Through the past and the present, I regard you as the king

When a person falls in love with someone for the first time, it is always enthusiastic, with a kind of desperation that no one else can intervene to persuade.

Mu Feng knew that he didn't like girls. It was in the physical education class of the first year of high school that he had a desire for the body of the captain of the school's male basketball team.

But when I really fell in love with someone, it was in my sophomore year.

He couldn't describe what kind of feeling it was, it was completely different from desire/desire, it was something that would make people instantly timid, but it would summon up full courage because they couldn't see it.He never dared to think about that person, but just watched silently from behind, thinking that just watching was enough.

Later, Mu Feng found out that the man was Meng Lianfeng, a senior who had completed his second year of graduate school.

Meng Lianfeng is a famous figure in the university. He has been in various student organizations for many years since he was an undergraduate. He is a leader in the eyes of teachers and leaders. Even after quitting the student union, he is still remembered by his successors and often invited back. Do guide.

The first time Mu Feng saw him was at the collective meeting of the school council. Meng Lianfeng sat with the current student council chairman, smiling gently and considerately.At that time, Mu Feng just thought, he is so handsome.

After several official contacts later, in addition to "he is so handsome", there is an additional "he is so powerful".

Until the New Year's party in the sophomore year, the last on-site rehearsal, the lighting and sound effects were all formal, but Mu Feng sang out of tune and made the wrong sound because of excessive nervousness, and the microphone amplified his mistakes, which was very harsh.Everyone was very silent, as if they were considering whether to replace him. After all, there were still several alternate programs that they really wanted to be on, and their performances were stable, and they would not be so nervous that they would make a fool of themselves.

Mu Feng squeezed a cold sweat in his hands, almost thinking that it was impossible for him to be on stage

Fight for nine days.

In the first row off the field, Meng Lianfeng stood up after watching silently for a long time. Mu Feng looked up timidly and saw the smile in Meng Lianfeng's eyes.

It's over, he must be laughing at me, Mu Fengxin said.

However, Meng Lianfeng applauded lightly a few times, and said with a smile: "You sing very well, and the guitar is also very good, don't be nervous. I've never heard anyone sing this song like this. Did you write the lyrics yourself?"

Mu Feng nodded in a daze, his fingers were marked by the strings of the guitar.

"It's amazing, I look forward to your official performance." Meng Lianfeng sighed, then turned to the student council president next to him and said, "Is this your newly recruited junior, you are talented!"

The student council president didn't say anything, and Mu Feng was not replaced in the end.

After the scene, Mu Feng saw him talking with the student council president, and vaguely heard his name.Mu Feng knew that it wasn't because he was really talented that he wasn't replaced, but because Meng Lianfeng said good things for him.

After his show ended, Mu Feng went after Meng Lianfeng with his guitar in his arms. He happened to see a senior sister running behind the scenes and tripped over piles of debris in the corridor. Meng Lianfeng grabbed her and asked her if she was okay. .

Of course the senior is fine, but Meng Lianfeng's own arm was scratched by the wire.

At that time Mu Feng thought again, he is really nice.

Mu Feng really likes him, in order to get closer to him, like a little girl who just fell in love, he secretly delivers water by the side of the basketball court, or pretends to meet him by chance.But Meng Lianfeng never noticed it, let alone got closer to him because of it.

In fact, I didn't think about it, Mu Feng just hoped to be friends with the senior, in a literal sense.After all, he knew that Meng Lianfeng was straight.

And this opportunity was helped by my friend Qi Shaochuan.

Qi Shaochuan is good at communication, he is the center and focus of the crowd wherever he goes, he is fun and knows many people.He was playing an online game that year, and there was a mage in the regular team who was Meng Lianfeng's roommate.

It was through this relationship that the roommates brought Meng Lianfeng away in the name of an offline party, and Qi Shaochuan also brought Mu Feng along.

When arranged to sit together, Mu Feng's heart was pounding, he could almost touch the senior's knee as soon as he stretched out his hand, and he could see the senior's slightly curved lips as soon as he raised his head.

He was a little absent-minded throughout the meal.

After eating and playing games, Qi Shaochuan drew a punishment card, asking him to kiss anyone within five meters of himself. If he gets slapped, he loses, and he will be fined to drink three glasses of wine.

Qi Shaochuan glanced at Meng Lianfeng, and suddenly crossed the table to hook Mufeng's chin.

Mu Feng's eyes widened. He already knew that Qi Shaochuan's orientation was very bent, and he also knew that Qi Shaochuan didn't like his type at all.He didn't move for a long time because his mind was a little messed up and he couldn't react for a while.

People around were booing, and even the people next to the table were watching the show.

Qi Shaochuan was just a few centimeters away from kissing, when suddenly a palm stretched out, covering Mu Feng's mouth and wrapping it around.Mu Feng instantly smelled the clean laundry soap on the senior's body, a little lemongrass fragrance.

Meng Lianfeng put one hand on Mu Feng's shoulders, and smiled at Qi Shaochuan: "He doesn't want to, that's fine, don't scare him."

Mu Feng froze for a while, his mind was full of smells from Meng Lianfeng, and he didn't recover for a few minutes, until Meng Lianfeng asked him: "Are you the one who sang on the New Year's Eve before? You seem to be a clinical sophomore? ..."

"Mu Feng." He replied.

"Mu Feng," Meng Lianfeng said softly and smiled, "What a coincidence, my name is Feng

God punishes the Supreme. "

Yeah, what a coincidence.

After that, Meng Lianfeng would greet him every time he met him, and if the time was right, he would even invite him to the cafeteria with him.Gradually, Mu Feng didn't know what was going on, and when he came back to his senses, he became Meng Lianfeng's little tail.

But he is also happy to be the tail, but he usually does all Meng Lianfeng's envoys happily.That winter, once Meng Lianfeng was in a bad mood and drank too much, so he called Mu Feng to pick him up after twelve o'clock in the evening. The temperature outside dropped sharply, and it snowed all night, so Mu Feng immediately put on his clothes and went.

Meng Lianfeng was so drunk that he hung on Mu Feng's shoulder and vomited all over him. He walked to the door of a convenience store and said he wanted to drink water. Mu Feng went in and bought water and hangover medicine.When he came out, Meng Lianfeng said he needed to go to the bathroom again.

"Don't leave until I come back, don't leave!" Meng Lianfeng patted Mu Feng's shoulder drunkenly, "You must wait for me to come back, or I will get angry!"

Holding a bottle of water, Mu Feng nodded solemnly.

I don't know where Meng Lianfeng went to go to the bathroom, but he didn't come back after a long, long time, and Mu Feng didn't bring his mobile phone, fearing that he might pass out drunk somewhere, so he didn't dare to go far, so he searched around.

Until dawn, Qi Shaochuan found him in a panic.It was only later that Mu Feng found out that Meng Lianfeng wasn't that drunk at all that night. He woke up as soon as the cold wind blew him up. He left himself and went back to the dormitory.

Mu Feng fell ill from the blizzard that night and had a high fever for two days.Meng Lianfeng went to the infirmary to visit him with fruit, and said that he had accidentally forgotten him when he was drunk.Mu Feng was in a daze, but didn't say anything.

Maybe people will ignore many problems in the fanatical crush. After recovering from illness, Mu Feng was still Meng Lianfeng's tail, coughing for half a month, and braving the cold wind to bring him breakfast.

Qi Shaochuan said, you are going to be dazed.

Maybe, Mu Feng's tail is just an errand runner after all, and he has been running for more than a year.

Meng Lianfeng is a straight man, one to one straight, Mu Feng knew from the beginning.At first he thought he was so handsome, so powerful, and such a good senior, but in fact, his predecessor was one term after another, and he was much more diligent than changing the student union.

The senior is kind to everyone, that is his inertia, commonly known as - central air conditioning.

Gradually, Mu Feng began to have the idea of ​​severing this relationship.That day, Meng Lianfeng and the girl went out to open a room. When it was over, it was raining heavily outside. He asked Mu Feng to deliver an umbrella. When he opened the door, he was not fully dressed, and there was still blurred lipstick on his neck.

The umbrella was delivered, and Mu Feng went back in the rain. The heavy rain washed away the love in his heart, and it was a little cold. This might be the last straw that broke the camel's back.

He thought that he and Meng Lianfeng would be like this, and it would be impossible to take another step forward, so it would be better to get out early.

Mu Feng really started to pull away slowly, so why bother to make things difficult for him.

He quit all the clubs that would interact with Meng Lianfeng, and he would find some trivial reasons to reject Meng Lianfeng's assignment, using his studies as an excuse, and gradually stopped thinking about Meng Lianfeng.

A few months before the end of his junior year, Meng Lianfeng suddenly found him and blocked his way at the back door of the library.

"Do you like me?" Meng Lian asked abruptly.

Mu Feng was taken aback for a moment, and then smiled: "Are you kidding me, senior, we are both men."

"I know, I like you too."

At that time, a tree of crabapple flowers bloomed, the wind shook the branches and leaves, and a thin layer of broken petals fell on Mu Feng's shoulders.The feeling that was pressing in the bottom of my heart instantly overturned all the cover, stirring up like a tornado, and I couldn't control it even if I tried my best

Peerless fairy doctor.

Finally, Mu Feng admitted.

And the stupidest thing Mu Feng has done in this life is to admit that he likes him.

Overnight, Meng Lianfeng became an out-of-reach senior from an out-of-reach senior.Those sweet words that he once said to all kinds of girls are all Mu Feng's now, and the hug he once imagined is also close at hand.

At that time, Mu Feng felt overwhelmed with happiness, and his aura was filled with hearts.

Meng Lianfeng had been with him for less than two months, and Mu Feng willingly returned to that tail, even more so than before.

However, the senior is already in his third year of graduate school, and he is about to graduate soon, so he doesn't have much time to spend with Mu Feng. When the internship gets busy, Meng Lianfeng's friend even dropped by to bring him the news.

Mu Feng didn't ask for anything, at most he dared to tentatively hold the senior's hand when no one was around, and Meng Lianfeng would often return him with a hug.

Everything seemed flat, blandly overdone.

During the two full months of dating, Meng Lianfeng went out to a party and drank some wine, and Mu Feng went to pick him up.He didn't seem to be in a good mood, he stared at Mu Feng with fire in his eyes, and immediately pushed Mu Feng away, telling him to get out.

Mu Feng was stunned, and after a moment of silence, he turned his head and left. Meng Lianfeng chased after him and apologized.

If Mu Feng could have noticed earlier, if he hadn't been immersed in the beautiful fantasy of passionate love alone, maybe the latter things would not have happened.

Meng Lianfeng said that he had a quarrel with his roommate during the dinner party and didn't want to go back, so he took a room in a nearby hotel.Mu Feng sent him up, but just as he was about to go back, he was dragged back to the bed by the drunk Meng Lianfeng.

Mu Feng is not ready, or he has not thought about what will happen with the senior.

It happened so suddenly, Meng Lianfeng used the strength of alcohol to tear his clothes.Mu Feng struggled a bit and then let go. After all, he likes seniors. Meng Lianfeng is not a person who can suppress his desires. Since he is the one he likes, he can give it to him. There is no need to be so pretentious even if he is a man.

But Meng Lianfeng suddenly tied his hands to the head of the bed.

"You're so disgusting that you just like being fucked by men?" he said.

At that moment, Mu Feng was empty. He couldn't even believe that the words came from the mouth of the senior. He didn't know which link made a mistake, and he didn't know what angered Meng Lianfeng. He didn't even have a place to struggle. .

Mu Feng likes to be quiet all year round, but Meng Lianfeng likes to exercise, and after kicking him twice, he returned them all.

Meng Lianfeng hardened himself casually, spat a little and squeezed in forcefully.Mu Feng couldn't stand the pain, he yelled twice and his mouth was stuffed into a ball of sheets.The devil was just like that, he couldn't make a louder noise, but he was still hoarse, and it was probably the worst pain he'd ever had in his life.

Maybe he didn't know that men can have fun, and with the addition of alcohol, after Meng Lianfeng vented once, Mu Feng was on the verge of fainting.He tore off the ball of cloth from Mu Feng's mouth, and straightened himself again.

Mu Feng seemed to have passed out for a while, and when he woke up again, Meng Lianfeng was fully dressed, still as handsome as a dog, sitting by the bed and fiddling with his phone.

"You have a good expression," Meng Lianfeng said, scrolling to a photo to show him, "Want to see what you look like?"

"..." Mu Feng took a deep breath, but couldn't speak a complete word. There was a fishy taste in his mouth, and his whole body was painfully numb.

Meng Lianfeng crossed his legs and began to talk to himself: "I bet them that you like me, but they don't believe you. But you really like me, so I said, in two months, I will be able to have sex with you." You." He shook his phone and said with a smile, "Look, this is the proof. You are easier to deal with than those girls, and there is really no difficulty at all."

Mu Feng: "!!"

"What are you staring at, if I remember correctly, but you lay on the bed yourself? Why are you pretending now, don't you just like men!"

Mu Feng gritted his teeth and propped himself up a little, grabbed the hem of his clothes, stared at the phone and shook his head.

Meng Lianfeng snorted and laughed, then shook off his hand and strode away.

Mu Feng fell back on the bed again, tightly clutching the messy sheet under his body, he wrapped himself completely in the quilt.In mid-June, the weather was already very hot, and he was sweating profusely, but he still felt cold all over.

Opening his eyes and not knowing how long it had passed, Mu Feng slowly regained his strength, found his mobile phone, and dialed his friend's number.

When Qi Shaochuan rushed over, he was so shocked by the scene in the room that he couldn't speak. He lifted the quilt and saw that his body was blue and purple. He immediately knew what happened, and asked tremblingly, "Who did it?"

Mu Feng didn't want to say it, but Qi Shaochuan understood, "Is that Meng Lianfeng! That bastard! You wait for me to teach him a lesson!"

Mu Feng grabbed him, raised his eyes, and said weakly: "Am I perverted? Is it really disgusting that I like him? If it's so disgusting, why did you come to provoke me?"

Qi Shaochuan frowned, hugged Mu Feng and burst into tears, "Don't be sad, that kind of scum is not worthy of your sadness, you are a great person and not a pervert..."

After taking a bath, Qi Shaochuan took him home, Mu Feng ran to the toilet and pressed the base of his tongue to induce vomiting, but he couldn't spit out anything, he just felt sick, thinking about it made him sick.Seeing that he couldn't bear it anymore, Qi Shaochuan dragged him onto the bed.

Mu Feng couldn't swallow anything, so he vomited it out after eating, and he always felt that he had to spit out the unclean food to feel comfortable.It was also during these days that Qi Shaochuan insisted on learning how to make a few kinds of porridge, feeding him a small bowl each time.

Stomach disease also fell at this time, superficial gastritis, and several stomach cramps occurred.

He seemed a little depressed, often staring out the window in a daze, sitting all afternoon.

Qi Shaochuan also began to feel that it was his own fault at the beginning. If he hadn't helped Mu Feng pull the rope, if he hadn't given Mu Feng the hope that he could get close to Meng Lianfeng, this kind of thing would not have happened. It was he who pushed Mu Feng away. To the side of Meng scum.

Mu Feng never wanted to cry, but Qi Shaochuan cried all his tears. In the end, Mu Feng hugged him and said with a smile, "Why are you crying?"

Afterwards, Mu Feng also gradually recovered, he became more energetic, and his complexion improved a lot.Qi Shaochuan racked his brains to buy some nutritious food for him, taught himself how to cook meals scientifically, and his stomach problems never happened again.

When the senior year started, Mu Feng reappeared in the school, while Meng Lianfeng had already graduated and left school.No one knew what had happened, and Mu Feng started a new life.

It's just that after that, he was used to smiling slightly with his lips pursed like that, and he seemed to be more tempered than before.He started running, going to the movies, listening to various lectures, participating in large and small experiments, and doing research.

Without the slightly cowardly soft feeling before, Mu Feng grew up rapidly, and he could really be called majestic, and his popularity among girls also soared.

He finally graduated with a Ph.D. with excellent grades. When he stepped out of the school, Mu Feng was already an excellent doctor who could withstand any storms and waves. There was no trace of that incident in him anymore.

Perhaps, only Qi Shaochuan still vaguely remembers what Mu Feng looked like with a shy smile when he was young.He once thought that without Meng Lianfeng, Mu Feng might be in his best form.

It's just that Qi Shaochuan didn't know at that time that in the near future, Mu Feng would meet someone who regarded him as a treasure, and that person would put the king's laurel crown on Mu Feng's head and protect him for the rest of his life.