I am waiting for you in Rio

"Go to sleep." Park Xinzhong handed the pajamas to Yang Yang and said.

"Brother, are you talking about 13 years? Is it 13 years?" Yang Yang asked eagerly.

Pu Xinzhong didn't speak, Yang Yang saw his dejected look, couldn't help hugging him, and said with tears: "Brother, it's my fault, I was wrong, I'm just a bastard, hit me! Brother!" ..." Yang Yang kept crying, but Pu Xinzhong didn't move in his arms. After a while, he broke away gently and said, "Your tears got on my clothes."

Yang Yang looked at him with teary eyes, not knowing what to say.Pu Xinzhong raised his hand, gently wiped away the tears on his face, and said, "Go to sleep, it's late." Then he turned and went out, and returned to his bedroom.Yang Yang stared blankly at the closed door of his bedroom, and it took him a long time to recover.He didn't put on the pajamas that Park Shinjoong brought, but fell on the bed in his bathrobe, his mind was in a mess, and some things he never knew before began to surface.

At the beginning of 14, when Yang Yang just found out that he liked Park Shin-jung, he felt uneasy because he didn't know if the other party had the same feelings for him.Later, because of his self-confidence, he felt that Park Shin-joong should also like him, but maybe he didn't understand it, so in Incheon, Yang Yang confessed again and again, even if he was rejected, he was not discouraged, because he believed that the relationship between them There is affection in the world, as long as he pursues it with his heart, his park will agree to him sooner or later.It wasn't until Li Yuanxi's sudden appearance some time ago that Yang Yang felt the crisis. At the same time, he also began to reflect, thinking that Park Xinzhong might really have no feelings for him. Although this result made him very painful, it was probably the truth.However, just now, Park Xinzhong said that he was sick because of Yang Yang, but he didn't realize it at that time. It wasn't until two years later that he realized that his sweetheart had been severely hurt by him.

What a bastard I am!Yang Yang scolded himself in his heart, it turned out that Park had liked me a long time ago, it seems that my previous feeling was right.But why did he refuse when I confessed my love?Yang Yang thought about it, and felt that it was just because of gender, identity, nationality, public opinion and so on.But Yang Yang is not afraid, he is a simple and persistent person, love gave him courage, he took out the energy to break the boat, thinking that since they are in love, they should be together, but today Pu Xinzhong's attitude hit him hard.Why not be brave?my park?Yang Yang thought.

Meow--!Meow--!Meow--!In the silence of Wan Lai, there were faint calls of wild cats downstairs, which made Yang Yang even more anxious. He tossed and turned and couldn't fall asleep, so he stretched his head to look at the wall clock in the living room. Under the bright moonlight, he saw that the hour hand was pointing at 4 s position. It's 4 o'clock?Oh yes, jet lag.Yang Yang lay down for a while, but still couldn't fall asleep, so he simply got up and sat on the sofa outside.

I really want to see the park, Yang Yang thought, we usually don’t have the chance to meet each other, but this time I managed to sneak over here, how can I sit here alone and waste time?But if I go to see him, will it disturb him to rest?Will he hate me?Yang Yang struggled in his heart for a while, but in the end he couldn't hold back. He stood up and walked to Pu Xinzhong's bedroom.The door was not locked, and it opened with a slight twist, and Yang Yang walked in.With the moonlight coming through from outside, Yang Yang saw Park Xinzhong lying sideways on the bed. The bed was very wide, and he only occupied a corner of it. Besides, he surrounded several pillows on the bed, hugging him in his arms. Holding one, it looks extremely insecure at first glance, which makes people feel distressed.

The moonlight is very bright tonight, shining in through the light-colored curtains, and shining on Pu Xinzhong.He has a calm face, wearing a white vest, and the beautiful muscle lines on his shoulders and arms are exposed in the moonlight, covered with a hazy halo. Mypark is so beautiful, Yang Yang thought, making people want to kiss him.But I still have to bear it, he looks like he lacks sleep, how can he disturb his rest?

So Yang Yang sat on the ground in front of his bed, staring at him motionless.The ticking of the wall clock in the living room reached Yang Yang's ears, telling him that time was passing.After an unknown amount of time, Yang Yang saw Pu Xinzhong's eyelashes tremble a few times, and then opened his eyes.

"Park." Yang Yang called him softly.

"Yangboy, go to sleep." Park Shinjoong said.

"Park, haven't you been asleep?" Yang Yang looked at his tone and demeanor, it didn't look like he just woke up.

"Well, I've been having insomnia recently."

"Brother, don't hug the pillow. I'll hug you to sleep. It's very comfortable. I'll let you sleep well."

"No need, go and rest." What are you talking about, kid?Park Shin-jung thought.

"Then let me kiss you." Yang Yang began to play tricks.

Pu Xinzhong lowered his eyes and didn't speak, so Yang Yang took him as acquiescing, and he slowly leaned over, piously planting a kiss on Pu Xinzhong's forehead.

"Park, good night." Yang Yang said.

"No," Pu Xinzhong smiled, "It's good morning."

"Well, you can sleep for a while, I won't disturb you anymore." Yang Yang said and retreated out, closing the door gently for him.

Pu Xinzhong turned over and closed his eyes. The place where Yang Yang kissed just now was numb and itchy. The kiss was very light, like the feeling of being brushed by a feather.This silly child actually wants to sleep in his arms, Pu Xinzhong thought.He didn't dare to agree. On such a night and such an atmosphere, he was afraid that Yang Yang could not bear it, and he was also afraid that he would not be able to bear it. But Yang Yang listened to him the most. If he refused, Yang Yang would not dare.In fact, there are only the two of them here. Even if something happens, no one will know, but people are emotionally greedy. The more they get, the more they desire. Since they can't be together, why let the two get closer? The deeper the trap, the more pain it will be?

As for why they can't be together, in addition to the reasons Yang Yang thinks about gender identity, nationality and public opinion, Park Shin Joong actually has more concerns, such as his mother's body.The most direct reason now is that he has encountered a very difficult matter, which is very serious, so serious that it will directly affect his future career.Because of this incident, he has been unable to breathe like a mountain has been crushed in his heart for the past two months.Although this matter is still kept secret, it will be made public sooner or later. By then, it will be more than a small Korean sports circle. With his identity, the entire swimming world will be shocked.But now, it is a critical moment, he needs to be extremely cautious not to make a wrong step, how can he risk the world's disgrace and let himself fall into the quagmire of same-sex relations?

But all of these are just excuses, Park Shin-jung thought, because in fact, I am not a brave person in the first place.

After Yang Yang went back, he changed into his pajamas and prepared to go to bed. He was sleepy and tired after a day of tossing around, and he could hardly hold on anymore.The pajamas didn't fit well, the trouser legs and sleeves were a bit short, but fortunately, they were wide enough and didn't fit tightly on the body. This was already the largest size in Park Xinzhong's pajamas.After Yang Yang changed his clothes, he stuffed the pink handbag opposite the bed in an invisible corner so as not to be an eyesore. Then he lay on the bed‖, turned over a few times, and finally fell asleep.

"Yang, yangboy." I don't know how long it took, Yang Yang heard someone calling him, he yawned, opened his eyes reluctantly, and saw Park Xinzhong sitting on the head of the bed.In fact, Yang Yang hadn't fully woken up yet, he didn't realize where he was at all, when he saw Park Xinzhong's face, he couldn't tell whether it was reality or a dream.So Yang Yang raised his hand and touched Pu Xinzhong's face, his hands were warm and moist.Huh?it is true.

"Yang, I have something to go out today, you rest at home, I will come back as soon as possible in the afternoon." Park Xinzhong said.

Yang Yang rubbed his eyes and saw that it was already dawn outside. "Park, what time is it?" he said.

"8 point."

"It's only 8 o'clock?" Yang Yang yawned again. He saw a light blue circle under Park Xinzhong's eyes, and he looked like he hadn't slept well, so he said, "Park, can't you go another day?"

"No, this matter is very important, and I have already made an appointment with someone to meet today, so I must not break my promise."

"Oh."

"Breakfast is on the dining table. I've also ordered lunch. It's Chinese food. Someone will deliver it at 12 o'clock. The money has already been paid. You don't need to say anything, just open the door and pick it up."

"Ah."

"I also booked the ticket just now. I will take you to the airport in the evening. Both the computer and the TV can be used. You wait for me at home and don't go out."

"Ah."

"Then I'm leaving, you have to be good at home." Pu Xinzhong said with a smile, like a bright moon, bright and clear.

It's so beautiful!Yang Yang stared at him blankly and nodded.

After Pu Xinzhong left, Yang Yang turned over and went back to sleep. He didn't even eat breakfast, and fell into a deep sleep.He didn't get up until the doorbell rang. At this time, he looked at his watch and saw that it was 12 o'clock, and the boy delivering lunch had arrived.Yang Yang opened the door to take his lunch, thanked the delivery man in English, and then he came to the restaurant and took all the meals out of the big box.At this time, there was still a cold breakfast on the table, which consisted of bread, fried eggs and milk, and lunch consisted of rice and a few stir-fried vegetables, purely Chinese.Yang Yang ate lunch and breakfast together, and he put the glass of milk in the microwave and drank it at the end.

Yang Yang ate and drank enough, he cleared the dining table, and then walked around the room again.In Pu Xinzhong's bedroom, Yang Yang looked at the big bed, thinking that mypark sleeps here every day.So he lay down with his clothes on, right where Pu Xinzhong slept last night.After a while, Yang Yang got up and came to the balcony. He looked out through the glass window and saw that the community was very tidy, with a large distance between buildings, and there was a small square and a large lawn downstairs. It was mid-winter, but there was still some residual green on the lawn.