there are wolves next door

Before Ding Liang realized his sexuality, his mother had talked to him about it.

My mother once said: "You must face up to yourself, you must know what you like to do, what kind of person you like, and what kind of life you want. Don't numb yourself, and don't follow blindly. You must have your own ideas and ideas. Determination. No matter what kind of career you do in the future, what kind of life you lead, or what gender and character you choose, your mother will support you. Because only living the life you want is the only way to live.”

To be a real person, not to violate yourself, not to be hypocritical, not to give up on yourself, to understand what you want and fight for it, this is the outlook on life instilled in Ding Liang by his mother since he was a child.

Ding Liang was sitting on the sofa, his body was still twitching slightly because he cried too much just now, and then he thought about what his mother had said.

After he was vaguely aware of his sexuality since high school, he clearly had a life he wanted.

He hopes that in the future, he can find a job that can be done at home, and then find someone he likes to live with his mother and mushrooms.If possible, adopt another pair of children and a cat.

This is the life he wants, the simple one, the one that can no longer be achieved.

Because the mother died, the mushroom also died.

The life he wanted was gone.

Ding Liang thought and started crying again.Emotions are like water that suddenly breaks through the gate, rushing all the way to wash away all the strength, and the sadness and weakness are exposed in an instant.

Suddenly it started to rain outside the window, and the raindrops splashed from the window sill into the balcony. On the balcony table were still his drawing books that he hadn’t taken back today, and the rain kept getting bigger and bigger, and it would soon wet the paintings Book.

Dan Dingliang didn't want to move, just looked at the balcony and cried.

If my mother is still talking, she must be talking about helping him take it back now...

When Ding Liang was staring at the balcony and crying, a tall figure bumped in and picked up the drawing book on the table.

It was Shi Shu who came over the balcony.

Ding Liang's sluggish eyes fell on Shi Shu's face, and it was too late to take back the crying look on his face, that crying and crying look was exposed in front of Shi Shu at that moment.

Ding Liang turned his head violently, and said angrily, "What are you doing here!"

Shi Shu put the drawing book on the tea table, then sat down on the sofa, and said softly: "It's raining, I saw that the things you left outside were confiscated, and I thought you hadn't come back, so I came to help you collect them."

Ding Liang wiped away his tears and said, "Thank you, I won't send it away."

Shi Shu didn't move, remained silent for a while, and asked, "What did your aunt and uncle say?"

Ding Liang said, "I didn't say anything."

Shi Shu walked to the sofa and sat down, his voice was very low, with a strange emotion: "I might have to move out."

Ding Liang was startled, and easily realized that his aunt must have talked to Shi Shu.

But Ding Liang didn't answer Shi Shu's words, he didn't know what to say.

The next two people did not speak for a long time.

In the end it was Shi Shu who spoke first, and he said, "Ding Liang, I don't want to break up with you, do you want to break up with me now?"

Ding Liang lowered his head, his heart was in a mess.

He has feelings for Shi Shu.

But accepting Shi Shu means that he will continue to disappoint his aunt and uncle.

He was despicable and selfish and didn't want this kind of result, even if it would make Shi Shu sad.

"I don't force you to make a choice, but I don't have much time to wait for you to make a choice. You don't have to answer me, and you can choose something more important to you. Then I will leave here in a few days, and I will never be here again." I won't bother you." Shi Shu said so decisively that Ding Liang's pupils shrank.

Shi Shu kept Ding Liang's subtle reaction in his eyes, and there was a lingering sensation in his voice: "I know that we have only known each other for more than a month, and we still don't know each other well, but I really like you, and I really like you. We will respect your choice."

Shi Shu waited for a while, seeing that Ding Liang was only frowning and struggling, but still refused to speak, so he could only force Ding Liang to react, and said: "If you don't speak, I will take it as if you agreed with what I just said. We will wait You three days..."

Having said this, Shi Shu stopped talking.He saw Ding Liang's eye sockets slowly turning red again, probably because the previous emotions hadn't dissipated, and now a little stimulation made him unable to control his emotions.

No matter how hard Shi Shu wanted to force Ding Liang to choose, he couldn't help feeling distressed at this meeting.

Bao Ding Liang hugged Ding Liang's shoulders into his arms, and said in a slow voice: "As long as you tell me that you will not break up with me and you like me, I will wait for you forever. But you have not spoken , I really don’t know what you are thinking in your heart... Is it because I am the same as that Chu Jiangling, just pretending to be sentimental..."

Ding Liang sniffled his nose, sucked back his tears, raised his arms and hugged Shi Shu's back: "Give me time, I will take care of it."

Shi Shu gave Ding Liang a hug, then found Ding Liang's hand and held it.

His palm was rough and warm, and Ding Liang's heartbeat started to speed up due to the temperature and touch.

This kind of touch and temperature is like the palm of his father that Ding Liang longed for when he was a child.Warm and reassuring.

Shi Shu said: "I am willing to face your family with you. Your uncle and aunt are good people, they will understand."

Ding Liang moved the hand that was being held, the rough friction between the skin made Ding Liang very excited and nostalgic, like a child who is about to take the college entrance examination but secretly falls in love.

I know it's impossible, but I just can't help it.

"Yeah." Ding Liang felt guilty in his heart, sorry for his uncle and aunt, and at the same time, he held Shi Shu's hand tightly, feeling very sweet.

Shi Shu pursed his lips, restrained himself from laughing too much, reached out to touch Ding Liang's face, and said, "Your eyes are swollen, do you want to eat eggs?"

Ding Liang hid his head, rolled his eyes and said, "Can eating eggs reduce swelling? What common sense do you have?"

Shi Shu smiled and said: "Eating eggs really can't reduce the swelling, it can only aggravate the condition."

Ding Liang thought for a while in a daze, and finally realized Shi Shu's words, kicked him immediately, and cursed with a smile, "Get out of here!"

Shi Shu avoided it with a smile, then leaned over and asked with a smile, "Are you hungry? Shall I make you something to eat?"

Ding Liang doubted: "Will you?"

Shi Shu said, "Of course I will. Just order whatever you want."

Ding Liang turned his head and thought for a while, but when he was about to speak, he heard the doorbell rang suddenly, followed by Liu Wenwen's shout.

"Ding Liang, Ding Liang, I'm here, open the door quickly!"

The smile on Ding Liang's face froze after so much effort, and his veins popped out.

Liu Wenwen came here at this time, definitely not because of good things.

Ding Liang kicked Shi Shu and said, "You go back first."

Shi Shu nodded bluntly, and said to Ding Liang: "If you have any situation, call Brother Shu, I will jump over the wall and come to rescue you immediately!"

Ding Liang added another kick, and laughed and cursed: "Get out of here!"

Shi Shu also smiled, and quickly turned over the balcony.

Ding Liang just went to open the door, and Liu Wenwen outside said with a smile, "I haven't seen you for a few days, do you miss me?"

Ding Liang glanced at Liu Wenwen indifferently, and said directly: "Speak up if you have something to do, and get out if you have nothing to do."

Liu Wenwen made an exaggerated sad expression, then squeezed straight into Ding Liang's room, and said, "It's okay, for me, seeing you is the most important thing in the world!"

Ding Liang closed the door, looked at Liu Wenwen who had jumped into the room with a grim expression, and said, "Auntie asked you to come, right?"

The smile on Liu Wenwen's face paused, and then she asked cautiously: "Are you really out of the closet with your family?"

Ding Liang staggered Liu Wenwen's gaze, and hummed seemingly indifferently.

Liu Wenwen said regretfully, "If I knew you were going to come out, I would have told my aunt and uncle about the beauty of homosexuality. Let them be mentally prepared, and maybe they will accept you directly today!"

Ding Liang walked to the sofa and said lightly: "They already knew about this."

Liu Wenwen was surprised and said, "You already know?"

Ding Liang hummed, took out his cigarette and smoked without explaining more.

Liu Wenwen leaned over, sat down beside Ding Liang, and said, "Why don't I go and ask a god to assist you so that Uncle Ding and Aunt Ding accept homosexuality as soon as possible, so that you won't cry. Look, your eyes are all It's swollen, hey, it hurts."

Ding Liang ignored Liu Wenwen's last words and said, "Don't be a waste of help, I will solve it myself."

Liu Wenwen said: "What do you know? This kind of thing requires outsiders to lure you in an orderly manner. It is much better than being stubborn by yourself, and you don't have the position to speak for yourself."

Ding Liang smoked silently, in fact, he hadn't fully thought through whether he really wanted to come out.

In a state of extreme entanglement, I don't want to disappoint my relatives, and I don't want to go against my heart.

Or just stay single forever?

Liu Wenwen was quiet for a while, and said, "Why don't you go out and relax, think about it, what do you want, do you want to persist..."

Ding Liang's eyes became confused in the cigarette smoke.

He knew what he wanted, but he didn't know if he really wanted to stick to it.Even though he had promised Shi Shu just now.But if he was given a little more time, he might not have the courage and fear to accept Shi Shu just now.

Liu Wenwen said softly: "Ding Liang, since Auntie left, I seldom see you smile. I watched you go from despair and despair at the beginning to indifference and deadness later... If you don't smile, you are silent But it is more acute than before. You smoke and drink too much, paralyze yourself and torture yourself... The prime minister and I have thought of many ways to make you happy, let go, and forgive yourself, but you still can't get out. Although you Never say it, but we all know how you torture yourself in your heart..."

Liu Wenwen turned her head and looked at Shi Shu with gentle eyes, smiled slightly, and said, "Although this statement is bloody and nasty, I still have to say it. The appearance of Shi Shu has made you look a little bit different from before. You laugh, not a perfunctory smile or a grateful smile because of our behavior, but a pleasant smile. And you blush, you don’t know what to do, you get annoyed because you are shy, you You will show all the emotions you should have in front of him, but you have always been depressed and dead... I have never seen you like this, but I am very happy for you. If my aunt is still there, she will definitely be better than you I'm even happier. Because what Auntie wants most is that you can be happy. The same goes for Uncle Ding and Aunt Ding, they just can't figure it out yet."

Ding Liang lowered his eyes, but still didn't answer.

It seems that he has figured out something, or rather, found an excuse for his next plan.