money worship

I found out that I like men earlier, so early that most elders avoided the word "homosexual" like snakes and scorpions.However, Jingtang's parents are very open, so when he was in junior high school, he had a little expectation in his heart, hoping that if he met a boy who loved him so much, and loved him so much that he wanted to spend his whole life with him, his parents would It will not become a big stick to beat mandarin ducks, or directly sweep him out.

Jing Tang is a straightforward child, and he naturally enjoys the love and tolerance of his parents.But only the secret of sexuality, he secretly hid in his heart for a long time.

Fortunately, even though her sexuality was awakened, Jing Tang's junior high school life was not affected.Because he likes to play and go wild more than falling in love.After staying with boys of the same age for a long time, Jingtang found that it was impossible for him to fall in love with these boys who were younger than him. They would only call him to copy the homework of the class bully or fight It's time to pull him over to get a head.

It's quite boring.

After the classmates in the class began to fall in love one after another, Jing Tang still has no desire to fall in love, and she still complains to Yan Jue who is far away in the UK on SNS, pretending to say deeply that she is really disappointed in the junior high school boys.

Yan Jue didn't know his sexual orientation at that time, and replied that you have nothing to do to observe the man, it is better to learn.He also said that soon my dad will take me back to China to study in high school, and wait until I go back to hang and beat you, idiot.

Four months later in the autumn, Yan Cheng really returned to Licheng with Yan Jue.Yan Cheng couldn't come back with Yan Jue before school started because of work handover matters, so in the end Yan Jue became a transfer student, and only came to Jingtang's class in mid-October.

That year was of extraordinary significance to Jingtang, not only because Yan Cheng and Yan Jue returned to China, but also because that year, the stigma of homosexuality was finally cleared and same-sex marriage became legal.

Since then, the world around me seems to have changed.

On the street, there are more and more scenes of boys leading boys and girls kissing girls. Occasionally, Jing Yue and Ling Lian will take him to the wedding of the company employees. He saw two people in wedding dresses standing at the hotel entrance. The eldest sister of the party welcomed the guests together. The white gauze skirt was like the bright moonlight, so beautiful.Even among the people in the high school class who were called to talk to the teacher's office because of puppy love, there were many young same-sex couples.

People around me seem to have become braver.Jing Tang was also a little bit infected by this atmosphere, and finally, at the end of her first year of high school, she tried her best to muster up the courage and came out to her parents with apprehension.

His parents really are the best parents in the world.

At that time, Ling Lian looked at him who was restless, touched his hair with a smile, and said, "From now on, mom will help you pay attention to the handsome guys in the company."

Jing Yue pinched his face lightly, and asked, "Nannan likes elder brother or younger brother?"

Jingtang blushed and said: "...I like older than me."

"Okay, older ones will hurt people." Jing Yue rubbed his face and said pitifully, "Our daughters are suitable for being loved."

It was in the third year of high school that I realized that I cared a little bit about Yan Cheng.

After entering high school, the time for play and rest gradually decreases, and there is only one Saturday a week for students to arrange freely.Jing Tang and Yan Jue have a good relationship. Although they no longer live next door, they still visit each other's homes during their holidays. During the long holidays, the parents of the two families took turns to take the two children out to play.

Jingtang has been used to being taken around by his parents since he was a child, but in contrast, he looks forward to the day when Yan Cheng takes them out to play.Although Yan Cheng does medical work, his real hobby is literature, so he often takes Jing Tang and Yan Jue to watch dramas and musicals together.

Yan Jue is very obedient and easy to lead, Yan Cheng has always been very reassuring to him.On the other hand, Jingtang is self-willed and squeamish, with a childlike temper, so every time they go out together, Yan Cheng always takes care of Jingtang more.

However, it is only limited to the care of the elders for the younger generation.

From Yan Cheng's point of view, Jing Tang is just a naughty child in a friend's house.It is precisely because of knowing this that Jingtang wants to forget that little bit of concern.

It is perfectly normal for adolescents to look up to handsome and reliable elders.When he meets someone he really likes, the traces left by Yan Cheng in his heart will gradually fade away.

The future that Jing Tang envisioned was originally that he and Yan Cheng would live their own lives independently of each other. Occasionally during holidays, the two families would have a happy meal together, which would be the closest relationship.

But the stampede accident finally changed everything.When he heard the news of his parents' death, Jingtang was a little confused, and couldn't believe what the police told him.When he saw the remains of his parents and realized that the person he loved the most was indeed dead, he fell into deep despair.He had no one to rely on, and the only elders around him were Yan Cheng, so in a panic, he chose to hold on to this man.

——and finally messed up his relationship with Yan Cheng and Yan Jue.

At first, Jing Tang thought very well, he just wanted to tie Yan Cheng with physical and marital relationships, and stay safely by Yan Cheng's side, Yan Cheng would protect him and pay off his debts, and he just wanted to be honest. Just don't interfere with Yan Cheng's life.But after the actual skin-to-skin contact, sharing the same bed, and facing each other day and night, Jing Tang realized that it was impossible for him to be honest and stable.

When you get closer, you want to get closer.Having gained a moment of tenderness, you will want to be loved all the time.

He wants Yan Cheng to love him.But, will Yan Cheng love him?

The morning rush hour had already passed, and the spacious road was unimpeded, but the rain was too heavy, which inevitably blocked the vision, and made both of them feel a little edgy.

In the silence, Yan Cheng thought gloomily, as if such a scene had happened many times.He seems to be pushing Jingtang farther and farther away from him.Before going to bed last night, he clearly planned to coax Jingtang, but the current atmosphere made it hard for him to speak.

As a result, from getting in the car to going home, the two of them really didn't say a word.

After Jing Tang finished changing his shoes, she quickly ran back to the bedroom and hid, so fast that Yan Cheng who was trying to hold him lost his hand.After entering the bedroom, Jing Tang immediately locked the door from the inside, still refusing to communicate.

After discovering that Jingtang's cell phone had suddenly turned off in the morning, Yan Cheng was in a hurry to find someone. His pants and shoes and socks were wet by the heavy rain. He wanted to change his clothes after returning home, but the bedroom was preempted by Jingtang and he couldn't take it. If you change your clothes, you can only continue to wear wet ones.

Yan Cheng stood helplessly at the door of the bedroom, raised his hand to knock on the door twice, lowered his posture and asked, "Xiaotang, can you let me in first to change my pants...?"

Jing Tang couldn't refuse such a legitimate reason.Yan Cheng thought.

In short, we should sneak into the bedroom first, and face Jing Tang face to face.

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