silver sea

"stop."

Gu Qi raised his head in embarrassment, Qiu Sheng gave him a dissatisfied look, put down - or threw - down the guitar, sighed, and simply pushed the door out.

"I recruited him again?" Lu Yining played with the drum stick, "You recruited him again, Brother Qi."

"I don't know." Gu Qi plucked the strings and looked at the people in the corner.

Wen Youxia hugged the bass and stood against the wall, in a daze.

It is an inspiring thing for the band to start again. Even the contemporary Grandet, like Liu Wangyu, who is career-oriented and money-oriented, is lenient to them, which is somewhat sentimental.

But when I really started, I realized that starting again is not as simple as the initial impulse to say "let's reorganize".

Gu Qi hadn't practiced the piano much for four years. Although he was cramming temporarily, he obviously couldn't meet Qiu Sheng's requirements.

There is nothing to say about Lu Yining's skills, but now that he is a professional drummer and has been in many bands, his relationship is too unfamiliar. Even if he knows how to match the rhythm, he is less vigorous than before.And for some reason, Lu Yining seemed to be short of strength. When Gu Qi asked, Lu Yining just laughed foolishly and refused to say anything.

As for the remaining root-sound warrior who went "boom boom boom" all the way...

Qiu Sheng didn't ask him anything.

After all, for Qiu Sheng, Gu Qi and Lu Yining are both partners and tools, so they don't need to care too much about their personal feelings.If you make a mistake, you will complain, and if you play well, you will praise your brother for being awesome. Except for conflicts of principle, everyone acquiesces to the contradictions during rehearsal and don't take them too seriously.

Wen Youxia was different from them.

Wen Youxia has an embarrassing identity as her ex-boyfriend.

And no matter how you look at it, it doesn't look like they have "resolved their suspicions" or are about to "reunite": eye contact is zero, verbal communication is about zero, and Wen Youxia only said one word to Qiu Sheng from the beginning to the end, "yes"—or Qiu Sheng took the initiative to ask: "Is Bess the Yamaha from before?"

After asking that sentence, Qiu Sheng ignored him, and scolded everyone in the rehearsal room including himself but only missed the bass player. It's hard to say it was not intentional.

Of course, Qiu Sheng doesn't necessarily have a position if he wants to curse people. Wen Youxia's playing is quite satisfactory today, and outsiders may think that he is serious and hardworking.But Gu Qi and Lu Yining looked at each other and found the biggest problem:

Wen Youxia didn't cooperate.

Although he has written a lot of fancy basslines, Wen Youxia himself is not a pushy person.

Contrary to the restless performance scene, he is quiet and cold, and to the most intense climax, he just rolls up his sleeves, beats the rhythm and shakes his body slightly.The venue used to be small, and fans - both men and women - rushed to the right side of the stage just to see him, screaming, blowing kisses...

No matter how they pretended, Wen Youxia was still unmoved, and he didn't even raise his eyelids a few times. He was a perfect unemotional playing machine, so cool that he was unique.

Blueberry Night's boss "Sixth Brother" commented on Wen Youxia: "Too sensible."

A sane bass player can remain calm when everyone's blood is on fire, hold the cornerstone steadily, and choose the most appropriate change according to the atmosphere of the scene.No matter how crazy the members of the band are, as soon as they hear Youxia's rhythm, they will know how the overall progress is going and quickly find their status.

But "too sensible" always feels alienating.

In the past, Qiu Sheng described him as "probably able to maintain 37.2 degrees Celsius forever in boiling", this metaphor is a bit whimsical.

"Why 37.2?" Lu Yining asked, "Isn't it 37.3?"

Qiu Sheng supported the microphone stand, and stuck to Wen Youxia's body as if he had no bones: "No, I have a fever at 37.3."

Wen Youxia is the limit of normal body temperature.

Now he has no limit, and the melody is more and more mechanical and instinctive, without creativity.After two hours, I didn't make a mistake once, but I didn't go out of line once.

Gu Qi and Lu Yining exchanged glances, and they were even more convinced that what they thought was right.

Wen Youxia is feeling emotional today.

Different from Qiu Sheng's smelly and tough personality, Wen Youxia's temper can even be called "soft". In the past, it was very easy to ask him for help.But that's the case, no one cares about provoking him just to see how angry he is, and I always feel that it is particularly scary for a taciturn person to be angry.

Lu Yining winked at Gu Qi, meaning to ask him to ask.

But Gu Qi didn't want to ask at all.

"Drink water?" Gu Qi eased the atmosphere, "You still want to drink something else, I'll get it from the freezer."

Lu Yining shook his head: "Coca-Cola!"

Gu Qi spoils him like he spoils his own rebellious younger brother: "Okay, what about Wen Xia, what do you want?"

"Water, thank you." Wen Youxia said.

The total number of words in today's lines: 4.

Gu Qi counted Wen Youxia in his heart, laughed to himself, shook his head, put down the guitar and left the rehearsal room.Before he turned the corner, he was startled by the person standing in the corridor: "Hey!"

"Hush." ​​Qiu Sheng gestured to him, meaning don't close the door.

Gu Qi was puzzled, but he did it first.

He wanted to ask Qiu Sheng what kind of water he drank, but decided not to ask for advice because of his appearance.Just as he was about to leave, Lu Yining's slightly complaining voice came from the half-closed door.

"Rehearsal early in the morning thanks to him being able to figure it out, I'm exhausted."

What's the matter with only two hours?

Gu Qi stopped, looked at Qiu Sheng again and suddenly realized the reason why he shouted not to close the door - the best soundproof board used in the rehearsal room, once the door is closed, even if it is noisy inside, it sounds just a little ordinary outside Decibels of the human voice, and speaking at a normal volume will be completely isolated.

Gu Qi opened his eyes wide and asked silently: "Do you know they want to chat?"

Qiu Sheng mouthed to him: "I don't know."

After pointing to the door, he signaled Gu Qi to either remain absolutely silent or leave quickly. Gu Qi chose to join the eavesdropping plan.

"Why didn't you say it?" This was Wen Youxia.

After a while, Lu Yining replied: "Is there anything to say, can he change it after I say it? I have a conscience if I don't make sarcasm."

Wen Youxia seemed to be sorting out his words: "He is not an unreasonable person."

"I don't want to give in to him, damn it, it's annoying him to death...Hiss, it hurts."

"Do you have any plaster?"

"Do you really love me?" Lu Yining smiled, and continued, "It's okay, just go back and apply it. Besides, it's not me who quarrels first. Look at Qiu Sheng's attitude..."

Hearing this, Gu Qi couldn't help looking at Qiu Sheng, but his expression didn't change.

Wen Youxia said after a while: "He is not in good health, just listen to him and don't disturb him."

At the beginning of the rehearsal today, Lu Yining and Qiu Sheng were attacking each other because of a tom drum and a flower with a gun and a stick. They were like this normally, Gu Qi didn't take it seriously, and suddenly heard that Youxia mentioned that something was wrong.He turned his head, Qiu Sheng frowned, as if he was thinking about something.

Gu Qi poked him, meaning: Is he speaking for you?

Qiu Sheng shook his head: Ghost knows.

At the right time, Lu Yining reluctantly agreed to Wen Youxia, "For your sake, I will let Qiu Sheng go." Wen Youxia said again: "Be careful with your hands, and be careful of getting hurt again."

"I know it in my heart, brother, hey, you still care about me..."

Wen Youxia remained silent, and then Lu Yining said something else, from which Qiu Sheng gradually pieced together some past events that he didn't know, and his forehead started to twitch.

Gu Qi gave him a hand and pointed to the end of the corridor, and Qiu Sheng went with him to get drinks.

There is a small freezer in the pantry on the floor.This was originally Xu Ran's private possession, but it was protested by the band members, and eventually became a refill station for the rehearsal room, with everything from mineral water to all kinds of drinks, and ice cream in summer.

Gu Qi took Coke and mineral water, and chose a bottle of orange juice for himself.

"Has Lu Yining ever hurt his hand?" Qiu Sheng asked suddenly.

Gu Qi said honestly: "It seems...it was during the period when we didn't have much contact. The band just, just...was not active. I asked once, and he said it was not serious."

Gu Qi refused to say "disband", Qiu Sheng smiled: "It should be serious, otherwise Wen Xia wouldn't mention it specifically."

"Really……"

"I just don't know." Qiu Sheng said with a complicated mood, "You are all connected, but neither... Brother Qi, tell me the truth, do you and Xiao Lu also think that I am wrong?"

This topic has been difficult for Qiu Sheng to talk about for a long time. Gu Qi thought about why he suddenly changed his mind: "It doesn't matter what Xiao Lu and I think. In the final analysis, it has nothing to do with us."

"You mean I have to see Wen Youxia's complexion." Qiu Sheng smiled mockingly.

"He's getting into the horns again, isn't he?" Gu Qi sighed, "I didn't let you see his face, what happened at that time, let's talk about it in a nasty way, the song is like you and Wen Xia's child, and then you say hello Give the child to someone else to raise, and tell Wen Xia, 'I'm doing it for your own good'."

"I didn't say hello!" Qiu Sheng retorted instinctively, "He was short of... money during that time."

Sure enough, the easy-talking appearance just now was all a fake.

Gu Qi took a sip of the orange juice, knowing that he couldn't persuade Qiu Sheng, and he didn't want to mention the responsibility of "sending the child away".Thinking of Wen Youxia's caring attitude towards Qiu Sheng, he felt that the atmosphere between the two of them was not quite right today.

"Then you and Wen Xia..." Gu Qi said tactfully, "How are you doing now?"

"I want to make up with him, but he doesn't want to."

Gu Qi imitated the variety show female anchor exaggeratedly: "Really? I don't believe it."

"Don't believe me." Qiu Sheng turned to leave.

Gu Qi chased after him: "I believe, then you can reconcile? You said 'reconcile', right? Qiu Er, you should understand that the breakup is the result, not the reason. And you two made trouble like that, The main contradiction..."

"Wen Xia." Qiu Sheng shouted suddenly.

Gu Qi kept silent, turned her head while holding the mineral water, the corridor was empty.

He was so frightened that his heartbeat almost stopped suddenly, but it turned out to be a prank.Gu Qi gave Qiu Sheng the mineral water in his hand, but Qiu Sheng avoided it and asked, "Are you trying to persuade me not to like him?"

With a teasing expression, "I didn't expect you to be the one who beats mandarin ducks with thick eyebrows and big eyes."

"..." Gu Qi was at a loss for words for a while, and said in a low voice for a while, "No."

"Then don't worry about it."

How could Gu Qi ignore it: "Of course I know that he treats you very well. But before the problems between you two are completely resolved, I think it is easier to face Wen Xia...you will be very dangerous. Although there is no right or wrong relationship , but some things happened after all, and they hurt people, you, Wen Xia, you are all hurt, aren't you?"

Qiu Sheng stopped talking.

"And Qiu'er, do you remember how you ended up in the hospital after you broke up?"

Those memories may be very confusing to Qiu Sheng, it's a good thing that he can't remember the pain clearly.But for Gu Qi, he watched the whole process and witnessed the deterioration of Qiu Sheng's condition. Later, he hid between the musical instruments and refused to go on stage, crying, yelling, and venting...

In the end, he was sent to the hospital. When the doctor opened his hand, the palm had been cut and bloody.

After those things, Qiu Sheng finally managed to live a normal life.As a friend, and as one of the few people who knew the ins and outs, Gu Qi understood that it wasn't Wen Youxia's fault, but he didn't want Qiu Sheng to get hurt by it again.

It's safe to be a pure bandmate, at least for now.

Gu Qi advised sincerely: "Qiu Er, think again, think again, don't be so anxious."

"Thinking about what?"

"You're impulsive right now."

"That's right!" Qiu Sheng's tone became inexplicably agitated, "You made me not impulsive! How could I not be impulsive? Even if it was my fault to sell the copyright, then why did he wash off the tattoo——"

"Calm down." Gu Qi advised him.

Qiu Sheng flung it away, and nervously held his ring finger and rubbed it back and forth: "You tell me to calm down now, why don't you ask Wen Youxia what's on his mind! If he really refuses to see me, then pretend to be a fucking fart and go back to the band , did I beg him to come back?! Bass players on two legs are all over the place, do I really have to have him?! I..."

Gu Qi was about to speak, but the sound of footsteps behind him made him hold his breath involuntarily.

He is like an enemy, but this time it is not an illusion.Gu Qi saw Wen Youxia came out of the rehearsal room at some point, with a cigarette in his right hand, he couldn't comfort Qiu Sheng and had to shout: "Wen Xia."

Sure enough, Qiu Sheng fell silent all of a sudden.

"Non-smoking floor." Gu Qi pointed to the sign not far away, he walked over, and said as if to adjust the atmosphere, "How about I accompany you to find a smoking room?"

"No." Wen Youxia said, "You go back first."

There were only two people left in the corridor, and their expressions were hesitant to speak.Qiu Sheng scanned Youxia up and down, his eyes glued to his right hand holding the cigarette, and asked vigilantly, "How much have you heard?"

"No, come out and smoke."

"The addiction is much bigger than before." Qiu Sheng couldn't believe that Wen Youxia didn't hear it. He didn't find out when Wen Youxia came out, but it won't be too late.

Wen Youxia murmured "Ugh", not being able to smoke made him uncomfortable, so he had to take it in his mouth to relieve it.He thought Qiu Sheng was going to ask why the addiction to smoking had become serious, but Qiu Sheng took a deep breath.

"It's so close to the bone, it hurts when you get the tattoo done, right?"

He asked too bluntly, Wen Youxia also said truthfully: "It's okay."

"Then have you ever wondered if I'm in pain?"

"..."

"You have broken with the past, what about me? I'm like an idiot, I don't know anything and I keep it on me?!" Qiu Sheng pressed him, trying to hold back, "Okay, why don't I just take a knife and kill myself?" It's scratched, clean and tidy. Or do you think that position can be regarded as non-existent if I can't see it myself?"

Wen Youxia couldn't resist, his throat was so dry that his ears started to hurt, so he turned around and left.

"Wen Youxia, stop!"

The way the people behind him called him reminded him of his confession a long time ago, and not so long ago, Qiu Sheng called his name wet in the rain in the park——Qiu Sheng's volume was not high, but it always sounded like Like trying so hard that it's a little hoarse.

Wen Youxia hated the word "you" in his name, but he was the only one who didn't feel disgusted by Qiu Sheng's name and surname.

"What, why, don't you want to see it again?"

"..."

"talk?!"

"I hate myself!" Wen Youxia roared angrily.

He was biting the cigarette, and the smell of nicotine seemed to have been ignited. He was infected by Qiu Sheng's persistence, and strode over uncontrollably to pinch the other man's mandible, and told the other party his reasons in a deep voice. .

"I hate myself. There's nothing I can do or change, wash it off and I won't have to think about you."

"..."

"Are you satisfied?!"

As soon as the words fell, Wen Youxia felt a slight chill on his fingertips.

The person in front of him pushed him with red eyes.

"fraud!"

The two pulling forces collided, and Wen Youxia took two steps back out of inertia.There was a window at the end of the corridor, the glass reflected the sunlight and briefly dazzled his vision, and his back hit the wall with severe pain.

Qiu Sheng grabbed his collar.

"Qiu..."

In the next second, Qiu Sheng recklessly moved forward and bit Wen Youxia's lips.

The temperature of the lips he kissed clumsily was cold, he clenched Wen Youxia's hand tightly and let go, and when the other party tried to resist, he involuntarily grabbed Wen Youxia's throat.The teeth hurt when they were knocked together, and the wrist that was pressed was also hurt. Qiu Sheng kissed him so hard that Wen Youxia's heart was rubbed all over Qiu Sheng's fingerprints.

It can't be called a kiss at all.

Biting, gnawing, or something else, it became more and more difficult to breathe through his throat, Wen Youxia suddenly believed that Qiu Sheng was so desperate that he would rather kill him than listen to his so-called "reason".

Is he going to say to Qiu Sheng, "Because you made me hate myself more and more at that time"?He loathes and hates himself, and sooner or later he will swallow up all his love with Qiu Sheng.

He would not go back to the past at all.