A method of psychotherapy for psychiatrists

【01】

Qin Yiheng looked at the photo carefully.

When he saw his mother holding him when he was young, he was a little emotionally unstable.

He put on some clothes and went to the balcony to blow the cold wind, trying to calm down his emotions.Just happened to see the movement of Jiang Shuo closing the door, and he sighed. He was with Jiang Shuo in the previous few investigations. When investigating the case, whenever he encounters a bottleneck or is in a bad mood, Jiang Shuo can always give him just the right help.

Thinking of this, Qin Yiheng felt even more headache.

Liu Zhi and Jiang Shuo, these two personalities, he really didn't know how to deal with them.It's better to find out Liu Zhi and the relationship between Liu Zhi and his father before thinking about this issue.

Qin Yiheng returned to the table, took out a pen and paper and began to write and draw.

In the first photo of a family of four, the father looked very relaxed, with his left hand on the shoulder of his five-year-old elder brother Qin Yichi, and his right arm around his mother, who smiled gently and held a one-year-old in her arms. Qin Yiheng.Looking at the clothes of a few people, they are autumn and winter clothes, and they are very formally dressed. They should be attending a formal family banquet.

In the second photo, grandpa and grandma naturally sit in the middle. The two elderly people seem to be in a good mood with smiles on their faces.On the right back of grandpa and grandma is Qin Yiheng's family of four. Except for the brother's position being changed to the far right, the postures of mother and father have not changed much, but the father seems to be more nervous than in the first photo, and his arms are closed. The shoulders are tight and the shoulders are a little unnatural.On the left of the father is Qin Yiheng's uncle and aunt, and on the left is the aunt.The two strangers were standing next to the aunt, their bodies turned sideways in the direction of grandpa and grandma.Everyone was well dressed, looked happy, and everyone was laughing.

The background of this photo is the small garden of Qin Yiheng's grandfather's house. Red flowers are blooming in the shadows in the corner. Grandma likes red, and those are the flowers she took care of carefully.

Today, my grandparents and mother are no longer alive.My aunt and uncle have also settled abroad and have not had much contact.My aunt ignored her family's opposition and went to join the army as a military doctor. It was dangerous to travel around.And if those two strangers were really Liu Zhi's parents, they would have passed away long ago.

Is there any place for his father to hide these two photos?

Qin Yiheng began to recall the photos in the family album, but there seemed to be no other photos of this family gathering in it.So Qin Yiheng has no impression of this party.And those two strangers have never appeared in their family's photo album.

Qin Yiheng felt that he needed to confirm whether these two strangers were Liuzhi's parents.

【02】

"Du Du." There was a knock on Qin Yiheng's door, followed by Jiang Shuo's lowered voice: "Qin Er, are you still awake? I have something to tell you."

Qin Yiheng immediately put the photos on the desktop into the drawer, and then went to open the door.

Jiang Shuo wrapped himself up tightly in thick clothes and entered the door. Seeing that Qin Yiheng was dressed neatly and didn't look like he was going to sleep at all, he thought that this matter couldn't be dragged on any longer. Both of them might not be able to sleep well.

"What's the matter?" Qin Yiheng just wanted to change his mind, and did not reject Jiang Shuo's visit at this time.

Standing in front of Qin Yiheng, Jiang Shuo said very solemnly: "Qin Er, you are really good, but I am not suitable for you."

Qin Yiheng: "What are you talking about?"

Jiang Shuo raised his fist to his mouth and coughed dryly, saying, "I don't like men."

Qin Yiheng: "I know."

Seeing Qin Yiheng's expression, Jiang Shuo seemed to take it for granted, wondering if he didn't care about it, and added: "We can only be good brothers, do you understand?"

"Aren't we?" Qin Yiheng suddenly understood what Jiang Shuo meant, he was speechless and funny, and looked at Jiang Shuo with a strange expression.

Jiang Shuo was taken aback and said, "Qin Er, I don't mean to discriminate against you, it's just that I really don't like it."

Qin Yiheng tried not to look too exaggerated, and said, "Jiang Shuo, don't you think I'm interested in you?"

Jiang Shuo: "No?"

Qin Yiheng: "No."

Jiang Shuo: "Then why do you never explain when you encounter misunderstandings?"

Qin Yiheng: "Because I don't care about them."

Jiang Shuo: "Then you insist on moving to the courtyard?"

Qin Yiheng: "Experience life."

Jiang Shuo: "Then you insist on sleeping with me?"

Qin Yiheng: "Because I am not familiar with other people in the courtyard."

Jiang Shuo: "Then you give me high-end dim sum?"

Qin Yiheng: "I said it is a reward for staying overnight."

Jiang Shuo: "Then you still insist on sending me to the company and sending me business?"

Qin Yiheng: "I just want to drop by to see if there is any suitable real estate...Jiang Shuo, what's the matter with you? These things can also misunderstand you?"

Jiang Shuo was not convinced, and blurted out: "Then you kissed me in a dream..." It was not right until the words were finished, but he couldn't stop here, so he weakly dragged his "hand" two times. After finishing the words, he moved away from his aggressive gaze staring at Qin Yiheng.

Qin Yiheng was very puzzled, and said, "I don't think I've dreamed about you..."

Jiang Shuo felt that he was ashamed. What he planned to hide all the time, he just said it out of his mouth, and his face and ears turned red immediately.

Qin Yiheng understood that the dream was not made by him, but by Jiang Shuo, and he couldn't laugh or cry.

Jiang Shuo felt the other party's gaze covering him, and quickly waved his hands to explain: "Qin Er, don't get me wrong, I really don't like this, and I didn't mean to have this kind of dream..."

Qin Yiheng tried hard to put away the smile on his face, and said to Jiang Shuo seriously: "Jiang Shuo, do you know that there are many people in this world who are like you, they are obviously heterosexual, but they also dream about having sex with the same sex .”

When Jiang Shuo heard that someone was like him, he suddenly felt a lot less ashamed.

Qin Yiheng went on to say: "But having this kind of dream doesn't mean anything. It may just be caused by some information stimulation before. That is to say, even if you dream of having a relationship with the same sex, it doesn't mean This person's sexual orientation must be of the same sex. And it's just a dream. Ordinary people will have countless dreams in their lives. If you want to pursue every dream, how can you live a normal life?"

After hearing this, Jiang Shuo felt as if he had taken a reassurance, exhaled quietly, and nodded to express his approval of Qin Yiheng's words.

Qin Yiheng originally wanted to say a few more words on this issue, but seeing Jiang Shuo's appearance, he felt that there was no need to say more.For Jiang Shuo, these are enough.

As expected, Jiang Shuo was in a good mood, and returned to his previous carefree appearance. He patted Qin Yiheng on the shoulder heavily, and said, "I'm at ease after hearing what you said. It's all right, go to bed early!" After speaking, he turned around , waved his hands and prepared to go out.

"Jiang Shuo." Qin Yiheng called Jiang Shuo.

"Huh?" Jiang Shuo turned around.

Qin Yiheng looked at Jiang Shuo seriously, and asked, "Do you really not want to get back your memory and your family?"

【03】

Jiang Shuo showed an expression Qin Yiheng had never seen before, his eyelashes were trembling slightly on his pretty face.

"You..." Qin Yiheng felt that Jiang Shuo's expression looked a little like he was about to cry. Qin Yiheng was too unfamiliar with Jiang Shuo like this.

But Jiang Shuo didn't cry, he smiled, which was uglier than crying.

"Qin Er, I remember I told you that I think this kind of life is pretty good." Jiang Shuo turned around and faced Qin Yiheng, with a tone as if he was talking about something insignificant. I picked it up from the cemetery, it’s been a year, if my family wants to find me, it’s definitely not hard to find. But why hasn’t there been any missing person announcements about me this year?”

Qin Yiheng was silent, he had already guessed what Jiang Shuo wanted to say.

"Either I'm too insignificant to be worth the trouble for my disappearance. Or..." Jiang Shuo looked at the burning charcoal fire in the brazier, "Or my family may have..."

"Jiang Shuo..." Qin Yiheng realized that he didn't know the other party well. He used to think that Jiang Shuo was just a simple and kind optimist. Because he was not bound by the past, he was able to face life more calmly.But he was wrong. During the year when Jiang Shuo was rescued and returned to the courtyard, there was no memory of the past, nor any relevant news. Jiang Shuo probably spent many sleepless nights, fantasizing and guessing , to doubt, to suffer, to escape, to accept...

"Qin Er, go to bed early." Jiang Shuo looked at Qin Yiheng, and the other party's expression seemed to be the one who lost his memory, "It's really good that I am like this now." Jiang Shuo blinked, showing his usual expression smile.

"You too, go to bed early."

【04】

If Jiang Shuo's past is really a scar, should he uncover it?

Qin Yiheng took out those two photos again. He had a vague feeling that if he continued to investigate this matter, he might find a result that would make everyone unhappy—including himself.

However, if he stopped at this point, the next time Liu Zhi appeared again, he might not be as easy to dismiss as last time.

Qin Yiheng looked at his mother in the photo, and suddenly felt that something was wrong.

【05】

Jiang Shuo returned to his room, took out the string of copper coins and put them on the table, and took out the purse that contained the string of copper coins and put it in the palm of his hand. With the light of the kerosene lamp, he looked carefully—the purse was embroidered with the word "Jiang Shuo". It is precisely because of this purse that "Jiang Shuo" is his name.

Qin Yiheng's question just now made Jiang Shuo express to others the thoughts he had been buried in his heart for the first time, and it also made him face up to his own heart for the first time.

Qin Yiheng's expression just now looked sad, and Jiang Shuo knew that he was feeling sorry for himself.With Qin Yiheng's ability, he must have discovered it.

found myself running away.

escape from the past.

escape from memory.

Because of the fear of facing those possibilities.

Dispensable possibility.

Possibility of ghosts.

If you don't look for memories, all the possibilities are just possibilities. Besides these possibilities, there are also those that look better.

As long as he doesn't find his memory, those possibilities that he doesn't want to face will never come true.

He will use the name of "Jiang Shuo" to start his life anew, his silent master, his relatives in Dazayuan, his friends, his work, everything about him... all belong to Jiang Shuo's life.

Jiang Shuo has been hiding his cowardly thoughts, not wanting anyone to know.

But he never thought that tonight, Jiang Shuo originally wanted to go to Qin Yiheng to make things clear, but in the end he made a mistake and made a fool of himself, and exposed his unbearable side to the other party.

Jiang Shuo put his arms on the table and propped his forehead, the flame of the kerosene lamp danced, and the light dangled on his face.

Ever since he met the second young master of the Qin family, Jiang Shuo felt that he could no longer live his life according to his original idea.