Bear Love◇Paradise Station◇

A few days before I left Beijing, Zuo Ming picked me up to live with him.He insisted on asking for leave to stay with me at home, and I understand him.We stayed in the room all day in those days, chatting, and no one talked about parting, and we knew it would make us all cry.

On June 2006, 6, I stepped on the train back home.The platform is a place to break up. No matter how happy you are before you come here, you will be surrounded by sad feelings when you come here.

On the platform, Zuo Ming hugged me and cried bitterly. This was the first time I saw this man cry. The tears of a tough guy are so precious, and they will only appear in front of the most precious people.On the contrary, I didn't cry, not because I didn't want to, but because I didn't want to make him more sad. I think he would like to see my smile.

"Fool, don't cry, my home is not far from Beijing, it's easy to meet!" I ignored the eyes of the people around me, and gently wiped his tears.

Zuo Ming cried too hard, the emotions he had been suppressing before finally burst out at this moment, "Ye, Ye Zhen! I, I, I can't bear you to go, you know, right? "He choked up and hugged me tightly again.

"Well, I know you love me very much, but I have to go now. When the three-year agreement arrives, I will be with you no matter where I am. Believe me, okay?" I grabbed this thick man hard Arms, I will soon lose my feeling.

"Well! I, I must, call you every day! You can't, ignore me!" He was already crying, and it made me feel so distressed.

"Who am I to ignore you? Don't cry, there are so many people, how ugly is it? Okay?" I looked at my watch, "Zuo Ming, it's almost time, I have to get in the car, don't Sad, parting is normal! I want to see your smile, will you give it?" I deliberately looked up at him.

He wiped his face with his bear paw, trying to squeeze out a smiley face for me, "Hey!"

I laughed and got in the car.As the train started, Zuo Ming ran after it for a long time until it reached the edge of the platform.At this moment, I couldn't bear it anymore, and shouted loudly "Zuo Ming! Zuo Ming!" He should be able to hear it, right?

We texted constantly along the way, but at this time he came to coax me. He is really my confidant and understands my personality too well.My tears never stopped after the train started, I really fell in love with Zuo Ming, tears proved everything!

When I got home, my family members were very happy. They kept asking me about my work and living conditions in Beijing. I said that I must be fine seeing how fat I am!There are constant gatherings of relatives, and every time I become the main topic of the gathering: "Xiaozhen has grown a lot working in Beijing!" "Does Xiaozhen have a girlfriend?" "Xiaozhen, you are too fat, lose weight quickly Let's go!" I say things like this every time, and I can only deal with them one by one in embarrassment.

Zuo Ming calls me at least three times a day. He will not always repeat the words "I miss you" on the phone. On the contrary, he will always joke with me, which makes me feel very relaxed.When my mother saw that I always answered the phone and looked very sweet, she asked me if I had a girlfriend?I blushed and said no.Although I have known that I am gay for many years, I have very little time at home after all. I am really not comfortable lying to my parents. I am afraid that my parents will find out one day. I can't imagine such a scene!

But some things cannot be avoided. Within a few days, my second aunt arranged a blind date for me!

The second aunt arranged for us to meet at her home. Although I was 1 times unwilling before, my mother "forcibly" sent us here. Well, if this is the case, I can’t blame me!The girl on the other side seems to be a very quiet girl, but through chatting with colleagues before, I learned that women can't look at the surface, and the more innocent a woman is, the more "unsimple" she is!

The girl said hello to my brother as soon as she entered the door. I was a bit unexpected to be called brother by her. I wanted to be a bit of a "ruffian" so that the girl retreated, so I was embarrassed to pretend to be a ruffian.

This is my first blind date. I didn’t talk much when I saw a woman, so I simply didn’t say anything. I answered whatever she asked. The second aunt hurriedly asked the girl questions for me. The girl kept blushing and bowed her head. Talking in a low voice, she really looks like a "good family woman". It's a pity, a pity, I don't have the blessing to enjoy women. Li Na made me fully understand what will happen to me and women!

To make the blind date feel bad, besides pretending to be a ruffian, I will be taciturn. The woman's parents will think that I am introverted and dull. This is exactly the result I want!Afterwards, my second aunt told me the same thing, but that girl wanted to further associate with me, I was dizzy!When did fat people become so popular with women?I rejected that woman with the reason that I didn't like that woman, and I'll talk about it later, how cruel I am!

Later, my second aunt arranged four blind dates for me in a row, but I was lucky, and three of them were because people didn't like me and thought I was fat!Ha ha.The other one was also rejected by me.The second aunt said disheartenedly that she would leave me alone, I don't care, this is exactly what I want to see.

But I knew that even if my second aunt didn't give me a blind date, other relatives would "take the initiative to ask for it", so I directly told my mother that I didn't want to get married now. I was only 24 years old, and I needed to have a career before thinking about getting married.The sincere words touched my mother, and she never had a blind date again.For gays, citing career as an excuse is the best reason to refuse marriage; it doesn’t matter if you have a successful career, just ignore them, and whether you get married or not depends on whether you sign it or not. Marriage is harmful to others. Myself, most people get married because they can't bear the pressure, and I think it's a crime.

It was suffocatingly hot in my hometown in July. I locked myself in the house all day and surfed the Internet. My parents urged me to find a job. I said I would look for it when the weather was cooler. They couldn’t do anything about me. Good point, besides, if you let me leave the air conditioner, you might as well kill me!

The computer configuration at home is low, and I can’t play games. After watching movies for a long time, I am upset and bored. I decided to go to the circle to have a look.I feel that most of the chat rooms are looking for 419, which disgusts me very much. Relatively speaking, gay groups are much better.My name in the group is "monkey who loves chatting". This name will not attract people who like bears to strike up a conversation. Such an idea, kill two birds with one stone, haha!

But as the days went by, my trick didn't work anymore. I don't know which Xiongxihou told the people in the group that I was a U-bear, and the sky turned upside down!The group keeps urging me to post photos, well, post as soon as possible, what are you afraid of!I picked a photo that I thought looked good and posted it in the group, and then... the reminders of friend application approval continued, and I passed the verification one by one.

But my purpose is just to chat, I don't want to make friends, after so many things, most bears can't attract my attention.Here I want to mention two people, they may represent two types of people in the circle.One is called "Floating Snow", a bear who is not very good-looking, pure 0, he is not interested in me, but he is very talkative.The other is called "Big Pyrenees", and it looks good.

I chat more with Floating Snow, he loves to tell me about his ups and downs.He has dated 5 BFs, and they all looked much better than me in my opinion, but every relationship ended with him being dumped.He said that if he likes someone, he needs to use money to let him know, so he keeps sending gifts and money to his BF or the bear he is chasing.His trick worked very well, and he became his BF after a long time, but every BF didn't last with him for more than half a year.I asked him why he was always dumped, have you considered it?He said that he tried his best in every relationship, but the result of the breakup made him very helpless.Hehe, what a fool, is love bought with money?The other party is with you because he likes your money. Because of this, the other party will not be satisfied. You can give him ZIPPO, clothes, mobile phones, and even laptops, but as an ordinary white-collar worker, how will you give them later? ?Send car to house?I think the one who doesn't abandon you when you are the poorest is the real lover!

For love, most people in the circle don’t last long. On the one hand, it depends on the nature of men—the lower body; on the other hand, it depends on whether the other party has something that attracts you. Of course, if you are only attracted to the face and body, So delicacies from mountains and seas will get tired of eating every day, let alone people?But if what attracts you is the character and character of the other person, then the relationship will last much longer.People usually only understand the superficial meaning of love, thinking that a few caring phone calls or a few gifts can appease another heart, but they don't know that the person who really loves you only wants your company.Love is actually very simple, the simplest and most homely communication is enough!

But I have to admit that there are more men in this world who have no connotation. When they talk, they will talk about the topic of lower body, and then when he is not interested in your body or you in his body, he should say goodbye up.

That "Big Pyrenees" claimed to be a graduate student of a certain prestigious university, had a high-paying job, and bought a car and a house with his own efforts.I find it very interesting to chat with him, as if he is Huazi in "Struggle", the difference is that Huazi doesn't brag, but he insists that everything he portrays is very strong, and he gives me a lot of small feelings that I don't care about The image of a master in love, these inevitably make me feel that he is bragging.If I were a young student, I should have believed him.I didn't talk to him much, he always took the initiative to talk to me, and then maybe because I was really hard to catch up with, he blacklisted me without saying anything, this kind of person is so practical.

The days of group chats passed quickly and happily. One night in early August, I met a middle-aged man whose online name was "Shadow of Melody".

He was very active in the group, which at first made me think he was also a young man in his early 20s.He just joined this group not long ago, so he probably hasn't seen my photos, and adding his name, I became interested, so I became close to him.

"Does melody have shadows too?" I said.

"Well, of course, a happy melody can reflect a happy shadow, and a sad melody can also have a sad shadow." He replied to me closely.

Hehe, interesting, I like this kind of name, it is much more attractive than those names like xx.

"My monkey friend, judging by your name, you also like to chat." He kept secret from me, and said directly in the group.

"Uh...yes, just chat when you're bored, hehe." I also replied to him in the group.

"Melody, you don't know who he is? He is not a monkey! You have been fooled by his name! Haha~" another netizen said in the group.

"What? Isn't it a monkey? Is it a U-bear?" He said.

These damn fast mouthers!It's rare to meet someone I want to talk about, but they expose my old background!

"Don't listen to their nonsense, I'm not U, I'm just an ordinary fat man." As for my appearance, I can only say that I'm not ugly, and there are still people who look down on me. It's true that Xi Shi is in the eye of a beholder. What is considered ugly may be a bear in the eyes of others.

He asked me to post a photo, and I generously posted one, which attracted constant praise from the group, alas, this happens every time, I no longer feel a sense of accomplishment.

If he still doesn't take the initiative to add me as a friend, it means that he has no interest in me at all, but after only 10 seconds, my QQ system prompt began to flash, and it was him, the verification message sent by the shadow of the melody.

Then we chatted privately on QQ, and I found out that he is a 35-year-old married man in Beijing, his hometown is Jiangsu, and he has an 8-year-old son.

"Can I see what you look like?" Since you added me as a friend, I should know what the other person looks like, and I don't want to fantasize about the other person's appearance!

"I don't have a photo, but I have a video, let's watch the video." After that, he sent a video invitation.

Mature, elegant, well-proportioned and fair, this is my first impression of him.If you take a closer look, you will find that he looks like Uncle Dong Hao... Uncle Dong Hao is something I have fantasized about since I was a child, and now that I have grown up, I also think he is a UU middle-aged bear.

"Ha, you look like Uncle Dong Hao!" I teased him with a smile.

He sent a /lengh emoji, hehe, this middle-aged man is so cute! "You're the Nth person to say that, I don't think so, I'm not as attractive as him."

I smiled naively, hehe, Uncle Dong Hao, it’s interesting!