Nana

After working sullenly all afternoon, Nana suddenly asked me to go out to play at night, I was very surprised and immediately agreed.

After get off work, we first went back to change the dirty clothes of the working day, and then we met in one place.

After I changed my clothes, I went out and waited for more than ten minutes at the appointed place. At that time, I was happy thinking that I had not lost this warm friend. After a few text messages with Nana, I saw Nana walking towards me. .

let's go.she says.

where to goI asked.

go to my store.

Do you have a store?what store?I ask her.It was the first time I heard that she had a shop, why would she come to work in the factory if she had a shop?

Later, in the taxi, she told me that she and her boyfriend rented a shop on the street, mainly selling trinkets, but because the business was not good, they didn’t take care of it.

Then you work and your boyfriend can drive it.I said.

He, he plays World of Warcraft at home every day.She just replied me lightly.

I rarely ask about her boyfriend in front of her. He makes Nana unhappy and makes us have more conflicts. It is good for us not to mention him. Her boyfriend has no sense of existence to me. Whether it's scum or bad, I don't think I stole Nana, after all, Nana never belonged to me.

When I arrived at Nana's store, she told me that there were no people around.

At that time, it was almost nine o'clock in the evening, and it was a bit cold. We were all wearing long sleeves. There were no pedestrians on this street. I guess this was also the reason for the poor business. It was not a particularly lively street.

Nana and I don't even talk about personal topics like family. We usually talk about eating, drinking, having fun and work, but tonight is different.

In a small shop with a warm atmosphere, the shutter door is opened to the height that people can come in, and the glass door is half closed. Nana and I sat in silence for a while. Both of us were a little cold. I wanted to speak first but I didn’t know what to say. .

Do you think I'm ignoring you a bit?There is a small glass round table in Nana’s store, and she is sitting and fiddling with the things on the table at this time, a piece of colorful paper, Nana suddenly asked me.

I didn't answer her, but my mood was gloomy.

Why are everyone in the factory... like that?While gluing the five-pointed star folded on the table to the paper, she seemed to want to glue it into a heart shape, but it kept crooked.

I put my face in my hands and watched her movements, and replied casually because I am a foreigner.

She nodded lightly and didn't say anything, but her hands were busy all the time, sticking the stars together, tearing them off and sticking them back on again. After a while, I couldn't stand it anymore, so I told her I'm coming, she He looked at me and said yes with a smile.

I....was a little shocked by her.

Nana looks like the kind of pretty and smart girl but a bit clumsy. She just glued all the stars into a heart shape. It couldn't be easier, but she couldn't do it well.

Jojo, because they treat you like that.. I can't talk to you all the time, but can I play with you after get off work.With her back to me, Nana was standing in front of the jewelry cabinet and sorting things out, while I was concentrating on helping her get those stars, and I smiled subconsciously when I heard her say that.

Well, okay.

At this time, I looked up at her, and she turned around to look at me, so we smiled and looked at each other. There was no spark, but I just thought, um, it was a good feeling.

Wow, you did a great job.She's boasting about my heart-shaped star, which I've shaped.

Well, what are you doing.I ask her.

She came over and sat next to me, holding a puppet that looked like a bean sprout in her hand, a bean sprout with a very long horn.

For boyfriend.she says.

Um?Boyfriend?Will men like this thing?I'm so skeptical, is this girl too silly and cute, won't a guy despise her for being too sissy?

She looked desolate and said lightly, I quarreled with him, but in fact it was not good all the time, he doesn't seem to love me anymore.

how come?It's a bit beyond my expectation. The one who picks her up from work every day is probably her boyfriend. Although I haven't seen it carefully, I can hear how much this man chased Nana when he was chatting with other people. Love each other more and love each other more, and even pick up and deliver meals every day after work, it sounds like they should be in love, why don't they love each other?

She fiddled with a small bag of glitter on the table and said to me, I wrote a letter to him, and this, I will write I love you here later, she pointed to the blank space on the paper.

OK.I nodded and thought Nana was quite interesting, she was a pure and innocent little girl.

In fact, according to the normal plot, I should be jealous at this time, but at that time, I didn't have such a deep relationship with Nana, and I was just a friend who wanted to cherish her. It doesn't matter what a boyfriend is, it's none of my business.

After finishing the card that could be said to be a love letter, the two of them simply cleaned up the table. Nana gave me the strange bean sprouts. I said no, but she kept stuffing them for me, so I took them away. Yes, during this period her mother called, but they didn't seem to have anything to say, they kept silent for a long time and then hung up after saying a few casual words.

I have a bad relationship with my mother, and I haven't been back since I left home.she says.

That's when I realized that she didn't know the locals either, and she must have come here from such a distance because of her love for her boyfriend.

Speaking of the card, I also remembered it. I don’t want to say it now, I’m afraid I’ll forget it. I remember one time when Nana was on the night shift and she was on the day shift. When she just changed shifts, Nana suddenly came over to me and said that I had something she gave me in the cabinet.

I didn’t go to see it because it was at night. Although I was always curious, I looked it up after work the next morning. There was a beautiful artificial flower in a box-shaped bag and a letter written “I love you” in Chinese and English. There are also some small toys in it. I left them with my sister when I went back to my hometown. They must have been thrown away long ago. My precious things must have been thrown away.

I thought I had forgotten many things about me and Nana, and I never thought of them in my daily life, but it is strange that I still remember them all.

The day after that letter, I asked how she was doing.

She said that his boyfriend was very moved, as if he could return to his previous relationship.

I said that's good, hehe.

But in fact, I have always expressed doubts, and indeed I am right to doubt.

The quarrel between her and her boyfriend intensified. Later, she almost never saw her boyfriend come to pick her up in the factory. People in the factory seldom mentioned their young couple. They would be a little embarrassed when they accidentally talked about it. The boss’s wife’s family and Nana’s boyfriend is a relative. How much do you know? Their relationship is in crisis. Although I guessed it, it’s hard to ask Nana. Seeing Nana’s smiling face and energetic work every day, that strange strength makes me I'm ashamed to expose it.

During those days, the factory was filled with an atmosphere of explosion at any time. It was too embarrassing. Nana’s smiling face became more and more sunny, and there were more and more rumors about what was there in the factory. Every time Nana left, they would talk in a low voice, saying yes Nana’s boyfriend doesn’t want Nana anymore, she’s planning to find a local girl to marry, and Nana’s family has a problem, and then it’s simply related to Nana’s character, I’m flustered when I hear each sentence, my heart beats faster, and Nana’s smile grows bigger The more I panicked, the more I wanted to tear those people's faces apart. I have never hated them so much. Even if they treated me like that before, I could bear it, but this time I am completely angry, but I don't know what to do. Revenge is tricky I can't do anything about the computer, maybe all I can do is comfort.

When I was off work, I was left to clean up the garbage, and Nai Nai also took the initiative to stay. These days, we haven’t talked much. We didn’t talk about quiet cleaning. We have a tacit understanding. Actually, I wanted to comfort her but I couldn't open my mouth all the time. She would smile at me when we looked at each other, and I just smiled back. I didn't know how to speak. It looks weird and cold when you stop laughing.

After cleaning up, the two of them went to the room where the cabinet was placed to get their own things. I couldn't bear the awkward atmosphere, so I quickly took my things and said goodbye. When she said goodbye, I had already walked out the door I went to the toilet. We walked back from work together for a while. In order to avoid embarrassment on the way, let her go first. I deliberately delayed in the toilet for a while before I walked out slowly, but it seemed a bit bad. I sent a message to her tonight asking what happened to her.

However, I stayed at the factory gate, and Nai Nai was waiting for me there. I felt special in an instant. I was entangled in the toilet for so long, and she was waiting outside and looked at me with a warm smile.

Why don't you leave?I ask her.

She came over and took my hand and said, let's go together.

I nodded and said yes, and the two of them kept walking, very slowly, I stared straight ahead and dared not look at her.

Maybe I couldn't bear this kind of atmosphere, so I asked Nana what happened to you and your boyfriend.

She didn't speak, her pace became slower and slower, she let go of my hand, and I couldn't stop when she stood behind me, but I didn't know whether I should look back at her.

She was crying, sad but without a sound.

The hand she was holding me was shaking all the time, and I heard her choking and panting cautiously.

I hesitated, but turned around and hugged her.

Nana, don't cry, I know you are always sad, no matter when you are sad, I know, even if you are laughing, I also know that you don't like to chat with those people, but you always cater to their chat so happily, I know you are not happy.I gently patted her back and comforted her.

This is your way of life. I don't know how to persuade you to let go, but I know you are unhappy, don't be sad, cry if you can't bear it, don't bear it.I continued to tell her that she hadn't spoken, and I felt a little embarrassed. We are not considered close, and this is not suitable for me to say.

I don't know what she was thinking, Nana wiped away her tears and nodded to me with a smile, but the tears didn't stop, she just walked with me on her arm while wiping her tears, when we got to the place where we were going to part, I said I would send her back, She shook her head, and I said that I will take you to the bridge, she nodded, and when I sent her to the bridge, she gently hugged me and said go back.

Well, don't be sad.I said to her.

She nodded with her back to me.

The setting sun has not yet completely set, and Nana’s back has a golden outline. My eyes have always been bad. I feel that her back is trembling slightly, but I feel that I am wrong. The color of the setting sun is very gloomy that day. My body is very warm, and my eyes But icy.

Nana, I can’t comfort you, so don’t cry for me, please, I’m helpless, I feel useless, my nameless anger has nowhere to vent, I think of your smile and your collapse and crying over and over again, I’m getting more and more flustered The more angry, but why, and what can I do.