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Xie Jing raised his hand knocking on the door countless times, but he couldn't really land on the door.He once firmly believed that behind this door was his home, his only safe haven, the only place that could tolerate his fragility, his helplessness, and his confusion, but today, he didn't have the courage to go in and face it. For those behind this door may face the right storm.

During that phone call, Liu Xuejuan spoke to him in an unprecedentedly cold tone. Although there was no sudden outburst, Xie Jing understood that this was Liu Xuejuan's strange calmness when her anger reached its peak. is more destructive.

What happened to make Liu Xuejuan, who is usually gentle and tolerant, so angry? In fact, Xie Jing had a vague premonition in his heart, but he was still unwilling to face it, because if this premonition came true, the consequences would be what he wanted. far from unbearable.

Just when Xie Jing was in a dilemma and struggling to move forward, the acquainted neighbor upstairs just happened to come home from get off work, and he recognized him at a glance, "It's Xiao Jing from Xie's family."

Xie Jing quickly pretended to be nonchalant and greeted him, "Uncle Qian is going home!"

"Isn't it going to be seven o'clock? Hurry up and make dinner." The enthusiastic neighbor was about to leave when he suddenly remembered something, stopped and looked at Xie Jing and asked doubtfully, "Didn't you go to a university in another place? What's wrong with this?" Is it time to come back?"

Xie Jing's face turned pale, and he managed to maintain a smile on his face, "I miss my mother, I just have a few days off, so I'll come back to see her."

"That's it." The neighbor gave a thumbs up, "Your mother is really blessed, you study well and are filial to your mother, she will be blessed in the future!"

"Hehe." Xie Jing smirked weakly.

"Come in, come in, let your mother take a good look at you."

Xie Jing couldn't hold back the smirk at the corner of his mouth when he heard it. With a depressed face, he knocked on the door timidly under the enthusiastic eyes of the neighbors.

Not long after, the door opened, and Liu Xuejuan's face appeared behind the half-closed door. She glanced at Xie Jing lightly, and said extremely calmly, "I'm back."

Xie Jing's hand holding the backpack was clenched suddenly, and his palm faded to pale without a trace of blood. He nodded dully, with his face sideways, not daring to look directly into Liu Xuejuan's eyes.

Entering the room, Xie Jing stood in the middle of the living room, took a deep breath, turned to Liu Xuejuan and said, "Mom, I..."

"Don't worry." Liu Xuejuan cut him off sharply, her voice was unprecedentedly sharp.After she found that Xie Jing was looking at her face showing surprise and panic, she took a quick breath, closed her eyes forcefully, and then opened them again, "Your father hasn't seen you for a while, go, go give you Dad puts the incense on the stick."

Xie Jing followed the direction of Liu Xuejuan's finger and saw the photo frame on the cabinet that reflected the faint red light. The man in the photo had gentle eyes and a smile on his mouth. Mindfulness and love guard this home.

Xie Jing's vision began to become a little blurred. He resisted the soreness of his nose and lit three incense sticks according to his previous habit. In the white smoke that rose faintly, he knelt respectfully in front of Xie Wangshan's portrait.

Seeing this scene, Liu Xuejuan quickly wiped the corners of her eyes, reached out to wipe a little soot on the photo frame, and said lightly: "I know the year when I was pregnant with you, your dad was just promoted to the deputy director of the factory, busy all day I had to keep going, and I didn't go home for a few days, so I went to the hospital by myself and had an examination myself, so I didn't know I was pregnant with you."

"I told him about having you. It took a long time for your dad to know. Not only did he ignore the affairs of the factory, he also spent most of his salary on buying things for me. At that time, there were nutritious foods in the supermarket. Our family has all kinds of milk, but your dad still thinks the milk I drink is not fresh, so he has to order it from the country."

Xie Jing's fingers trembled, shaking off a little bit of ashes, and when it landed on the back of his hand, there were sparks of fire, and mottled red marks were scalded on his fair skin, and Xie Jing still listened intently to Liu Xuejuan's speech. He didn't even notice the injury on his hand.

Liu Xuejuan stood leaning against the wall, quietly telling the story of the past that had never been told before, her eyes were brightly shining somewhere.

"I know, your dad worked so hard before, because he wanted to be promoted to the director smoothly, so that our family's life would be easier. After not fighting or grabbing, the position of director will naturally not be his turn. I ask if your dad regrets it, you Dad smiled and said to me, no regrets, nothing is as important as his precious son."

"You were so fussy after you were born that you refused to drink my milk. It was your father who hugged you and coaxed you in for an hour or two hours. When you were young, your bones were not good, and you had a cold and a fever. It often happens that sometimes when there is a typhoon and you can’t ride a bike, your dad will run to the hospital with you on his back. He runs for dozens of miles, and his clothes are as wet as if he had been drenched in the rain. Your dad Thinking of you as his heart, the eyeballs hurt!"

Xie Jing covered his mouth with one hand, trying not to cry out, but the tears pouring out of his eyes were like a tide, and he couldn't stop. The crystal clear teardrops dripped on the light blue jeans, and dark-colored flowers bloomed. tears.

"You have been obedient since you were a child. I have never worried about anything. You have worked hard in your studies and you have been admitted to such a good university. No one will say that I am blessed. I only wait for blessings in the future. But what I think is that you will be promising , in the future, if you become famous, get married and start a business, I can say that I have an explanation to your father, and he should feel comforted to know something underground."

Liu Xuejuan's every word seemed to carry a heavy burden, which weighed heavily on Xie Jing's heart, making him unable to lift his head and breathless.

"I..." He opened his mouth to think, but he couldn't utter a single word of excuse.

"Thank you, Jing, put the incense on your father." Liu Xuejuan ordered without heeding.

Xie Jing struggled to get up from the ground, and with trembling fingers inserted the incense into the incense burner in front of Xie Wangshan's portrait.

Liu Xuejuan looked at him with tears streaming down her face, and went into her room silently. When she came out, a stack of photos was thrown at his feet.

"Look for yourself and tell your dad what you have to say."

Xie Jing looked down at the photos scattered on the ground, and he and Rong Min could be found in each of them.Walking the little guy in the garden of the community, buying vegetables from the vegetable market together, reading a book and doing questions in an unknown small cafe, secretly holding hands in the moonlight night...

He stared blankly at the photo at his feet. On the side of the road where people come and go, Rong Min is protecting Xie Jing behind him. Just the inadvertent eye contact between the two has revealed too many secrets. , He thought they were hiding well enough, but he didn't expect that they were still so vulnerable in the eyes of others.

"I, we..."

"You guys!" Liu Xuejuan finally couldn't bear it and burst out when she heard this word. "Do you know what you are doing, you are engaging in homosexuality, this is abnormal!"

Hearing this word, Xie Jing suddenly felt as if a hole had been poked in the middle of his heart, the air was leaking back and forth, his blood was filled with coldness, he bent down unbearably, curled up and hugged his legs, and clenched his teeth tightly.

Liu Xuejuan stared at Xie Jing with red eyes. Since receiving those photos, the shock, pain, anger, and helplessness in her heart have been tormenting her heart all the time, making her sleepless and restless. Now she wants to take this pain Let it all out.

"I work so hard to provide you with food and clothing, and to provide you with schooling. I want you to study hard, get ahead in the future, and fight for your father. I don't want you to get involved with a man. This kind of thing, I It feels disgusting to say it out, have you ever thought about it, if, if other people find out, what will they say about me and your father!"

Liu Xuejuan looked at Xie Jing who was squatting on the ground crying uncontrollably, she still felt distressed, and sighed, "You are still young, and you want to try everything possible and impossible. Today, you will be in front of your father. I swear in front of my face, break up with that person, and from now on, study honestly, make girlfriends, start a family and start a business, and we will expose this matter."

Until now, Liu Xuejuan thought that Xie Jing would do these outrageous things just for the sake of being fresh for a while. She felt that she and her husband were both normal, and there was no reason for the child she gave birth to fall in love with a man.Children, sometimes they go the wrong way, just pull them back.

Hearing that Liu Xuejuan made him and Rong Min break off, Xie Jing's heart was rumbled and shocked, he looked up to Liu Xuejuan despite the tears on his face, his voice was full of pleading, "Mom!"

Liu Xuejuan didn't expect Xie Jing to be really emotional, she put on a straight face, and said coldly: "Why? Can't I? I've been very tolerant to you, don't you want your parents and us for that man? Home?"

Xie Jing shook his head vigorously, he desperately climbed to Liu Xuejuan's side, hugged her thigh, raised his head and cried: "Mom, I really love him, we are not just playing around. I treat him, he treats me, We're all serious."

Xie Jing's eyes were stubborn and serious, but Liu Xuejuan didn't notice her. She smiled angrily at Xie Jing's words, and waved Xie Jing's hand mercilessly, "Love, what do you know about love? A man loves a woman , is normal, ethical and moral emotion, can be called love, what are you?"

It’s not like this, the kind of warmth when we lean on each other, the peace of mind when our eyes meet, and you can’t help but smile when you think of each other. This kind of emotion exists outside the secular ethics and is not recognized by most people, but it is true. Happened between them, has the qualifications called love.

Xie Jing didn't know how to make Liu Xuejuan understand the sincerity of this feeling, so he could only shake his head constantly.

Liu Xuejuan, who thought that Xie Jing would correct her mistakes immediately, was extremely disappointed. She took a step back, rubbed her forehead, and said wearily: "Think about it carefully, and when you think it through, go to your father and talk about it. If you can't figure it out, Don't come into this house again, and I will pretend that I don't have your son."

Thousands of miles away in Beicheng, there is a quiet flow in a room with no lights turned on. The room is dim, and the surroundings are quiet, so quiet that even the sound of water dripping from the kitchen faucet is very clear, and the flowers in the vase seem to have lost their vitality. , dim in color, eerily deserted.

Rong Min hugged the little guy and sat on Xie Jing's favorite reclining chair, his face, so perfect that it was not like a mortal, blended into the endless darkness, making it difficult for people to see the changes in his expression clearly.

"He's gone." Rong Min's low voice sounded, breaking the dead silence in the room.

The little guy seemed to be able to feel his depressed mood, buried his head on Rong Min's chest, and rubbed hard.

Rong Min lowered his head, not wanting to see every familiar thing around him.The bold and bright oil paintings on the opposite wall were selected according to Xie Jing’s preferences. The bookshelves in the corner belonged to Xie Jing’an, and they were filled with books that Xie Jing thought he would like. The flowers on the small table on the floor should be changed. Xie Jing said that he wanted to replace it with a blue sky full of stars...

Thank you... thank you... thank you...

For Rong Min, without that person, this house and this world are meaningless to him.

The little guy licked Rong Min's fingers, and within a few strokes, Rong Min held him in front of him and looked at him.

"You miss him too, don't you?" Rong Min squeezed the thick little palm in his hand, as if sharing some little secret with him, "I'll take you to find him, and we will secretly watch him without letting him find out. Just one look, one look."