A box of light gray blue

The evening wind was blowing, and the mountains and forests were completely dark, only the lights in the apartment of the sketching base were on.The students gathered in the meeting room and listened to Teacher Lu's lecture.

After dinner, Xu Yan never paid attention to Fu Zhongzhou, and even sat far away from him when he was attending class.He avoided it, and sat between Qin Ping and Mo Qinghua.The two of them didn't know about him, they just joked around.

"Hey, do you remember how many of us are there?" Qin Ping tugged at his arm sourly, "I haven't seen anyone all day, and I still lie on Fu Zhongzhou's bed at night. I thought you two were on a honeymoon."

Xu Chang ignored him and fell asleep on the table.

It seems that what the seniors said about not falling in love during the training camp is indeed true. Once the relationship is frustrated, Huahua will definitely not be able to cheer up.

Teacher Lu was still lecturing on the stage, but he couldn't listen to a word. The air around him seemed to surround and isolate him, and he couldn't hear anyone around him.

All the clues were connected again in the silence, Xu Yu remembered that when they first met, Fu Zhongzhou always told him gently, don't be impatient, take your time.Fu Zhongzhou always has a way to eliminate his anxiety and let him find the most comfortable state of mind, but he may not be able to do it himself.

Their love affair has failed too much.When Xu Wei thought that Fu Zhongzhou had concealed so much from him, he felt angry and sad.He knew very well that they had to separate.But when he thought of Fu Zhongzhou holding him and crying when he was drunk, he couldn't help himself.

Being broken up by his childhood sweetheart girlfriend and missing out on his ideals were enough for Fu Zhongzhou to feel heartbroken. Xu Yu couldn't imagine how he would be frustrated again.

But what's the point of them dragging on.Xu Yu can only be his "beautiful girlfriend" forever, and their relationship will always be a secret.

Besides, he himself didn't have the courage to make it public, so he didn't have the right to blame Fu Zhongzhou.

He was thinking wildly when Peng Peng poked him twice with his finger from behind.

"Hey, Xu Yu, wake up." He called Xu Yu in a low voice, "Are you okay, Teacher Lu is calling your name on stage."

Xu Yan raised his head in a daze, and found that Teacher Lu was staring at him, and the students in the front row were also looking back.

"Xu Yan, are you feeling unwell?"

Teacher Lu didn't mean to blame, and his voice was very flat.

Xu Yan really couldn't listen to this lesson, so he nodded. "Can I ask for leave and go back to the dormitory to rest?"

He glanced at Fu Zhongzhou in the distance from the corner of his eye, and found that he was drawing on his notebook with his head down, looking isolated from the world.

"Go."

With Teacher Lu's consent, Xu Yan picked up his schoolbag and got up and went out.It was very inconvenient to get in and out of the benches in the meeting room, but the students next to him saw that his face was not right, so they had to get up silently and get out of the way, not daring to vent their anger.

After leaving the conference room, the smell of damp and mildew hits the face again, making it difficult to breathe.Xu Yan was a little dizzy, his body was like a machine whose screws had been removed, and it would fall apart if he took two more steps.

He didn't want to think about anything, he just wanted to go back to the dormitory and have a good sleep.

Go through the hallway.Xu Chang went upstairs and entered the dormitory.

The dormitory was still filled with the smell of sweat left by the boys, and it probably started to rain again outside the window, and the rainwater poured in from the open window, soaking the floor into a big lump.Xu Yu subconsciously walked over to close the window, turned around and was about to lie down on the lower bunk.

When his hands touched the clean and soft sheets, he suddenly came to his senses that this was Fu Zhongzhou's bed.Even though he slept for two nights, he can't sleep now.

So with the last bit of his strength, he climbed back to the upper bunk on hands and feet, and fell head-first into the nest of fallen ashes.

Probably because he wanted to escape from reality, he slept very deeply this time.Xu Yan didn't have any dreams, nor was he woken up by the roommates returning to the dormitory, and he didn't wake up until one o'clock in the morning.

When he got up with sleepy eyes, he realized that everyone was there in the quiet dormitory.

"...Are you okay?" Qin Ping was the first to notice that he sat up and asked, putting down the phone in his hand. "Seeing how bad your face is, we didn't dare to call you after it was time to take a bath."

"It's okay." Xu Yan had a splitting headache, but his mind was fully awake, and it was impossible for him to sleep again. "I go wash cloth."

He climbed out of bed with difficulty, and took out his wet clothes in the morning from the bag next to the bed.There was no one on the lower bunk, only Fu Zhongzhou's messenger bag was in the corner.

It seems that he came back and went out again.

Xu Chang avoided thinking about him too much, threw his wet clothes into the basin, and walked to the roof with his slippers on.

There is a large platform on the roof of the apartment building. On both sides of the platform are sinks for students to wash clothes. There are more than a dozen rows of clotheslines hanging in the middle.It rained today and many people's clothes were wet. At this moment, the ropes were full of clothes and sheets, and when the wind blew, there were colorful waves in the night.

He walked to the nearest sink, put the basin under the faucet, and turned on the faucet.

The water pressure was very strong, and cold water rushed out from the metal mouth, and it was filled up in a short while. Xu Yan was too close, and his body was stained with water.

He looked down and saw the clothes on his body, and thought of Fu Zhongzhou again.In fact, this is just a linen short-sleeved piece, not only very simple, but even has a bit of ethnic style, if it were the same as before, Xu Yu would never buy it.

All actions have become mechanical actions that cannot be controlled by the brain.Squeezing out the laundry detergent, washing the clothes, and drying them, Xu Yan moved silently.At this time, no one was doing laundry on the rooftop, only one or two students came up to collect the sheets, and then went down after they finished.

Xu Chang walked around half a circle with the plastic basin in his arms, and finally found a spare rope.As soon as he put the clothes on the air, he saw a familiar white short sleeve on the rope beside him.

The dress was still dripping, as if it hadn't been wrung out at all.

Then, as soon as the wind blew, he saw the figure sitting not far away.

What jumped out of the darkness was the red dot on the cigarette butt, and then the flame from the lighter.Fu Zhongzhou sat on the edge of the platform, with his legs spread apart, his elbows resting on his legs, and he was carefully looking at the lighter in his hand.He didn't wear glasses, his face flickered against the flames, and his eyes were slightly red.

Xu Chang looked down and saw a lot of scattered cigarette butts beside his clean canvas shoes.

When he got closer, he found that the other party had no expression on his face, and the corners of his mouth did not rise as usual.The whole person drooped a little dejectedly, and raised his hand to take a deep puff of the cigarette.

"Stop smoking."

Xu Yu opened his mouth to break the silence, walked out from behind the flying sheets, and stood in front of Fu Zhongzhou.

Hearing this, Fu Zhongzhou's hands trembled, and there was a trace of panic in his eyes.He frantically put away the lighter and extinguished the cigarette butt in his hand.

"You...woke up?"

He looked up at Xu Yu with an indescribably wronged expression.

There were no protective measures on the edge of the roof, Xu Chang was afraid that he would accidentally fall, but he didn't dare to step forward to pull him.

"Well, I woke up." He bowed and sat down cross-legged, "Let's talk."

The two were one tall and the other low, and there was still a distance of two or three meters between them.

Said to chat, but Xu Chang didn't speak first.Disappointed, shocked, angry, sad, he didn't know how to start this topic with Fu Zhongzhou.

Fortunately, Fu Zhongzhou has more experience in this situation than him, so the two of them would not be allowed to sit on the rooftop all night.

"Xu Chang," Fu Zhongzhou said in a low voice, "Are you going to break up with me?"

"……Yes."

"why."

"Because I want you to become better." Xu Wei took a deep breath, "I like a better Fu Zhongzhou."

"I don't want Fu Zhongzhou, who is liked by so many girls, to become an ordinary person, just go to any university and dawdle. Now you are not brave at all, dare not work hard, dare not... tell others about your 'beautiful girl' Friend' is a man."

"...I've said it before, it's just a prevarication to Brother Sheng."

"Yes, you can prevaricate whoever asks you in the future." Xu Wei smiled wryly, "I really don't deserve it, and I'm also a coward."

Fu Zhongzhou didn't know which sentence enraged him, but he suddenly rushed over from the edge of the roof and slammed Xu Wei to the ground.

"Don't mess around." Xu Yan looked into his red eyes, "I'm telling you the truth."

"Yes, you are also a coward." Fu Zhongzhou said through gritted teeth.He straddled Xu Yu, with the smell of cigarettes on his hands, and pressed in front of Xu Yu. "Xu Wei, I don't want to work hard anymore," his voice was trembling, "What's the use of doing well in the exam? My parents still won't go back to China to see me, and my ex-girlfriend still wants to break up with me. We are not in a relationship at all now." People on the road..."

As he spoke, he lost his momentum, and his hands loosened, but they were just pressed against Xu Huang's chest, caressing the same style of couple's outfit as him.

The concrete floor was dusty and covered with dust, and water dripped from the corner of the clothes.Xu Yan wanted to push him away, but when he grabbed his wrist with both hands, he felt a violent tremor.

"...You are different from me." Fu Zhongzhou's voice was hoarse, "What nonsense exams, scholarships, let them go. I just want to live casually, live carefree for decades before I die."

"Fart." Xu Yu scolded him coldly, "Fu Zhongzhou, let's break up. I said at the beginning that I would try it with you, but now I don't want to."

The grievance in Fu Zhongzhou's eyes gradually turned into anger, but because he had nowhere to vent, he could only silently clenched Xu Wei's collar.Seeing him like this, Xu Yu also felt a sour coldness in his heart, but he still repeated those two words without emotion.

"separate."

Fu Zhongzhou clutched his collar tightly, Xu Wei was strangled a little out of breath, but he didn't raise his hand to stop him, just casually handing over his safety to the other party.

"……it is good."

The person on his body finally let go, and what was replaced was a kiss without warning.

"What are you doing..."

Xu Yu's mouth was completely blocked, Fu Zhongzhou pinched his hair, bit his lip fiercely, and pried his tightly closed teeth with the tip of his tongue.Just like a group of menacing army, the soldiers approached the city and fired all arrows, determined to force the people in the city to open the city gate.

This series of unorganized movements did not look like kissing, but rather venting anger.Xu Yan was not easy to provoke, he bit out a mouthful of blood, and became angry all of a sudden, he opened his mouth and bit down on the bright red tip of his tongue.

Like a wild beast biting, Xu Yan stuck his hands firmly into his shoulders, and the bloody smell on his lips completely diffused.Fu Zhongzhou didn't seem to feel the pain, and was still unwilling to be bitten by him, so he got into his mouth again with blood, and wrapped his tongue around his tongue in hot pursuit.

The teeth of the two collided together and made a sound of collision.Xu Chang really didn't expect Fu Zhongzhou to be so terrified when he went crazy, and he and him bit each other for almost 2 minutes, and finally couldn't take it anymore, so he stretched out his arms and pushed him away violently.

"What's crazy! I'm telling you to break up!"

After he finished speaking, he got up quickly, took two steps back, and wiped the blood from the corner of his mouth with his hand.

Fu Zhongzhou's body was covered with dust, and he leaned back against the wall in embarrassment, bowing his head and panting heavily.His lips were bleeding and red and swollen from being bitten by Xu Huang.

"I know." His hair was also disheveled, hanging down to cover his eyes, he couldn't see clearly, "You go, I promise."

Xu Yan was inexplicably bloodied by him, and now he was urged to leave, feeling disappointed and angry.He was like a trapped animal, gnashing his teeth and clenched his fists, walked around twice, rationally pulled back and forth for a while, and finally swung his fists violently against the rough concrete wall.

"Go!" He turned around and yelled at Fu Zhongzhou, before disappearing among the flying sheets and clothes.

The rooftop once again fell into boundless silence.Fu Zhongzhou slumped in the corner helplessly, covering his eyes with his hands.