our psalms

Kuang Li sat down in the house I rented with a big bag on his back, and looked around.

"I haven't packed it for a long time. I brought a lot of your old things." She dug out a lot of clothes, CDs, books and many other things that I had left in the school dormitory from the backpack.Of course, this is only a small part, and more things are still with Lao Cao.

"How did you get it?" I was surprised.

"That's how I got it. The classmates in your dormitory gave it to me directly." She looked at me and said, "Everyone in the school knows that we are..."

"What is it?"

"No...it's nothing..." She stood up and started to help me clean up the house. First, she slowly threw the instant noodle bucket and other food boxes on the coffee table into the big garbage bag she brought.In fact, I knew what he was talking about, so I didn't ask any more questions, but sat aside and smoked silently.

"When did you learn to smoke?" Kuang Li asked me.

"A while ago." I said.

She suddenly put down what she was doing, turned around and sat next to me and looked at me: "I still don't understand."

"what?"

"I still don't understand why you did this. You said you want to take revenge, but who are you going to take revenge on?"

"You promised me not to ask more questions."

"But... I really just want to know." She got up and continued to work.

"I'm sorry..." I sat behind her and said softly, "I hope you will never understand, for you. It is really rare for me to have a friend like you. If you help me so much, I will also Do everything for you..."

The weak figure in front of her was shaking a little. When she turned her head, I saw those teary eyes staring at me affectionately...

I understand more and more that my own years and years are becoming more and more unable to bear those emotions that should not or should belong to me but are invisibly disrupted.When Kuang Li was saying goodbye to me downstairs, I couldn't help holding her hand. I just wanted to express my gratitude to her with the most sincere gesture.But at the moment when he ran and disappeared in front of me, I held her cold tear in my hand.

Compared with the middle-aged man smoking a stuffy cigarette sitting on the steps in front of his house, I still haven't understood that a person's injury is no longer just a person's injury.

"Uncle?" Cao Wenxi walked to the stairs and saw that sad and desperate figure.The sparks from the cigarette butts reflected a withered and sluggish face.

"Why are you sitting here, my brother still hasn't been found?"

"You go back to the house first..."

"It's cold here."

"It's okay, I just want to sit here."

"Really..." Cao Wenxi walked behind her father with helpless steps, "Yang Xing is here, don't you know, he is waiting for you at home."

"Oh……"

Cao Wenxi's footsteps disappeared after going upstairs and opening the door.In the corridor, only the middle-aged man was left sighing.

The smoke was almost burning to his fingertips. At this time, his face could be seen more clearly. The eye sockets that had become dark and thick due to exhaustion could not cover the flickering and flowing tears.

"I know you're here, Cheng'er!" He stared blankly at the front, but began to speak to himself, "You must be watching Uncle right here... right?"

Tears slid down my face quietly, standing in the dense bushes behind the green belt, my body began to tremble unconsciously.

"Uncle loves you, Cheng'er..." Although his voice was not loud, but for some reason I could hear it so clearly, every word and every sound was like a needle, piercing my heart.

"Come back... Cheng'er..." Lao Cao said, his voice became sobbing, "Uncle misses you so much..."

He buried his face, blurred by tears, between his knees.I can still hear the muffled sobbing.

At that moment, I really stood up.

As if all of a sudden, all the persistence and firmness became worthless.I just want to stand in front of him, no matter what kind of posture I take, stand in front of him, touch his face, wipe away the sorrow that should not belong to him, all of this is my fault , my sin, I want to tell him that I love him...

When he looked up and saw me, there was more than surprise in his eyes, and I'm pretty sure it wasn't just surprise.Instead, relieved, like a child's clear eyes, although still shining.

"You..." He wanted to say something, but he could only utter this word.

"I..." I also have a lot to say, but that's all I can do.

He saw the tears on my face, and he didn't have time to wipe away his old tears.

What was he waiting for? Time seemed to freeze, cold and heavy.

I walked over step by step.

"uncle!"

It's not something I yell, even though I've wanted to yell it a thousand times.But when another voice took its place, a fire went up in my head.

The head protruding from the window made me suddenly shudder, and inexplicable anger and hatred erupted from my whole body.

The fists were clenched tightly in my hands, and the tears were dried in an instant.I never thought that at that moment, when the teeth at the corners of my mouth were clenched tightly, I would actually show an unprecedented strange smile...

Yang Xing, I finally met you!

"This is...?" Sitting on the sofa, in that familiar house, he was asked.

"Hello, it's the first time we meet. I am the assistant to the dean of the Military Medical University." This may be the only identity I can use to perfunctory, "I am a friend of Director Cao!" I smiled and stood up and shook hands with Yang Xing, Don't ask me why, because I'm not me anymore. !