Love Tao

Since that day, I stayed at home alone during the day, and sometimes I would drink with Ye Qing and Ye Zihao Lin Cong at night. I haven’t seen each other for more than a year. There is a little more warmth between each other, which makes me feel a little bit of warmth, but it’s less One person, inevitably has some regrets.

A person, wandering alone in this lonely city, a little tired, tired, very tired, at a loss?Or lonely?Sometimes I wonder what is the purpose of life?Live so tired.

As time goes by, after decades, you will still die after all, or you will lose to time. Why do many people still pursue it desperately?And what am I after?

I was very confused, confused for no reason, maybe because I stayed in the grassland for a long time, and I was not used to it alone.

At this time, I thought of an ancient poem, who is afraid of a bamboo stick and straw shoes lightly surpassing a horse?A cloud of mist and rain Ren Pingsheng! I think, right, the only way to keep persuading yourself with the posture and mentality of the ancients is to have your own freedom and ease, and you don’t need to worry too much about trifles, just follow the fate and do nothing In short, the plainness is the truth!

When I was lying on the balcony alone, looking at the quiet night outside and the occasional pedestrians walking under the lights, I felt an indescribable comfort, tranquility, and etherealness in my heart, which seemed to be a kind of sublimation of the soul. Maybe I can let go Everything, let go of the burden in your heart, just lie quietly like this, in this space that belongs to you.

"Ding dong ding dong??????"

The hasty doorbell rang broke my inner peace, and seemed a bit abrupt in this unusually quiet night.

"Here we come." I wonder who it could be?I have never had the habit of looking at the cat's eyes, and this time was no exception, I opened the door as usual.

"Mingqing." Zhang Tao broke into the door and half pushed me in.

I was speechless in astonishment.

"Mingqing, I love you, can you listen to my explanation?"

Zhang Tao has learned his lesson this time, he is not overbearing, he is not overbearing, and he said in a begging gesture.

After a while, I realized, "Go! I don't want to hear it!" Pointing to the door, I angrily asked Zhang Tao to go out.

"No, you must listen to my explanation, I will not give up!" Zhang Tao was very firm.

"Oh! What's the use, no need, I already have a BF."

"What?!" Zhang Tao staggered, his face suddenly turned pale, and he couldn't believe it.

"I do not believe!"

"It's up to you not to believe it." Now I have calmed down and responded coldly.

"I?????? I don't believe it!" Zhang Tao murmured, "I want to see him, yes, I want to see him with my own eyes!"

He grabbed my arms, bewildered.

I shook my head, "Is this still necessary?"

"I must see him, otherwise I will follow you until you agree to be with me!" Zhang Tao's eyes were full of fear, fear, and hope.

"Together? Do you think I'm such a cheap person? Go! I don't want to see you again!"

"I want to see him!" Zhang Tao refused to give in.

I compromised, "You want to see him, okay, see you tomorrow night in the square! Satisfied!" I didn't cry, I didn't know how to cry.

"I don't believe you have a BF anymore, you still love me, right! Ming Qing."

"You can go." I said lightly.

A sting flashed in Zhang Tao's eyes, "Okay, tomorrow night??????"

After Zhang Tao left, I sighed, feeling a deep sense of loss and sadness in my heart.

Unknowingly, I walked to the balcony and looked at him, still as handsome as ever, looking at him obsessively, but his staggering back gradually moved away, becoming more and more blurred, and finally he disappeared from my sight.I was very confused, why! ?I couldn't express my true intentions to him, the wound in my heart always blinded me at that moment, that wound, alas!I don't think I can love anymore.