I am the true love of the man

During the graduation season, I was not the only one who was sad. Seeing many people crying and hugging each other, I finally couldn't help but hugged his waist, buried my head in his arms and started crying.

That was the last time we met. Before the show ended, I left alone by going to the toilet and went back to the house I rented after leaving school.

Small, old and shabby.

A bed, two nightstands, a desk, a laptop, and nothing else.

Not long after graduation, I heard the news of his engagement, from a classmate.

His engagement partner is a noble daughter from the imperial capital who is in the same family as him, not his previous girlfriend. It was only at this time that I found out that his family background is so good that it made me feel inferior, and I finally gave up completely.I changed my phone number, but I didn't want to delete his number, it still exists in the phone book.

I still stay in the imperial capital because he is in this city.

My depression is still getting worse, and my anxiety is also concurrent. I have to take medicine to control it every day, and I can’t go out to work at all, so I barely make ends meet by writing novels. All white and sickly, people are getting thinner and thinner.

I didn't log in to that game again, and I didn't log in to the previous button either.

…………

After Yu Xiao wrote this, he stopped. He opened the website and created a new article. The title of the article was "What is Love", what is love, why is love?What is the homonym of deep affection; what is deep affection, and what is deep affection?Interesting interpretation, isn't it?

After several years of honing, Yu Xiao’s speed has become very fast. He wrote nearly 5 words in one night. Win in speed and speed, and strive to make more money for each article.

It is his first time to use No.1 to write a story. In fact, it is more like a diary or a memoir to him. Because everything is in his head, he does not need to conceive, but because it is reality, he often does not know how to write.

The first 2 words are published, and the remaining 1 words are divided into 4 chapters and set to be updated regularly every day. Anyway, "Fantasy" can be finished in a few days, and then I can write this article well, but he doesn't know how to write it. Go on, or just make up?But Yu Xiao didn't want to, this was a story between him and him, and in the end Yu Xiao decided to make a full documentary, regardless of whether anyone would read it, or whether the article would have an ending.

After turning off the computer, Yu Xiao washed up and went downstairs to eat a bowl of porridge with two steamed buns, and then slept until [-] o'clock in the afternoon. Yu Xiao could only fall asleep when he was very tired. Put it on someone else, I'm afraid it will collapse.

Yu Xiao spent the entire afternoon writing "Flower", and wrote more than 2 words. According to this progress, it is estimated that it will be completed at about 8.

In the evening, Yu Xiao cooked a bowl of noodles with an egg in it. It’s not because Yu Xiao was particular about it, but because his body was weak and he couldn’t sustain it without taking in any nutrients, so Yu Xiao could only eat eggs, tomatoes, etc. Abundant and cheap food.

It was already 7 o'clock in the evening after dinner, Yu Xiao opened Koukou and YY, and saw Tuanzi's reply.

Tuanzi: It's not too late, as long as you're fine.

Orange: Thank you.

After a while, Tuanzi replied, apparently online and not busy.

Tuanzi: Why are you being so polite? It’s not like we’ve known each other for a day or two. By the way, do you want to come to our YY to play? We have a lot of people here and it’s very lively~

Yu Xiao thought for a long time looking at Tuanzi's words. Of course he doesn't like or even hate the excitement, but he also wants to get in touch with Ke Yucheng, even if Ke Yucheng doesn't know who he is, even if he can only listen to him talking to others through the Internet, even if Perhaps such closeness will hasten his loss of control...

Yu Xiao knew that he was hopeless.

In the past few years, he has completely isolated Ke Yucheng, and at the same time isolated himself from the chance to hurt him, but now God has arranged for them to meet, and he seems to have no willpower to leave again. He wants to get close to Ke Yucheng, but he is actually not satisfied with being separated by the Internet like this. Watching his life like a spectator, he wants that person to stay by his side, and he is never allowed to leave!

He is his everything, how can he be with others?How could this be!

He even wanted to kill that woman, and no matter what method he used, as long as he could keep Ke Yucheng by his side!

But he couldn't, he didn't want to hurt Ke Yucheng, Ke Yucheng didn't like him, he didn't even like men, how could he have the heart to hurt him?

Yu Xiao's clenched fist was embedded in his palm, and blood was printed, but even this did not bring him back to his senses.

Some people may think that in Ke Yucheng's capacity, what harm can someone like Yu Xiao do to him?But everyone, don’t forget that they are still friends, or even good friends, at least in Ke Yucheng’s opinion, so if Yu Xiao was selfish back then, he could use such extreme methods as death to force Ke Yucheng, even if Ke Yucheng refused, But if Yu Xiao really died because of this, wouldn't it be a harm to Ke Yucheng?

A good friend died because of himself. Unless Ke Yucheng's conscience was eaten up by dogs, or he always kept Yu Xiao as a friend from the beginning to the end, he would live in guilt and self-blame all his life.

Don't think that death is nothing. It is not surprising for people with mental illnesses like Yu Xiao to commit suicide after being stimulated, let alone killing people. Yu Xiao is an exception.

After about ten minutes, Yu Xiao finally calmed down, watching Tuanzi almost swiping the screen with 'Are you there? ' message.

Cheng Zi: Here, I just went to drink some water.

Tuanzi: Oh, I just want to ask you if you want to come and play with us.

Tuanzi: Come on come on.

Yu Xiao looked at the news about Tuanzi, if Yu Xiao had never gone before, but now because of Ke Yucheng, he couldn't say no.

Although Tuanzi can barely be included in the scope of friends, it is only compared with strangers. Apart from himself, Yu Xiao’s entire world is actually only Ke Yucheng. They are all just wandering around the periphery.

Yu Xiao's world is both solid and lonely.

Orange: OK.

Sure enough, he couldn't resist the temptation about him, even if he could only be a bystander.

Open YY and go directly to the [Heavenly Destiny Monster Race] channel from the recent access list. Yu Xiao acted as the audience responsibly. He didn’t speak or even typed. What more.

In fact, only Tuanzi also understands that Yu Xiao sometimes doesn't like to talk, and even doesn't like others to be too verbose, so Tuanzi is actually very measured in many cases, otherwise Yu Xiao would not be able to get along with him peacefully for so long.

Yu Xiao is really typing while listening to their chat. In the past few days, he has to work hard to finish coding and save the manuscript of "Fantasy". He is not a master. If he wants to make more money, he can only write faster. In the double-opening state, first save the manuscript and finish it, and then open a new article at the same time as the regular release. If you write slowly, the income will not be enough for him to live.

No one in YY pays attention to Cheng Zi, the little blue horse. Most of the time they are talking about games. Yu Xiao has never played that game, but anyone who has played the game can know it, but because Ke Yucheng is not here, he does not I put too much thought on YY, and I have been working hard on the codewords.

Of course, they occasionally chatted about some personal matters. Yu Xiao could tell that many people here knew each other in reality, and they should all be friends of Tuanzi, including Ke Yucheng. Finally, because of some rumors, he also roughly knew that these people and he were people from two different worlds, so even though it was on the Internet, Yu Xiao didn't want to have too much contact with them. Maybe Yu Xiao will put him back into the stranger sequence, right?

That night until around ten o'clock, Ke Yucheng finally appeared.

Yu Xiao didn't know whether to be excited or worried. It seemed that he lost control too easily when facing Ke Yucheng.

Yu Xiao's typing speed unconsciously slowed down, and he listened carefully to their chat in YY.

"Brother Cheng, why are you here so late today?" A certain man asked.

"I went to eat, I just came back." Ke Yucheng's voice was a little tired.

"Again?" Another man asked.

"It's that woman again? I wonder if she's not wanted by anyone. Knowing that Brother Cheng doesn't like her, she's always urging her to get married. Is there something wrong?" Tuanzi's voice said.

"Tuanzi!" the man before said, obviously wanting to stop talking about the group.

"You just let him talk, anyway, it's something everyone knows." Ke Yucheng said in an indifferent tone.

"What does your family say?" the man asked Ke Yucheng.

"We'll get married on the 8th of next month. After all, we've been engaged for more than three years." Ke Yucheng's tone didn't fluctuate.

"Brother Cheng, you really married her!" Tuanzi asked in surprise, as if he couldn't believe it.

"Ah Cheng, why do you..." the man also said.

"Marrying her is no different from marrying someone else. I always want to get married and have children. Shouldn't you congratulate me when I know that I'm getting married? Ha ha." Ke Yucheng laughed, but he felt a little helpless and self-deprecating .

"No matter what, I will definitely go when Brother Cheng gets married." A certain man.

"Me too." A certain woman.

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Yu Xiao felt that his blood was frozen, but he couldn't help but want to continue listening, even if this behavior was self-torture.

If he knew that he would hear such news today, Yu Xiao thought that he probably shouldn't have come in the first place. He remembered the same feeling he had when he heard the news of his engagement a few years ago, but today he seemed even more desperate, even if he heard from Ke Yucheng's tone It shows that he has no special feelings for that woman, but his person belongs to someone else after all, and he will become that woman's husband, and then have their children.

But what about being jealous?Even if he killed that woman, he would still marry someone else, would he kill him?How could he be willing.