I am the true love of the man

For three years, Yu Xiao thought he could deal with it calmly, but now it seems that his success fell short. He took several medicine bottles from the computer desk, and Yu Xiao opened them one by one, took out a handful of medicines from inside and swallowed them. He didn't drink it, obviously taking medicine has become a routine for him.

Back in front of the computer, seeing another bunch of messages from Tuanzi, Yu Xiao didn't even read them and just replied.

Putting on the headset, it was that familiar voice again. Yu Xiao didn't know whether this arrangement of fate was punishment or redemption.

"Happy birthday, tell me what gift you want later." The man said with a smile. Yu Xiao could almost imagine the curvature of the man's mouth at the moment. Once upon a time, this man talked to him like this and pampered him like a younger brother.

Yes, at most he was just a younger brother, but his heart was not satisfied, so he could only choose to disappear in the end.

"Chengzi Chengzi, sing me a song. It's my birthday present. I haven't heard you sing before." Yes, even if Yu Xiao and Tuanzi have known each other for three years, they are just chatting casually at most, isn't that true? It was the first time that Tuanzi made this request, but Yu Xiao rejected it every time in the past.

But in the past it was just the two of them, but today is Tuanzi's birthday, and in front of so many of his friends, even Yu Xiao, who doesn't know how to communicate, knows that it's not good to refuse under such circumstances, and... let's sing it to him, Although he doesn't know.

"Can you sing whatever you want? I can sing very few songs." Yu Xiao didn't lie, he could sing very few songs, and when he listened to a song, he found a song he liked and kept looping it countless times. Some of the songs I can sing are almost learned in this way.

"Ah! Chengzi, you can sing whatever you want, haha, I can finally hear Chengzi's song, and those people in the group know that they can't be envious and jealous to death!" Tuanzi today just said casually as before, never thinking about Yu Xiaozhen. will agree.

"Then you wait."

After Yu Xiao finished speaking, he turned on Kugou, searched for the accompaniment, and adjusted the microphone a little bit.

"Can you hear it?" Yu Xiao's voice now is a slightly deep and cold voice, which is very different from a few years ago. Yu Xiao himself doesn't know his change, because it didn't happen overnight. Changed the cold boyish voice into today's deep and depressing voice, but I have to say that this voice sounds very charming.

"Okay." Tuanzi said, and the others didn't speak.

Yu Xiao turned on the accompaniment.

"If your eyes can come down for me for a moment, if you can hear the sound of heartbreak, silently guard you, silently wait for miracles, silently make yourself like air. Everyone is eating, chatting and laughing tonight How happy, how gregarious I am in the corner, the onion on the bottom of the plate is like me forever condiment, secretly looking at you, secretly hiding myself.

If you are willing to peel off my heart layer by layer, you will find, and you will be surprised, that you are my most repressed and deepest secret.If you are willing to peel off my heart layer by layer, you will have a sore nose and tears, as long as you can hear me and see my whole heart.

Listening to you talking about you and your ambiguous atmosphere, me and my despair are very funny, I am like an onion and will always be a supporting role, I wish I could have a second exclusive plot with you, if you are willing Peel off my heart layer by layer, you will find, you will be surprised, you are my most repressed and deepest secret..."

Yu Xiao only sang here, and he found that he couldn't continue singing, so he could only turn off the microphone and type on the public screen.

Orange: I ordered it in advance.

Then quit YY.

Yu Xiao was lying on the table, tears fell silently, soaking his arms, and then fell to the computer desk.

After a while, Yu Xiao poured at least 7 or 8 pills from the medicine bottle at the corner of the table for the second time this night, put it in his hand and swallowed it all at once, then leaned back on the chair and swallowed it. With his eyes closed, tears still leaked from the corners of his closed eyes.

Yu Xiao's facial features are good, but he is very thin and his skin is unhealthy fair. The only thing to be thankful for is that he has not had dark circles under his eyes after several years of staying up late and insomnia, but these have no meaning for Yu Xiao.

Yu Xiao's sudden stop made Tuanzi inexplicably worried. In Tuanzi's eyes, Yu Xiao is a mysterious person with a story, but at the same time he is also a model of prudence and reason.

Tuanzi turned on the song he had just secretly recorded and played it, and listened to it three times. He felt as if he knew something, or he didn't know anything.

Find Chengzi from Koukou friends and leave a message for him.

Tuanzi: Orange, are you there?

Tuanzi: What happened to you, Orange?Let me know if you need help.

Tuanzi: Orange, are you okay?

Yu Xiao is an invisible party member for ten thousand years, so Tuanzi doesn't know if he is online or not, but there has been no response to several messages in the past. Everyone in YY is calling him, and Tuanzi can only go back first, planning to wait for Yu Xiao to go online before talking.

Yu Xiao's button is still invisible online, and Tuanzi's profile picture keeps flashing, but Yu Xiao has already left.

Yu Xiao lay on the bed for a long time, until he woke up in the middle of the night and suffered from insomnia again. He sat in front of the computer, opened Tuanzi's message and began to reply.

Cheng Zi: I left because of something, it’s nothing serious, thank you for your concern, although it’s a bit late, but I’d still like to say happy birthday.

Tuanzi has already gone offline, so naturally he won't reply, so Yu Xiao didn't bother with Koukou anymore. He created a new file, thought about it for a long time when naming it, and finally typed four words: what is affection.

Then start typing characters into the document:

If you are willing to peel off my heart layer by layer, you will find, and you will be surprised, that you are my most repressed and deepest secret. --"onion"

He is my college roommate. We have known each other for 7 years and we have been together for 4 years, but we only live and study together, and have nothing to do with love.

I don't remember our first meeting, or even a memory, that's when I really started to remember him.

He was my upper bunk, so after the desk was occupied, he sat next to my bed and played games with his laptop. At that time, I happened to be sitting on the bed reading a book. He was very happy because he won the guild battle. He laughed and hugged me excitedly. In his arms, he was still rubbing my hair with one hand, and at the end he said it was soft, and he rubbed it again. Since then, he often likes to rub my head, and it is the first time for me to get used to this kind of intimacy.

When I looked up, I saw the smile in his eyes, and suddenly the sun shone into my perennially cold soul. At that glance, I remembered him, and I still remember him deeply.

I think I will remember it forever until I have to leave.

Apart from him and me, there are two other people in the dormitory, Li Hui and Fang Tian, ​​but he is always the only one in my eyes. Although he can talk to classmates, but rarely, but my grades are very good, so I have been a teacher since I was a child. They all like me, and rarely communicate with classmates, but few people make trouble.Some people say that I am withdrawn, and others say that I pretend to be cool. In fact, I just don’t know how to socialize or even fear socializing, so I became a lonely and arrogant academic bully in the eyes of everyone.

I lived on campus in high school, but after three years, I was still alone. I thought it would be the same in college. I always knew that I was not suitable for making friends, and I was used to being alone. The doctor also told me to keep my emotions calm. It is very important so that the condition does not recur.

But his appearance changed everything, changed my life, I don't know if it's good or not, without him, maybe I can spend my life peacefully alone, but I also don't know the word love.

yes i love him.

Even though I understand that this love will destroy him or myself in the end, I still let myself love.

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"Xiao Xiao, get up quickly, or you will be late later."

Although I heard someone calling me, I still lay in bed and didn’t want to get up. Maybe it’s hypoglycemia, so getting up in the morning is always uncomfortable, and it takes a long time to wake up. The situation is even more serious in winter, but fortunately it’s summer.