Living with a scumbag

"Let me go see Auntie." Su Jiahao said on the phone.

"No need!" Xu You reacted greatly. Zhao Lijuan's illness made her feel inferior and cowardly. She didn't want the Su family to see such an unbearable side of herself. Looking at her mother on the hospital bed, Xu You fell into deep thought, thinking that she was a She is a selfish person, she really doesn't have the courage to expose such a life to others.

"Then I'll go and see you." The Su family changed their route.

"Need not."

"You don't need this or that, we haven't seen each other for a whole summer vacation."

The Su family was very worried about Xu You. Ever since they found out that her mother was hospitalized, they had been worried and wanted to come to her, but Xu You was always very resistant to this matter. I can carefully test every time on the phone, hoping that Xu You can let go, but school will start soon, and Xu You didn't let go.

"See you at school, the same."

Xu You's voice was very tired. Taking care of a patient, especially a mental patient, always takes a lot of energy.

Su Jiahao asked thoughtfully: "The ticket for the day after tomorrow, you—"

Before he finished speaking, Xu You interrupted

"Hi, I'm sorry, I have to go back to school late, this time you have to go alone."

When the Su family heard that Xu You couldn't go with him, he felt a sudden tug in his heart, and tightened his grip on the phone.

"Aren't you going to go to school?"

"How could it be?" Xu You knew what the Su family was worried about, and said, "Even if I want to drop out, I have to go to school first, and I won't drop out."

"Yeah." Su Jiahao bit the corner of her mouth, and called out softly, "Xu You—"

"how?"

"You must persevere, Auntie will be fine."

Xu You's eyes suddenly became moist because of Su Jiahao's simple words, and he swallowed a few times while sliding his throat, his voice trembling slightly, "Mmm."

Before the two of them finished talking, the doctor came to round the ward. Xu You could only say goodbye to the Su family in a hurry before hanging up the phone. When she turned around and went back to the ward, the moisture in her eyes had disappeared. Beside the hospital bed, looking at the crowd of onlookers, I don't know why, but I feel like I am in a zoo.

"Your mother has bipolar syndrome, which is bipolar disorder. Generally speaking, bipolar disorder is more difficult to treat than depression. Her emotions are polarized, but fortunately her illness is caused by external factors. As long as she is treated in time , the chance of recovery is still very high, I saw her condition is better than before during the ward round today, she can move around freely and eat by herself."

Director Liu is an older professor of psychiatry and is also Zhao Lijuan's attending doctor. He was contacted by Zhao Jianguo, and he is indeed very skilled in medicine. Zhao Lijuan has only lived in the hospital for a month and a half, and now she can take care of herself. Unlike When I first came here, I didn't even know how to take a shower.

"Now as long as there is no stimulation from the outside world, I will stay for another week to observe and observe. If there is no problem, I can be discharged from the hospital."

Director Liu's words were like a shot in the arm, bringing Xu You back to life these days like a walking corpse. She was standing in the corridor with a lunch box, looking at Zhao Lijuan who was chatting with someone not far away, with mixed feelings.

On the day Zhao Lijuan was discharged from the hospital, Zhao Jianguo asked the driver to pick her up. Grandma cried again when she saw Zhao Lijuan. She was willing to accept such a daughter. She took Xu You's hand and kept saying: "You are a man in the family, you It is the pillar of the family! You have to support your mother with the family!"

Xu You's eyes were a little dull, he neither nodded nor shook his head, his eyes fell on the dazzling sunlight outside the window, it was clearly summer, but it was more chilling than the cold winter months.

Xu You didn't stay at home too long, and left after the plane that afternoon.

It was already midnight when we arrived, and it was pitch black outside the airport. Xu You was pulling luggage, wearing black short-sleeved trousers, and a peaked cap on his head, and because he was tall, it was clearly a boy's appearance.

"Xu You!"

A familiar voice caught Xu You by surprise. When he looked up, he saw Su Jiahao running towards him with a bright smile.

"What a shock!" Su Jiahao tied her ponytail and hugged Xu You childishly.

"It's finally here! I want to die!"

Xu You lowered his body a little, so that the Su family could hug him more easily.

"Why are you here?" After a while, Xu You came back to his senses.

The Su family smiled at her, flicking the ponytail at the back of her head, "Didn't you say you would arrive at night?"

"Then you come to pick me up?" The school is far away from the airport, not to mention reversing or taking a taxi for more than an hour, which is not considered a traffic jam.

"Of course I'm coming to pick you up!"

"How troublesome." Xu You frowned

"Just wait for me in the dormitory. When I arrive, you can tell the auntie in charge to open the door for me. How nice it is."

"Excuse me! I am willing!" I saw Su Jiahao said seriously

"You didn't read the news, how many female college students lost contact at the airport during this period of time."

"I'm not afraid, who would dare to rob me." Xu You muttered softly.

"You're not afraid, I'm afraid." Su Jiahao glanced at her, and then took the man's hand

"I booked a hotel nearby, let's stay this night and come back tomorrow."

"what?"

"Ah what?" Su Jiahao stared

"Just be honest, I didn't care about you for a summer vacation, and your skin is itchy again." As he said that, he pretended to raise his hand and pinched Xu You's ear.

The imagined pain didn't come, Su Jiahao pinched Xu You's ear with his fingers, rubbing it back and forth, from the pinna to the earlobe and from the earlobe to the pinna, and finally slowly slid down the base of the ear.

Xu You blushed.

The hotel is not far away, just around the airport, there is a special car to pick you up, and it takes 6 to [-] minutes by car.

"Go take a shower, are there any clean clothes in the box?"

As the Su family said that, they opened Xu You's suitcase on their own, and found a bright short-sleeved shirt from inside.

"Here, change this later."

Xu Jiayu nodded, took off his hat, and was about to enter the bathroom with his clothes, but his wrists tightened suddenly. He turned his head strangely, and saw that the Su family had red eyes, and their eyes fell on his own head. Thinking of something, he immediately brushed his hair with his hand, trying to block it.

The Su family knew that Xu You's summer vacation was not going well. They thought that she would be worried, sensitive and thin, but they never expected that she would grow white hair. She was just 21 years old, and there were some gray hairs on her temples. The Su family couldn't help it. Imagine what she went through in the past one and a half months.

I felt sorry for Xu You, bit the corner of my mouth tightly, as if my throat was blocked, I was so sad that I couldn't say a word, I took a few deep breaths, and finally calmed down, and said slowly——

"Go take a shower."

That night Su Jiahao got into Xu You's quilt, a little stubborn and a little tough, holding him tightly in his arms, Xu You didn't dare to move, and even the sound of breathing was very soft.

Hugs are always the most heart-warming place. Xu You suffered from insomnia for so many days, and it was the first time he could calm down at midnight. The Su family's gentle touch was like a comfortable cradle, and Xu You gradually fell asleep.

Just when she was about to fall asleep, the vibration of the mobile phone beside the bed suddenly woke up Xu You, who was about to fall asleep. She suddenly broke away from Su Jiahao's arms, and stared at the shiny mobile phone in horror and helplessness. , Breathing also became rapid at this moment.

This is the sequelae left to Xu You during the summer vacation. When the phone rang, even if it only turned on the screen, she would fall into panic.

Su Jiahao was also taken aback by Xu You's reaction. She glanced at the lighted-up phone, and immediately understood. She quickly took the phone and looked at it. It was a gossip message pushed by Weibo, and quickly pressed the switch off button. She not only turned off Xu You's cell phone, but also her own cell phone.

"Okay, it won't ring anymore, go to sleep." Su Jiahao stroked Xu You's back lightly, and inserted her fingers into the hair at the back of her head. It was all wet inside, and the man broke out in a cold sweat from fright.

Xu You's expression was stiff, and it took a while before he gradually calmed down. He lay down on the bed again and covered himself with the quilt. Su Jiahao was already beside him, and he hugged him tightly.

"Sleep, don't think about anything, okay?"

"Ah."

As soon as the Su family finished speaking, they took Xu You's hand and clasped their fingers tightly together.

Life seems to be on the normal track again, Xu You feels that he and his classmates have changed again, but God is like this, it always starts to make troubles when your life is just getting better, and throws you down Basin after basin of cold water pours you thoroughly from head to toe, making it impossible for you to hide.

After class this morning, Su Jiahao was walking towards the south gate for dinner with Xu You on his arm, when his cell phone rang unexpectedly.

Xu You and the Su family took a good look at the caller ID on the phone and were stunned. It was Xu You's grandmother.

He answered the phone tremblingly, and there was a crying voice from the receiver——

Zhao Lijuan fell ill again and took a lot of sleeping pills. Fortunately, she was discovered in time, otherwise she would have died.

"I really don't have the energy to take care of her anymore. Grandma is old. If this continues, I won't be able to live anymore!"

Grandma's words pierced the most painful places in Xu You's heart like needles one by one. She repeatedly described to Xu You the scene of Zhao Lijuan taking medicine to commit suicide that day. Zhao Lijuan's feeling of being pulled down from the window, the sense of powerlessness of being strangled by someone but unable to break free, Xu You's grandmother didn't know how much trauma such an action would leave Xu You's heart, and these traumas even in Many years later, it is still festering and bleeding.

"What do you want me to do? I just started school for a month."

"If you really don't want to come back, you can call your father and ask him to come back and take care of your mother."

This old man should be very clear about how simple it is to say and how flawed their marriage is, and her 'credit' is indispensable for this.

"How could my dad come back?"

"One night couple, one hundred days of grace, please beg your father, it is best to remarry your mother, this will also reduce the burden on you, besides, your father was able to transfer from that small place back then, your uncle did not miss Help, he can't be a white-eyed wolf now!"

Xu You's grandmother said this with confidence, as if Zhao Lijuan's illness was caused by Xu Haijun

"Only these two methods, if you don't come back, let your father come back, otherwise you will drop out of school! Otherwise, you will watch your mother die!!"

"I see." Xu You didn't cry or make a fuss, she hung up the phone calmly, and stood in the crowded Nanmen Street, she was too small

Su Jiahao held Xu You tightly, frowning

"Are you really going to call your dad?"

It has been six years since Xu Haijun left Xu You and the others. During this period, except for a phone call to Xu You during the Chinese New Year, he has not contacted Xu You again. It seems that the indifference towards Zhao Lijuan has also been transferred to Xu You.

call?Call it, if you don't call it, you will drop out of school, Xu You firmly holds the phone, this is the last straw.

The school has a big playground, where many students run or take a walk every night, Xu You dare not talk on the phone in the hallway of the dormitory, she is afraid that her classmates will know the joke, and she is even more afraid of sympathetic eyes.

When it was dark, she picked a secluded grassland, and the Su family stayed with her, and dialed Xu Haijun's phone number.

"What are you doing on the phone?" Xu Haijun is not much better than Zhao Lijuan. They are both people with a smile on their face. They are not the most indifferent, only more indifferent.

"My mother is sick, can you—"

Before Xu You finished speaking, Xu Haijun on the phone began to curse

"Is she sick? Is she dead? If she is not dead, she should die quickly! And her mother! It would be best for their whole family to die quickly!!"

"Dad, my mother is really dying." Xu You cried while talking

"Can you go back and take care of her? For the sake of your husband and wife, I really have nothing to do. I was taking care of her before going to school, but I still have to go to school now. As soon as I have a holiday, I will immediately take care of her." go home."

"Hehe—" Xu Haijun sneered twice

"It would be better if she died!" After speaking, the voice sank, without any affection for father and daughter.

"During the divorce, you were awarded to your mother. I didn't want a cent of the money or the house. If your mother wanted to change your surname, she would change it. I have no objection! You have nothing to do with me now, and don't do it again in the future." Call me, as for Zhao Lijuan, I will never have any contact with her in this life, I hope you can understand, that's it, I have something else to do."

When Xu Haijun hung up the phone, he also cut off all the ties between father and daughter. Xu You lay on the lawn with his arms covering his eyes, and his shoulders kept shaking.

The Su family knew that she was crying, so they lowered their heads and did not speak, but silently accompanied her.

As long as Xu You cried, Su Jiahao stayed with her for as long as possible. When she recovered, almost all the people on the playground had left. Xu You looked at her phone, and it was almost time for the gate control.

"Let's go." Xu You stood up and patted his body, with some green grass sticking to his back.

"Xu You." The Su family called to stop her.

"Ok?"

The Su family took a deep breath and said solemnly

"I thought of a way just now. Let's take a leave of absence and go back to see the situation. If it's too bad, you can call me. I'll rent a house by the school in advance. When the time comes, you can bring your mother here. We Let's take care of it together, anyway, there are not many classes this year."

Seeing that Xu You didn't say a word, the Su family paused for a few seconds, then suddenly burst into foul language, stood under the street lamp, and cursed: "I've never seen such parents before riding a horse! I have never been so speechless since I grew up. , I really learned a lot!"

Xu You knew that the Su family was complaining for herself, but she had long been numb to these things. She took the hand of the man under the street lamp and shook it gently. Xu You knew that the only one who really treats her now is the Su family.

After all, Xu You asked for leave. When she arrived at the hospital, Zhao Lijuan was lying on the bed, staring at the ceiling blankly, not knowing what she was looking at.

Time seemed to be back to the time of summer vacation again, Xu You had lingering fears in his heart, but he couldn't stop for a second. The moment he stepped into the hospital, he started running back and forth.

In the entire family ward, young people like Xu You's age can hardly be seen. The person accompanying the bed is either the husband or the wife, or else the nurse is hired. A discerning person like Zhao Lijuan can probably guess something, divorced or widowed.

"Your daughter is really filial." A middle-aged aunt who shared the bed looked at Zhao Lijuan enviously.

"Too many young people nowadays are unwilling to take care of their parents, especially if they have a disease like ours."

Zhao Lijuan leaned against the bed, looking like she was going to die and no one wanted to talk to her, Xu You stood aside and smiled awkwardly, perhaps for someone like Zhao Lijuan who is indifferent, Xu You's troubles are all in place. It should be, and it is not worthy of being taken out for praise.

In the director's office, Xu You asked about Zhao Lijuan's situation.

"She was fine a month ago. Why did she relapse suddenly? None of us stimulated her."

Director Liu nodded and motioned Xu You to sit down and speak slowly.

"The main problem with your mother's illness is psychological. Just like when she was admitted to the hospital a few days ago, she said she didn't feel well anywhere. After doing many tests, all the indicators were normal. In the end, there was no way to hang a bottle of glucose for her. When I asked her how she was doing, she said she felt better and didn't feel bad anymore."

"You mean, she's not sick?" Xu You asked.

"That's not true. She thinks she is sick. This is a sickness in itself, a mental illness."

"Then what can she do?"

"It depends on her."

Xu You was a bit devastated, and she rushed back after not being able to study, and was told that this was the result. Standing in the corridor, she felt exhausted and powerless to change the status quo. I can't tell the difference between fake and sick.

At night, the nurse pushed the cart and distributed the pills one by one. When it was Zhao Lijuan's turn, the little nurse patted Xu You on the shoulder and signaled her to come out and speak.

"We sent ordinary vitamin C tablets to your mother. You should pay attention to her condition tonight."

"it is good."

After the nurse gave her instructions, she went to the next ward, while Xu You waited outside for a while before returning to Zhao Lijuan's side.

"Mom, how are you feeling?" Xu You asked in a low voice.

"It's much better." Zhao Lijuan closed her eyes, "I'm a little sleepy."

Not long after she finished speaking, Zhao Lijuan actually fell asleep. Xu You looked at her mother's sleeping face, but her heart trembled uncontrollably. Is it real or fake?

Noon the next day.

After Zhao Lijuan finished her meal, Xu You went back to her grandma's house in her free time at noon, bought some clothes and toiletries, and took a shower by the way. She had short hair and just wiped it with a towel.

Walking to Zhao Xinli's bedroom and looking at the photo of the smiling and kind old man, he was a little dazed. Xu You leaned against the door frame, thinking that if grandpa was still there, today would definitely be different.

"Alas." Grandma's sigh brought Xu You back to reality, and she frowned and looked at her face

"You look so much like your father. Every time your mother sees you, she thinks back to the old days. Your father is so heartless. Can your mother not get sick?"

Sometimes collapse is just a matter of one sentence, Xu You clenched his fists, his brows frowned into a Sichuan character, heaved a heavy sigh, looked up at the old man in front of him who was doing the same thing in front of him, and finally couldn't bear it anymore—— —

"You asked me to come back to take care of her. I came back, and now she says she can't see me. What should I do? I can't come or walk. Do I have to drive me to a dead end before I can give up?"

Xu You spoke very calmly, she was already numb, there was no normal person in this family, and in his own opinion, they were all lunatics.

Back in the ward, Xu You seemed to be a different person, taciturn, introverted and sensitive. She watched Zhao Lijuan hanging glucose and taking vitamin C tablets every day. She didn't know how long such days would last, and school vacations couldn't be endless. Please, the counselor has called several times to remind me that if I don't go back to school, I will really be expelled.

When the Su family came here, they didn't tell anyone. They counted the class hours by themselves, and then greeted the study committee members, asking them to help when they answered the questions. Then, they came back secretly with a schoolbag on their backs. , I didn't dare to go home because I was absent from class, I booked a hotel and put down my things first, and then called Xu You.

"Which building are you in?" Su Jiahao's voice was anxious.

"Ah, what did you say?" Xu You didn't understand.

"Speak quickly!"

"what?"

"Forget it! Come down and pick me up, I'm at the main entrance of the hospital."

As soon as the Su family finished speaking, Xu You almost bumped into the pillar in front, and asked in disbelief

"Where are you?!"

"I said, I'm at the main entrance of the hospital!" Su Jiahao's voice was very urgent, and he looked up at the big sun at noon

"I'm dying of heat! Just stop ink!"

Xu You never thought that she could run so fast one day. When she rushed to the gate, Su Jiahao was standing at the entrance of a small shop by the roadside, with an old popsicle in her mouth, frowning and narrowing her eyes. It's so hot that I can't close my eyes.

"You're crazy." Xu You opened her mouth, she didn't expect Su Jiahao to be so courageous that she skipped class and sneaked back.

"I'm not crazy, you're crazy."

Su Jiahao raised his hand and wiped Xu You's forehead, and didn't dislike the fact that it was covered with sweat.

"I asked for leave and never came back. I called you to ask and didn't say anything. What should I do if I don't come back? Is it true that I leave you alone and don't care about anything?!"

After speaking, he handed Xu You a bottle of water, looked at her cheeks covered with sweat, and said with a smile, "Why are you hotter than me?"

Xu You looked at the ice water in his hand, and couldn't speak for a long time, tears kept rolling in his eyes, thinking that there would probably be no one in this world who would treat him better than the Su family.

The two went to the hotel that Su's family had booked, and turned on the air conditioner as soon as they entered the door. Seeing that Xu You was still wearing a coat, Su's family stepped forward to help her take it off.

"What kind of coat to wear on a hot day, look at you are hot, go wash your face."

Xu You's hair was wet with sweat, he nodded and turned and walked into the bathroom.

Su Jiahao casually threw her coat on the bed, and a small white medicine bottle fell out of her pocket. She picked it up and glanced at it without thinking too much, but was suddenly stunned.

Xu You felt better after washing his face. Before he stepped out of the bathroom door with one foot, he saw the medicine bottle in Su Jiahao's hand, and hurried forward to snatch it, but was pushed away by Su Jiahao.

"Xu You, don't scare me." Su Jiahao's voice trembled a little, and the label of the medicine bottle in his hand read □□.

Xu You, whose secret had been exposed, finally couldn't control it at this moment, hugged Su Jiahao, and cried in the next moment, in fact, when she saw Su Jiahao just now, she already wanted to cry.

The Su family listened to her crying, their eye sockets gradually became moist, and their nose couldn't help becoming sore. They threw the medicine bottle in their hands into the trash can, then stroked the back of Xu You's head with their hands, and comforted with sobs.

"Cry, just cry."

"I can't take it anymore, you know? These days, I really want to jump off the building with my mother and die, let alone die! I'm so tired!"

"Don't talk nonsense—"

"You listen to me first."

Xu You interrupted Su Jiahao, and continued——

"The doctor said that my mother is completely psychological. During this time, she was given glucose injections and vitamin C tablets. I think she is taking revenge on me because I am Xu Haijun's daughter. She hates Xu Haijun. Navy, so you have to hate me too, hello family, I can’t take it anymore, if this continues, I will go crazy before she is crazy, seeing my mother like this every day, I really want to take all the medicine, I will die I'm free."

"You dare to die! Don't do stupid things!"

The severity of this matter exceeded Su Jiahao's imagination. Seeing Xu You's pain, she couldn't bear it.

"In this case, let's pick her up. It doesn't matter where she is hospitalized. I will take care of her with you. I have a lot of lucky money. Don't be afraid."

Xu You shook her head, she couldn't drag the Su family into trouble.

"Is there no one who can take care of her? You are her own daughter. If something happens to you, who will take care of her?"

"I don't know." Xu You is like a sensitive and fragile glass person. The Su family is very glad that he came, otherwise Xu You might do something stupid in his current state.

Before the two of them finished speaking, Xu You's cell phone rang. Zhao Lijuan couldn't see her and was looking for her everywhere.

"Hey."

"where did you go!"

"I'm out shopping."

"Come back quickly!!"

"Well, I'll be back now."

Xu You, who hung up the phone, said bitterly and astringently, "I have to go back."

"I'll accompany you!"

"Do not--"

"I'll accompany you!"

The Su family had a particularly tough attitude, pulling Xu You's arm, with pleading eyes

"If I don't go in, I'll just stand outside the ward. Just let me stay with you."

Xu You's defenses were relaxed. She is also a human being, and she needs someone to care about and hurt her.

Su Jiahao accompanied Xu You back to the ward as she wished. She just stood outside the ward and did not go in. She looked around curiously. There were no handles on the windows here, and they were all nailed to death. They are people, some are old and some are young. Everyone's faces are very peaceful, and it is impossible to tell who is sick and who is not.

"I'll go downstairs to pay the bill, you can come with me." Xu You said holding the list.

"Okay." The Su family nodded, and followed Xu You to the payment department.

The person at the window seemed to know Xu You already, and chatted with her a few words, while Su Jiahao waited obediently, and then saw a hurried figure walking towards Xu You, Su Jiahao didn't respond When I came over, I heard Xu You timidly shouting - "Uncle."

"Your mother is in the hospital again?" Zhao Jianguo frowned deeply and snapped

"Who asked you to come back to take care of it?! What's going on! They are just messing around!!"

The author has something to say: I hope you will collect my author column more

In fact, when I wrote this chapter, I was very sad. I stopped writing several times before I finished writing one after another. Many people don’t believe that the last straw that crushes adults may be just a simple sentence, which is really not hypocritical.

Sometimes I think about what kind of life I would be living now if I hadn't met my wife ten years ago. What is certain is that it must not be as good as it is now.