silver sea

Qiu Sheng doesn't like to recall the days when Wen Youxia was not around.

Cutting the beginning and the end, in fact, they were not separated for four years.But more than 1000 days and nights, every 24 hours are swelled by loneliness, as if half of my life has been wasted.

He thought that all these pains were his own, but only now did he vaguely realize that Wen Youxia was similar to him.

"Then why don't you come back to Donghe?" Qiu Sheng said, he couldn't tell whether his tone was a sigh or regret, "You come back to Donghe and find me, we will..."

He couldn't go on talking anymore, Wen Youxia sat very close to him, but the sense of distance through the glass appeared again.

Wen Youxia's eyes were always clear and calm, and his despair only stayed for a few seconds. He said: "In the first year, I was basically in Xiangling. In the first few months, I lived day and night, bored in the classroom all day long. I don’t go out in the room. Later, the landlord introduced me to work in a violin factory in the village.”

Xiangling is just an inconspicuous southern inland town on a vast land, with mountains and forests to the west and rivers and reservoirs to the south.When Wen Youxia recalled the experience at that time, he still felt that it was not real.

He was in a daze, and when he walked out of the old train station with only a simple change of clothes and a little cash on his back, he went back in time for 20 years in a trance.The county town is old but quiet, with a small resident population and even fewer young people. Wen Youxia casually found a shop that said houses for rent and walked in. The self-built houses on the outskirts of the city were rented out as shops, and walked through a narrow and dark street. The corridor, and the upper floors are all small single rooms, similar to the house he and Qiu Sheng lived in, but more rudimentary, and he settled here.

It was all pain at first, and time didn't heal him, only made him force himself to seal up the past, and finally walked out of that room.Wen Youxia knew that she looked very bad, and she might have health problems, so she just muddled through. After being autistic for a long time, she even had a little difficulty in talking at first.

He didn't make much money during those few months at the factory, and he didn't learn how to repair a violin that broke off in it.

He thought he would stay in Xiangling for a long time, and when he got tired of going out early and returning late, it would be time to leave, find a deserted place, and fulfill his promise of "never seeing Qiu Sheng again".

"Then Wen Haoqian came to Xiangling to look for me." Wen Youxia said, furrowing his eyebrows, "I had already changed my number, I don't know how he checked it, maybe because I booked a train ticket with the previous number and then received an invoice I sent it to his house, Teacher Wen should have helped him. He came by himself by train, looking for it from house to house, and told me to go back with him, because Teacher Wen was sick."

Qiu Sheng gave a "tsk" sound: "Go get treatment if you are sick, doesn't he have a pension himself!"

"Rectal cancer." Wen Youxia said.

Qiu Sheng suddenly stopped complaining.

"It's not in the late stage, it can be cured." Wen Youxia said so much that his mouth was dry, and he glanced at the milk that Qiu Sheng hadn't finished drinking. It was already cold, so he just picked it up and drank it. Wan, Wen Haoqian was a primary school student at that time, and he panicked when he heard 'cancer'. He saw me after riding the train for three days, and couldn't speak clearly, so anxious that he kept crying...I couldn't help it. "

As Bai Yanhui said, those who know Wen Youxia well know that he tends to think better of others.In that kind of situation, if Wen Youxia was really steadfast and let it go, he wouldn't be like him.

Qiu Sheng swallowed the sentence "Sooner or later you will be soft-hearted" - no matter what, Wen Youxia has already drawn a clear line with those two grandchildren - the cursing words twisted on the tip of his tongue: "What will happen after you go back to Donghe? ? Can the cancer still be cured?”

"It's not late, it's okay." Wen Youxia pinched herself, "After the operation, Teacher Wen wants Wen Haoqian to go to Nanqiao to study in junior high school."

"Then you went to the South Bridge."

"...Yes, until this year."

"What about the conditions?" Qiu Sheng asked suddenly, "You said you had a good chat with him, would he let you go so easily? Mr. Wen is 70 years old, and now he is sick again. You used to You can swallow your anger and break up with them at a time like this, what if Wen Haoqian has such an extreme personality and causes trouble?"

In the past, Qiu Sheng's series of questions might have stunned Wen Youxia.He is not a 24-year-old who seems to have a lot of social experience but has no social experience, and these have already been carefully considered.

"The money you lent me and my savings over the past few years add up to more than 8 yuan. I have already given it all to Wen Haoqian. His current condition does not need to be transplanted. Intervention. This money plus the previous... …If he wants to have an operation in the future, he can do it. If he doesn’t, he can keep it for himself. He doesn’t have a loan, and the house is his own. Mr. Wen still has a pension and insurance, which are enough for him to spend three years in high school. And Mr. Wen this time After the operation, there will be no serious problems for at least five years, even if he..." Wen Youxia paused for a moment, "Wen Haoqian should go to college by then."

When Wen Youxia uttered a certain word, he struggled for a long time. The subtext was "you can earn your own living by studying in university, and I also came here like this", and Wen Youxia's plan for him was exhausted.

To Qiu Sheng, Wen Youxia really never made her family a burden to Qiu Sheng.

In the afternoon, Gu Qi came back from the duty-free shop, and the three of them went to a restaurant outside for dinner.

Yawan is one of the few tropical cities in China. The food flavor is closer to Southeast Asia, such as green curry, Tom Yum Kung, mango sticky rice and freshly landed seafood.

The restaurant was chosen at random. When I sat down and took a look at the menu, the two people around me fell silent in unison.

"What's the matter, isn't it to your liking?" Gu Qi flicked through the menu, "It's light, fresh, not cold, and you don't drink at noon, you can eat Qiu Sheng."

Qiu Sheng held his forehead to cover half of his face, and reminded, "Wen Xia is allergic to seafood."

Gu Qi: "..."

He completely forgot about it.

Seeing his embarrassment, Wen Youxia said reasonably, "It's okay, order what you two like, and I'll make do with it."

Gu Qi said that would work, ticked off a few dishes, and added some that Wen Youxia could eat.

The meal was fairly peaceful, and Qiu Sheng occasionally felt that Gu Qi's eyes were moving between him and Wen Youxia, perhaps trying to detect signs of reconciliation from their body movements.It's a pity that the table is square, and the three of them occupy one side each, and Gu Qi didn't see the communication he wanted.

Director Zhang, who was in charge of their group, contacted Qiu Sheng after the meal, but he had no intention of urging him to return to work. Instead, he comforted Qiu Sheng and suggested him to rest.He was quite frightened by Qiu Sheng's condition the day before, which proved the rumor about Qiu Sheng's "poor health".

Winter is the peak tourist season in Yawan. From the restaurant back to the hotel, I saw many tourists along the way.Those who took wedding photos, took family tours, and recuperated their bodies, all dressed colorfully and walked along the road lined with coconut trees.

Gu Qi found a lame excuse of "ah, I'm going to send something to my parents", because it was too deliberate, and when he ran away, Qiu Sheng saw Wen Youxia and smiled.

"Then where are we going?" Qiu Sheng asked him, "Do you want to swim?"

Wen Youxia shook her head: "I can accompany you for a walk on the beach."

When he said this, his eyes were serious, and Qiu Sheng felt in a trance that the person in front of him gradually coincided with the silhouette he saw on a rainy night when he was 21 years old. It was Wen Youxia's temperament, not mournful, nor was his spine crushed by life later. have no choice.

"Okay, let's go."

The coastline is winding, and the tropical style is very different from the East River.

The sea of ​​Donghe River is wide and desolate regardless of winter and summer. The long-distance ships are small spots of iron gray, and the reefs are cold and hard. Even if there is a sunset, it only shows a glorious but lonely temperament.He and Wen Youxia often sat by the seaside for an afternoon, sorting out the fragmentary melodies in their minds into tunes. There are moons and stars, but the sea in Donghe is not romantic.

Yawan is the opposite side of the East River. Here, there are golden sandy beaches, soft sea breeze and brilliant sunshine that perfectly fit the imagination of "The End of the World".

Qiu Sheng is past the age when he can rush into the waves, but he can't help but feel happy when he sees the beach.He took off his shoes and stepped on the warm sand, leaving a row of crooked footprints.

Wen Youxia was standing on the sidewalk next to her, about [-] centimeters taller, and the height difference between them was widened.

"You told me a lot about you during this time." Qiu Sheng kicked his feet in the sand, and the shadow of the coconut tree shrouded him, and he didn't feel too hot in the afternoon, "I thought, why don't I tell you about me too?" Yes, confess to each other and understand each other."

Wen Youxia had already heard what Gu Qi said, but he hesitated to speak.

"But talking about those things will only increase troubles. The most powerful truth I have learned in the past few years is that people must learn to look forward. I used to think that these words were hypocritical and contrived, pointing at other people's suffering from a high position, but now I think it is That's right. When looking forward, it will be much easier to throw away the past." Qiu Sheng raised his head, and looked at Wen Youxia with warm eyes, "Look at you, you have been stuck in the past for so long, only now... I I'm actually very happy for you."

His words are completely from the heart, and there will be some unrealistic assumptions that you were like this four years ago, so there is no need for us to be separated for so long.

Qiu Sheng thought, he really, really cared about the missed days.

They've been apart longer than they've been together.

Step out to avoid the weaving crowd.

Wen Youxia always thought carefully before expressing something like before. He pulled Qiu Sheng's arm and picked up the topic that seemed to have passed without warning: "But you must first know what you want and what to abandon before you can move forward. look."

"That's right." Qiu Sheng shook the sand between his toes, "So what do you want?"

They are tentatively again, wanting to embrace quickly but afraid of touching each other's unhealed wounds.

The sun suddenly became a little overcast, and the shadow of the cloud passed over the foam of the tide.

"I want to know everything about you." Wen Youxia said, "Qiu, I don't agree with you saying to throw away the past, and I didn't do that either. If I needed to throw away the past without distinction, then I wouldn't be here now .”

Qiu Sheng frowned: "Are you going to quarrel with me again?"

"It's not noisy, let's learn to 'chat', okay?" Wen Youxia simply sat on the green bricks of the path so that his gaze was lower than that of Qiu Sheng, "I used to have a lot of thoughts, compared to you, I Many places are completely opposite, but... I didn't say it, because thinking about it is not a principled thing, your happiness is more important than anything else."

Qiu's voice was at a loss for words, he didn't expect to hear Wen Youxia confess under such circumstances, "You are happy is the most important thing".

Wen Youxia looked at Qiu Sheng from bottom to top, those deep black pupils were illuminated by the sun and surrounded by a light golden ring: "Later, I found out that this was wrong, even if you want to make trouble, cold war or other things, you should make it clear .After so many quarrels, we never avoided discussing—”

"You want to say that we are not suitable again?" Qiu Sheng lowered the corners of his eyes, "I don't want to hear it."

Wen Youxia knew that these words had hurt Qiu Sheng severely. He grabbed one of Qiu Sheng's wrists, thought for a while, and held them together, shaking them like coaxing a small animal: "Originally There is the second half of the sentence."

"What is it?"

Wen Youxia felt that Qiu Sheng's fingers were twitching, some kind of stress reaction, although Qiu Sheng controlled it very well and remained calm on the surface, he still found a loophole.

He spread Qiu Sheng's hand, the light was poor at night, after knowing what Qiu Sheng had done, Wen Youxia couldn't help stroking his palm repeatedly.

Apart from the fingerprints, there are no scars or scars, and it appears to have fully recovered.

Wen Youxia knew that they were still in Qiu Sheng's heart.

"Tell me the experience you threw away, and I'll tell you the second half."

The hand immediately retracted.

Qiu Sheng said firmly: "No."

The author says:

Happy Children's Day big friend Meng!Compassionate