Thanks Bumin

Accompanied by Rong Min, Xie Jing returned to Beicheng to continue his studies. On the day he returned to school, as expected, he received a warm welcome from his classmates and friends headed by Sun Hao. Xie Jingtong gave a polite smile and responded generally, "Something happened at home, and it has been dealt with."

After the crowd dispersed, Sun Hao put his arm around Xie Jing's shoulder and asked softly, "Are you all right?"

Seeing that there was no suspicion or gossip from others in his eyes, but slowly genuine concern, Xie Jing's smile became more real, and he replied seriously: "I'm really fine."

Hearing this, Sun Hao had no doubts about him, "That's good!"

After a hearty smile, he took out a notebook from his schoolbag and handed it to Xie Jing, "Hey, it's almost the end of the term, the girl in the last class asked old man Qiu to highlight the important points, you should quickly review it, I heard that his class There are quite a lot of people hanging on."

"Thank you." Xie Jing said sincerely with a warm heart, "I will plan it as soon as possible and return it to you as soon as possible."

Stared at by his big eyes shining with gratitude, Sun Hao couldn't help blushing, and waved his hands pretending to be generous, "What's the matter, my brother has been struggling with English recently, and I don't have time to talk to him yet, you Don’t worry, you can just pay me back when you finish drawing.”

"That's fine." It's meaningless to say thank you any more, Xie Jing stuffed the notes into the bag, "When will you break your English, I'll treat you to dinner."

"Are you ready? I want to eat charcoal-grilled fish and boiled pork slices from the Second Canteen..." Sun Hao snapped out a bunch of dish names, with no intention of being polite at all.

Xie Jing secretly breathed a sigh of relief, and readily promised: "No problem, as long as you don't bankrupt me."

Time is like sand in the palm of your hand, it seems to be completely in your hands, but it goes by so fast.After welcoming the arrival of the new year, and non-stop to meet the upcoming final exam, spent a busy review week, until the bell rang at the end of the last exam in the afternoon, Xie Jing was finally able to find a temporary moment from the busy study relief.

After checking the answers to the big questions with the anxious Sun Hao, they parted ways at the school gate, Xie Jing stepped on the thin layer of white snow on the ground, and walked home with difficulty and care.

"Xiao Jing." A strange yet familiar voice stopped him.

Xie Jing paused, glanced at Xu Kangrui who appeared in front of him, lowered his eyes, and continued walking as if he hadn't seen him.

Xu Kangrui stopped in front of Xie Jing a few steps, "I didn't mean to pester you, I just wanted to have a few words with you."

"What are you talking about?" Xie Jing raised his head and looked directly into Xu Kangrui's eyes. What he thought in his mind was that time can really smooth out the edges and corners of the past. At some point, he was able to calmly recall the past and calmly think of the person in front of him. People, now they can stand and talk with him calmly again.

"I'm leaving." Xu Kangrui sighed faintly. He stared at Xie Jing's face. Familiar and unfamiliar faces flashed in his mind like a revolving lantern, from youthful to mature, from gentle to gentle. Cold and hard, and finally fixed into the appearance of the person in front of him.

They have been entangled since they were young. He used to be his lingering nightmare. Now there is another person by his side, and he is gradually letting go of the past. And he stands in front of him, saying that he wants to leave. Everything in the past is roaring like a flood. Feeling swept through his heart, Xie Jing was so blocked that he didn't know how to react for a while.

Xu Kangrui waited for a while before hearing Xie Jing's soft question: "Where are you going?"

"Going abroad, my dad was transferred out of the country, and I don't think he will be able to come back in five or eight years. My mother will definitely go with her. She is worried that I will stay in the country alone, so she just goes through the formalities for me. I go out together and study outside."

five years and eight years

Counting that he and Xu Kangrui have only known each other for so long, Xie Jing put his hands in his pockets, stared at his toes, and remained silent.

Xu Kangrui's eyes fell on his exposed red ears, and he really wanted to cover him with his hands, but he knew that he would be rejected, so he proposed in a hoarse voice: "It's cold outside, let's find a place Sit down."

Xie Jing thought about it, but still refused: "I'm going home, someone is still waiting for me."

He had heard the same words twice from the mouth in front of him, but his heart still throbbed uncontrollably when he heard it again.

Xu Kangrui concealed his momentary gaffe under the superficial indifference, stepped in front of Xie Jing, and said solemnly: "Xiao Jing, I don't know when I will come back this time, or maybe I won't come back. Can you give me a chance to have a good talk with you? This is the last time I will bother you, the last time!"

Perhaps touched by the phrase "the last time", Xie Jing took out his phone to check the time, "It's only 15 minutes."

Xu Kangrui smiled sadly, and walked into the nearest cafe with Xie Jing.

A light and beautiful melody floats in the chicly decorated small cafe, and a faintly bitter aroma hangs in the air. The small glass door cuts off the cold air, and the room is as warm as spring.

Xu Kangrui took off his navy blue coat, revealing a white and gray dove sweater and a brown shirt collar. His hair that was once unruly was brushed back gently, and he smiled with a mature and clean bookishness.

Xie Jing's line of sight didn't fall into place.

Recalling the meeting over the years, he couldn't remember what Xu Kangrui looked like in those days.It was probably because his heart was full of fear and anger at that time, which made Xu Kangrui in his eyes a hideous and terrifying incarnation, so that no matter how hard he tried to recall now, only a large shadow and sporadic words remained in his mind.

During the time when he was immersed in his own thoughts, Xu Kangrui also looked him up and down seriously, and said with a smile:

"Looks like you're doing well."

At this time, Xie Jing exudes a kind of gentle temperament. Whether it is the peaceful eyes or the brilliance on his face, it can be seen that he is well taken care of by others. This is a kind of spiritual nourishment that has nothing to do with clothing. .

Xie Jing nodded, felt it was inappropriate and added, "You too."

Xu Kangrui picked up the coffee and took a sip. He used to be the most afraid of bitterness, but now he can drink the bitterest black coffee without changing his expression.

"I'll be like that, how I lived before, and how I live now."

Xie Jing could only keep silent about Xu Kangrui's life, which he knew nothing about.

Xu Kangrui noticed the movement of Xie Jing's hands sticking to the cup, and remembered that Xie Jing loved it in the days when they could still sit together. He bought a can of hot drink from the small shop, and then put his hands on it to keep warm, and sighed involuntarily: "It's so good." , I can finally talk to you quietly for a while."

Xie Jingnan moved his buttocks, and unconsciously clenched the cup with his fingers. Hearing Xu Kangrui's emotion, he opened his mouth in vain, without uttering a word, and an embarrassing blush quickly appeared on his fair cheeks.

Although he decided to let go, he has completely forgotten how to get along peacefully with Xu Kangrui. He really doesn't know what to talk about in such a final conversation. The past of the two is taboo, and the future seems destined to be difficult to meet. Well, there is really nothing to say.

Seeing Xie Jing's embarrassment, Xu Kangrui's eyes flashed with pain, and he hurriedly turned his head to look out of the window covered with heavy snow, "It's snowing, the winter in Beicheng is really cold."

"It's quite cold."

"Then what can I do! The winter in Beicheng is enough for me. I heard that it is even colder in Canada, and I will definitely freeze to death." Xu Kangrui said jokingly.

Xie Jing laughed dryly with him.

After the laughter, the two fell into an awkward silence again, and the silence between the two who were speechless for a while seemed as if the dust in the air had fallen.

Xie Jing, who couldn't stand it, was the first to speak out, "Uh... the time seems to be up..."

"Xiao Jing!" Xu Kangrui interrupted him quickly, "Give me a little more time and let me tell you something."

A look of surprise flashed across Xie Jing's face, and he sat down again.

Xu Kangrui stared at the black liquid in the coffee cup with a wry smile, feeling bitterer in his heart than the tip of his tongue after drinking coffee.

"I'm sorry, many things, really sorry."

Xie Jing listened to Xu Kangrui's confession and his apology to himself without moving, and suddenly felt a sense of relief in his heart. The breath that had been lingering in his chest was finally exhaled, and he became relieved.

This sentence of "I'm sorry" marks the end of the past of the two people. The love, resentment and sorrow in the past, right and wrong, all disappeared.

It was at this moment that Xie Jing really let go. He still couldn't say "forgive" to Xu Kangrui, but letting go of the past might be the best way for him to explain to them who were young and ignorant after he matured.

"I know." Xie Jing replied very solemnly.

Xu Kangrui, who has always been trying to be relaxed from the beginning to the end, finally couldn't control the sadness surging in his heart when he heard his words. He who had always been tough in front of Xie Jing actually wet his eyes instantly. In order not to let Xie Jing see, He buried his face in his palms, and the muffled voice came from inside.

"I always thought that I was the one who would give you happiness. Even, even at that time... I thought so too. I didn't expect that fate is so fucking fucked up!"

"I know it's impossible for us, but I want you to know that I used to be a bastard, but that bastard also really wanted to..."

Xie Jing was slightly stunned, he was puzzled and surprised by Xu Kangrui's words, but he couldn't make any response.

"It's all over, everything is over." This is the ending he wrote for their story.

After exhaling shallowly, Xie Jing expressed the greatest kindness he could express: "You have to take care of yourself in the future."

Xu Kangrui wiped away the moisture from the corners of his eyes by rubbing his face, raised his head and smiled apologetically at Xie Jing, "I'm sorry! Thank you!"

The snow outside the window was silent but drifting bigger and bigger, Xie Jing glanced at the wall clock on the wall, "Or else, let it be like this."

Xu Kangrui quickly followed him and stood up, "I, I'll see you off."

"No need." Xie Jing refused softly and firmly, "I can go alone."

Coming out of the warm cafe, the bitter cold wind hits the face directly, making people shiver, and the desire to go home has become more urgent.

After saying goodbye politely, Xie Jing tightened the scarf around his neck while walking.

Suddenly, he heard a rush of footsteps behind him getting closer and closer, and before he could turn around, Xu Kangrui, who was almost running over, stopped him.

"He, is he nice to you?"

Regardless of his breathing, Xu Kangrui eagerly wanted to find the answer from Xie Jing's face. As long as Xie Jing's answer showed any hesitation or uncertainty, he would...

"Very good, we are fine." Thinking of that person, Xie Jing couldn't help raising the corners of his mouth.

This was the first smile he saw Xie Jing today, a warm and shy smile.

Realizing this, Xu Kangrui let go of his tightly clenched hands, and took a step back to widen the distance between the two.

"That's it." Xu Kangrui muttered to himself, and when he raised his head and looked at Xie Jing again, he changed back to that mature young man.

"It's okay, I just want to say, I wish you happiness."

As soon as he finished speaking, he immediately turned around and strode away.

Xie Jing who stayed where he was was staring at his receding back in wonder, but the sudden ringing of the bell interrupted his thoughts, and the next second when he saw the caller flashing on the screen, the arc of the corner of his mouth involuntarily widened , the voice was full of warmth: "...on the way! Well, something has been delayed for a while, and I will be home soon..."

After he turned around, Xu Kangrui's figure reappeared at the corner of the street, watching his back completely disappear into the passing crowd.

With a self-deprecating bitter smile, Xu Kangrui threw a thick file bag into the trash can on the street.

If he is your happiness, then some truths will never need to be revealed, this is my last protection for you.