The stand-in of feigning death is subject to A and Cha

Before meeting Gu Minglang, Lin Xiaoshen was also a rich young master who was very good at playing.

He has talent, good looks, and a good background.

Playing the guitar downstairs in the dormitory while filming a stage play in junior high school made all the girls in the building blush from playing it, causing the girls to break up in a high-profile way.

Later, Xiaohua ran up to him crying, and Lihua said with rain, "You have so many girls who like you, can you give Brother Jiang back to me? I really like him, please?"

At that time, the expression on Lin Xiaoshen's face was the same as that of a subway grandfather looking at his mobile phone. What is this all about?

It wasn't until the school grass handed the love letter to him with red ears that Lin Xiaoshen was petrified.

On the way home, Jiang Xu, who learned about this, grabbed Lin Xiaoshen by the collar and asked like a ghost: "You like men? You fucking like men?! No wonder you never flirt with girls when you go to bars! Because you like men! "

"I do not have."

"You didn't accept his love letter?! He told people everywhere that you were his boyfriend!"

Lin Xiaoshen didn't expect that school girl to be such a jerk, recalling the scene of school girl crying, he couldn't bear it.

So the next day, the car full of roses and luxury goods was pulled to the school gate, and love balloons flooded the streets.Xiao Hua covered her mouth and looked at him in shock as he sat in the convertible and played the guitar, so dazzling that people couldn't look directly at him.

All the students around showed envious eyes.

Lin Xiaoshen walked up to Xiaohua.Under the sun, his skin is white and transparent, his light brown curly hair is cute and handsome, his warm eyes are smiling, and he is almost dizzyingly charming: "Senior sister, I'm sorry, I stole your boyfriend and paid you a new one." , will it work?"

The schoolgirl confessed to him and slapped Xiaohua in the face, so he went to confess to Xiaohua and slapped Xiaocao in the face.

Lin Xiaoshen naively thought at the time that it would be evened out.

He expected Xiaohua to reject him with righteous words.

But a strange thing happened, the school beauty who loves the school grass and loves her life and death lowers her eyes, blushes and nods shyly: "Okay, okay."

The smile on Lin Xiaoshen's face froze.

This is so different from what he imagined!

On the same day, he was reported and criticized by the school, and he read the self-criticism affectionately on the radio all day long.

At night, Jiang Xu pressed him on the sofa and beat him to death, his eyes were bloodshot: "How many fucking peach blossoms do you have! How many?!"

Lin Xiaoshen didn't know that he was more innocent than anyone else.

He just played the guitar to provoke someone? !

Looking at Jiang Xu's cannibalistic expression, Lin Xiaoshen was puzzled: "I don't know, I really don't know! I was just kidding, I didn't expect her to come for real!"

Jiang Xu seemed to get angrier, left him, left his house in the middle of the night, and went to the Fengyue place to play.

Lin Xiaoshen was also angry, he rushed to Lu Chenxing's room, and asked him what was wrong with him, why did that bastard Jiang Xu beat him up?

Lu Chenxing said: "He may like the school belle, brother, you stole his sweetheart."

Lin Xiaoshen: "..."

Lin Xiaoshen withdrew and silently called Xiaohua, explaining the ins and outs.

It's just that he didn't wait for Jiang Xu's forgiveness, and he left the country just a few days later.

Jiang Xu blocked his contact information.

Lin Xiaoshen was very angry. It was indeed his fault to steal the girl he had a crush on, but who told him not to say it? Would he do that if he said it?

During his study abroad, he never talked to Jiang Xu again, probably because of his rebellious psychology, and also because of the opening up of foreign countries.

From the age of 14 to 17, he played more openly.

Not only did he flirt with girls, but he also began to flirt with boys. He liked to see them blushing and pretending to be serious, and found it very interesting.

Until the age of 15, he had a wet dream.

In the dream, there was a boy holding him, calling his name softly, calling him "Lin".

He couldn't see his face clearly, only knew that his voice was deep and cold, but when he was called in a provocative tone, it made his legs weak and his waist numb, and his spine numb.He couldn't see what he was doing, but he vaguely felt that the man was groping his body, which made him feel angry.

When he woke up, Lin Xiaoshen found that his body was wet and the bed was also wet.

He covered his flushed face, and sneaked up to wash the sheets and underwear while his roommate was fast asleep.

While washing, the aggrieved eyes were red.

Lin Xiaoshen found out that he was a pervert, and he actually fancied his childhood brother in his dream.

My brother obviously treats me so well, giving me sweets, taking me out to bask in the sun every day, helping him teach the nurse who bullied me, and even dressing him and wearing shoes.

How could he have such a dream?

After getting in touch with more things, Lin Xiaoshen realized the reality, he just likes men.

I like the boy who hugged and protected him when I was a child, his noble and indifferent voice, the temperature of his arms full of security, and...

Playing yourself this way and that in the dream.

The unobtainable is always in turmoil, and human beings are also good at beautifying memories.

He had never even seen him before, but Lin Xiaoshen fell in love with that person because of his absurd dream, and regarded him as a white moonlight and a cinnabar mole.

Even at the age of youthful sprouting, thinking about that person climbing to the clouds again and again, every time I think about it, I like it more and more.

Later he tried to find the man and chased him down, but they never had sex.

After dating for half a year, the guy said he didn't like men, he couldn't bear it, he felt...disgusting.

Under the double blow of self-esteem and shame, Lin Xiaoshen locked himself in the dormitory, wishing to hide himself like an ostrich.He felt so perverted and disgusting.

When he was most confused, Mr. appeared in his life like a ray of light, pulled him out of the mud, and gave him everything he wanted.

He was spoiled by him like a child, so spoiled that he was lawless and willful, so spoiled that he completely forgot about that person.

But every time when he went to bed, Lin Xiaoshen could not help but think of the boy's uncontrollable whispers and calls in every wet dream when he heard the heavy panting in his ears.

Lin Xiaoshen was extremely guilty, ashamed that he thought of his ex under his husband's body.

Although it was a dream that had never happened before, he still felt that he was going too far!feel horny!

So he learned how to please his partner in bed, trying to make his husband happy.

What can be exchanged is more excessive love and affection from the husband.

Lin Xiaoshen never thought that someone would treat him like this, would kiss the back of his feet, suck his private parts, swallow and suck him, wrap him around the tip of his heart like a pearl, and protect him carefully with all his heart and soul.

Okay to make him feel guilty.

So he fought hard not to admit defeat, and wanted to be better to his husband, so he began to learn to flirt with him on the bed, flirting with him with a lot of flirtatious words, one mouthful of my dear husband, panting in his ear with a soft voice: " Husband is awesome, it makes me feel so good?"

The effect was comparable to an aphrodisiac, and the hand holding his ankle wanted to crush him.

But it was Lin Xiaoshen who could play both in bed and off the bed, and met the first nail in his life after becoming Mr. Lin.

The beauty chasing home doesn't pay attention to him at all?

Rolling on the bed, I pushed myself away, and turned my back to Liu Xiahui.

"Can you...don't be so nice to me?"

"why?"

"……I do not deserve."

This should be a poor little boy who has had a rough life since he was a child. He hasn't received much love and care, and Lin Xiaoshen feels very distressed.

He clings to his back and rubs against him with all his strength, rubbing against every sensitive place, with his hands circling his waist and sliding down his abs

Someone grabbed his wrist with such strength as an iron hoop, preventing him from moving.

"Don't do that, okay?"

Lin Xiaoshen kissed his ear affectionately, with a moist tone: "I swear that I will treat you well and not hurt you. I used to be the one below, and I know how to make it hurt, trust me."

The hand on the wrist remained motionless.

Lin Xiaoshen sighed deeply, put his arms around him, and said, "I don't have any good things about me, but I still have a long relationship, and I treat people like this. I used to have two boyfriends, and they were separated. If you are interested, I will Tell you a good story."

So while secretly poking at his clothes, he briefly described the two relationships from the perspective of a bystander.

He was very honest and said a lot of private things that he never said.

He said that when he was young, he fell in love with an elder brother who accompanied him when he was young, and he was obsessed with him every day. Later, he finally found that person, but found that it was different from the one in his dream, so he broke up.

After breaking up, I met my husband, who treated him very well, but every time he went to bed, he always thought of his ex in his dreams, and while being fucked by the current one, he was thinking about his ex.

Lin Xiaoshen whispered: "I don't think what I like is the little brother who was with me when I was young. I just like him who appeared in my dreams when I was the most ignorant about sex, the one who was constantly beautified by me, so the first A relationship just ends so quickly..."

He paused and murmured: "But I really love my husband, just like he loves me. I feel guilty that I think of others under him."

"Maybe God can't see it and punish me." Lin Xiaoshen kissed the back of his snow-white neck and said, "So the husband changed later, he didn't look like him, and then I dumped him."

His memory is chaotic, he doesn't remember Gu Minglang, he only remembers Mr., and he remembers that he dumped Lu Yu.

But he remembered that his husband loved him, and he loved him too.

"I broke up with them because they don't love me anymore. If you love me, I will love you forever. I can give you everything, including myself.

already. "

"Lu Bai." He called his name affectionately, and asked him, "Do you want to have a well-behaved daughter, a lover who understands you, and a destination?"

Gu Minglang didn't speak, but slowly closed his eyes.

The daughter is his, and the lover is also his, but the name is not his.

It turns out that a change of identity does not necessarily mean rebirth, even if everyone forgives him, he cannot forgive himself.

Moreover, Lin Xiaoshen will never forgive him, never will.

"I will be good to you and love you very much, I swear."

Gu Minglang was aroused by his rubbing, but he didn't have the slightest desire to overwhelm him. The lust in his body and the calmness in his eyes didn't seem to come from the same person, he knew he wasn't worthy to touch him.

He doesn't deserve it.

"Lin." Lin Xiaoshen heard the person with his back turned to speak, his voice was low and indifferent, "Tell me, if a 24-year-old husband sees you who are now 32 years old, how would he feel?"

Lin Xiaoshen, who had forgotten all the pain and suffering, was stunned for a moment, and replied: "Maybe I will be disappointed, we didn't make it to the end."

"Yes, I will be disappointed."

Disappointed in myself, terribly disappointed, heartbroken...disappointed.

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