student in our village. But listen to what you are saying now, is it human? You call it a fraudulent marriage! You don't like other girls, why marry, why have children! Is marriage a child's play! What kind of education did you receive. Please don't say a word about us before. Impossible! Thank you for taking care of our family for so long, I will pay you back , I'm going to see my parents, I don't have time to listen to you!"

After he finished speaking, he turned around angrily.

Even if Zhang Fan is not married and has children, he still keeps in touch.He was convinced that he would not accept it either.

It is really difficult to face up to sexual orientation. If he hadn't met Zhou Tingyun who was very attractive to him, he would not have crossed the gap between morality and tradition in his life.

There has never been a person in my life who lost his position and fell into it just by hearing his name.

When Wen Qianhe went up the stairs, she was still thinking about how to explain it later. Zhou Tingyun had a bad temper.In short, eat the soft but not the hard, and say more good things.

Back in the ward, Mother Wen was wiping his father's face, and he walked over, "Let me do it,"

"Son, is it solved?" The father asked cautiously, in a small voice, like a child who has done something wrong.

"Well, Dad, don't worry, it's all settled, you just need to take care of your illness." He carefully brushed his father's dark skin, which was so thin that his bones protruded, and he touched it.

Wen Qianhe felt uncomfortable, "Dad, are you sure you hurt him with a knife?"

Father Wen turned his face to the side, with a confused expression, "I don't remember, and I don't know. Son, have I committed a crime and am going to be arrested and put in jail, as long as I don't drag you, I am willing."

"No," Wen Qianhe finished wiping, sat on the stool, and looked at his father whom he hadn't seen for a long time. "This matter has nothing to do with you. You didn't hurt him, he pretended."

Dad Wen was shocked, turned his face to the side, and couldn't believe it, "Why?"

Wen Qianhe picked up the bananas on the table and peeled them open, "I want to extort money, but I haven't eaten yet, so I'll buy you food."

"But our family has no money,"

He smiled and said, "Yes, I have money."

Mother Wen said: "But you are still studying, where did you get the money?"

"I will give you all the scholarships and bursaries issued by the school later."

He took out 2000 yuan from his pocket, "Mom, take it first, you sit here, and I'll buy you food."

Wen Qianhe herself was also very sleepy, so she wanted to solve this problem quickly and find a hotel to sleep well.

After buying food for his parents, he ran to Zhang Fan's office, gave him the bank card, and swiped the card to pay back the money.

"Qianhe, you don't need to pay it back. I did not do this properly, so I should pay for it. It seems ridiculous now, and I am ashamed of being crazy."

Zhang Fan's face turned pale, and he returned his card with a forced smile.

"No one has ever been stupid. I've seen people who are more ridiculous than you, so don't worry too much about it. It's just that you can't be sorry for your wife and children. They are innocent. After all, it's impossible to have no love for so many years, right? "

Zhang Fan shook his head, he took a deep breath, "I hate myself even more now."

Wen Qianhe's head was clouded, and she couldn't figure out a word of comfort, because after so many years, she had almost forgotten everything that should be forgotten, except for some bits and pieces that were still good memories.

But it was quickly covered up by those dark years like a tide.

No emotion, just wishful thinking.

But he can empathize with him. He was also sad about Zhou Tingyun's cheating and breaking up. It's been a long time, and he can't remember clearly.

"Swipe the card, I don't know if it's enough for your kindness over the years."

"I don't want to owe you anything."

He only owed one person.

"If you don't accept it, I will withdraw the money and return it to your parents."

Zhang Fan dusted off the cigarette ash and raised his head, "You repel me very much, you hate people like me, gay, disgusting, isn't it a monster?"

"No, our sexual orientation is something we cannot decide. Follow your heart. But you have already chosen to marry a wife and have children, and you can accept a normal life. Why do you force yourself into that path?"

"Because I really like you." Zhang Fan sighed.

How could he forget what he fell in love with when he was young.

"I'm going to get the money for your parents."

Wen Qianhe didn't want to spend any more time with him, he was too tired.

"Give me the card." Zhang Fan's eyelids moved but did not lift up.

Wen Qianhe quickly handed him the card, and Zhang Fan took out the POS machine in the drawer and pressed a few numbers, "Enter the password."

Without asking how much he swiped, Wen Qianhe entered directly.

"Thank you, Brother Fan." He was relieved.

"Let's add a wechat, can we? I don't want to harass you, just," Zhang Fan raised his eyes slightly, with a hint of sadness in his eyes, with a hint of begging.

"Row,"

"Thank you."

While agreeing to the application, Wen Qianhe said, "It's me who should say thank you, thank you for taking care of my family these years. I'm leaving."

What Zhang Fan wanted to say was blocked back by the resolutely leaving back.

Like a farce, the dream I have woven for myself persisted for many years, but today I was suddenly forced to wake up.

He felt that he was sick, and it was he who should be cured.

Wen Qianhe picked up the card and went to the bank next to the hospital to withdraw the remaining money for her parents.There are probably not many left, after all, the parents have been inseparable from the medicine all year round.Zhang Fan didn't know how much money he paid for it.He said that he didn't send much money back in the past six months, and his parents didn't call to ask for it.If he hadn't made such a fuss, he might have thanked Zhang Fan well.

Standing in front of the cash machine, he chose to check the balance just to be on the safe side.I have a good number in my heart.

The machine is a bit old, please wait for half a day.After a while, he was a little confused by the numbers displayed on the screen, so he leaned closer and deliberately counted them one by one with his fingers.

More than 100 million!

The general existence of astronomical figures.

His eyes widened in disbelief, the card had only [-] when he withdrew it yesterday, why, how could so much money come out of thin air.

He clutched his beating heart that was about to explode.

It's just that he has never seen the world, he has never seen so much money in his life.

With trembling hands, he called Zhou Tingyun.

But the line has been busy.

Played several times and finally gave up.Probably the stars are getting busy.He thought sweetly and sourly.The eye sockets were red, full of bloodshot eyes, glowing with stars.

Suddenly, it feels so good to have money in hand, as if the weight off my shoulders is lifted, happy and relaxed.

He took out [-] yuan and gave it to his parents.Later, I transferred [-] yuan to my parents to use that card.He was comforted again in the hospital before leaving.

I was so sleepy that my eyelids fought up and down, and I died suddenly if I didn't rest.

He randomly found a small hotel near the hospital to open a room, sent Zhou Tingyun a WeChat message that he was sleeping, and then fell asleep as soon as he touched the bed.

Everything will be resolved after waking up.Contact Zhou Tingyun again, he has a lot to say.

This feeling was particularly comfortable, the things that had suppressed him for the past two days were all settled, and the huge stone hanging from the tip of his heart fell down at once.It's the first time I've lived such a big life so easily.

None of them dreamed.

When he woke up, it was still dark outside the window. He thought he hadn't slept long, so he turned on his phone in a daze, and it was eight o'clock the next night.

Zhou Tingyun didn't even send him a message, nor did he reply to WeChat.

His intuition told him that Zhou Tingyun was angry.

He chose to make a phone call between eating and Zhou Tingyun.

This time the other party was surprisingly slow.

"Hello, Zhou Tingyun,"

"Have you rested yet? Qianhe"

The tone is normal, warm.

Wen Qianhe said, "Okay."

"Okay, then tell me why you hung up on me that day, and who is that man?!"

really.

"I told you not to be angry."

"not angry."

A familiar conversation.

"Neighbor, he has taken care of my parents for a long time, oh, my parents are seriously ill, I am not at home all year round, so,"

"Give him back all the money, three times!"

Zhou Tingyun thought about it and said: "When our parents spend money, they have to spend their own children. Give that card to the two elders."

"Just about to talk about this," he took a deep breath and relaxed, "Zhou Tingyun, I don't think I'll be clear in my life."

Zhou Tingyun corrected: "I will never even think about paying it off in my next life."

"And he said homosexuality at the end, is he interested in you?"

"No! Absolutely not!"

"Then why is he so nice to you?"

"We've played together since childhood."

"We are not allowed to play together in the future."

"Okay." Wen Qianhe obediently agreed.

Zhou Tingyun couldn't help but said softly: "Qianhe, you are so good."

With whispered words, Wen Qianhe couldn't help blushing a little, he was sure he was going to fly a moth to the fire again.