you are my nightmare

Shan Shanshan is a woman five years older than Qi Ruo, her body is full of vicissitudes and traces of time.

Sitting in front of Xie Xiaoyou, she swaggered and posted the happy photos of herself and Qi Ruo.

"Do you know how Qi Ruo has lived these two years?" Shan Shanshan pointed at the pure wooden tabletop of the dining table in the coffee shop with her fingernails painted with fruit-colored ice cream.

"Qi Ruo is lying to you, and he is also lying to me." Shan Shanshan took a sip of coffee, rolled her eyes, and left a mark of her cherry red lipstick on the coffee cup.

"She doesn't want to break up with you. In fact, you don't have to break up. I'm just playing with her. She wants to cheat some money from me, then break up with me, and go back to live with you. You can continue to be together. That night On the phone, I called her husband on purpose, just to let you know that you have been cheated by her. I know you are a good woman and you really love her, but she is not worth it. "

Shan Shanshan looked at the woman who had been looking at her faintly since we met. This woman was not very beautiful, with long flowing hair, no dyeing, no perm, simple straight hair with bangs, baby face, delicate eyebrows and eyes, He is well-proportioned, wearing black jeans, a gray bat sweater, and what appears to be low-heeled ankle boots.Casual yet refined.

This woman has silently paid a lot for Qi Ruo. It is said that Qi Ruo is now establishing a successful school, and half of the funds are paid by this woman. .

I heard Qi Ruo mention this woman more than once, no matter how tired she is after a busy day, she will prepare meals for Qi Ruo when she returns home, prepare bath water for Qi Ruo, put away a change of clothes for Qi Ruo, and do the laundry by herself.

At that time, the two had just started their business, and they could only live in an old building that cost 600 yuan a month. It was damp in summer, and the heating was not good in winter, and the windows leaked air.

It takes two hours to take a bus to the place where the school is run. After returning home after a busy day, Xie Xiaoyou will always put the dirty clothes in the washing machine when Qi Ruo goes to take a shower. Warm up the quilt, spread it out, and then cook. Qi Ruo came out of the shower and the meal is ready.

Every time when socializing, Qi Ruo would be full of praise for Xie Xiaoyou, saying that he has a good partner and partner, no matter whether it is work or life, he is taken care of in every possible way.

Shan Shanshan thought that Xie Xiaoyou, the woman who refused to go so far, was an old and ugly woman who couldn't be brought out to meet people.

But Shan Shanshan didn't want to think of such a woman who is a good wife and mother, since she looks so young and indifferent.

"Qi Ruo wants me to help her, and also wants to keep you. I want one of us to accompany her to socialize outside, and the other to take care of her behind the scenes." Shan Shanshan saw that Xie Xiaoyou had been looking at herself indifferently like an outsider, After thinking for a while and sighing, he put away the photos of himself and Qi Ruo on the table.

"Qi Ruo and I have already broken up, and we have nothing to do with each other. I just want to meet you. Don't give up!" Xie Xiaoyou smiled bitterly, lowered her head and held the straw in her hand, stirring the milk in the glass.

He didn't go to the opposite side, who deliberately suppressed himself a little bit since the first meeting, and went head-to-head with a stylishly dressed, extraordinarily gorgeous woman.

I have already lost, lost to this insolent woman.

"I came back to pack my things. I can't let others throw away my things. Even if the things are dirty, I have to throw them out myself." Xie Xiaoyou's voice was very flat, but Shan Shanshan could still hear the thank you Xiaoyou's usual sweet voice.

It turns out that love is not about getting, but about letting go.

It seems that this woman Xie Xiaoyou really loves Qi Ruo, but it's a pity that Qi Ruo chose the wrong one.

For the sake of fame and fortune, Qi Ruo really can do anything.

Now he can abandon Xie Xiaoyou because of his usefulness, and in the future, when someone more helpful than Qi Ruo appears, Qi Ruo can also throw himself away like garbage.

But I am not Xie Xiaoyou, this woman who is all about Qi Ruo.

Qi Ruo is a ruthless wolf, so he will not keep an unfamiliar wolf by his side.

Qi Ruo can't get anything with him, but with Qi Ruo, he must get what he wants.

This is the difference between love and not love.

Xie Xiaoyou, don't worry, if Qi owes you, I will get it back for you.

"I will take away everything that belongs to me, and I will not take more than what does not belong to me." Xie Xiaoyou said.

However, when Xie Xiaoyou finally left, he hadn't taken away his half of the shares in the school that Qi Ruo partnered with.

Xie Xiaoyou came and went like the wind. In one day, she met Shan Shanshan, went back to the old building where she had been renting until now, and packed up all her things in that city, but she found that it turned out that I really have too many things here, I don’t want to leave at all, almost everything in the house is bought by myself.

Xie Xiaoyou looked at the place where he and Qi Ruo lived when they started their business with a wry smile.Only then did she realize how stupid she was.

In the past two years, in order for Qi Ruo to run the school wholeheartedly, she ran around and recruited students everywhere. In the end, what she got was Qi Ruo's reward. Whether it was a psychological betrayal or a physical betrayal, for her, it was nothing. of any difference.

Now that Qi Ruo has already made his choice, he can't force himself to do it, and he can't do it. He doesn't want to stay with a person who is already dirty.

If Qi Ruo thinks that Shan Shanshan can help her career, then we will watch.

Qi Ruo, you will regret it.

That woman won't help you.

Xie Xiaoyou only left Qi Ruo's clothes and a set of bedding for Qi Ruo, as well as the computer they bought with their first pot of gold.Xie Xiaoyou threw all other things into the trash can downstairs, including shampoo, facial cleanser, towels, and the second-hand washing machine I bought when I first started my business when I was renting in this old building. Money heaters, second-hand sofas, coffee tables, rice cookers... all kinds of daily necessities.

Throwing things downstairs made Xie Xiaoyou very tired.

But when they bought these things at the same time, when two people who were the same were picking them together in the second-hand market, they looked like newlyweds who were decorating a new house together, with happy smiles on their faces.

But now, Xie Xiaoyou is disheartened and demolished the home that was carefully arranged at that time.

Xie Xiaoyou took the train home overnight. There was no sleeper. Xie Xiaoyou bought a hard seat and sat alone on the chair for 47 hours. During these 47 hours, Xie Xiaoyou thought a lot.

Not long after she got in the car, Xie Xiaoyou received a call from Qi Ruo.

"Where have you been?" Qi Ruo's nervous and worried voice came from the other side of the phone.

"Go home." Xie Xiaoyou's voice was still calm.

"I'm at home!" Qi Ruo looked at the empty house and felt scared for the first time. It turned out that the two-bedroom room was full of things, but when she came back from work, she thought it would be the same as before. After preparing everything, he waited for his meal with a smile on his face, but saw that the room was empty, and there was almost no trace of Xie Xiaoyou.

All the things in the house with Xie Xiaoyou's imprint were gone.

"That's not my home anymore. We broke up." Xie Xiaoyou chuckled lightly, looking at the rapidly retreating scenery outside the train window.

"Actually, we can be together. Give me two years, and I will definitely pick you up." Qi Ruo's voice was a little painful.

"No. No need." Xie Xiaoyou's voice was a little low.

"Do you really want me and that woman to be your wife? Can you be more ridiculous? What age do you think you want to be polygamous? Obviously I am your wife, but you want me to change the identities of Xiaosan and me?" Come here?" Suddenly Xie Xiaoyou's voice raised a few degrees.

All the passengers in the carriage looked at Xie Xiaoyou who was sitting in the corner.

"If we didn't have that phone call, we could be fine." Qi Ruo felt guilty for Xie Xiaoyou's hysteria.

Having been together with Xie Xiaoyou for five years, Xie Xiaoyou has never said a word loudly to herself, nor has she said a serious word to herself.At work, Xie Xiaoyou is his best partner. In life, Xie Xiaoyou takes care of everything for himself.

I believe that Xie Xiaoyou loves me, no matter what I do, I will forgive myself, tolerate myself, and will never leave me, that's why I chose Shan Shanshan.

I didn't expect Xie Xiaoyou to leave so resolutely.

Seeing that my friends of the same age have achieved success in their careers, or found a rich man and got married, how many years of struggle have been saved.

I was also very anxious, because of the constant urging and comparison at home, I just picked up a high-ranking official's mistress, Shan Shanshan, and wanted to start with her and ask her to help me.

When Shan Shanshan was with her, she knew about her relationship with Xie Xiaoyou. She said she didn't care, and she was willing to be her mistress, but Xie Xiaoyou made a phone call suddenly, and everything was revealed to the surface.

In the recent days, Shan Shanshan didn't know what was going on, and she was thinking about when she would break up with the yellow-faced woman Xie Xiaoyou at home every day.

I kept suppressing this matter, and didn't dare to let Xie Xiaoyou know.

Everything I have today is because Xie Xiaoyou is constantly expanding the source of students outside and contacting him for further studies.

I am really sorry for Xie Xiaoyou about being together with Shan Shanshan.But for the sake of the future, Xie Xiaoyou could only feel wronged.

After two years, everything was stable, so I took Xie Xiaoyou back and made up for it.

But Qi Ruo didn't expect that she would never have that chance to make amends.

"Wait for me for two years. If you are still single after two years, I will take you back to live." Qi Ruo said what Xie Xiaoyou often said on weekdays, we are living life!

"No. You don't have as much scheming as that woman." Xie Xiaoyou looked out the window at the night that had already fallen, with an ethereal and distant voice.

"You are not as scheming as her. Otherwise, you wouldn't have left." Qi Ruo's voice was faintly helpless.

In fact, Qi Ruo knew very well, how could that woman Shan Shanshan be sincere to him, how could she take care of herself like Xie Xiaoyou, and run around by herself.

That woman can enjoy with herself, but she will never suffer with herself.

Xie Xiaoyou is the only person who can endure hardships with himself without saying a word of suffering.

"Well. I threw away all my things. Let Shan Shanshan buy the rest for you! I left in a hurry, and the house was not cleaned up, so let Shan Shanshan clean it up for you! Those things should also be laid off. "Xie Xiaoyou chuckled lightly.

"She won't come to my place, let alone clean up the house and buy things for me." Qi Ruo felt that when Xie Xiaoyou and Xie Xiaoyou returned to university, the two met for the first time. Xie Xiaoyou, a senior sister who was a year older than himself , taking care of herself like a big sister, although she is a bit arrogant, she is a gentle person, she always speaks softly and her voice is sweet.

It seems that he will never be angry, no matter what happens, he is so elegant and indifferent.I think when I saw her smiling at each other for the first time, I wanted to tell her, let's date!

But at the school's sorority party, when others confessed to her, she rushed up and foolishly couldn't figure out the time and place to confess to her. Amidst the boos, she was still so calm and said yes with a clever smile.

Walking hand in hand, she has always been taken care of by her, and she always puts herself in her own shoes.

That goddess-like existence surrendered to her subordinates.

Let yourself have begun to forget that she is a proud person, a person who is held in the palm of the hand and has been living under the halo.

"Qi Ruo, I will change the number on my phone when I go back. Don't contact me again." Xie Xiaoyou took off the silver ring that Qi Ruo gave her on the first anniversary of being with Qi Ruo on her left hand, and pulled Open the window and throw it out.

"We're still friends." Qi Ruo didn't believe that Xie Xiaoyou would break all ties with him like this.

She didn't believe that Xie Xiaoyou could let go of the five-year relationship so easily.

But she forgot what she did.

No woman can accept her lover who is in trouble, and abandon her own for the sake of profit.

No matter how much you love, you can never forgive.

Xie Xiaoyou was no exception.

"You are wrong. We are just strangers." Xie Xiaoyou smiled lightly and hung up the last phone call with Qi Ruo, letting the evening wind mess up her long hair...

After Xie Xiaoyou returned home, he couldn't get sick, and his whole body became thin and changed.

The original weight of 130 jins was reduced to [-] jins in just half a month.

After half a month, I was able to get up just now, only drank some porridge, and my face was frighteningly pale.

My body is already weak, but I still insist on getting up, running, reading books, and learning the practical application of various constructors.

Xie Xiaoyou's mother, He Bin, looked at her daughter like this, and knew that her daughter who made a phone call that day and rushed out of the house broke up with the woman she told her to live forever.

He Bin knew that his daughter was sad, but if this continued, how could his daughter's body bear it?

"Son, you still have your parents. You still have friends. Do you want to hurt someone who loves you and cares about you just for someone who hurt you? Look around you, you still have so many people who really care about you." He Bin sat by his daughter's bed, looked at his daughter who had not said a word since she came back, and barely drank a few mouthfuls of porridge every day, and lovingly stroked her long hair that blocked her face.

"It's fine to let mom raise you for the rest of your life, but mom is afraid that one day she will close her eyes... Who will take care of you!" He Bin said, choked up.

My daughter has been strong since she was a child, so strong, and stubborn.

This time, my daughter will definitely be able to stand up, but it's just that her daughter's appearance is really worrying.

"Lafayette, I'm sorry. I won't do it in the future. I'll listen to you and go to work. You're right. The relationship between the two women is not solid. It's better to have an iron rice bowl than to start a business." Xie Xiaoyou turned over from the bed with a smile sat up.

"You can think like this." He Bin took his daughter's hand and sighed leisurely after a long time.Not to mention that my daughter was spoiled since she was a child, and I was never willing to let her do some heavy and rough work. It has only been two years, and my daughter's hands are hard and thick. It is not easy to live outside these two years!

"Lafayette, I'm fine, don't worry! I want to eat the vegetable porridge you made." Seeing her mother's sad expression, Xie Xiaoyou quickly changed the subject.

Sure enough, when He Bin heard that his daughter wanted to eat, he hurriedly got up and went to the kitchen to get busy.

"Okay, I'll make it for you right now. You haven't eaten well recently. I'll make some meat dishes for you to nourish your body. You've lost weight." He Bin was in the kitchen Busy washing vegetables, while talking.

Xie Xiaoyou's eyes darkened, yes!I still have my parents!

I haven't been home for the past two years. My mother has aged a lot. The days when I was not at home made her worry.

But what have you been doing for the past two years?

Let your parents worry, let your friends feel cold, and the result is that you lose everything.

I tried my best, tried my best to love and strive for it, and the result was sad, but I couldn't let this sadness continue to continue to others.

It's my own choice to be sad, it's what I asked for, and I deserve it.

But I can't let other people continue to be sad because of the mistakes I made.

I and Qi Ruo are over.

The current self is just a person who even got a college diploma through a relationship.

In the days to come, as long as my parents are healthy and happy, I will be fine.

Since my parents want me to have a solid job and work, then I will follow my parents, anyway, all I have now are my parents.

The nine-to-five life is also good.

Xie Xiaoyou made up his mind, picked up his mood, put all the things related to Qi Ruo in the house into garbage bags, and dragged them to the garbage can downstairs.

Throwing things away, if memories can also be thrown away together, maybe I won't be in pain or sadness.

People say that if you spend a year loving someone, it will take ten times as long to forget that person.

And I have been with Qi Ruo for several years, can I live that long?

Do you have ten times the time to forget?

Or as the best friend said, you can't forget your old love because you don't have a new love yet. If you have a new love and you still can't forget your old love, then your new love must not be good enough.

Xie Xiaoyou was lost in thought, walking towards his home with his head down, he didn't notice a black off-road vehicle speeding towards him at all, if he didn't brake in time, he would have hit Xie Xiaoyou.

The sound of the tires rubbing against the concrete floor was very harsh. Xie Xiaoyou raised his head after regaining his senses. After seeing the tire scratches on the ground, he realized that he almost had a car accident just now.

Taking a casual look at the off-road vehicle that almost hit him, Xie Xiaoyou walked straight home without stopping.